— H O O R —
“How are you now?” I ask her as soon as I reach her room. Parul, my friend, lives in her room though there's nobody to take care of her. Along with my dad, I take care of her because she is also suffering.
I have no problem taking care of two people at a time but who wants to see their loved ones suffering from diseases that can be proven fatal in later stages of life?
They say the human mind is prone to think negatively first. And the same is with me, of course, because Parul’s health only deteriorated. My dad could not walk after an accident at his workplace and I was broken when I found he could not walk anymore.
I have seen him struggling and regretting on his own that all the burden was automatically on my shoulders. I could not save him at that time but I can save my friend from getting sicker than she already is.
Parul is lying in bed. She looks up at me as soon as she hears my voice. I first came to check on her because I knew Dad would be sleeping in his room at this time. He usually takes naps after taking medicines. Though drugs heal, we can't ignore they make us sleepy and weary too.
Instead of answering me, Parul tries to sit up, which I do not find adorable at all. I do not understand why she takes everything so lightly?!
“Hey, I asked you how you are. I didn’t ask you to get up.” I glare at her.
She sighs. “I’m good,” she tells me. Her voice is hoarse and weary.
“I see. Have you taken the medicine?” I ask another question, coming to her and taking a seat near her covered-in-a-blanket legs.
She gives me an obedient nod and I smile at her. Our small conversation began and we laughed and talked heartily. She asks me about my day and I tell her everything. Even about that feral monkey that turned out to be my customer.
Parul laughed when I started ranting about him, about his arrogant personality and our little quarrel. Parul seemed to find it funny. Of course, anyone would when they know how we quarreled but if they stand in my place, they would realize how annoying that man was!
After my rant was over, Parul suggested that we visit a park so I can watch the sunset and enjoy the moment. I know she wanted to visit a park so she could lessen my anger. And I agreed on that.
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Parul has been ill for a few days. And because of the illness, she was not able to go to work and she had to lie on the bed due to a fever throughout the day. So it was a good idea to come out to a park and see nature.
It gives peace to see the sun setting. The heart feels relaxed and in the summer, the wind blowing in the evening cools the skin of the body. Maybe that will be enough to make Parul feel good. She must have been bored while lying in bed all day.
After reaching the park, I made her sit on one of the benches in the park, in front of which the sun was setting.
“Beautiful…” She mumbled, looking in the front.
“Yeah, so much.” I smiled, looking down at her. I sat next to her and watched the sun.
“Sir asked something about me?” She asked me, gaining my attention.
“Yes. He asked about your health. He wants you to get well soon and come back to work.”
“So he must’ve bothered you for the delivery work.”
“I’m handling it like an expert.”
She looks at me. I arch my brow, asking her indirectly what she found worthy looking at my exhausted face.
“Thanks,” she said, smiling.
“For what?” I tilted my head, asking her.
“For being this good and selfless.” She shrugged her shoulders. I smiled and looked back at the sun. No, I am not selfless here. I, like crazy, want to see my beloved doing fine and living healthily, so if it takes my sleep and rests to let them rest and gain energy back, I am going to do it without a second question.
We sat there like this for some time. Dad might be seeing the same thing from the window of his room. I know he does it regularly. After that accident, he stopped leaving his room. He rarely came out. Mostly for check-ups.
After sitting for a while, a child came running to us whose ball had stopped near our bench.
He bent down and picked up the ball and then an old man also came after him who was gasping for air.
“Ryan! Run slowly!” The old man said to him, bending down and holding his knees.
“What Grandpa! Who runs this slow?” He complained, looking up at the man.
“For me, Ryan?” He requested, but the kid shook his head frantically and started running.
“Ryan! Carefully! You will fall!” The man yelled behind him and then started taking deep breaths. I sighed and looked at Parul, who was smiling.
“Now I have to run after him again.” I heard him muttering. Kids are so annoying, no? Can't they see how hard it is for an old man to run without any trouble?
But whom am I blaming? I was also like that in my childhood.
“But you should sit back and relax.” My words got his attention and he looked over at me. For a moment, he kept looking at me and suddenly his lips parted as if he was surprised.
I look at him with confusion. I doubt if I am ugly. Yeah, as I am a woman who knows her worth, I know I have a pretty face crafted by the almighty.
“Grandpaa!” Both of us look in the direction from where the kid’s voice came. I gasp when I find him lying on the ground, on his stomach and he is crying.
Unable to hold myself, I got up and asked the man to wait because I could see he was not in some condition to run. He agreed with it and I rushed to the kid.
Reaching the child, I picked him up hurriedly and checked his wound. It was not a great injury, just his knee was chipped.
“Hey relax, it's okay,” I cooed him, wiping his tears away from those chubby cheeks. They were soft and pink as I felt the touch.
“It’s hurting.” He looked down at his knee.
“Well yeah, you should’ve listened to your grandfather but you kept on running.” I know I sounded rude but scolding kids is not something bad.
I take a neat handkerchief from the pocket of my jeans and wrap it around his wound so it does not come in contact with the dirt around.
“Yeah, I should’ve,” he murmured in an English accent, voice cracking once again. The boy even seemed half-Indian.
“C’mon, don’t start crying again. You’re strong, aren’t you?”
He bobbed his head, a pout on his lips. He is so cute that I want to kiss his chubby cheeks.
"Hm, good." I hold his hand and then make him stand. I know he should not walk before treating the wound nicely.
“Would you mind if I pick you up?” I ask him, looking down.
“Rather I should ask, would you mind if I ask you to pick me up?” The kid asks innocently and I must say this kid has got some good manners and a way of asking.
“Well, there’s no problem at all. Come,” saying that, I pick him up and walk towards the man.
“What happened, is he okay?”
“Nothing much, he just got his knee scrapped.” I shrugged my shoulders, looking at the kid over my shoulder, who was holding my shoulders tightly.
“Oh no… how will you go home now, sir?” The old man asked the little boy sarcastically.
“I’m sorry, grandpa!” He cried out and quickly hid his face in the crook of my neck. Oh god, such cute actions of kids melt my heart.
The man giggled. “It’s good you learned something.” He then looked at me and muttered, “Thank you so much, child.”
“It’s okay, sir.” I shake my head.
“Ryan, come here now.” The man asked the kid but I could not ignore it. I looked at his knee and then at the man.
“Sir, I don’t think he should walk. We have to treat his wound first.”
“What if I pick him up?” He asked me. I sighed when I looked at the kid. His weight is normal for me but his weight can pressure the man’s knees.
“You shouldn’t even think about it, sir,” I told him honestly. He sighed, nodding.
“Then what should we do?” He murmured in confusion.
“Hoor, can you drop him at home?” Parul said, looking at the man, “If sir hasn’t any problem.”
“It’d be a great help then.” The man grinned.
“Okay, I’ve no problem.” I shrugged. “What about you? Will you reach home alone?” I ask her, arching my brow at her. I am not surprised to find more people to handle because it is my habit now — to take care of others.
“Of course, I’m not a little kid.” She got up from the bench and sighed.
“Good. Take care. I’ll cook something once I reach home, okay? And let Dad know everything.”
“Fine.” She smiled before leaving. I also started walking with the man.
“You must’ve known the way to our house that you have already come to, haven’t you?” He asks me suddenly.
I nod. “Yeah. And I didn't even realize before… that your house would be so near to our place.” I remember the path I took from the shop to here. That road was very long, but today seeing these two in the nearby park, I understood that their house is not far from our house.
He chuckled. “Nice to know that you haven't forgotten.”
“No one can forget after knowing you, Mr Mathews.” I smiled, gaining his attention. He smiles back.
“You’re a nice lady.” He sighed. “And I was wondering if you’d marry my son?”
I stop walking the moment I hear him. What did he just say all of a sudden? Did I mishear him? I looked at him in disbelief. The expression on my face might look comical but I can't help it.
As if he just realized what he said, he frantically shook his head, saying, “Oh, I was just overthinking about my son's life. Don't mind me,” he tried to ensure and I nodded, biting my bottom lip.
I could not help but sigh heavily in my head. Of course, which rich man would come to me with his son's wedding proposal? That seems absurd, nor do I want to get married already? I have a dream to achieve. I have so much to do. I can't get married and ruin everything for myself. I have not achieved a degree and studied so hard just to get married and put a full stop to my desires and wants in life.
“I hope you don't get me wrong but I always think about him.” Is his son that ugly that no girl is saying yes to him? But instead of passing any crude comment, I listen to the man silently. Old people tend to keep secrets buried in their hearts, waiting for someone to hear them out.
“He doesn't want to get married and is still adamant about living alone. Can you believe it? He thinks he doesn't need a partner in his life?”
I nod. He is right. “I understand, sir. The man wasn't made to live alone. God made Eve for Adam because he didn't find isolation good.” I speak without thinking twice because my knowledge is good and true.
His eyes gleam when he listens to me. “It's good to see you have that knowledge.” I nod my head with a grin. I am also glad to know the Bible.
“I hope he understands the same thing.”
“Of course, he will.”
“Would you mind telling him the same?”
Eh? Once again I find the situation awkward as I just pass him a weird smile. What did he mean again? The man beside me is jolly but sometimes very unexpected.
But to end the awkwardness, I swallow. “Sure. But I wonder if he'd want to hear me out. I mean, you're his father. He should listen to you. And I'm a stranger, so…” I think it is enough to give him that hint.
He chuckles gingerly. “He will.”
“How are you so sure?” I frown a little. But before I can get an answer, the destination arrives and I let the kid stand alone with his grandfather.
— H O O R —°°°One more week of my life has passed. Nothing new happened in it, nor did I want any new surprises. I was fine with the way my life was going, except for the day when I would be able to start earning a decent income and get my father treated. Every morning I would prepare breakfast and lunch for Papa and Parul. I do my breakfast with him and secure the lunch before getting ready and leaving for The Cooper's Corner. There my work would be only till 3 in the afternoon after which I would leave to take up my other job. For the time being, I found a job in a bookstore because my salary coming from only one job was not so enough that I would depend on that single job. After that, I would leave for home in the evening and inquire about the well-being of Parul and Papa. They both always tell me that they are all right but I know they lie to me. Seeing the worry and tiredness on my face, they don't want to bother me more, so they give me false consolation, but I am not so s
— Z A H I R —°°°A week has passed since the day of celebrating happiness but my father's mood has changed completely. I have been noticing for a week that he does not talk to anyone well. His smile, which was inevitable, is no longer found on his lips. He even stopped joking every now and then. Now he does not insult me in front of everyone. How did this change all of a sudden? This change is strange. Sometimes he does not even listen carefully to things. It seems every moment, he is just thinking about something. There is something that is bothering him. And I did not like this change at all. I hate every change that causes my father’s smile to become rare. That is why today I am going to him with the intention of getting to know the reason. I want to ask him what has been bothering him for the last week. Taking a deep breath, I knock on his door. “Come in.” The voice reaches my ears. I push the door open, peeking inside. My dad is sitting on his chair, wearing specs, and he
— H O O R — °°° Knock knock! Hearing the sound, I looked towards the door. I sighed and walked to open the door. Who would have come to Parul's door on such a late night? Yeah, Parul's door because I am here to have a chat with her. I have completed my study hours and was not even sleepy so thought of accompanying Parul. She lives alone. “Who would want to meet you at this time, hm?” I ask Parul who is sitting across from me. Her back leans against the headboard and her eyes get the mischievous glint in my eyes for which she gasps in response. I giggle, seeing her reaction. “I don't know, seriously!” She muttered and I shook my head. I get up from the place and go to open the door for the person. My eyes widen when I look at the person after I open the door. He was the least expected person at our door. “You?” I frown deeply, looking at his handsome face. “Yeah, me. Actually, I wanted to talk with you. Would you mind if I take some of your time?” He asks me gently and I doub
— H O O R —°°°I did not know how the next month passed. The night of Zahir's proposal I was able to easily forget because I was not impressed by his proposal. I was not even affected a bit by it. Two days later that night he came to see me again and he also gave me his contact, saying that if I change my mind, I can tell him. Well, nothing like that is going to happen, yet with some respect, I accepted his number. Nothing affected me at that time. Why would such a strange thing affect me? But that night after Zahir left, Parul asked me a lot of questions. She did not like that I turned down the proposal of marriage because even for a moment she can think that marriage without love exists. I also believe that arranged marriages exist, but love is there for everyone in life. Cannot love happen after marriage? Sure it is possible, but a great personality like Zahir refused to even believe it. But I do not want to give many judgments about that man. Every person has his own different
— Z A H I R — When I got a sudden call from Hoor and came to know that Parul, her friend's health had deteriorated, my suspicions turned into convictions. I had doubts about Parul's health for the past few days. She was visibly ill and for the last four days, her cough had made her life miserable. And I was paying attention to all these things ever since I proposed to Hoor. The day she denied me, I did not give up on her. It had become a habit for me to keep an eye on her all the time because I wanted her under any circumstances and I am waiting for some such situation which I can control and get Hoor to do what I want her to do.By the way, I never twisted the situation to such an extent that I could take advantage of Hoor's bad condition, but here I was going to benefit without any hard work. My dad never questioned me after the night I confessed to him I will propose to Hoor, and it was a chance for me to indulge in my work and give my best. I could not ignore my company for som
— H O O R —°°°"A contract. Our marriage contract. And before getting married, I want you to read every condition and term so that later you don't have to ask any questions." I was surprised to hear this. This is literally surprising. Contract marriage? What will he get by turning the marriage into an agreement? And how did this contract suddenly come in the middle? Till that night there was only a marriage proposal with which Zahir had come to me, then why all of a sudden this contact?"Contract? Suddenly? Why?" There were only a few words that I could use. I was so surprised that I had even forgotten how to use the words. "Indeed, Hoor, this marriage was arranged from the very beginning with a compromise. I came to you only with this contract—," "But you didn't tell me anything about the contract that night." I did not give him time to complete himself till it was over and put my question first. "I would have told you about the contract when you would have agreed to the marriag
— H O O R — °°°By 6 o’clock in the morning, Parul had also been released. When she regained consciousness, she cried a lot. She repeatedly apologized to me that she should not have hidden anything from me. But now there was nothing to be gained by remembering the past. Our today was much better. Parul’s health was better now. And what else I needed? Doctors prescribed some medicines for Parul. By giving medicines from time to time, Parul’s condition could have improved completely. And Zahir also spent all this. When we got ready to leave the house in the morning, Zahir took us home too. He did not talk on the way but Parul wondered why Zahir was with us. She asked me whether Zahir gave the money for her treatment, then I told her that Zahir paid the full amount for her treatment. She wondered why I took Zahir’s help but the very next moment she understood everything. She realized that I was definitely ready for marriage. I could not help but sigh. Her mind is sharp enough to pu
— Z A H I R —Another month had passed and today the results of Hoor’s exams were about to come. I knew this and I was also happy that today she will get the result, but my family was happier than me. Perhaps even more curious than Hoor would be today! Because when I got ready and went downstairs for breakfast, my family started demanding from me that I should also celebrate the announcement of the result along with Hoor. What have they understood about me? A crazy? “What type of idea is that? It’s her result, so she should celebrate, not me.” I rolled my eyes, taking the toast and stuffing it into my mouth. “What? She’s your soon-to-be wife, Zahir. Her happiness is your happiness.” Dad gained my attention and I eventually stopped chewing. What did he just say? “Wow, bro! What a line! I loved it.” I looked at my uncle who praised my dad. Dad smirked and bowed his head slightly, uttering, “Thank you, thank you.” I sighed. Once again drama. I continued eating. “Yes, Zahir, Dad is
— Z A H I R —. . .It's been days since Hoor and I returned home after attending our relative's wedding. It was awesome, by her side, and on the other hand, I was nearly bored. Only nights were the most beautiful to me because we prayed together and spent some time together. I could not even imagine using the guest's room bed for making love with my wife so I restrained myself. However, it turned out to be a little harder when she kept throwing glances at me and getting ready for the functions. I had no other way than to look at her and praise her. I wanted to do more. After we returned, the first thing I did after taking a shower was to grab her in my arms and hug her like my life depended on it. She giggled, asking me about what changed in ms all of a sudden but I had nothing to answer her. I only breathed at that moment, loving her warmth and the softness of her chest against my head. That's my haven. That night we made love again and the more I explored her, the more needy
— Z A H I R —. . .I rejected it and I regret it now. It has been days since she confessed her feelings to me and I, like a bastard, rejected those feelings. Like every time, I only thought of responsibilities and all, not wishing to give our relationship a chance but after she started avoiding me, I had no other way than to realize my mistake. Hoor does not know, or maybe she is well aware of it that she even takes advantage of it that her ignorance brings me to my knees before her. I have felt it. Hoor makes me feel like I have admitted it to myself. Hoor has become a piece of mine, without whom, I am not whole. I am incomplete without her. I feel restless when she is away from me. When her eyes are not on me, I crave even one look at her. I know I can't live without her and she made me see it in those days. I thought maybe it was because we were getting used to each other so I decided to keep myself away from her. However, my own decision made me feel restless in my heart.
— H O O R —. . .He picks up the call while I sit, anticipating what is going to happen next. I fear Zahir's answer to Mr Hunt. I know he is a nice man but Zahir, in anger, says harsh things. I do not want him to start a fight with Mr Hunt. He puts the call on speaker and looks at me. His eyes linger over my face and solely catch my eyes. I swallow when I hear Mr Hunt's voice. “Hoor?” He asks, and I know I have to keep my mouth shut. “Hoor is with me. And stop calling her, okay?” Okay... It was not as gruff as I expected. I literally expected him to grab Mr Hunt's collar right pushing his hand into the screen of the phone and venting out all the frustration of the past night but he controlled it. Phew!“Uh...”“Yeah,” he breathes and disconnects the lines, tossing away my phone. My eyes widen. “Zahir, it's my phone! Have mercy on it!” I utter, trying to reach for my phone when he grabs my wrist and pulls me to him. I gasp, swallowing as I look at his face. I am glad the sheet
— H O O R —. . .“What's your problem, huh? Why are you behaving like a beast?” I utter, fuming with anger after whatever has happened. He has done this all! His jaw clenches but he does not give me a single look. I see his grip becoming lethal around the steering wheel as he drives the car smoothly. “Ask yourself! What's your problem, Hoor?” He asks instead, giving me a sharp glance over his shoulder. I purse my lips, trying not to say any bad words that will make me regret it later. “I'm totally fine. It's you alone who created a drama there. I don't understand why are you behaving like that!” I do not care if I am making it even more serious. I need answers. The atmosphere inside the car seems to change as it drops. He is trying hard to control his anger but I know he is dangerous when angry. However, I am not afraid to see his limits. Have seen his sides before and no doubt he is going to be like that again; harsh and brutal with words. “Behaving like what? A beast?” He tau
— H O O R —. . .Finding Mr Hunt at the party gave me some kind of relief. As Zahir too knows him, we got interacted and there I got to meet the girl with him. He introduced me to her and she felt pleasant. His choice is very good. However, on the other side, I could see Zahir glaring at us non-stop. It irked me. Now what does he want? I ignored that look. Mr Hunt too noticed how Zahir was keeping a poker face and answering him gruffly every time. When he was called suddenly by some of his partners, it was only Mr Hunt and me left alone. The woman he took with him also left to use the washroom. “Why is he behaving like that?” He asks me in a mutter, confused as he looks at me. My eyes remain on Zahir who is busy holding a conversation with an official man. There are two more with him, keeping him occupied. I stare at him silently, not answering Mr. Hunt for a moment being. I do not feel like doing it or maybe I am too lost admiring my husband among them. He is handsome, after
— H O O R —. . .“May I come in, ma'am?” I know what he is taking with him, and it is only for me to handle. I sigh as I look up from the screen that troubles my eyes. My gaze lands upon a man standing at the door and I am not sure how many times I have seen him today with towers of files in his arms. Only for me!“Of course,” I have to pass him a fake smile.He comes in and sets the tower beside other files. Wow. Just look at my room. How amazing it looks filled with files and files alone. And whose hand is all in this? Surely, my husband's! Because he does not want me to meet Mr Hunt anymore and he can't even confront me and order me around, so he is using such methods to keep me here. Not only that but he is keeping me with himself in meetings. All the meetings which were to be held in the next month and whatever was arranged by me, he thought of completing them all in this month itself. He made me make some changes in the schedule and everywhere he carried me. All this just
— H O O R —. . .“So tell me...” He begins nervously, running a hand through his hair as he looks at me. I wait for him. Maybe he is going to take eternity. Who knows? He is always like that around me; shy and all. Even now he is unable to look me in the eyes. I too do not have any obsession with it. To me, Zahir's eyes are everything. Keeping the straw in my mouth as I enjoy my Faluda ice cream, I steal a glance at his already-flushed face. Now what does he see? I roll my eyes back to the setting sun and realize that I have spent more time with him. I do not worry about my work. I know I will complete the pending tasks but I needed to refresh my mind which he helped me having. He is an amazing friend, to be honest. After how Zahir spoiled my mood with that interrogation, he called me and I came out to meet him. He took me to places around and bought me ice cream. Walk with him was nice as he kept cracking silly jokes. I was even laughing. Yeah, I like such stupid jokes. He wa
— H O O R —. . .Three days have passed. Life is going on as before. The only difference is that whatever happened between Zahir and me seems like a dream. Everything disappeared as soon as I opened my eyes.Work and prayer help me to forget all this every moment, but I cannot use them every moment to escape from the past. Because of whatever happened that night, I still feel as if there are wounds in my heart that have not healed yet. But I know that time will change everything and all wounds will heal. God will do it. Right now I am just waiting for these days to pass. Now that I know that our relationship is not going to improve, I do not want to stay here any longer.Another time my phone rings. It is Mr Hunt. I have been ignoring his calls since this morning but he does not seem to give up. I am not in the mood, simple. I do not want to talk to him but I know I have to. I will be responsible for many things then. Clenching my jaw, I pick up the call and I remove my gaze from
— H O O R —. . .“Are you out of your mind, Hoor?” He says, breaking all my expectations just in a second. I stare at him dumbfounded, my heart sinking deeper. My eyes do not flutter as they are set on him but he has my hands clammy in anticipation. I muster up the courage to ask, “Wh-What do you mean, Zahir?” My tone is confused. Still. I am still expecting him to give me an explanation so it can relieve the burn in my chest. “It's simple, Hoor!” He utters, getting up as he releases a deep sigh. His arm raises and he runs a hand through his hair. Once again as he shows he is frustrated. I narrow my eyes at him, staring at his face as he steps away, continuing, “It's simple that I don't wanna be in a relationship. And haven't I told you that already?” The next he turns around, eyes boring into mine. They hold frustration and anger, resembling a darker and deeper shade of ocean. His jaw clenches as he adds, “I made it clear already!”He did but I started having feelings for him.