[IF IT IS LOVE, I AM WILLING TO FORGET AND FEED ON THIS FOREIGN, SWEET EMOTION. SO STRANGE BUT LET ME LINGER FOR A MOMENT]Cars whisked past David, rudely making his heart tremble deeper into an abyss of fear that strangled him until he could not breathe. Shameless! Fear traveled through his veins, mercilessly poisoning them. David gritted his teeth and looked up in a silent prayer, his hands shuddering as if they had just come out of ice. His eyelids were trembling as the wind mischievously bit onto his skin, leaving its kisses everywhere, and making him shudder. He could feel his legs working, each was numb but of course, it was not because of the cold. The boy was simply terrified, and his heart ensured to remind him of this, every second he told himself that everything was ‘okay’. He paced back and forth on the pavement while he permitted his brain to be cluttered by thoughts and a series of unending questions that lacked answers. His eyes impatiently followed the cars whisk pas
[THIS PLACE IS NOT MY HOME!]The rosy sun spread its wings that stretched far in the sky, allowing its beams stealthily fall onto the boy’s figure but unfortunately his skin remained cold and pale. “My…my heart aches so much…why? I thought…I won over it!” Travis silently said to himself while his heart violently hit against the unsteady walls of his chest. His eyes glistened with tears, but never did they make an escape for it, not that they promised they wouldn’t. His eyes lazily fell onto David’s figure and watched him as he spoke; surprisingly, he could not understand the words flowing out of his lips. He frowned and did not realize that his lips and the back of his throat were dry. “Travis, are you okay?” In a whisper, David called out to him, but Travis’s ears were concentrated on only one sound, and that was his unruly heart that was hissing loudly in the depths of his ears. Every inch of his body was shivering like a signal flame held up high. His forehead frowned deeply as b
{WARNING! HOMOPHOB*C SLURS AND CHILD ABUSE WHICH I DON’T CONDONE & SUPPORT. DEAR READER, PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION.} “”There was nothing but the poisonous, belittling waves of silence butchering through his heart _ feeding on it as if it were a delicacy. He wanted to take a step back, he wanted to run away, he wished for the ground to open up so he could bury himself and never come out but…that was not possible, and he knew it very well. He closed his eyes and begged his ears to pretend like they did not hear the words that were now stuck in his brain. DANGEROUS — The words were so dangerous that they made his heart feel like retiring this instant. Every letter was stuck at the base of his ears. He remembered the sharp sound that came with every word and the murderous melody that flew out of her lips as she expressed every letter as if her life depended on it. “Same-sex, don’t even think about it. He knows I am against it!” The phrase made a mischievous jump in the back of his hea
[IT’S NOT OVER, I WILL FIGHT BUT WILL YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE?”]“I will say it…!” Travis whispered while he closed his eyes, smiling dreamily as he leaned his head back on the wall. He breathed smoothly — not rushing himself as if this was the last time he’d breathe. His slim fingers intertwined with each other, hiding all the sweat that had been preventing him from touching anything. There, he sat on the bench and waited for David who had asked him to wait outside, because he wanted to speak with his mother. “I will say it!” Travis said once again, this time opening his eyes. He exhaled and slouched as he buried his head in his thoughts — not very negative. “I know that it is David that I love, and I will tell him!” The boy silently giggled. The door to Mrs Chwe’s ward opened, disclosing David who slowly walked out, his lips trying so hard to curl into a smile. “You, okay?” Travis asked as soon as he rose to his feet and with a nod, David replied. There was a wave of silence that li
[CHAINS AROUND MY NECK; DELIVER ME FROM HELL]The wind firmly cried as David stood there, his eyes filled with burning fear while he stared at the gigantic house that was covered by pulsating, crimson-red lights — each blinking as if warning him to go back where he came from and if he were to enter, he’d not come out alive. “RUN!” A sonorous voice in the chambers of his head whispered but he could not move an inch of his body. He stood still as he continuously exhaled deeply. His hands were shuddering deep in his pockets — he was now counting past 51. “RUN!” The same voice advised but once again, David dared not to move — he felt his hands heavy and could not lift any of them. He did want to turn around and leave, and never come back but the longer he looked at the lights blinking in his direction, the sweeter the spell became as it travelled through his head and to the back of his skull. He could take a step back and walk away but he knew the consequences that would come with tha
A clap of thunder rumbled immediately when his now veiny eyes collided with those harvested by treachery — poison and cold darkness. David felt his chest tightening and he could not breathe. The papers in his hands trembled, some falling on the floor with a silenced, pitiful whine. “This…!” “Your new job!”Mr M intruded on David who could not release words from his quivering, dry mouth. The man’s voice rumbled throughout the dining room, making David’s muscles tighten with fear — afraid to even land his eyes on the one speaking. “New job? W-what…why are Travis’s…pictures…?”David calculated and investigated quietly, his trembling voice dropping into a whisper. He was paralyzed to the spot and could not move his body — he felt cold air bite into his chest, making it hard for him to breathe. His tear-filled eyes darted around, landing on anything possible — from his shaking hands to Mr Sok whose face showed no emotions. Confused, David felt his world start to shake — he felt like he
MEMORIES: BITTER AND SWEET! "Only six years…that's what we agreed on! Six years! Or were they too much for you to handle?" A husky, booming voice that, belonging to Travis reverberated across the spacious room with a query that sent chills to paste themselves onto the figure of a man who was standing five minutes away from him. "You failed to keep your promise…!" Travis blurted with a voice that was cracking up with emotions. He aired the words with great difficulty whilst his dewy eyes carefully watched the face of the man in front of him harden with coldness. "What did I do to receive this kind of treatment from you? Does it not matter how long I waited?" Travis questioned in a brittle voice as soon as he took timid steps towards the man's direction— a man who did not dare to soften his face, rather he put on a face that lacked emotions and warmness. Slowly but surely, the man turned his features, together with his figure away from the saddened Travis that was already weeping.
Who are you? [8 January 2018]Number of days drifted off in just a blink of an eye since the terrible incident that evidently made Travis to welcome a new year with a heart that was sunk by a load of gloomy emotions. After almost two years, he found himself sitting behind a school desk, where a bunch of books were looking at him with nothing but mockery. School— according to him, it was a place that was going to make his life a living hell. He knew that it did not matter how hard he had to rough it in— eventually, he'd have to live a lie and entangle himself to the outside world— which was something he was against. He knew that he had a choice to get up and walk away but his 'cruel' heart had always reminded him, on many occasions, that he had once imprinted a promise into his grandmother's 'weak' heart— a promise he dared not to break. It was the second Monday of 2018 and the morning was not different from the other mornings. Leaning his head on the palm of his hand, Travis's e