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"I am so drained." I confided in my best friend, Sarah Hopkins. "I just can't handle all this nonsense anymore, Sarah."
"What's up, Liv?" She replied, "Your stupid Dad dumped more work on you again? Or did your Mom want you to meet her socialite friends to show off her perfect daughter?"
I fidgeted with my phone, balancing it between my ear and shoulder as I worked on the day's never-ending report. "Neither, though I think those might have been better. It's my and Jack's six-month anniversary today and they are throwing a huge useless party!"
"Oh yeah, I got the invite a month ago." She sighed. I could hear her typing away on her computer as well. "But I thought you said you wanted to keep it low-key?"
"I would have loved that." I slumped in my chair, taking a break from all the typing. "Jack has been doing all these really sweet tiny gestures the past five months. But the past month, he has been insanely busy and closed off so I figured it was my chance to do something nice for him for once. I had this midnight picnic at the private beach property planned out but my parents pushed for this ostensible party instead."
"And Jack agreed to it?" Sarah already knew the answer to that question. Jack gave great emphasis on harmony in the family so he was always making sure that my parents and his mother were content, happy and taken care of.
My husband was such a considerate loving man, even though he seemed off and distant the past month - well, he did have a merger and was ridiculously busy so I could not blame him.
But he always made me feel seen and heard and was my anchor in this hellish corporate world that my parents had raised me in.
I hummed as I opened a message from my mother on my laptop.
CASSANDRA SMITH: Pumpkin, why didn't you go for the fitting yesterday?
I let out a sigh. I was not saying that the life of a housewife slash socialite was easy. But I wanted to point out that it was easier than that of the senior sales manager of Beauty Smith, an extensive brand of beauty products spanning across North America and Europe.
I quickly typed down a reply.
OLIVIA SMITH: Don't they already have my measurements? I am sure Ursula won't get it wrong.
"My mother thinks I have all the time in the world. I will see you at the party?" I asked as I went back to the spreadsheet I was analyzing.
"I will try to make it." Sarah sounded like she would rather be anywhere else but there, which was not surprising because my parents' circle consisted of some of the shallowest bunch of people on this planet. "But no promises."
"Okay. See ya." I smiled as I cut the call knowing very well that Sarah was going to be there. She was always there for me without exceptions and I was there for her.
I sighed as I checked my message bar for any replies from my husband. Jack had not been picking up calls or responding to texts since he left the apartment in the morning.
My eyes darted to my mother's name where I could see her typing for the past five minutes. I rolled my eyes. I could tell she was really mad at me even though she was trying to rein in her temper since today was a good day.
I sighed again.
I wouldn't have cared about anything else if only Jack had replied to my messages.
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"You look fabulous!" My Mom gushed as she twirled her finger, gesturing me to twirl for her.
I rolled my eyes as I spun a three-sixty on my heels. "Happy?"
"Very." She clapped. "Wait till Jack sees you in this, I am sure to have a grandchild in nine months!"
"Mom!" My cheeks were immediately on fire at her insinuation. "Jack and I have not discussed kids yet. But I imagine he too would want to push it for a few years until we settle into our careers."
"You both and your careers!" Mom rolled her eyes as if we weren't two of the more successful people out there.
There was suddenly an explosion of chatter.
The two of us looked around to see that everyone was looking between their phones and us. Me.
"What's going on?" I asked my mother even though I knew she had no idea.
Someone grabbed me by my arm and I turned around, my eyes wide with shock.
It was Sarah.
Her face was grim.
My heart dropped to my stomach. "What's wrong?"
Dread filled me up to my throat, bile rising with it. "Jack? It's Jack, isn't it? Is he okay? Tell me he is okay!"
"Oh, he won't be once I get my hands on him." Sarah's voice morphed into one that of utmost fury.
Her reaction did nothing to curb my uneasiness.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
Sarah took my hand as my Mom moved away to her assistant's side. My best friend dragged me away from the eyes of the huge mass, half of whom I was barely acquainted with, and into one of the ground floor guest rooms of my parents' mansion.
"I need you to stay strong, okay?" She said in a rush as she pulled out her phone from her dress pocket.
"Huh?"
She had opened something on her phone but she sighed, her shoulders slumped as she looked up at me, her eyes moist.
"What's wrong? What's wrong with Jack?"
Sarah threw her arms around me and hugged me tighter than she ever had.
"What's wrong?" My voice was not above a whisper.
"I am so sorry, baby!"
She rarely called me baby. She only did when she or I felt extremes of emotions.
Was my Jack dead?
No, he was not.
She wouldn't have been furious at him if that was the case.
Did he...
"He cheated on you, baby."
I felt my knees give away and the only thing that was keeping me on my feet was the protective hold of my best friend on me.
"You sure?"
I knew she was sure. This was Sarah Hopkins. She would not say something so cruel to me without making sure it was indeed my reality.
I felt her nod against my shoulder as I felt tears trickle down my face. "With some bitch named Elena. It's all over the internet."
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_____________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I stared at the pap photos and videos of my husband hugging and kissing another woman. The last video was of today when they were caught walking out of a hotel hand in hand - the same hotel we had spent our first night as a married couple because we didn't have the time in our busy schedule for a honeymoon.Apparently, the husband who didn't have time to take a Sunday off from work had the time to take another woman."What have you done?" My Mom screamed. "How could you not know? How could you let this go on for so long?"Jack had been with this woman even before our wedding.Then why the hell had he even married me?I dialled his number one more time. Though all the proof that I needed was right in front of me, I was still willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. I was willing to give him a chance at an explanation.My heart ached. Like it was about to explode inside my ribs.I loved him just too much.But I knew this pain could incre
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.5 years later…."Kelsey Jennifer Smith, you really need to get up now or you will be late!" I walked into my baby's room, a spatula in hand to find that my baby girl who had to leave for kindergarten in half an hour was still in bed and with the blanket over her head."I don't want to go to school!" She whined from under her space-themed blanket.I sat down on the edge of the bed and placed my hand on where I saw the bump of her head. "And why is that, monkey?" I asked her, lighting tapping on what I assumed to be her forehead.Kelsey threw the blanket off her face and pouted. "I will go to school if you give me something that I am going to ask you!"Oh boy. This was never fun.My baby girl, no matter how much I hated to admit it, was a product where the sperm won the gene battle. My genes didn't even try. Except for hair color and face shape.So she was stubborn as an ox, like her biological father.And she always got what she wanted, l
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I took a deep breath and steeled myself. I could do this.But did I want to do this?He would leave if he thought I was not here, right?What did he want from me?I swiped at my cheeks and took another deep breath. I had to be strong.I unlocked the door and pulled it open.Jackson stood there, looking as handsome as ever, but his eyes were filled with something unreadable. Regret? Pity? I couldn't tell. I could never tell."Liv." He said, his voice thick.I raised a brow. Liv? LIV?Jackson's gaze searched my face, looking for something.I kept my face a mask. "What do you want, Jackson?"He stepped closer, and the scent of his cologne hit me like a tidal wave of memories. "Can I come in?""Umm... No." I said blankly.Jackson's eyebrows shot up in surprise. "Liv, I need to talk to you."I smiled at him."I don't want to listen to a word you say." I shot back.Jackson looked taken aback, his eyes widening for a moment before he regained hi
_____________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~."Mommy, Mommy!" My angel ran towards me. "I told all my friends you will get me a Daddy for Christmas!"I mentally face-palmed.Why did I think it was a good idea?I smiled at her nevertheless. "Did you, now?""Yes!" She fell into my arms and I picked her up."Maybe you should have kept it as a surprise."What was the use of telling her that now?My darling thought for a moment. "Oh, I should have!"I patted her head as I walked to the car. "That's okay. No need to fret over it now.""Okay. Mommy, will you get me ice cream today?" She asked as I buckled her into her car seat."Hmm..." I pretended to think about it. This was my chance. "Do you want ice cream now or Daddy in two weeks? You can only choose one."I waited for Kelsey to choose the former. Come on, it was such an easy choice. Who would choose Daddy over ice cream?"Daddy!" She threw her hands up in the air.Apparently, my daughter would choose Daddy over ice cream.Sigh.I was ho
________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I stopped abruptly only to almost fall over when Jackson bumped into me. He threw his arms forward and around me, exactly around my breasts."They are bigger than I remember." I heard him mutter.I shrugged him off and whipped around to glare at him. "Excuse me?""What?" He shrugged as if it was entirely normal for an asshole to grope his ex."Keep your hands off of me!" I gritted out."You would have fallen and broke your nose if I hadn't." He said as he touched his own swollen nose."My nose, my business. Stay out of it." I stomped my foot. I knew it looked childish but I really did not have the energy to take this up with him like a proper adult. It was taxing to have a dynamo for a daughter. Besides, I had had a fairly taxing day otherwise as well.He opened his mouth like a fish, as if he wanted to say something. But he was smart enough to think that it was a bad idea and close his mouth and simply nod.I squared my shoulders as I
_________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~."What Christmas present?" Jackson asked.Before I could handle the situation, Kelsey spoke up. "Mommy is getting me a Daddy for Christmas." She held up two fingers. "In two weeks."I kept staring at my daughter even when I felt Jackson's eyes boring into my skull."Hello, Mr. Stranger." Kelsey diverted his attention and I finally felt his laser gaze leave me. Why did it feel like we were back in the past and he had some crazy power over me again?This was not good. I needed to get my shit together.For the past five years, I was positive that I would not see or hear from Jackson ever again. Never did I harbor any hopes of him showing up at my door. I was desperate to move on, desperate to give my daughter only the best because she deserved nothing but the best.And I was convinced that I had indeed moved on.And I still do believe that.Except, I feel like he is still capable of manipulating me. Still capable of making me feel that I d
________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~ ."My name is Jackson Reign," Jackson told my sweet sweet girl as he knelt down in front of her. "I am your Mommy's... friend. What's your name?""I am Kelsey Smith." Kelsey gave him a toothed grin as she put forward her hand, which he took. "I am my Mommy's baby.""Yes, that you are." He grinned back.My heart felt like someone was squeezing it inside their fist. It was not a good feeling but the scene in front of me was something that I had dreamt of endless times even as I navigated to get over the heartache."So how long have you known Mommy?" Kelsey was ever the curious kid. She took Jackson's hand and tugged at him, a gesture which brought some very wide variety of emotions in Jackson's eyes. And I could not and did not want to decipher any of them. I was done trying to do that. Jackson and I were way past those days."Umm, five years?"I rolled my eyes as Kelsey guided Jackson to the couch and sat down next to him while I took the
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~ .I slammed the door in Jackson’s smug face as I felt anger like no other boiling inside me. How dare he charm my daughter and manipulate her into striking another meeting with her? And how dare I be so weak to let that happen? “Mommy…” Came my precious little troublemaker’s very familiar tone. “No, monkey, he is not going to be your Daddy.” I turned to her. “But he is so nice!” She clapped. “And handsome and strong! I bet all my friends will be super jealous if he becomes my Daddy.” I rubbed the back of my neck. “Is it really a Daddy you want or a show pony?” I asked. “Huh?” I took in a deep breath. I had to calm down. I could not make the mistake of taking out my anger for him and myself on my most precious baby. I sat down on my haunches in front of her. “You know what Daddy means?” “What Granna is to you?” “Yeah, good girl. Daddy is part of your family. Daddy is someone who you love and respect and look up to despite their
_____________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.“Thank you so much for having me for dinner, Li- Olivia.” I stared at the bouquet of yellow roses that Jackson Reign held outstretched.“Yellow roses mean eternal love.” That’s what he used to say before one fine day, he revealed that there was no love at all and everything I lived and cherished had been nothing but lies and betrayal. “I developed an allergy to roses after my pregnancy.” I gave him a saccharine smile and waved the flowers away. Jackson raised a brow, an amused smirk forming on his stupidly handsome face. “Is that so? Because I could swear that I saw a vase of roses on the dining table yesterday.” Oh well, it was worth a try. “Hyper-realistic faux flowers.” I shrugged. “Right.” He was not buying it for a second but I would be damned if I let him have it. “I am sure one or two of them were wilting.” “As I said, hyper-realistic.” I stared him down. He stared right back for a good minute before letting out a sigh and
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~ .I slammed the door in Jackson’s smug face as I felt anger like no other boiling inside me. How dare he charm my daughter and manipulate her into striking another meeting with her? And how dare I be so weak to let that happen? “Mommy…” Came my precious little troublemaker’s very familiar tone. “No, monkey, he is not going to be your Daddy.” I turned to her. “But he is so nice!” She clapped. “And handsome and strong! I bet all my friends will be super jealous if he becomes my Daddy.” I rubbed the back of my neck. “Is it really a Daddy you want or a show pony?” I asked. “Huh?” I took in a deep breath. I had to calm down. I could not make the mistake of taking out my anger for him and myself on my most precious baby. I sat down on my haunches in front of her. “You know what Daddy means?” “What Granna is to you?” “Yeah, good girl. Daddy is part of your family. Daddy is someone who you love and respect and look up to despite their
________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~ ."My name is Jackson Reign," Jackson told my sweet sweet girl as he knelt down in front of her. "I am your Mommy's... friend. What's your name?""I am Kelsey Smith." Kelsey gave him a toothed grin as she put forward her hand, which he took. "I am my Mommy's baby.""Yes, that you are." He grinned back.My heart felt like someone was squeezing it inside their fist. It was not a good feeling but the scene in front of me was something that I had dreamt of endless times even as I navigated to get over the heartache."So how long have you known Mommy?" Kelsey was ever the curious kid. She took Jackson's hand and tugged at him, a gesture which brought some very wide variety of emotions in Jackson's eyes. And I could not and did not want to decipher any of them. I was done trying to do that. Jackson and I were way past those days."Umm, five years?"I rolled my eyes as Kelsey guided Jackson to the couch and sat down next to him while I took the
_________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~."What Christmas present?" Jackson asked.Before I could handle the situation, Kelsey spoke up. "Mommy is getting me a Daddy for Christmas." She held up two fingers. "In two weeks."I kept staring at my daughter even when I felt Jackson's eyes boring into my skull."Hello, Mr. Stranger." Kelsey diverted his attention and I finally felt his laser gaze leave me. Why did it feel like we were back in the past and he had some crazy power over me again?This was not good. I needed to get my shit together.For the past five years, I was positive that I would not see or hear from Jackson ever again. Never did I harbor any hopes of him showing up at my door. I was desperate to move on, desperate to give my daughter only the best because she deserved nothing but the best.And I was convinced that I had indeed moved on.And I still do believe that.Except, I feel like he is still capable of manipulating me. Still capable of making me feel that I d
________________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I stopped abruptly only to almost fall over when Jackson bumped into me. He threw his arms forward and around me, exactly around my breasts."They are bigger than I remember." I heard him mutter.I shrugged him off and whipped around to glare at him. "Excuse me?""What?" He shrugged as if it was entirely normal for an asshole to grope his ex."Keep your hands off of me!" I gritted out."You would have fallen and broke your nose if I hadn't." He said as he touched his own swollen nose."My nose, my business. Stay out of it." I stomped my foot. I knew it looked childish but I really did not have the energy to take this up with him like a proper adult. It was taxing to have a dynamo for a daughter. Besides, I had had a fairly taxing day otherwise as well.He opened his mouth like a fish, as if he wanted to say something. But he was smart enough to think that it was a bad idea and close his mouth and simply nod.I squared my shoulders as I
_____________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~."Mommy, Mommy!" My angel ran towards me. "I told all my friends you will get me a Daddy for Christmas!"I mentally face-palmed.Why did I think it was a good idea?I smiled at her nevertheless. "Did you, now?""Yes!" She fell into my arms and I picked her up."Maybe you should have kept it as a surprise."What was the use of telling her that now?My darling thought for a moment. "Oh, I should have!"I patted her head as I walked to the car. "That's okay. No need to fret over it now.""Okay. Mommy, will you get me ice cream today?" She asked as I buckled her into her car seat."Hmm..." I pretended to think about it. This was my chance. "Do you want ice cream now or Daddy in two weeks? You can only choose one."I waited for Kelsey to choose the former. Come on, it was such an easy choice. Who would choose Daddy over ice cream?"Daddy!" She threw her hands up in the air.Apparently, my daughter would choose Daddy over ice cream.Sigh.I was ho
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I took a deep breath and steeled myself. I could do this.But did I want to do this?He would leave if he thought I was not here, right?What did he want from me?I swiped at my cheeks and took another deep breath. I had to be strong.I unlocked the door and pulled it open.Jackson stood there, looking as handsome as ever, but his eyes were filled with something unreadable. Regret? Pity? I couldn't tell. I could never tell."Liv." He said, his voice thick.I raised a brow. Liv? LIV?Jackson's gaze searched my face, looking for something.I kept my face a mask. "What do you want, Jackson?"He stepped closer, and the scent of his cologne hit me like a tidal wave of memories. "Can I come in?""Umm... No." I said blankly.Jackson's eyebrows shot up in surprise. "Liv, I need to talk to you."I smiled at him."I don't want to listen to a word you say." I shot back.Jackson looked taken aback, his eyes widening for a moment before he regained hi
_______________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.5 years later…."Kelsey Jennifer Smith, you really need to get up now or you will be late!" I walked into my baby's room, a spatula in hand to find that my baby girl who had to leave for kindergarten in half an hour was still in bed and with the blanket over her head."I don't want to go to school!" She whined from under her space-themed blanket.I sat down on the edge of the bed and placed my hand on where I saw the bump of her head. "And why is that, monkey?" I asked her, lighting tapping on what I assumed to be her forehead.Kelsey threw the blanket off her face and pouted. "I will go to school if you give me something that I am going to ask you!"Oh boy. This was never fun.My baby girl, no matter how much I hated to admit it, was a product where the sperm won the gene battle. My genes didn't even try. Except for hair color and face shape.So she was stubborn as an ox, like her biological father.And she always got what she wanted, l
_____________...~ ~ ~ O L I V I A ~ ~ ~.I stared at the pap photos and videos of my husband hugging and kissing another woman. The last video was of today when they were caught walking out of a hotel hand in hand - the same hotel we had spent our first night as a married couple because we didn't have the time in our busy schedule for a honeymoon.Apparently, the husband who didn't have time to take a Sunday off from work had the time to take another woman."What have you done?" My Mom screamed. "How could you not know? How could you let this go on for so long?"Jack had been with this woman even before our wedding.Then why the hell had he even married me?I dialled his number one more time. Though all the proof that I needed was right in front of me, I was still willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. I was willing to give him a chance at an explanation.My heart ached. Like it was about to explode inside my ribs.I loved him just too much.But I knew this pain could incre