Seduce him, entertain him. That's what people usually tell a married woman when she complains about being subjected to violence and abuse by her husband. My own family and friends said the same ignorant, victim-blaming bullshit.
Their words echo in my head like a constant reminder of how alone I truly am in this nightmare.
The brutal truth? I was repeatedly raped and assaulted under my own roof by my husband Richard. And the most ridiculous, infuriating thing I heard when I finally gathered the courage to turn to my family for help and support? "He'll change when he gets older! Boys will be boys!"
Their dismissive, enabling attitudes made me feel even more isolated and trapped. It was as if they were complicit in my abuse, choosing to protect a monster rather than their own daughter and sister.
Like, what about my wasted life? What about the trauma and suffering I've endured? The sleepless nights, the constant fear, the way my body tenses at the slightest sound?
At first, I believed I was the problem, so like any newlywed desperate to make her marriage work, I bent over backward trying to win his attention and affection, leaving my dignity and self-respect in the wind.
I tried dressing more provocatively, cooking his favorite meals, doing anything to keep him happy and interested in me. I even tolerated his rough handling in bed, convincing myself it was normal that I should be grateful for his desire.
But after months of walking on eggshells and being berated, smacked around, and forced into sex acts against my will, I realized the issue wasn't me at all - it was him.
It was his anger, his entitlement, his belief that, as a man, he had the right to dominate and abuse me however he pleased.
The realization was both liberating and terrifying. Liberating because I finally understood I wasn't to blame, but terrifying because I knew the truth wouldn't set me free from this prison of a marriage.
I tried keeping up appearances, tried not rocking the boat too much for fear of further explosive rages and punishments. But now, after six long months of this personal hell, I've reached the point of utter despair where I simply don't care what fresh humiliation or hurt he inflicts on me anymore.
My spirit is broken. I'm numb inside.
It's like I'm watching my life unfold from outside my body, like a passive observer of my own destruction.
"Where's my damn breakfast? I'm going to be late for work like this!" Richard's booming voice made me jump as he stomped into the kitchen, snapping me out of my trance.
My heart rate instantly spiked at my body's learned response to his presence.
I was standing at the kitchen counter, scrambling to make his omelets before he left for the office.
My hands shook slightly as I cracked the eggs, even spilling a bit of shell into the bowl.
"Give me a few minutes. I only have two arms." I answered in a measured tone without looking at him, trying to keep the tremor out of my voice.
I heard him exhale loudly in that annoying, patronizing way of his. The sound sent a chill down my soul in a pavlovian response to the pain that usually followed.
"Did you just answer me sarcastically, you little bitch?"
I glanced over my shoulder, unable to meet his eyes. Despite the deep frown etched across his face, he was insanely handsome - like God had taken away every last shred of human decency and morals and added them all to his striking looks instead.
It made me feel even more insignificant and small in comparison. How could someone so beautiful on the outside be so rotten within?
"And what do you want me to say, Richard?" I sighed, expressing my barely concealed annoyance at being rushed and belittled first thing in the morning...again.
A small part of me knew I was playing with fire, but I couldn't help it. The words slipped out before I could stop them.
"Today, we're moving to the new house, and instead of you accompanying me to supervise the workers, you'll just leave me alone to deal with it, as usual."
He shook his head in disgust, his perfectly styled hair not moving an inch. "What classy, dutiful woman would act the way you do? For the love of God, have you no self-respect?"
I wanted to laugh at the irony. Self-respect? How could I have any left after months of his systematic destruction?
I folded my arms across my chest and gave him a blank stare, struggling to keep my expression neutral and not betray the rising anger and hurt inside me. "You’re not the only one with an important job that demands my time and energy. My career is just as important, but I always have to drop everything to cater to you and your masculine needs just because I'm a woman."
He raised his thick eyebrows in exaggerated disbelief.
His usually so captivating eyes now held nothing but contempt and barely contained rage. "Since when do you talk back to me with such disrespect, Emmeline? Did you miss the feeling of my fist against that pretty little mouth of yours?"
He cracked his knuckles menacingly and a sound that used to make my heart flutter with attraction but now filled me with dread echoed.
"You want me to take the time to properly discipline you again?"
He slammed his large hands down on the kitchen table, making the dishes and utensils rattle.
I flinched involuntarily, hating myself for showing weakness.
Sparks of rage danced in his dark eyes. "I can always make time to put you in your place, to remind you of your duties as a wife so you don't dare disrespect me with this newfound attitude of yours. I don't like this path your character has taken lately at all."
Our marriage had lasted six torturous months - six months of me remaining silent and enduring his emotional, verbal, and physical abuse out of fear and naive, misguided hope that things would eventually get better.
I remembered our wedding day...I remembered how full of hope and love I had been.
How quickly that dream had turned into a nightmare.
But lately, as the brave spark of defiance and my own self-worth had begun to rekindle inside me, I realized I'd let my guard down a little too much around the monster I'd naively vowed to love and obey.
"You think assaulting an unarmed, defenseless woman makes you more of a man?" I challenged, unable to hold my tongue any longer.
The words tasted like freedom on my lips, even as I braced for the inevitable backlash.
In a flash, he shot up from his chair. The wooden legs scraped against the tile floor with a harsh screech.
Richard was ready to unleash his rage and assault me again, like so many times before.
His face contorted with fury, transforming his handsome features into something ugly. "You dare insult me and question my authority too, you ungrateful little whore!"
The smell of smoke from the pan of omelets burning on the stove behind me made my situation even more precarious.
As soon as he reached where I stood frozen, he roughly grabbed my arm and yanked me toward him with such force it felt like he might rip it from its socket.
The staggering height difference between his muscular 6'2" frame and my petite 5'3" made me feel even more powerless and insignificant in his presence. I could smell his cologne, the same scent that used to make me weak in the knees but now just made me nauseous."I am a man, whether you like it or not," he growled, his hot breath reeking of stale coffee and cigarettes fanning across my face.I tried not to gag."A real man, not some weak little pussy-whipped bitch like you want to turn me into." He added through gritted teeth, turning off the burner on the stove before I could with his other hand.The pan's contents was now a blackened, smoky, inedible mess. Just like our relationship.I stared at the ruined food, which was a perfect metaphor for my life."You're the one who's unfit - unfit for this house, unfit for my bed, unfit for my seed." His cruel words stabbed at my femininity and my sense of self-worth like a rusty knife.I thought of the pregnancy test I'd taken in secret la
At 10 am sharp, the moving crew of four large, burly men arrived to empty our modest city apartment of all our belongings.I trailed behind the massive truck carrying our furniture and possessions in a taxi, giving them directions to the new, high-end neighborhood.My stomach churned with anxiety as we approached our new home, knowing that this move would only serve to further isolate me from my support system and give Richard more control over my life.Achrafieh Hill contained only three luxurious mansions spaced extremely far apart - each one trying to outdo the other in grandeur and excess.One particular property occupied a massive, sprawling area surrounded by towering iron gates and a security checkpoint. It was not our new place, of course—Richard didn't make that much, at least not yet.But I had no doubt he aspired to own such a fortress one day, further cutting me off from the outside world.I paid the taxi driver and headed over to the four brawny workers, addressing them a
"Looks like you need some help there."The painting obscured my view, so I didn't realize it was a man until his rich, husky voice flowed into my ears from behind me.I tilted my head to the right and my gaze landed on the sculpted, exquisite features of a very handsome stranger.He was easily over 6 feet tall, with sharp, masculine features - eyes that crinkled becomingly at the corners and a head of perfectly tousled black hair.An air of quiet confidence and self-assuredness radiated from him in waves that were utterly breathtaking.For a moment, I forgot how to breathe."Leave it, I'll carry it for you," he stated firmly in a way that was authoritative and wouldn't take no for an answer.There was something about his demeanor that both irritated and intrigued me.And because I've always detested being ordered around or having my capabilities underestimated, I immediately objected with a shake of my head.The sweaty strands of hair that had escaped my bun tickled my cheek. "It's ok
For the next few hours, I threw myself into the task of cleaning and organizing.I carefully hung up my and Richard's clothes in the spacious walk-in closet, trying not to dwell on how my modest wardrobe barely filled a quarter of the available space.My husband's designer suits and expensive shoes, on the other hand, seemed right at home in such luxurious surroundings.Evening approached.I decided to take a break from unpacking and do some baking instead.Cooking had always been a source of comfort for me, a way to center myself when life felt chaotic or overwhelming.I spent the next hour or so in the gleaming gourmet kitchen, losing myself in the familiar rhythms of measuring, mixing, and folding.The result of my efforts was two batches of my signature cakes – one a rich chocolate fudge, the other a delicate lemon poppyseed.As they cooled on the marble countertop, filling the air with their tempting aromas, I carefully packed them into decorative boxes I had bought specifically
Minnie returned rather quickly. She set a plate of cookies on the coffee table between us, smothered her short white sundress, and plopped down next to me in a casual, friendly manner."I was planning to visit your house a little later after the twins came back from daycare to officially welcome you to the neighborhood," she said with a friendly laugh. "But you beat me to it! I'm so glad you did, though."My eyes widened in astonishment at her words. "Twins? You're...you're a mother?" I sputtered out, feeling a bit foolish for my surprise.I tried to reconcile the image of this youthful, vibrant woman before me with that of a mother of two.Minnie giggled audibly. "Why do you look so shocked? Do you think motherhood isn't suitable for a woman like me?" She arched one finely sculpted eyebrow teasingly, but there was no malice in her tone.I waved my hand in denial, flustered and trying to backpedal. "No, no, that's not what I meant at all! I just... you look so young and..." I trailed
I could sense a hint of... envy or resentment in Minnie's tone.She hugged her arms dramatically, unable to contain a slightly exaggerated shiver. "Even their way of dealing with people and socializing is completely different from normal folks. The Blackthorn couple were called the Ice Duo by society's elite circles. Can you believe that? Who would want such a chilly nickname?"She looked at the small cake she had placed on the table earlier with clear pity in her gaze as if even the dessert might wilt under the Blackthorns' frosty demeanor."You'll have to go over there and officially greet them after leaving my house," Minnie said with a warning edge that made me sit up straighter. "It's expected in our little community. But don't feel too afraid of my words about them. It's not like they'll actually devour you or anything!"She attempted a small laugh that sounded forced and did little to ease the sudden knot of anxiety in my stomach.I swallowed nervously, and my mouth suddenly dr
The imposing manor's exterior lights flickered on, illuminating the well-kept grounds with a welcoming, cozy glow.I squared my shoulders, determined to make a good first impression. After all, first impressions could be everything, and who knew what intriguing secrets lay behind those doors?I politely introduced myself to the woman who spoke through the smart doorbell's intercom system and then passed through the gates with measured, unhurried steps.The distance between the entrance and the manor itself was vast, but the immaculately landscaped grounds and winding pathways made for a pleasant, almost zen-like stroll.As I approached the impressive main entrance, I was greeted by a striking woman clad in a knee-length black tuxedo dress that hugged her curvy frame to perfection.Her dark hair was styled in elegant curls that brushed just past her shoulders, and I instantly deduced that this poised beauty could only be the elusive Mrs. Blackthorn herself."Mrs. Blackthorn?" I venture
The sun was starting to set, illuminating our peaceful neighborhood street with long, golden shadows when I arrived home.I fumbled with my keys while juggling the grocery bags I'd picked up after my visit to the Blackthorns before finally managing to unlock the front door.I headed straight inside, kicking off my flats by the front door and heading to the kitchen.The house still smelled faintly of fresh paint and new furniture, a reminder that we'd only moved in only a few hours ago.I entered the kitchen and immediately set about preparing dinner. My movements were automatic like I had been programmed to perform this ritual without fail.Our kitchen had a charming balcony overlooking the backyard and the neighborhood behind our new house.The fading sunlight filtered through the half-open blinds, throwing long shadows across the tiled floor.Whenever I turned to look out the window to my right, I couldn't stop myself from staring at the Blackthorn manor towering majestically in the
Emmeline exhaled with relief that their confrontation had ended well and focused on the road ahead.Her brother was waiting for her in the living room when she got home a few minutes later.His rigid posture and stern expression warned of an impending confrontation.Emmeline decided to ignore him and head straight to her room, but his strict voice stopped her in her tracks."Did you go to see him?" Emile demanded.Emmeline halted but avoided looking at him directly. "Why does it matter to you whether I saw him or not?"Emile straightened. "Emmeline!"Emmeline turned to face him bravely despite his grim expression. The happy moment she had felt with Zavian just moments ago gave her courage."You made a life-altering decision about my future," she stated firmly. "You're forcing me to travel to France without giving me any chance to object. The least you can do is allow me my freedom during these few days I have left in Riverwalk."As soon as she finished speaking, her brother crossed th
They exchanged longing glances. Their eyes communicated what words could not."I visited France twice during my human teenage years," Zavian remarked. "Paris was one of my stops. It's a beautiful city, well worth experiencing."Emmeline studied him closely. "With your family?""My grandmother loved spending holidays in different places," Zavian explained. "Because of her, I traveled to many countries. In recent decades, though, most of my trips have been for business, mainly across Europe and other continents."Emmeline nestled closer into Zavian's embrace, savoring the security of his arms around her."A while ago I felt depressed because traveling seemed like punishment," she sighed. "Now it seems like a reward. With you, even hell would become heaven.""France isn't that bad," Zavian teased. "Don't think of the trip as punishment. Look at it from the bright side. Together we'll visit a new city and spend good times together. No one there knows our past. No one will hold us accounta
Emmeline lifted her head from Zavian's chest to gaze at his handsome features. "Truly?" Her voice trembled with hope and disbelief.Zavian pulled his left hand from her back and gently wiped the tears from her cheeks with his thumb. Her crying had subsided, leaving only the glistening trails on her flushed skin.The tenderness of his touch contrasted sharply with his earlier anger, making her heart ache with renewed emotion."I would throw myself into hell in the name of loving you," he said.Emmeline's heart fluttered wildly in her chest, threatening to burst from the overwhelming emotion. She tightened her arms around his waist and spoke in a voice that quivered with joy. "Oh my God, how I've waited for this moment!"A tremulous smile spread across her lips as her gaze became lost in the depths of his eyes.Zavian continued to tenderly clean the remnants of tears from her cheeks, his arm still protectively wrapped around her shoulders."I waited so impatiently to hear you say those
The accusation was fair, and Emmeline knew it. She had allowed her insecurities to override her trust in him, had permitted her fear of abandonment to dictate her response rather than waiting to hear him out.The realization was humbling, forcing her to acknowledge a pattern in her behavior that had caused problems before.Emmeline's eyelids trembled in response to his outburst, fear momentarily overriding her other emotions.She had rarely seen Zavian this angry. She extended a tentative hand toward his chest, a peace offering amid their emotional battlefield."I won't make that mistake again," she promised softly. "I swear to you. Next time, I'll listen completely before letting my fears consume me."Her voice was steady despite her inner turmoil. She meant every word—this evening had shown her how quickly her insecurities could poison something precious, how easily fear could override reason and trust.The lesson was painful but necessary, one she was determined to learn from.Zavia
"Do not test my patience, Emmeline," he warned. "Even I have limits to how much I will sacrifice my pride for you!"The threat hung between them, all the more potent for its delivery.Emmeline had no doubt that he meant every word. Zavian Blackthorn was not a man given to empty warnings.A chill ran down her spine that had nothing to do with the cooling evening air.Pain flickered across Emmeline's features at his words and the pressure of his grip. Noticing this, Zavian immediately loosened his hold on her shoulder.The sudden shift from anger to concern was so characteristic of him. Even in his fury, he could not bear to cause her physical discomfort.The realization made Emmeline's heart constrict with renewed affection and regret for pushing him so far.Seizing the opportunity presented by his momentary softening, she rushed forward again, throwing her arms around his waist and pressing herself against him in a desperate embrace.She buried her face on his chest, inhaling his famil
Zavian’s gaze softened briefly at her touch and the hope in her voice, though the hardness quickly returned as if he were fighting against his own desire to forgive her. The conflict was evident in the slight furrow of his brow and in the way his lips pressed together in a thin line of resistance."I didn't mean any of those harsh words I said to you," Emmeline insisted, desperation creeping into her tone. "Please believe me, Zavian. Please."The use of his first name… something she rarely allowed herself hung in the air between them.Zavian placed his hand over hers and forcefully yanked it from his cheek. His touch lacked its usual gentleness. His fingers were cool and his grip firm as he detached himself from her caress."Perhaps you didn't mean what you said. However, you intended to wound me. You deliberately chose words you knew would cut the deepest."The accusation struck home with devastating accuracy.Emmeline couldn't deny the truth in his words. She had lashed out in her pa
Emmeline had been about to protest his rough handling of her wrist, but the words died in her throat when his fist connected with the car, missing her cheek by inches.She felt the rush of air on her skin, heard the crash of impact mingling with his words through clenched teeth. However, it was his words that truly froze her in place.She stared at him without blinking, watching emotions spark in the darkness of his eyes despite the anger that clouded them."What did you just say, Mr. Blackthorn?" Emmeline’s voice was barely audible in the silence that had fallen between them."You heard me loud and clear. Or are you stunned I actually have feelings?" Zavian snarled through his teeth.Emmeline placed her free hand on his chest in a silent plea. The confession she had longed to hear had come at last, though in circumstances so far from what she had imagined that she couldn't even rejoice in it."Please.” The single word carried all the weight of her regret, her fear, and a desperate hop
Emmeline attempted to pull away, to escape his hold, but he tightened his grip slightly, keeping her firmly against the car.She stared into his blazing eyes with defiance and hurt warring within her own."What could you possibly have to say?" she challenged. Her voice was hoarse from crying. "More excuses? More empty promises I'm supposed to believe?"Zavian's control finally shattered. "Did it ever occur to you I might be thinking of your best interests?" he demanded, anger flashing in his eyes like lightning in a midnight sky.Emmeline flinched at his raised voice, her eyes widening in shock. Throughout their relationship, he had never raised his voice to her. He had always maintained control that was as much a part of him as breathing.The fresh tears in her eyes trembled precariously, threatening to spill over at any moment."What did you expect from me when you told me they were sending you to France?" he continued, vibrating with emotion. "That I'd suggest we run away together t
Emmeline pulled back from his chest, certain she had misheard… certain Zavian, of all people, would never suggest such a thing.A desperate smile formed on her lips and denial was written across her features like text on a page."Tell me you're not serious," she pleaded, searching his face for any sign this was some cruel joke or test. Anything but the truth she feared.Her smile faded rapidly when she took in his expression. It was solemn, resolved, and tinged with a resignation that mirrored her own sorrow.The realization that he meant what he said crashed over Emmeline, driving the air from her lungs and leaving her gasping."You won't let them send me to France!" Her voice rose with panic.Her hands trembled as they gripped the lapels of his coat with the force of her desperation.Zavian's face remained impassive, though the muscle ticking in his jaw betrayed his inner turmoil. His usually warm gaze when they looked at her had grown distant as if he were already preparing himself