Chapter 19: The Journal

I sense that I am losing my identity within all of this. My family is overwhelming me by making decisions on my behalf without consulting me for my preferences.

They believe they know what is best for me simply because of my family's background.

I wanted them to see that, I am not a tool in their scheme. I am an individual with thoughts, emotions, and wants. What I want most is to break free from their control.

This is why I have been dedicating additional time to being with Alex. He stands out from the rest. He has no interest in my family's name or wealth. He is concerned about me, my desires, and my needs.

I've been attracted to him since we first met. He is compassionate and authentic, and he brings me joy. However, my family would never give their approval. They might argue that he is not suitable for me, and that I should be with someone of higher status and wealth.

But none of that matters to me. I just wanted to be happy with someone who truly cared about me.

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