The day was tough for me. I have gone through another battle again, and not so thankfully, I survived. But as I recall my encounter with my parents while looking at the high and mighty building of the Cruz Empire, the guilt is beginning to drown me once again.The movement of my hand never stopped ever since I settled on the pavement near the drainage a few meters away from the building. The pain that was caused by the stunt I pulled earlier was making me sleepy and dizzy.But the pain doesn't even match what my heart is feeling right now. The regret, pain, guilt, and grief all came in together submerging me into a deep ocean of darkness.“For real?! We are going to have a baby?! I'm going to be a Daddy?!”Another ruthless smash on my heart hit me when his excited voice filled my head. I could also feel my excitement during those times. But unlike him, mine was mixed with worry.Because I've always considered that everything could end like this. At first, I
I woke up with an intense pain that I felt in different parts of my body. I no longer remember at what point I fell asleep in the mixture of fatigue and pain I felt before I ended up in this situation.I kept my eyes closed when I heard two people talking from a short distance away from me. They are two but I am familiar with only one voice. I have no clue who was the other one. But upon hearing the words she’s saying, I came to I identified her profession.Even with my eyes shut, I knew where I was. The coldness of the room, the intoxicating smell of medicine, and the familiar mattress where my back rests steadily. I knew that I’m at the hospital.“She has bruises on most parts of her body and I think it came from bumping excessively to hard objects. And there were cuts on her wrist also. From what I’ve seen from it, this wasn’t the first time that she did this to herself. I saw a lot of healed wounds,” the doctor explained, probably to the man who brought me here."Is she suicidal o
"I'm going home," I announced, not minding his intimidating stares at me.He did not answer immediately. He just kept on staring at me without opening his mouth to speak. Maybe he's still in confusion about everything that I blabbered earlier.He sighed first before speaking, finally. “I’ll settle your bills. Wait for me here, I will take you to your house. ”"Great, because I don't have a single penny to pay for my fees," I replied sarcastically.He shook his head before storming out of the room.When I was sure he was gone I hurriedly arranged my hair and the crumpled t-shirt I was wearing yesterday. Despite the difficulty of moving due to the pain, I managed to be presentable again as if I hadn’t slashed last night.The only thing I was thankful for was the fact that I'm not in a hospital gown. I will no longer have difficulty getting dressed and will be able to escape immediately. I don't want to prolong the minutes that I am staying with him.Less connection, less attachment, and
"I went to your house last night and you weren't there. Your CCTV said that some rich people took you. You are still alive because I am still talking to you, what happened?” Katiya said without even stopping on the other line.“CCTV? What CCTV?” I asked in confusion.“Your neighbors. They knew everything about you.”I shook my head. Of course, they never left their eyes on me.I was just looking out of the window and just zone out. I have been with this stranger for more than two hours now. And I don't even know how to address him. Great.“Where are you?” Katiya asked again.“I’m heading home,” I answered.“And those who created a scene in your house?”“My parents. And yes, I'm still alive, obviously,” I replied to her questions earlier. “I lost them already. Not sure when I’d be able to live peacefully for the coming days, though.”“You know I just need a word, Prescilla. I could make them pay in an instant. Just tell me,” Katiya said without any hint of remorse.“Stop it, Katiya. T
“What else do you need? ” Katiya asked while pushing the cart for me.We're at a mall supermarket a few blocks from my apartment. I was supposed to go alone but Katiya surprised me with her presence behind my door. She seems to be making sure I'm still alive after the encounter with my parents.I silently looked at the cart she was pushing. There were lots of things inside that were mostly composed of table cloth, a lighter, and packaging tape. There is also a rope that was two meters long.Only a few spaces of the cart were occupied by foods and beverages that I needed for my supplies. I also have no plans to stock up on food because I plan to leave my place after what I’ll do two weeks from now.I didn't want to stay there any longer because my parents were unlikely to return to pick me up again. I don't want any more physical pain when I run away so I'll be the one to move away so there's no more trouble."That's fine. Everything’s in," I replied.She took her eyes off me before le
I could feel my eyebrows meeting at the center of my forehead as I stared at the man sitting now on the chair in my apartment. It was my only seat, and he sat on it as if he owned it after entering the place I was renting.He sits comfortably on the hard chair with his legs crossed and his elbow resting on the table as he lays his temple on itI don’t know why he came here. Unannounced at that. If I could remember it correctly, I made it clear to him that I don't want any more of our interaction and connection.I was surprised by his presence when he was the one I opened the door for earlier after I put away the things that Katiya and I had bought. I wasn't expecting anyone, much more this man. I didn't even invite him to enter my apartment but he invited himself in. And before I could even realize it, he's already inside and sitting.“What are you doing here?” I asked with a knotted forehead.I took an Indian seat on my bamboo bed because there were no other seats available. I only h
Flashbacks of my memories with Harris immediately filled my head. I was still in the parking lot, but I was already overwhelmed by the happy memories we once shared.Our images came into view as if they only happened yesterday. How he took care of me as I entered his car. How he would carry the groceries all with his vacant arm possessively wrapped around my shoulder. The sound of our laughter echoed in my head when I announced my pregnancy to him, in the same parking lot where I am currently standing.I couldn’t help but ask myself. If those were the days we were happy and content with each other, was something wrong? When did it start to go wrong? Or even at that time, it was destined to cut short the momentary fun for us? Or if it just so happens that on other occasions I find out things that have ignited everything, will the problem between the two of us continue?The first step I took weighed the same as the growing pain in my chest. It
I slowly looked at him with hopeful eyes. My heart was still hopeful to hear the words I wanted from him. But minutes passed, and with every tick of the clock the heaviness I am feeling inside doubled.His silence is the answer. From the way, he looked away and how his face paled, I knew that he would never say the words that I wanted to hear.And it's hurting me so badly thinking that he was never truthful about our relationship. Or if only he was truthful enough, the chances are more likely that the lie would still prevail. May it be in the form of words or actions.“Your answer is still no, right? Am I correct?" I asked in pain.“Priscilla...” she called in a soft voice.“What we have is bound to come to an end. I know that, and you definitely know that.” I gently touched his face with my one hand and made him look at me. “You wanted a way out. It was part of your plan to leave me. It just so happened that I go
Waldo's POVRegret. Hatred. Agony. Those were the key players that controlled my life for the past years. I embraced those feelings, reminiscing about the reason why I ended up lost. Echoes of cries and their wailings still visit me in my dreams, reminding me of the grief we all felt that night of her goodbye. Years may have passion but the guilt and regrets still reside in my heart. Would I be able to escape this hell of mine? I tried to get up. To turn my attention to others to forget. But everything has no effect. It's just a short-term solution and after the day I'll be back to the point of collapse and no fight. I thought I would be able to cover up entering a relationship but I only gave myself more trouble. I know that simply getting into a new relationship won't erase the traces he left behind. I'm only fooling myself, what I believe to be a lie will never be true. "I know you love me. And I love you too much. I was exhausted, Waldo, to the point that I was no longer able t
I could not distinguish if I was comfortable or if I was just simply happy being out in public with Waldo. I can't imagine or change now that the two of us are together after more than a year that our paths diverged. And I feel like he is too. I couldn't even feel the wilderness in his every natural action. He was holding my hand tightly, intertwined with his while his thumb was gently caressing the back of mine. He's been doing that for a while, ever since we got out of the car after arriving at the mall he brought me to. Me too, I can't find it in myself to complain about holding hands with him. I could even feel myself seeking the warmth of his hand. "What are we going to do here?" I asked in surprise. I quickly looked at my clothes that didn't match what Waldo brought me. I was wearing a white casual split v-neck chiffon blouse that I paired with red peg-leg pants. It's a good thing I'm wearing white sneakers and not the office sandals that will surely sink the first step I ta
I was awakened by a noise coming from around me. That sleep indicates that someone is cooking or something in the kitchen of the house. Even the cutlery I could hear making noise. But my head's still spinning, something I have never felt for over a year. Instead of getting up, I just covered myself with a blanket and buried myself deeper into my soft pillow. But I couldn't go back to sleep because of the knock on the bedroom door. I didn't answer. I just remained motionless while waiting for that person to approach. I can't get the nervousness but the surprise is that I wasn't kicked. I am satisfied that I am far from harm. But how he got in here I don't know. Despite being tucked under the blanket, the familiar smell of Waldo's perfume still stung my nose. His familiar aquatic scent that I missed. The scent that used to give me comfort knowing that he was beside me. "Wake up, honey. It's already lunchtime. You need to eat," he softly said. "How did you get in here?" I asked inst
I almost slapped my forehead when my mind spontaneously added that. Although that was true, it was refreshing that I was so quick to admit it to myself. I took his silence as an opportunity to leave that place. Unlike before when I longed for its crowded, hot, and chaotic place, now I was enveloped in irritation. I just want to get out and leave. Inhaling fresh air instead of the smell of cigarette smoke and the overwhelming smell of alcohol. With my busy feet, I hurry to find the exit from the dance floor. Even though it wasn't easy, it was as if I was taken out of my sight when I felt the touch of the cold air on my skin again. I hurriedly went to the bathroom to clean myself up. Even though I haven't been in this place for a long time, I just want to leave immediately and sleep where I'm staying. I was leaning against the sink when I got there. I didn't do anything but I felt tired. But the momentary comfort and relief were immediately interrupted when I heard the door open. Bu
"You're all set, madam," said the woman who was putting lipstick on my face earlier. I slowly opened my eyes. The first thing that greeted me was the golden necklace around my neck. That's just thin. It also has a small dove pendant which is a symbol of freedom. The necklace was a gift I bought for myself using my first salary as an assistant social media manager three months ago upon the promotion my boss gave me at that time. Next, I looked at the simple make-up that the woman put on me. That's simple and not grandiose. There was almost no color except for my slightly red cheeks. My hair was simply tied up in a ponytail. Even my white spaghetti strap bodycon dress has no design. I just don't understand why even I was invited to this event when my role in the company was small. G&E Apparel, which stands for Grace and Elegance, successfully made its way to the top. Through the help of different social media platforms, TikTok most specifically, the brand became known. So now, you've
Life became the simplest with me living all alone. At the same time, it became more fulfilling to follow what I wanted to do. And I felt peace. Finally... peace has come for me. I finally had my silence after years of being trapped by all the noise and chaos of my world. I made a noise when I dropped the plate on the breakable table in front of me. Add to that the surroundings were very quiet because I was the only person there. I sat on the seat next to the broken table at the same time as I went down there with the lid open for what I had to do today. I focused my eyes on the front of the laptop. I started reading the reviews on the social media page of the company I work for. I became a part of a social media marketing team of a small clothing brand. And since I was just newly hired, I was assigned mostly to checking reviews and comments on their social media accounts. I work home-based and that's an advantage for me. It was only a week since I started this job. Even if I won't
"Would you be fine with me?" I grinned at Katiya. He's been so busy driving that even if I want him to do it, he won't let me do it. It's been two days since we've been on the road after leaving El Refugio. I also thought that Katiya would leave after the church and return to her family. But instead of leaving me, he went with me. We've been roaming around using the car, driving endlessly while looking for the right moment to settle down. We've been sleeping inside the car parked at a public parking lot. There is no problem with me. I'm enjoying it. The only thing that is mine is what Katiya left behind. I'm sure as hell that her child's looking for her, even Galan who's been chasing her for a long time. "It's OK."And because I wasn't convinced by what I heard, I simply took his cell phone from the dashboard. Katiya kept it shut down to cut any connection we had from El Refugio. But because I wanted to send him back there for Ezra, I opened it to make sure Galan had texts there.
Harris gently faced me. Just like me, shock filled his eyes when he saw me. He did a quick scan all over me before his eyes locked on mine, staring at them in a scrutinizing way. I looked for the familiar loss of my heart close to him. But none of the feelings I used to feel when I was with him are gone. And I felt thankful realizing that now. That finally, and thankfully, I'm over this man. "Prescilla," the smile that greets him is hesitant. "What are you doing here?" I asked casually. His eyes became dim so he couldn't meet mine anymore. "I was running some errands for my wedding with Melissa."An understanding smile formed on my lips when I realized why he was being awkward answering my question. "So, you're finally tying the knots, huh? Congratulations to you," I greeted with no pretense. It seems that he is still not convinced by my act so he has to stare at me as if he is searching the contents of my mind. I tried to give him my most genuine smile to make him feel that it w
The touch of cold wind on my cheek woke me up. My eyes squinted when the sun shone directly on my face. It's not that hot yet so I'm sure it's not that popular yet. I looked around and realized I was still in the car. The seat I was sitting at was already reclined while the window on my side was open. I turned around to see if Katya was there, thinking that the woman was no longer there, but her sleeping form appeared to me. Her mouth was slightly open showing signs of her deep sleep. His two arms are crossed over his chest. I moved stealthily in order not to wake her up. Even when opening the door, I did my best not to make any noise. Only then was I able to get to know the place where we are now? "What the hell?" It didn't take me five seconds before tears started streaming from my eyes. "It just might help you." I turned to Katiya who had now gotten out of the car and was looking at me intently. "Waldo is not the only one who needs to break free from the bonds that are wrapped