This is the first night that I will sleep on the same bed with Jaxson beside me, and I don't know what just happened to my body that made me so stiff this much. This is also the first time that I’ll be laying in the same bed with some guy that’s not even my brother, Charles.
I don't even remember how to breathe right now, all I can think of is that this man laying beside me, in my own little bed, is my husband and we are going to spend the night together.
What will we do?
The blanket almost tore because I was clinging to it so tightly to cover my entire body. My bed is so small that if I make a small movement our skin will touch together and when that happens, I don't know if my heart can handle it and if I will wake up in my right mind.
I am breathing the hottest air in the entire planet as my body also feels the heat rising up from my feet.
It is so quiet in my room that the only thing you can hear is my loud series of sighs and my heart beating as quickly as it can.
I don’t know what to do.
What do newly married couples usually do on their first night except that only thing?
"Are you uncomfortable?" I heard Jaxson mutter in his raspy voice.
Uncomfortable? I am dying!
“U-Uh… H-Huh?” I stammered because of how tensioned I am. It gives me shivers every single minute. Of course I am too timid to say that this situation that I am lying in bed next to my husband is killing me. This even almost feels like the last time I talked to Jaxson sober in the car the day he picked me up from the University.
Jaxson sighed as he propped his elbow so he could turn his body sideways, facing me.
It was as if my body became a statue when I felt his direct gaze on me.
"I-I... never imagine even once that I will have a man next to me in the bed where I can lie alone for a long time... So..." my head slightly moved away from him because I felt ashamed of what I said. I feel like all the blood in my body rises up to my cheeks that makes it really hot and I know that I look like a rotten tomato.
“So, you’re saying… You work in a club, wear that mini dress and yet have no experience with a man?”
I nodded softly.
“I’m impressed…” I felt his lips as he moved closer to me.
I was shocked when he acted to lay on top of me.
“Aaah!!” I screeched, jolting away from the bed.
I heard Jaxson's feeble chuckle. “Maybe a couple of pillows can help you be comfortable.”
I felt the bed move as he got up to get an extra pillow and then placed it between the two of us. He adjusted its alignment so that there was a barrier between us.
The pillows he put were a big help because my gaze could no longer reach him in the corners of my eyes and the pounding in my chest seemed to have lessened because I didn't think too much about Jaxson being here.
I couldn't look at his face because of the pillows that were blocking his face, so I just kept looking at my blank ceiling.
"You know, Jax... We are not a real couple, so this really shouldn't be a big deal. It's just one night." I said confidently, knowing that it's a lie.
"Right." He replied quickly.
"Right..." I muttered in response.
I think it was about two minutes of silence and only a series of sighs could be heard inside the room.
"When I was younger, my mom took me to a huge mountain and left me there alone thinking that it would teach me to be independent and brave."
I chuckled because of what information he suddenly told me. It is so out of nowhere.
"I'm sorry for laughing, but that's kinda..." I giggled.
"But you know what? Instead of being independent and brave, I felt more like… alone.”
My giggles halted when Jaxson continued with his story.
"My mother left me by myself in the wild and it taught me nothing but being afraid to be alone. And that is exactly how I felt when she left me. She should've taken me with her when I even cried, begging her to take me with her. The day she left me alone in the mountains was also the day of the car crash. Imagine... a little boy like me, fighting for his life to get out of the suffocating place, only to find out that my mother has left me forever..."
I can hear Jaxson's pain in his voice. I know that just like me, he is just looking at the ceiling right now. Maybe it's moments like these that he can't stop remembering his mother. I can imagine the excruciating pain he is feeling right now. And to think that he didn't even get a chance to give a proper goodbye to his mother is really sad. The little Jaxson who thinks about seeing his mother after getting out of the mountain, has no idea that it would be the last moments of them together and he was crying, begging his mother to take him with her. If she ever did, I wouldn't be with this man right now.
"You have only collected sad moments throughout your life. Don't you have even one happy memory?" I ask, because it seems like Jaxson's life has been very sad since he was a child.
"I do have moments like that." He uttered. "As an example, spending time with you. I know you will never believe me, but you make my days much brighter now. Do you even know that you look like my mother?"
Both of my eyebrows rose because of what he said which I did not expect.
"Don't scold me. He says it's impossible. Your mother is beyond beautiful!”
"And so are you."
"W-What..?" I stammered.
Jaxson let out a feeble scoff. “You really look like my mother, Cattleya. Once we get home, I'll show you some pictures of her and you can tell by yourself whether you really resemble her.”“Uh, what do you mean… Once we get home? I am home.” I replied with a tinge of confusion flashed in my voice.Jaxson shut his eyes firmly, seemingly annoyed to me. “Cattleya. Why do you always have to ruin it? Why are you such a crabby?” he grumbled.“I am not.” I felt one of my brows rise up, looking intently at him. “This is the truth, Jaxson. I am home right now and you— are lying on my bed.”“Whatever you say, chippy.”My mouth fell open by the word he let out. “What did you just say to me?” I couldn’t stop myself from getting up because of how much he irritates me. “I am not being chippy, or grumpy, or whatever it is! Jaxson. I am home. And once we get back to your mansion, I will just temporarily be in your house together with your family. Not home.” I glared at him.“Hmm, sounds like I forg
“Oh, god! Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh!” I whispered loudly and then I slowly got out of bed so as not to wake the sleeping Jaxson.I immediately ran to the comfort room to check my appearance in the mirror, and I was not mistaken. I look like a mess!I even smelled my mouth that smelled of bad saliva, I winced at the smell of my morning breath."It's a good thing that I woke up earlier than Jaxson. Oh gosh! He can't see me looking like this-""See you looking like what?"“AAAAAH!” I screeched loudly in my shrill voice as my hands flew to my face to cover it. "Get out of the room first!""What's wrong? What is going on with you now?” I heard him ask with a hint of surprise.I just shook my head while still not removing the cover from my face.It's impossible for him to see me as I look now. Even if I wanted to fix my hair I couldn't because I couldn't let go of my face. Even though I don't have lipstick, I didn't erase my make up last night because I am afraid that Jaxson will se
"But, why? Why do—” I stopped when I realized that we were not alone and that the Madrigals were with us in the car. I moved closer to Jaxson again to bring my mouth to his ear. "Why did you suddenly fall in love after our marriage? Or are you just playing with me?” I whispered, causing him to shiver.It seems that he imitated my movements and brought his mouth close to my ear."Seems like I have to show my wife that I love her and I don't want to lose her any minute now." Jaxson whispered in my ear as he gently took my hand and locked it with his. "The only problem is that I have no idea how to please a woman. Especially, that you are so different from all the girls that I have ever met."This time, I was the one who let out a chortle because of what he said.“Oh, please. We both know that you spent almost your whole life with Daniella. Of course, you haven't met many women." I whispered back to him in the middle of laughing."Well, let's call this day a special date for us to get to
“Cat?” Loren also called me back and questioned the moment she saw me."W-What are you doing here?" I asked him again, full of wonder. I didn't think I would see him here because the last thing I remember was seeing him last night when I left the reception. "And, why are you with our club manager?" I raised my eyebrows when I saw Mr. Sol. I greeted him with a smile before returning my critical gaze to Loren."We came here to visit the kids before we went straight to DeepBlue." Mr. Sol stepped into the conversation which Loren immediately followed with a nod."But, isn't it too early for Loren to go to DeepBlue?""How about you, KitCat? What brought you here?” He diverted the topic by passing me the question.I chuckled when I heard him say my name again. Since I started working at the nightclub, I can hardly count on my hands how many times he has called me by different nicknames.For a moment, my eyes returned to the two of them because their answers did not convince me enough as to w
"Cattleya! What I heard is right and you are really here to visit us."I greeted Sister Cordilla with a sweet smile and then gave her a big hug."It's been so long, Sister Cordilla. I'm sorry that I haven't visited the orphanage for a long time and I haven't been able to say goodbye to you here."Sister Cordilla flashed a beam. "It's okay, Loren has told us what happened and I felt sorry for you. I guess life lately has been good to you because you finally came back here with the same smile on your lips.” She caressed my arms as her eyes shifted to my back. "Now I see why. I thought you only came with Loren and her friend. But you actually came here with a boyfriend.”"Uh, he's my husband, actually." I clarified, as I extended my hand to let Jaxson come closer to me."He is such a fine young man. You have a good looking husband. I honestly thought that you will grow old because you have never been interested in any guy before. I remembered how many of our guests here at the orphanage a
"Do I really need to do all that? If you need some assistance I can just call for a staff and-”I pressed my fingers to his lips, cutting him off. "There's no fun if the staff will do it for you. Let's just do this for today and I promise to go out with you tomorrow night if you have some free time.”“Anywhere I want?” Jaxson asked with a smirk."Anywhere you want.""But what about my image? What if the guests who attend know me and they see me serving meals to people and fixin the decorations? My career will be in shambles.”“It's good publicity.” I just said before pulling Jaxson towards the venue again. I spent more time trying to please him than organizing the event. "It will be a great day, I promise.""It will be." He uttered. "But only if you give me a kiss each balloon I hang."I sniggered, half suppressing. “You are such a cringe-worthy person. I hope you know that.”When we finally arrived at the small garden where the event will be held later, I saw that Loren was starting t
Our kisses continued to deepen as we felt each other's body by caressing it with our hand. Jaxson's touch on my body is like a wood being thrown to the fire, making the sensation that I am feeling in my body rise up. His hand ran from my arms down to my chest. I felt my heart racing with its highest speed that very tender touch of his palm on mine. Slowly he moves as it makes space between our fingers and clutches my hand tightly.When we felt tired, we both let go of our kisses as we pressed our foreheads together with both grins on our lips and exchanged breaths.It took a few seconds before Jaxson slowly crawled his hand back to my chin and brushed his lips against mine very lightly and removed it in a fraction of seconds, teasing me to crave for his lips more. My hand motioned, returning it to the back of his head, caressing his hair as I kept an eye contact. I can see through his eyes the desire and obsession. I had my hands wrapped around him with my mouth hanging open, waiting f
"The opening of the event started and the guests were almost complete. We can start serving the food now while someone is speaking on stage before the children's performance begins." Sister Glenda said with a tinge of anxiety in her voice. I accepted her hand when she extended her hand that was holding two pieces of cloth. "You can wear this as well so that you won't be mixing with the crowd." Sister Glenda moved her hand to gesture at Jaxson because he seemed to be lost staring at the apron.I was the only one who accepted it and then gave her a sweet smile so she wouldn't worry about Jaxson's stupor."We'll be out there." I muttered.Sister Glenda nodded and then took a tray and carefully took it out to the garden. Jaxson and I left the two of us while he was still speechless."You must be very culture shocked, aren't you, baby?" I said in a low tone, enough for him to hear me. I placed myself in front of Jaxson, trying to reach his eyes. "Listen, if I am asking too much you don't ha