Chapter 20
Ashers P.O.V I looked at the ceiling for as long as I could barely remember, I hated this awkward silence, I needed to start up a conversation. “ You…” I tried saying something, but the words got stuck in my throat “Damnit, why was I stuttering in front of her” I thought and why did I have to pretend as if I was asleep, just to avoid her? "You...okay" was what came out of my mouth; I could hardly understand a word I said, but that is what came out. “ Y..eah”Arabella said. I turned away, my face burning with embarrassment. My mind raced with thoughts of Arabella, and how I'd treated her. Last night had changed everything. Scarlet's breakup, still fresh in my mind, made me see Arabella in a new light. But why was I stuttering in front of her? Why did my hands tremble when our eyes met? I lay in bed, unable to sleep, as memories of our past encounters haunted me. Our first meeting, where I'd been cold and harsh. The first time she came to my house. And yesterday...oh God, yesterday. I'd humiliated her in public, on the day I was supposed to announce our relationship to the world, I made a big mess of it. I tossed and turned, trying to shake off the guilt, but it only seemed to suffocate me more. My thoughts were a jumbled mess, filled with regret and shame. I couldn't believe how I'd treated her and how much of an asshole I was. The hurtful words I'd call at her - "whore" - simply because she'd been with my brother. How could I have been so cruel? I buried my face in the pillow, consumed by my mistakes. I couldn't face her. But I knew I had to. I had to make things right, somehow. I took a deep breath, trying to calm my racing thoughts. But they only seemed to get worse, taunting me with what I'd done. I turned to look at her, but she wasn't sleeping, the thought of apologizing came to my mind but I Asher Blackhood wasn't one to apologize, I cleared my throat. “I..i..” I could pass through my first word, I began again. “ I hate the hospital,” I said. I couldn't bring myself to say sorry, maybe trying to start on a fresh page would be better, maybe being vulnerable would be better, we could connect, this was what always happened in the movie. “ It reminds me, of a moment, I would want to erase completely from my life, so each time I come to the hospital, it feels like I am trapped in that moment,” I said, wondering what the hell was I saying. “ oh, damnit, why the hell was I telling her my problems”. I thought “I know you will be wondering why I am saying this,” I said “ Shit, why can't I keep my mouth shut” I cursed under my breath. “ Am I talking too much, just never mind, all I want to say is i…i…so…rr.y” I finally said, as I turned to face the other side feeling like a fool. “ I…hate the hospital too,” she said. “ It reminds me of my brother's death and each time I come to the hospital, I get reminded of the fact that I caused his death,” she said, I could see that she was struggling not to cry. “ Me too, the hospital reminds me of my..mo.. m's death” The word mom felt so strange to me. “ I see her whenever I come to the hospital and it always gives me a panic attack, for the fear of her coming back or the fear of what she has said to me coming to reality ” I said, I had never been this vulnerable to anyone apart from Scarlet and I hated being vulnerable, I just wanted this to end, talking about Mrs. Blackhood, sent chills to my body and the fact that I had somehow caused her death made it all worse, speaking of death, I see could not wrap my hand on what Arabella was trying to do when I walked entered her father's room. I looked at her, wondering how to ask the question. “ I have been meaning to ask you this since, what were you trying to do before I came in, you, your dad, and his oxygen mask? ” I asked, I knew she knew what I was talking about. She paused for a while before she continued. “ I honestly don't know, all my life I had grown up seeing my father as a torment to me, he had made sure my life was a living hell after my brother's death and the thought of seeing him dead had crossed my mind,” she said as tears rolled down her red cheeks. “ Oh my, I have been a very bad daughter,” she said as she cried. Hearing her talk about her father made me realize we had one thing in common, a bad parent, mine was a bad mom, hers was a bad dad and I wanted to comfort her. I stood up from my bed and moved to hers, as I bent down. “ is okay, you are not the …” I went on and on talking, I barely could register the words I was saying, what caught my attention was her pink lips, and the thought of my lips meeting it, was what had consumed me, I stopped whatever I was saying and moved closer to her, so close enough that I could feel the hotness of her breath, my lips close to her, I watch as she closed her eyes, anticipating what I would do next, my heart raced as our lips met, soft and gentle at first, but growing more urgent with each passing moment. Her mouth was a whisper of sweetness, a promise of something more. I deepened the kiss, my arms wrapping around her, I felt her fingers tangling in my hair, her body pressing closer, and her lips parting slightly, inviting me in once again. I accepted the invitation, our tongues exchanged saliva, and my arms carefully moved up to her breast, squeezing it softly, as she let out a moan. I didn't stop there. I gently pushed her to the bed, for I wanted more of her and I could feel she wanted more of me. My hand swiftly went to unzip her clothes, my lips still on her but a knock at the door interrupteArabella’s POVAs soon as the nurse entered, Asher raced out of my bed and went to his, as he immediately pretended to sleep, I was too flustered and shocked by the kiss that I didn't care less about the nurse coming in, I held my lips, trying to process the thoughts that I have been kissed by Asher, Asher kissed me. The Asher that I know. I touched my lips, still tingling, my heart racing with excitement, but as I took stare of the nurse, with the way the nurse stared at me as if something was wrong, I looked at myself and I was half naked, she was suspicious but she was silent, about it.“ Your dad is having another seizure and your mother is going ruckus, can you please calm her down” she said, as she left in a hurry.Asher who had been pretending to be asleep, immediately flung out of the bed as he heard, he looked at me to see if I was okay, but I was.I immediately tried to zip my clothes, as I proceeded to leave the room. But I took a look at Asher, he was sitting at the edge
Asher’s POVStaring at the hospital bed, I couldn't help but feel excited"I'm done, at last, I am free from this hell". Who gets admitted to a hospital because of a panic attack? Me and me alone, because of my father's meddlings and the fact he is a billionaire. I knew that he wanted me around Arabella, after the stunt I had made but what was his motive for this? One thing was clear - money was in the mix. The man had never cared about me and the only reason he started caring was because I made him richer and I was too important to his company. Anything I did could affect his image, his precious image mattered too much to him.I glanced at Arabella, who was packing her bag with the things Miss Thompson had brought for her. We hadn't spoken much since... everything. I didn't know what to say to her. My mind was blank. I just packed my things, trying to avoid eye contact. As I headed out, I turned her and said“'I'll be sitting outside waiting for you. The driver is already there. So
Arabella. POVAfter what felt like forever, of staring out the car window and occasionally drifting into restless sleep, we had finally reached the place. While in the car my mind had been racing the whole trip, filled with worries about what might happen. Would this trip be okay? Going on a field trip with Asher was it going to work out?As we pulled up, the first thing that caught my attention was the beach view. I had never been to the beach before because of my parents. They had this odd belief that beaches were for crazy people, a place where you were just asking to be drowned. Ever since childhood, it has been my dream to go to a beach.As I stepped out of the car, my heart raced with excitement and a bit of nervousness. Without thinking or even looking at Asher, I ran straight toward the beach, arms spread wide, feeling the wind rush past me. I closed my eyes as I inhaled very deeply, savoring the salty, fresh scent of the sea. It was like a moment of connection between me and
Asher POVI couldn't help but stare at her as we ate. She was a good distraction from Scarlet, and she had my full attention.“Asher, Asher,” she called my name, tapping my hand.“Are you okay? Your hands are hot,” she asked, her voice full of concern.“Oh, yes, I am,” I replied, feeling my hands. They were warm, but it had been like this ever since I left the hospital. Maybe it was the time I spent there.“You’ve barely eaten,” she noted, her eyes flicking to my untouched plate.“I’m not hungry,” I said, still staring at her. She hardly looked at me, and I doubted if she was comfortable around me.“Since you're done eating, let's head somewhere more fun—the painting room. I love to paint. It takes me away from the world. Maybe painting could help you come out of your shell,” I suggested as I got up. The painting room in the suite was one thing that made me love this place.Maybe painting will distract me from these thoughts. I remembered the long time I stayed away from this suite, a
Arabella pov"You're getting married next week, so prepare," he said casually, as if discussing the weather and not the fate of my entire life.I stared at him, shocked, while finding it hard to process his words. "Married? How? Why? Next week?". I asked, trying to make sense to all that he had saidHe continued eating while ignoring my questions, and then he said"Pass the sauce, this meal is bland."I tried to play calm, as I passed him the sauce. This was what he always did, taking up decisions about my life, without bothering to let me have a say in it, i turned to my mom, hoping for an explanation from her, but her lips were set in a thin, disapproving line, which wasn't shocking as she was against me questioning my father's decisions.After a few minutes of silence and no explanation from anyone, I summoned courage and I asked again, trying to sound polite. "But why am I getting married so soon? I haven't even had a chance to—" Before I could say another word, my mother's sha
Arabella POVThe days seemed to roll over quickly, after much preparations, today was finally the day my parents have been waiting for, the day I had dreaded, the day I will be getting married, the marriage was kept in a lowkey, as it was a request from the groom's family. I looked in the mirror and saw that I looked very elegant, and the dress did look good on me. The thoughts of what my husband would look like came into my mind, as I haven't met with him physically, he had been busy lately according to my dad. The idea of my future husband filled me with a sense of dread, a heavy burden I couldn't ignore. I struggled to imagine what he would be like - kind or cruel, supportive or controlling? What kind of life would we build together? Despite the arranged marriage being a necessity, a glimmer of hope flickered within me, longing for it to succeed, if only to escape this suffocating house, where I felt trapped and caged.Just as these thoughts swirled in my mind, my mom's voice int
Asher’s POVI felt irritated at my first glance at her, her overly made-up face and vacant expression which seemed more like a lifeless barbie doll than a living person who is capable of making her own decisions. She barely said a word to me. Scarlett, on the other hand, had a strong personality that drew me in, her independence and had a mind of her own always left me in shock , these were the qualities I admired and longed for in a partner. She didn't take crap from anyone and always looked out for her own interestsIf I had a choice, I would have chosen Scarlett over the girl my father had arranged for me to marry. But my father had other plans, forcing me to marry his friend's daughter in exchange for control over the prestigious Black Hood SuiteThe thought of losing the suite, which was my legacy and lifeblood, was unbearableI reluctantly agreed to the contract, aware that it was a business arrangement rather than a love match The arrangement was clear: the Black Hood Su
Arabella POVJust ignore my brother, he's always been a bit of a firecracker," a smooth voice said from behind me, as he stretched his hand towards me, as he offered to help me up, which gave me the opportunity to get a better look at him, his piercing blue eyes, his blonde hair was perfectly messy, and his charming smile made my heart skip a beat. I tried to play it cool, but my gaze lingered on him a little longer than necessary. He was undeniably handsome."Thanks,” I muttered, my voice barely above a whisper."Good luck with the marriage, I'm really rooting for you," he said with a nod before turning to leave. His parting words left me feeling a mix of emotions. A drop of tears rolled down my eyes. Today was awfully bad. I didn't expect that the man I was going to marry would hate so much to get irritated by my presence. I could hear footsteps. It was my mom that was coming, the sounds of heels made it obvious. I quickly cleaned my tears and rinse my face in water, in other no