MONIQUE
โ"I always admired it because of you and I've wanted to do it for the longest, but I doubt it'll look good on me.""You're literally so pretty and you're still very young. Now's the time to dye your hair as many colors as you wish to." I said to Gina as I dropped my phone on the nightstand, the same hand running through my silky hair before I pressed my lips together. She was telling me about how she'd always admired my black hair and how she wanted to dye her hair black because of me. Gina was only twenty-three. I was thirteen years older than she was. She could do whatever she liked to her body since her days were still very long. As for me, people would cock their eyebrows if I stepped out in any color that was different from my natural hair color. I'd never been the crazy type in terms of hair. "Nah, it can't be compared to yours, though. Lady Monique, you don't even look thirty yet. I hope to age like you." "Why does it feel like you're flattering me?" I knew she wasn't. Today, I was wearing my hair in a double french braids plait. Gina had wanted us to do something simple before the meeting. She'd single-handedly told the women that she was going to be the one to get me ready today. She had done my makeup and was finishing up on my hair. I reached over to pick up the cup of tea that I'd been sipping from when she motioned for me to get up and I did. I guessed she was trying to fix up the lace of my corset and so I had to suck my stomach all the way in. As a woman, those were problems that were very hard to avoid because things like that came up regularly. "Release," Gina said and I released my sucked-in stomach once again and took in some air. "Suck it in." And just when I was about to do as she said, a knock came in and this time around, it wasn't locked, it was just closed. "Who is it?" Gina quizzed, yelling, and I wanted to tell her not to worry. I knew it was Marcus and in as much as I didn't want to admit, his arrival was something I'd shamefully been looking forward to."It's me." His deep voice mixed with a sexy kind of British accent was heard from outside. "I'm here with My lady's meal."Fuck if he just called me his lady. Fuck! I was sure we all heard that. It was no big deal. "Alright then, the door isn't locked. You can come in." Gina said to him. And just then, the door swung open and he walked in with long and powerful strides. Jesus. Why couldn't I just stop annalizing everything and anything about him? Because he was a course worth studying, and I needed to have nothing less than a distinction in the end. Gina didn't even give me breathing space before she returned to trying to lace up the corset. The dress was an under-bust corset dress that showed quite an amount of skin and my breasts were not excluded. I sucked in my stomach for the umpteenth time and I held on to the vanity table, that position I was in meant I had to bend down. That gave a very clear view of the exposed sides of the upper slopes of my breasts. My gaze went to Marcus immediately and I was glad I saw it just in time, his eyes hungrily roamed around my chest and his Adam's apple bobbed twice. Hunger traipsed around his eyes like he wanted to reach out and just feel them. God. If only he would do that.I looked down at my chest and stared at him again and his eyes were still on my breasts. The look he gave me made me feel like I was wearing nothing and the thought of that didn't even make me uncomfortable in any type of way. His gaze left my chest suddenly and he walked to drop the platter of food on the nightstand before walking out. That moment was intense. The sound of Gina clearing her throat interrupted my thinking. She'd finished lacing up my corset and now all that was left to do was eat. "My lady, we made a very foolish decision." My brain immediately clicked on what she was saying. I was supposed to eat before putting on that dress. Now, we would have to start the whole process again and I was going to have to take off my dress. Funnily enough, I regretted nothing. Maybe it was because of the little corset drama that happened between Marcus and me.๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โTime went by so quickly and the next thing I knew, I found myself sitting on the stool next to Father's throne with the noblemen dispersed on stools left and right. It all felt like a nightmare again. Once upon a time, I was feeling good, but now I just felt like an absolute piece of shit. Worthless and inconsequential. This time around, I was the one that was supposed to start the meeting and so I opened my mouth to speak and when nothing made its way out, I pressed my lips together. I doubted if I was going to be able to do this. This was an example of what happened when someone was put on a pedestal. I was under so much pressure that if it could kill, I'd have died a long time ago. "Hello." I cleared my throat and managed to say when they'd been looking at me for so long, I thought their eyes might burrow into my soul and discover my darkest secrets. "Good day, Lady Monique." They greeted, their tone sounding as if they'd been
MONIQUE โJust when I thought the problems in my life couldn't get any worse than they already were, they really did get worse and what was I supposed to do? Probably cry myself to bed all night. I turned off the shower and wrapped the towel around my chest so it fell and stopped at my thighs before walking out of the bathroom, water droplets wetting the marble floor in the process. I looked around me and it was empty--like I was expecting someone at all. I'd told Gina to go have fun and be happy since she'd been with me most times due to what happened at the last meeting with the noblemen--I was never forgetting that shit. I went into details about it all to her and it led to her being so protective of me. I laughed at the thought of that because truth be told, there was nothing Gina could do to alter anything. Not even I. Yes, I had so much money and so much fucking power that it was enough to rule the people, but around here, that wasn't how t
MONIQUE โJust when I thought the problems in my life couldn't get any worse than they already were, they really did get worse and what was I supposed to do? Probably cry myself to bed all night. I turned off the shower and wrapped the towel around my chest so it fell and stopped at my thighs before walking out of the bathroom, water droplets wetting the marble floor in the process. I looked around me and it was empty--like I was expecting someone at all. I'd told Gina to go have fun and be happy since she'd been with me most times due to what happened at the last meeting with the noblemen--I was never forgetting that shit. I went into details about it all to her and it led to her being so protective of me. I laughed at the thought of that because truth be told, there was nothing Gina could do to alter anything. Not even I. Yes, I had so much money and so much fucking power that it was enough to rule the people, but around here, that wasn't how t
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ"Hello, lady Monique!" A voice that I believed was very displeasing to the ear, mixed with a British accent from the thickest part of England was heard. Do not get me wrong, I was a whore for accents, British ones especially and most principally, Marcus Blacksmith's accent. Sometimes I'd be having panic attacks and all I had to do was try and recall what his voice sounded like and everything would get rectified. "Do I know you?" I stepped into the throne room, the heels on my feet making it obvious that Monique Jenkins was in there. I wasn't impressed at all by what I saw. A man, about five feet and ten inches tall-- only about four inches above my five feet six inches--he was nothing compared to Marcus. Marcus was almost a foot taller than I was--with tousled brown hair(another uninteresting factor when compared to Marcus's sexy, blonde hair). All sorts of birthmarks peppered his skin. His pointed nose was an indication that h
MONIQUE โThe flush toilet had become a very good companion of mine during my mental breakdowns. Now was a moment I needed it. As soon as I got to my room, I rushed into the toilet, knelt, and threw up. It was never-ending as the puke kept rising and rising from inside me. Nobody had ever said that to me and never had any reason arisen for me to be body-shamed. I placed one hand on the seat while I placed the other on my stomach--my favorite position to vomit, and I let it all out. I spent the rest of the day confined to my room because I was not ready to deal with anybody's shit. The day I'd decided to be happy was when some idiot body-shamed me so I thought it'd be good to just be alone. I tried to do various things to pass time, but my mind kept going to that moment where he called me fat and a pig. Was that really how everyone here saw me? I decided to do some office work even though my mind wasn't there. About an hour passed and I reac
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โMerely staring at him made my head spin and my panties soak, just like now.It was one of those days I told another worker to inform him that he'll make my meal. My eyes followed every movement of his hands, how his muscles flexed beneath the white shirt he wore--I'd never seen him wear anything other than that color of shirt and I had to say that it was all the words to describe hot--if I could, I'd tell him to wear nothing with the exception of that color of shirt, and of course, him being naked would crown it all. It only made me want him all the more. He dropped my platter on the nightstand and was about to walk away. I was told that it was because I hadn't been here for long that I was allowed to eat in my room--like they could tell me what the fuck I could and could not do--well, they literally did. Father usually ate in the large dining hall downstairs--or so, I was told. Honestly, I saw no point in that since I was going
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โI closed my eyes again and scrubbed my eyelids with the tips of my fingers--my index one most especially. Opening them, I looked around and still, no one! All of that ass spanking and fellatio better be real! It had to be actual. I needed to get somewhere with Marcus. I sat up straight on the bed and perceived I was naked. It was at that point all of the events that had happened yesterday started unfurling in my head and I realized the reason I was naked. I ran my hands through my black hair and wiped my face with my hand, looking around for the second time and feeling a tad wasted like Gina and I had the time of our lives yesterday and decided to accompany it with alcohol.Lord knew that I was going to ravish every memory of that dream till the grave. It felt so special to me; those dirty things he said, the hot blowie that I gave him. Everything, in general, was just so exclusive. Stroking my chin for a little bit, I thought
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ"My lady, you have a visitor!" "Doesn't he or she have a name?" I yelled back at the person with such a thick British accent at the door. I sat in my bed that afternoon, comfortable in my robe. I'd decided to do some office work and funnily enough, I'd spent over three hours on my laptop working. I had a lot of future plans if things went smoothly because from what I'd seen, business had been going on really great even when I'd been missing in action for a while. I definitely didn't plan on making things continue to be as they were. "I was told not to disclose, but please, would you come outside?" She responded. Hissing, I set my laptop aside and scooted over to the end of the bed, and put on my fluffy sandals. Damn if I was going to bother putting on clothes. As far as I was concerned, I wasn't naked. I walked towards the door and opened it and found the lady who came to tell me that I had someone waiting for me. Luckily for me
MARCUS Being back in the United States felt unbelievable. I'd only been gone for a few days, but it felt as though I'd been gone for six months. Life was panning out well. I'd gotten to know Monique so well that I read her like an open book now. She didn't need to complete some of her statements before I knew what it was. We definitely were soul mates. Our future wasn't something we'd both sat down to ever discuss, but we knew we were spending the rest of our lives togetherโthat one was insured, it was a matter of timing. Just when I was thinking about her, she walked in for a bit before stopping at the door, her hand stretching and holding the door frame as though if she didn't, she'd lose support, and break a bone. I was stunned by her position. "What?" I asked her, smiling. "What the shirt says, you dummy." My eyes landed on her shirt, and it said 'Marry me, Marcus'. Cross my heart, if I could faint, wake up and faint again, I was going to do so. What the fuck was this life
Two Months Laterโฆ MONIQUE " It's really fucked up, G. " I said, shaking my head and still caught up in the shock of seeing her. It had been almost four months. "I'm an asshole, I know, but I'm so fucking sorry."Looking at Gina kneeling before me right now, there was nothing I could do. Something in me so badly wanted to hate her for abandoning me for almost two months, but I couldn't just bring myself to oblige. Yes, she did abandon me, but my mind went back to the times before the abandonment. To the beautiful memories we shared. I was guessing there was a limit to the extent she could go for me. She'd always told me that there was nothing she wouldn't do for me, but the day we trusted humans was the day it was going to be over for us, and the sad thing was that I really did take her word for what it was. At the end of the day, we were all humans, and were always going to fuck up no matter what. Marcus and I had discussed, and we'd come to the conclusion that I was going to le
MONIQUE The love of my life was stooping down close to me, and I was looking at him right in the eye. That eye contact was all the assurance I needed. I'd waited for this for so long. "I love you." I said, my voice so fucking evident of the stenght that I lacked. I didn't want to think about it. To think about Adrian, and what he took away from me. God, remembering it made fresh tears fall from my eyes. It was as though he understood me. With his thumb, he brushed the tears away. "He did this to me." I said to him, crying. He raped me. It wasn't only him. They were so many. " I was a sobbing mess by the time I was was done with my statement. It was a good thing that I was vulnerable with him. "I know." Marcus said, nodding. I continued to stare at him while sobbing and swallowing those silly lumps that formed in my throat every so often. I looked crazy because while Adrian was definitely I cried, and that drained some of the energy in me. Once I passed out and woke up a while ag
MARCUSI hope I'm not late. I hope I get there just in time, and she's still very much alright. I pray that I wouldn't have to live a life filled with regret because of actions I could prevent from happening. I didn't have any excuse for leaving her, but I was guessing uncertainty was one of the things that triggered it. I'd been gone for a while when I could have just gone on my knees and begged her to give me what she was willing to. I'd have accepted it. Rather, I took it to the extreme, and revealed secrets that I should have waited to tell her. She's in danger now, and if anything happens to her, I'll never forgive myself. I thought I was going to be able to beat the time, and be there early but a lot of factors led to the delay. The first one being that it rained, and given that condition, there were things the horses could do, and things they couldn't. Never in a million years will horses suddenly want to function when it was raining cats and dogs. Not really a valid reason
MONIQUE There was no way I could talk with a gun in my mouth, and so all I did was nod and put my palms together as an indication of plea. The tip of the gun was touching my throat, and I swear to God, I wanted to puke so bad. "You're going to suck on the gun, spit on it, and gag until I tell you to stop." He said. Right there, and then, my gag reflex was on high alert, and I almost choked on the weapon that was in my mouth. I shook my head, indirectly saying 'you don't have to do this'. The magnanimity of the whole situation triggered more tears, and they just kept falling and wetting the ground below me. I could go lower and lick the tip of his shoes right now, but not this. Anything but the gun in my mouth. What even made the matter all the more awkward was the fact that there were people in this room watching me. So many fucking people. Thank fuck this wasn't the United States, and this was one of those occasions where I was grateful to God for not allowing civilization to ha
MONIQUE "Don't do this." I shook my head, attempting to stop the tears from falling, but God, it really was hard. Was this how everything would end? You know, for all these months, a fragment of my mind, and a part of me believed I was going to get that happily ever after ending just like everyone. If someone told me that I would walk to my death majestically, I'd laugh because in my head, that person would be a fucked up sadist with a messed up life. I always had hope. "How the mighty have fallen." Adrian's wicked laughed pierced through the air again, and I'm actually so done. He rubbed his chest as he got closer, and closer to me. "What do you even want?" I asked, still seated there--preparing for my death with all sorts of food laying on the table before me. "You're quite foolish for a billionaire, don't you think? I want it all. I want the power, the wealth, every fucking thing!" He said, stamping his feet on the ground while I sat there, looking at him right in the eye--wh
MONIQUEFrom the moment I stepped into this house, suspicion stirred in in my stomach, fear climbing up my spine, but I refused to give in. There was no turning back now. I had to face the music. I didn't even know anyone here, and so if anything happened, there was no one to call to get me out of here. "Make yourselves comfortable, yeah." She said, that Welsh accent making rearing its head. You could take the woman out of the village, but never could you take the village out of the woman. "We have tea, wine. Whatever it is that you want." She said. Adrian walked to the closest seat to the fireplace and made himself comfortable while I remained standing-- the driver, and the maids as well. Adrian was probably going to yell at them if they sat. " Monique, don't do that where I am. Will my lap be more comfortable than the chairs?" Adrian asked. I could see his teeth through the fire, and I wanted nothing more than to pull each of them out while I watch him wallow in agony. The dinwi
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โThe same way Adrian stormed in to tell me about the ball organized by the Welsh prince was the same way he stormed in during the early hours of today to tell me to get ready. He said we were journeying to Wales. Today was one of those days I missed Gina. Better suck it all in, and move on. He didn't just march in, he also brought along with him the dress I was supposed to wear. He said he didn't want me looking eerie. I knew myself so well. The Monique of two to three months ago would have slapped that sick son a bastard in the face, and thrown the dress at his face, but all I did was sit down, and look at him like someone who was mentally ill. I was really missing my old self. I pondered on what it was going to take me to get back to that state of mind. The dress wasn't too far away from me as I laid in bed. The tranquility in this room, goodness me. God knew I needed this. Maybe this trip was what I needed to get out of th
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โFunny of me to think that we were finally heading somewhere, and it all came crashing down when he uttered those words. Fuck me. Frankly speaking, though, Marcus did nothing wrong. How fast did I forget that it was me who told him to let it all out? He could've kept it to himself, and we'd still be going strong. Fuck, I was a fool. It had been what? Three days of self-isolation. Hunger had dealt with me so much, but the pride in me wouldn't let me get my ass out of bed and get something to eat. I, myself couldn't deny the certitude of my life being repetitive. If Monique Jenkins' life was a course of study in colleges, universities, and tertiary institutions, there'd be no one that would major in that because of the magnitude of the boredom they were going to get from it. Let's be real, though, school on its own was boring, but Monique Jenkins' life would lead you to commit suicide. Her life was bland, and wishy-washy, and boy did she crave some spice? Of course.