Ava knew that she had messed up again.She let the razor drop onto the floor as the tears began rolling down her cheeks. She wasn't supposed to be like this, she was supposed to be stronger. This was the coward’s way out and she knew it but she still couldn’t stop herself whenever the urge came until it was too late to do so.But she knew that she had to be strong if not for Kim and her friends, for herself and the baby growing inside of her. She turned on the water on the sink, putting her wrists underneath as the water turned red going down the drain. She felt the panic building up inside her.She was usually the first one awake most times. She always was, even when Sebastian had been sleeping next to her, she could never sleep for long.Her blood was still racing from the nightmares she had and now she felt rather lethargic as she sluggishly moved her limbs out of the bathroom holding onto the doorpost for support.Nobody was supposed to see me like this and that was why she had
Kim took a couple of glances at Ava and her heart broke at her state, she looked like she hadn’t taken a shower or done anything to her appearance in a long time, her eyes still had traces of makeup smeared all over, her hair was messy and she packed it in a bun that was holding only a couple of strands right now, her skin looked ashy and she had lost considerable weight and underneath the robe and baggy clothes she wore, Kim knew that it was a lot worse than she had earlier envisaged. Ava was hurting and she’s been hurting for a long time it was rather difficult to believe that the person standing in front of her was her sister who had been so full of life only a couple of weeks ago. So much had changed since then and it had all been for the worse. “Are you going to keep staring at me?” Ava said, speaking for the first time in days. She had almost forgotten what she sounded like but seeing Kim standing rooted to a spot was getting uncomfortable, especially seeing as her eyes hadn’t
“Absolute nonsense!” Kim cut in. “Well, we’re here now and I’m hoping you’d stop thinking this way.”“What do you mean?” Ava tried to feign ignorance. “Acting dumb won’t change anything,” Kim scoffed. “You know what I mean and you need to stop feeling that way.”“Things are easier said than done,” Ava smiled wistfully. “You think I wanted to crawl into my shell or you think I woke up one morning and decided that I want nothing more to do with the world and its shenanigans? Things happen and people change, I’m guessing that this is the new me now.”“What about your child, Ava?” It was Violet who spoke this time around. “Isn’t your child worth fighting for? Don’t you want to live for your child?”“I’ll be having a child born into a broken home?” Ava laughed dryly. “Do you think that’s what I want? Everything is working against me, everything. I’m tired and I don’t know what else to do except lay in bed and wait for everything to pass.”“Life doesn’t work that way, Ava,” Violet replied.
“You shouldn’t put your life on hold because someone doesn’t know the value of your worth, You taught me that yourself and now you want to go back on your own words?” Kim said which made Ava sigh, she was sounding like some kind of relationship expert. She had always been like that, never one to shy away from speaking her mind and calling it as it is but conversations with her were always soothing and I found myself opening up to her more, like I always do."I loved him, Kim. I thought my love was enough for him, for us." Ava said, tears beginning to pool in her eyes once again as she tried to hold them back."I know you did and that is why we need to go out tonight! Free your mind from boys and their problems, he doesn't deserve your tears, got it?” Kim replied with a huge smile spreading on her face as she looked at Ava."I don't think I wanna do that. I mean, I haven’t gone out in over a week and I think I’d like to keep it that way and avoid human interaction as much as I can. So
They entered a club that was filled with people, there was barely any space given how packed the club was. It was one of the biggest and exclusively rich clubs for the elites only and it seemed like everyone had come out to party tonight.Dim lights and loud music filled the atmosphere and Ava could feel people's lingering stares as she walked past with Renee, Violet, and Kim on either side of her but she didn't know if they were good or bad. Eventually, she put it down to her growing popularity in the city, she could hardly go anywhere without being recognized anymore.She knew many eyes were on her and it felt uncomfortable when she figured out that they all knew she was engaged to Sebastian and they were waiting to see if he would come around, their breakup was still under the carpet until Sebastian decided to go public with it and she couldn’t help but wonder why he hadn’t done that till date. Ava tried to push it aside and she forced her path toward the bar where she ordered seve
On getting to his apartment, they got out of the limo and Antonio carried her up the stairs. Ava shook her head in disagreement so he placed her down, she didn’t want that because it mostly reminded her of the same man she was trying so hard to forget. She fixed her dress, taking his hand in hers as they walked into the entrance of his building. Even though she was drunk, she still felt that she could still think sanely or she was living in delusion that she knew what she was doing. They entered the elevator and when the doors closed, he turned to her and cupped her ass as she straddled him. Low grunts and moans escaped their mouths as they both kissed passionately. “Tell me your name, Tesoro." He questioned in his Italian accent. "We don’t need to know each other's names, it’s not important right now. Don’t you think so too?” Ava whispered, finding it difficult to breathe in the heat of the moment. "My name is Williams Campbell," Antonio lied smoothly, still kissing her jaw, dow
The shock set in Ava’s eyes as it tore open and she was instantly greeted by the morning sun, the weight around her waist was the arm of his stranger, draped over her as he still slept peacefully, unmoving when she slipped out of his hold as quietly as possible. She spared a glance around the big spacious room, her jaw slightly dropping at the sheer size of it, due to the glass surrounding the room too, she got the perfect view of the city from up here but she didn't have the time to be enthralled by the sight as she hurriedly looks away.A squeak escaped her lips as the soreness she was expecting between her legs wasn’t there, She looked back at the peacefully sleeping man, glad he didn't stir at the sound as she made her way around the room on heavy legs. She couldn’t remember exactly what happened last night but they didn’t have sex, Her memories were a little bit fuzzy but she could remember feeling tired and resting her head on his shoulders to catch a quick sleep. From the looks
The room fell silent instantly and Ava instantly regretted letting those words out but she just had to express herself. She was dying on the inside and if she didn’t talk to them about what was eating her up, then she might as well shoot herself in the head here and now. She appreciated everything they were trying to do for her but at the same time, it wasn’t what she wanted or she had lost the zeal for it. “Last night was the perfect time for it, it was the only time I had come close to forgetting that I did have something to do with Sebastian. At some point, I was happy that I finally attempting to move on from the hurt and disgrace he had brought to me but I botched everything up and I know I said that I left because I didn’t want an awkward conversation with the stranger when he woke up but it was also because I felt ashamed of what had happened during my sleep.”“What happened? Did he—““He didn’t do anything to me, I promise you.” Ava quickly cut Kim short before she went any