Never Again 🌷 “If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• Everything seemed to be exhausting me, no matter how much sleep or how much coffee I drank or how long I laid down, something inside me seemed to have given up. I've learned to be friends with the broken. They know how to survive and have a depth of great love and understanding. I learned that we should not fear as we will find our way eventually. It was in our bones, it was in our soul. Then why did I feel chills when Xavier threatened me to call Marc? Facing Xavier was one of my greatest fears and now facing Marc would be my breaking point. Because I was just not ready, not now. And now upon everything, I've a very handsome little boy invading my thoughts. I had to know about him, everything, I wanted to know everything. But, would Xavier let me be near him? No, why would he. I was still that person who ruined his life once and whenever he looked at me, he'd remember the same sh
Never Again 🌷 “The energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgement; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.” Brené Brown ~•~ E V E L Y N• |FIVE YEARS AGO| Knowing someone was the process of three phases. When you were in the initial phase, you knew basic things about the person, but you knew nothing about the personality. And when we crossed that phase, entering into the middle one while trying to understand the personality, there came a lot of misunderstandings, fights, trust, issues and dilemmas. It happened with everyone. Once you sailed through that phase, you'd start knowing that person within as you had all the learning, which you had gained in the middle phase full of trauma. Crossing the middle phase, we'd start knowing a person in true senses like habits, behaviour, thinking process, reactions in particular situations etc. You might fall in love with that perso
Never Again 🌷 “In a sea of people, my eyes will always search for you.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• As I finally got my monthly check, Kat could not stop bickering about having dinner in her favourite restaurant. And, on top of it she thought, outing would take my mind off of some things. So, I agreed. The restaurant felt as if I had entered a dreamland, the happy chatter, the fragrances, the easy and natural colours. "Sorry ladies for being late." Said Mason and both of our heads jerked to him, throwing daggers at him with our eyes. "What?" He asked innocently, when he took in our angry faces. "One hour! You're one hour late, gentleman." Said Kat, pressuring the word 'gentleman' a little more as she eyed him warily, crossing her arms in front of her chest to which Mason leaned down to kiss her cheeks. "We thought you forgot, Mase." I said, giving him my best glaring eyes. "Forgot about dinner in such a fancy restaurant. Are you kidding me Angel?" Said Mason, winking at me. Seeing M
Never Again 🌷 “Spin me around, knock me off my feet, try to stay dry but you rain on me. You know, you can be my hurricane. Blow me away, pick me off the ground, try to stay dry but I just might drown. Honey, you can be my hurricane.” -Midnight Cinema ~•~ E V E L Y N• It was Saturday afternoon and I was at the grocery store getting supplies for the week ahead, well this was Kat's turn to get all the groceries and since Mason and Kat weren't getting their 'cozy-alone-time', I was incharge of doing the job today. While I was filling the cart with buns for the hamburgers and hot dogs, I heard someone sobbing at the other side of the shelves. Moving away from my cart, I walked towards the end of my side to turn towards the side from where I heard someone sobbing. There I saw a small boy, sitting on the floor while his head was resting on his knees. Moving forward towards him, I crouched in front of him. "Hey, sweetie?" I said, softly. The small boy heard me and he instantly wi
Never Again 🌷 “Somehow everything I own smells of you, and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.” -Snow Patrol ~•~ E V E L Y N• My heart was thudding in my chest, I had a doubt that I might get a cardiac arrest. He might be here any minute. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that it took me a few seconds to comprehend that someone was knocking on the door. Standing up from the couch, I ran to answer the door when the banging grew louder. It made me groan with irritation. How impatient he had become?! I hesitantly opened the door, revealing undeniably sexy looking Xavier as he was dressed in white casual shirt and denims, with a little beard giving him a mouthwatering look. But, he looked very angry. His eyes were a darker shade of green, it was mesmerizing. "Hey." I greeted him, but he didn't reply and just watched me. Why the hell was he angry? I was the one supposed to be angry, not him. "Where?" Asked Xavier, that was the only word left from his lips. With a tired
Never Again 🌷 “When someone is crying, of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them.” -Lemony Snicket ~•~ •E V E L Y N• Finally! I'm going to learn the truth. I sat on the couch at the far corner of the living room and watched Xavier pacing in front of me. I closed my eyes when the nervousness started to freak me out. "Xavier! Will you stop pacing? You're making me nervous." I said, and rubbed my neck subconsciously. Suddenly he lifted his gaze to me and said, "Fine! I'll tell you everything but in turn you have to promise me that you'll keep your mouth shut and won't utter a single word to anyone about this." He negotiated. "Why would I say anything to anyone? I want to listen to the truth. So start speaking, it's already past eight in the evening!" I said whilst glancing at the watch on his wrist. Now that I noticed, for a rich person, he only wore one watch. I shook
Never Again 🌷 “Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• It was already past ten in the night, and Alex woke up an hour ago. That little kid came running barefoot towards his Daddy, wrapping his small arms around his calves and squeezing as tightly as he could. "Daddy!" He exclaimed in his cute little voice that would always melt my heart. "I miss you." That was all Xavier needed to hear. "I missed you too, buddy," he smiled and picked him up. As Alex slept straight for the whole evening, I thought he might be hungry so I ordered a pizza and asked Xavier to stay, while he was reluctant to agree but looking at his son's mischievously innocent face, he agreed. Right now, we were sitting in my living room, and I sat by Alex' side after ordering the pizza. "So, Alex, your dad was saying you're going to be in first grade this year? Are you excited?" I asked. "Yeah, Dad says I get to make a lot of new frien
Never Again 🌷 “There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved.” -George Sand ~•~ •X A V I E R• The elevator wasn't working today as it was under repair and each employee on our floor was sweating hard when I walked past them in the morning. It was not easy to climb thirty sets of stairs and it wasn't certainly easy to do it on a warm day like this. At moments like today, I was grateful for the cardio and stamina building exercises in the gym. Once reaching the office, I saw a leaning figure of Evelyn, breathing heavily in her office. The scene from Saturday night made an appearance in my memory, the way she interacted with Alex and all the lovely things he was talking about her. Alex not only inherited his aunt's eyes, but also some of her habits. I felt a tug in my heart seeing him with Evelyn, after five years of hating her with every fiber of my body, that night I felt a spark as if someone gave life to the bond that we had. But, I cannot fall for her agai
Never Again 🌷 “I fell in love with his soul, before I could even touch his skin.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• -TWO YEARS LATER- It had been two years after that horrified day, two years for Marcus' wedding, two years being mother to three amazing kids, two years since Xavier started acting like him and me as hus, to win my trust back. And in these two years, he never touched me without my permission. I still get scared remembering the day when I thought I lost my kid, my son, my happiness, Alexander. Yes, Savannah did pull the trigger, but Xavier pushed the gun away from Alex and he missed it by an inch, or else… Breathing out, I suddenly remembered the day when Alex asked me if I could be his mother too, if he could call me Mom too. That day was the best day of my life, we both had tears in our eyes. Of course, I wanted him to call me Mom, but when he wanted to. His face held so much emotion, and Xavier actually shed some tears when he heard Alex calling me Mom, he was finally reli
Never Again 🌷 Xavier and Mason immediately contacted their detective and the Hawaii police. Evelyn texted the cottage's address to Xavier, according to which they reached the cottage. The detective had asked for a backup which was secretly following them at a distance of a kilometre. Xavier was about to break the door using his foot, when Mason grabbed his arm and pulled him behind, "Don't be a fool Xavier, they can't know our arrival." Nodding his head, they both let the detective and Hawaii police enter the abandoned cottage. There were numerous narrow passages and it was really hard to know where they kept Alexander and Evelyn, until, "Stay away from my son!" Yelled Evelyn. Following the voice, the police increased their pace as they made their presence known to the criminals, warning: "FREEZE! THIS IS HAWAII POLICE." Savannah's eyes widened as she exclaimed in disbelief whilst looking at Evelyn, "You played us!" "You are a criminal." Spat Chris. "I'm not gonna let you
Never Again 🌷 E V E L Y N• I was being dragged, again. The bulky man held my forearm really tight and continued tracking me out of the cell and through the narrow passage I was pretty sure my blood circulation had stopped by now. "Rose!" Alex screamed when a man slapped him hard on the face. It made my blood at another level. "Leave him the fuck alone out of this!" I yelled to the top of my voice as I pushed my nails in the wrist of my captor. The man dragging me, pushed open the metal door before we entered. He shoved me, not so gently on a wooden chair and tied my arms and legs, they did the same with Alex and he was crying uncontrollably. It made my heart break again and again. Screaming in my head, 'Where the fuck are you Blake?!' Trying to wriggle out of the ropes. I tried hard but all the energy was drained from my body. I didn't have the energy to lift my finger, I just threw my head back and closed my eyes tightly. Looking sideways, "Alex," I called him as he looke
Never Again 🌷 •EVELYN / ROSE• That was probably the longest drive of my life, in these twenty-four hours my life had turned upside down. First my kids got hospitalized and my daughter's condition was critical when a guy with eyes familiar to my kids, declared his claim on my kids. He thought I was a fool or he was mistaken that I was weak. I could be anything but that, in these five years I've learned to cope with my unknown past, I know how to connect dots. And after connecting everything that happened in these past few weeks after Mr. Knight entered my life, it led to a conclusion. Xavier Knight is indeed related to my past, but to what extent, I didn't know until tonight. How could I be so foolish to not acknowledge the feelings, his look, that unknown connection to his son and the familiarity between my kids and him. I knew, I was afraid to voice out the truth, but somewhere back in my mind, I know who he is to my kids. But, for now I don't know what he is to me. Ther
Never Again 🌷 I moved my eyes to see Mason and Marcus, but they weren't there, "They went to fulfill the requirements." Answered Evelyn for me. She walked out of the room as I trailed behind her, once we were in a quiet isolated zone, seeing the rise of the sun. No words were exchanged and it was uncomfortable, I looked at her through my peripheral vision, my brows drawn together slowly as I gazed upon her pretty face. Even with the light scar on her forehead she still looked as beautiful as the day I saw her walking down the aisle. "I'm going to ask you something and please be truthful." She said, turning her body towards me to which I nodded. "Have we met before?" "Yes, we have." I answered absent-mindedly and mentally cussed myself, "At your office." "Before the office I mean." She cleared. "Not that I remember of, why did you ask?" I questioned. Stop it, Xavier. She knows you're lying. "You eyes," looking into my eyes, her gaze was like she was finding something in my
Never Again 🌷 X A V I E R• After the doctor checked my blood pressure, he went to see the status of my daughter. When I declared the relation of being the father to the kids, Evelyn's hard eyes weren't easy to ignore. They had questions, numerous questions in those dark browns. She looked like she was going to explode and burn me alive. Although, she did utter a single word, asking, "Why?" It wasn't just a word, it was the whole train of questions. I knew she wouldn't back down until I answered the question, so to my stupidity, I said, "It wouldn't take much time now considering the donor is her father." I very well knew it was a stupid reason, but I had to give one. Descending down the corridor, I made my way toward the room that the doctor had asked me to come to. I halted in front of OT-07, the room allotted to my daughter, my heart was racing at another level and I did not want to break down here. "I know," someone said beside me that broke the train of my thoughts. Te
Never Again 🌷 “Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow.” ~•~ A heavy feeling settled in Xavier's stomach as his body went extra stiff and rigid. A sudden coldness dreaded in his being when Evelyn said with a horror stricken face, "Kids! They are in hospital!" Aiden's eyes widened in alarm as he held her arm in a firm grip, "Let's go." And started dragging her towards the elevator. His feets were glued to the surface and wasn't able to make any movement. What did she mean by kids? Whose kids? Are they hers and Aiden's…? No-no, no, NO! Meanwhile, "I'm sorry, it's an emergency. I'll make it up to you later, we better leave." Aiden said in a hurry to Mason and Katherine. "Rubbish we're coming along, let's go," declared Mason, turning his head, "Marcus!-" Before Mason could finish, Marcus came with his car-keys, saying, "Let's go." It was hard for Evelyn to grasp any voice as she herself reached the elevator and pressed the button, not waiting
Never Again🌷 “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist.” ~•~ •X A V I E R K N I G H T• There she was, the love of my life, my wife. She looked so simple, yet so beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off of her as she walked in wearing the green dress. Amazement was so obvious in her honey browns, the moment my eyes landed her hand intertwined with Aiden, my jaw clenched. I balled my empty hands in fists to prevent myself from ripping his hands off her but when she slipped away from his hold, my fists loosened. Sitting on the stool, I saw her confused features while interacting with Katherine. Pouring myself a glass of whiskey, I sipped on it while just admiring her, my Rose. Even if she doesn't remember anything about her past, she still had the very name I used. For the last five years, I haven't seen her, not even a single glance at her photo that had been placed upside down on my desk. I felt someone's hard gaze and I found Aiden glaring at me. Followi
"I…" my voice trailed as I pulled him into a hug to which he circled his hands around my neck, "Yes, I'll be there." I said, rubbing his back.Pulling away, he kissed my cheek, as I said holding his hands, "But, you'll not run like this, okay?"Nodding happily, he said, "Okay."With that I ruffled his hair and stood up at my place, and Alexander went towards Xavier.Before Aiden could say something to me, he got interrupted by a call as he excused himself and went to attend the call. While I looked at father-son's bonding, Katherine pulled me towards an empty table, "How are you?" She asked.Although a smile lingered on my lips, a frown accompanied it, "I'm good, why do you ask?" I asked."It's been years and-" Katherine stopped midway as she realised something."Years?" I pressed, my smile disappeared as a look of confusion took c