Never Again
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“Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breath, and have faith that everything will work out for the best.”
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•E V E L Y N•
The day wasn't peaceful for Xavier Knight as the faded memories of my betrayal were floating right in front of him. He masked the anger on his face gracefully as he averted his eyes from my face.
By losing the extra pounds gave him a more chiselled face than before, that was what you first noticed about him: a hard, chiselled face, like that of some ancient Greek statue. The way his white shirt had covered his forearms was telling me that he had spent his share of time in the gym. And, then, finally, there was his eyes…. His forest green eyes that horrified me in the last five years. They were dark pools of immeasurable depth, pools of agony that you could drown yourself in and never again come up for air.
Once messy dusty brown hair was now perfectly blended in gel to his right side, and against the current fashion of light beard, he was clean shaved.
But, if the last five years had taught me anything, looks are deceptive. I was not that girl anymore who ran after everything that screamed beauty, that girl died years ago.
"Miss...?" He studied my face with his calculative eyes, waiting for me to tell him my name. My file remained untouched as he didn't bother to look into it. He wanted to hear it from my mouth, as if he wanted me to feel the pain that he felt in these last five years, the guilt that lived with me corroding each and every cell of my body.
"Evelyn." I replied, lowering my gaze as I was unable to look into his eyes.
"Evelyn Knight?" He asked as if he wanted me to confirm it.
"Williams. Evelyn Rose Williams." I said, my voice got thickened with guilt.
My eyes flickered to his hands which were now balled into fists, indicating that he was trying to control his anger, like he was really good at it. A faint hint of smile played on his face, probably he was thinking about the cruelty of destiny that had brought us together after so many years.
He was about to part his lips to embarrass me further with another question when the door opened and someone walked inside. I kept my face still, even though curiosity arose in my mind regarding the intruder.
"Xavier, you need to be in the conference room. The British delegates are waiting for you." A masculine voice said.
"Oh, the British delegates are here, that would be fun." Xavier said as his lips twitch into a heart warming smirk. "Chris, continue with the interview." He stood up, giving me the chance to admire him.
"Miss Williams, Mr Walker will continue your interview. We will meet soon." The last line was for me to hear and for him to see my reaction on it. Keeping my face straight, I gave him a nod and then he walked past me.
The footsteps came closer as I felt the pair of eyes on me. The man started with a 'Hello' as he reached his desk, flopping on the chair without casting a glance towards me.
He had a very gentle smile on his face as I said, "You're the CEO, Mr Chris Walker." And instantly regretted it. "Sorry, it's just I didn't know the CEO would be taking my interview."
He chuckled before passing the glass of water to me while watching my nervousness. "It's fine. And the interview is regarding the post of my private secretary, so it'll be better if I take it personally. Hope you don't have any issue with it."
What Xavier was doing here? I thought.
As if he read my thoughts, Mr Walker answered, "Because I was busy in the meeting, so Mr Knight was taking the interviews. Shall we start?"
I gulped hard before nodding my head. He passed me another smile and looked into my file. Interlocking my fingers, I looked at his face, trying to read his expressions. He studied my file cautiously after which he closed and kept it away.
"Why did you take a three-year break after high school graduation?" He asked, staring intently at my face.
I couldn't tell him the exact reason could I?
"There were some family issues." I told him to which he nodded.
"You had a good GPA in high school. You could have easily enrolled in some best institute, why community college then?" He asked, leaning back into his chair.
Licking my dry lips nervously, I replied, "Like I said, there were some family issues. And financially I couldn't afford to join any big institute."
He nodded like he understood and asked a question which felt like a kick into my gut, "You had a profound interest in the fashion industry, why did you join business school?"
Searching through my brain for the appropriate answer but I didn't find any. I pulled my hair behind my ear and tried to think of an answer.
"Yes, I was really into the fashion world. But at that time, I had some big issues to deal with and as the time passed, I lost my interest in it." That was my best answer to which he nodded, again like he understood. But, I thought otherwise.
"Any special skills, Evelyn?" He inquired using my name this time.
How was I supposed to develop special skills when life didn't give me a chance to learn! I was too busy trying to survive on my own, fighting for the food to eat and learning special skills were of secondary priority to me.
"I can be a great negotiator, and I make great coffee." I said and a smirk appeared on his face.
"Great negotiator, then very well. And coffee is a major requirement." He commented.
Mr Walker was about to ask me another question, when a person standing right behind me asked a question which froze every tissue of my body.
"Do you think of yourself as a loyal person?" Xavier asked, while he walked past me and stood beside Mr Walker as his eyes held me captive.
"What?" I asked, dumbfounded.
"Loyalty is royalty, Miss Williams. And a very important quality that we want to see in our employees." He stated in a very cold and distant voice. "So, do you consider yourself loyal?"
I didn't know what to say, and I was not going to give him any reaction that he wanted me to express.
"Indeed, Loyalty is Royalty, Mr Knight. And I consider myself very loyal to this job." I said and his eyes were now fuming in anger.
"You can go now, Miss Williams. Our team will contact you if you get the job." He dismissed, sliding my file towards me.
Whispering a small thank you to him, I stood up and walked out of the room, but not before committing his chiselled face to my memory.
We will meet soon. His words were ringing like a bell into my ears and there was a high chance that we would meet again.
Never Again 🌷 “Characterize people by their actions and you will never be fooled by their words.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• "Are you two hundred percent sure it was him?" Kat asked the same question for the tenth time and I narrowed my eyes at her. "Yes Kat. I'm definitely sure." Rolling my eyes at her as I thought even if I hadn't heard his name, I'd still recognise those alluring eyes anywhere. Whenever my situation got worse, it would be his face that would appear in front of my eyes, telling me that Karma was definitely biting my ass off. "I ain't getting the job, right?" I sighed, eating the last slice of pizza left. "Lying is against my morals, darling." She said, amusement dancing in her eyes, but as she looked at my face, Kat got equally worried. Kat had always been my constant support since the day I met her, and I can't pay her back, at least not in this lifetime. But now, I desperately need a job. To regain my self-respect, my personality, to be independent. "Eve, look at
Never Again 🌷 “Hate is a terrible thing. It's a wasteful, stupid emotion. You can hate someone with all your heart, but it'll never do them a bit of harm. The only person it hurts is you. You can spend your days hating, letting it eat away at you, and the person you hate will go on living just the same. So, what's the point?” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• Sitting outside the office of Mr Walker, I waited for him to arrive. Despite my protests, Kat didn't let me wear my old clothes as I was dressed in her floral color pencil skirt and black button-up shirt, I looked really decent and professional. And finally the heels, which she stubbornly made me wear. I applied some natural makeup on my face and let my strawberry hair down so they reached my waist in light waves. It was already fifteen minutes past eight in the morning, and I had no idea what I was supposed to do and where to go. Time passed as it was exact nine in the morning, when I watched Mr Walker walking out of the private elevator
Never Again 🌷 “The beauty of life is, while we cannot undo what is done, we can see it, understand it, learn from it and change so that every new moment is spent not in regret, guilt, fear or anger but in wisdom, understanding and love.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• “If it was up to me, I would not even let you work in any of the companies in New York, let alone my office.” Those painful words kept ringing in my ears, stealing me of my peace of mind. I was already swimming in the pool of guilt, hearing those words from his mouth had left me in a puddle of misery. For years, I have been running from my past, facing the difficulties, but his face has brought me back to the place from where I started. To zero! "Damn! Babe!" Kat's yelling pulled me out of the trance. Turning my face towards her, only to find har staring at her laptop's screen with 'puppy- dog eyes'. "Why the hell didn't you tell me your Xavier Knight is the living Greek god?" "He's not mine, and secondly why on earth are y
Never Again 🌷 “We each begin in innocence. We all become guilty.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• Quickly turning away from the sight, I followed Kat through the crowd, hoping that he didn't see me. Not knowing why, but I looked back and we locked gazes. I couldn't look away, he was staring at me intently like a lion watching his prey. Feeling a tug just as I lost my focus on Xavier. Kat was already pulling me with her. We then arrived at our booth, so I could take a seat. "You wait here. I'll locate Mason and will get our drinks." I nodded and she strutted off. As she left, I observed the crowd was dividing itself into half and was dispersing to their respective sides, making a void in the middle of the stage. A handsome man walked down the aisle with a drink in his left hand, looking right into my eyes. And to my surprise, the man was none other than Xavier Knight himself. What was he trying to do? I thought. Xavier was standing in the middle of the stage, while the DJ announced, "Ladi
Never Again 🌷 “Sometimes life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you the thing you always wanted at the worst time possible.” Lisa Kleypas ~•~ •X A V I E R• Would you call it bad luck or the worst timing, if you end up working with the same person you spent five years hating? Evelyn Rose Williams, the girl that I loved with every nerve fibre in my being. But now, I despise her the most. Immature, materialistic narcissist who just cared about herself, who played with each and every person's emotions as they were pawns in her life. The girl who could stoop down to the lowest, if it benefited her in any way. The girl once ruined my life, and I'd never let that happen again. After five years of messing with my head, why the hell was she back? Why couldn't she just leave me alone?! The frustration that was stirring inside me was driving me damn crazy. I saw her getting appointed as my secretary, all thanks to Chris. And after getting appointed as the secretary of the CEO of a mult
Never Again 🌷 “True love will triumph in the end-which may or may not be a lie, but if it is a lie, it's the most beautiful lie we have.” John Green ~•~ •E V E L Y N• Wishing that Sunday didn't happen because unfortunately, I had to face Xavier today at work. It was a Monday and I planned to avoid him like the plague. I wasn't going to indulge myself in his business until he apologized for his behaviour the other night. If he even remembered, I thought. I arrived at work at an earlier time, so I started to sort out all the files that needed to be signed and reviewed by Xavier. Engrossed in work, I didn't even notice him entering the office. He didn't usually bother addressing my presence, so today was no different. After a while, my phone started ringing. Looking up from what I was doing, answered the unknown number. Before I could even greet the person on the other end, I heard, "In my office, along with all the important files." And then he cut the call. Way too quick, M
Never Again 🌷 “Just ask how I'm feeling, I want to say. Just ask and I may tell you. But no one does.” Melina Marchetta ~•~ ~FIVE YEARS AGO~ •E V E L Y N• Ever since I knew about the dreaded agreement between Williams and Knight, I had cried myself to bed every night. Seeing as Marc wasn't here to comfort and change my mood, I was left on my own. After I ate, I took a nice warm bath and retired to bed early. Never had I ever imagined that for the rest of the week after I agreed to meet Xavier, I would have to handle a lot of my school work to complete it early. As Xavier Knight would arrive from New York to here in California on Monday, I also had to finish off my school work for the next few weeks. Trying to smooth out everything by myself and by Friday night, I finally let out a breath I didn't know I was holding all week. My weekend flew by so fast. I didn't even get the chance to relax my nerves. I had to divert my mind from him as I kept dreading for Monday. Waking up a
Never Again 🌷 “To hurt is as human as to breathe.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• Engrossed in our previous memories, I haven't heard Mr Walker entering my office. "What are you doing inside your office during lunch time?" Mr Walker's voice reached my ears and I immediately turned towards him. "Mr Walker actually-" "Didn't I tell you to call me Chris?" She asked, smiling as I nodded in yes. "Yes Chris, I just finished reading our new project." I told him and he sighed, leaning in front of my desk as he placed his hands on it. "We don't work like that here, Evelyn. Besides lunch hours are prohibited to our workers, using it for work. Now, come on." He motioned her to follow him. "But Mr Walker… sorry...Chris wait.." before I could say anything further, he had already gone into Xavier's office through the joined door. Sighing, I dragged myself up from the desk and trudged towards Chris' office. The sight of two people greeted me who were sitting in front of his desk, one of them was Xavi
Never Again 🌷 “I fell in love with his soul, before I could even touch his skin.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• -TWO YEARS LATER- It had been two years after that horrified day, two years for Marcus' wedding, two years being mother to three amazing kids, two years since Xavier started acting like him and me as hus, to win my trust back. And in these two years, he never touched me without my permission. I still get scared remembering the day when I thought I lost my kid, my son, my happiness, Alexander. Yes, Savannah did pull the trigger, but Xavier pushed the gun away from Alex and he missed it by an inch, or else… Breathing out, I suddenly remembered the day when Alex asked me if I could be his mother too, if he could call me Mom too. That day was the best day of my life, we both had tears in our eyes. Of course, I wanted him to call me Mom, but when he wanted to. His face held so much emotion, and Xavier actually shed some tears when he heard Alex calling me Mom, he was finally reli
Never Again 🌷 Xavier and Mason immediately contacted their detective and the Hawaii police. Evelyn texted the cottage's address to Xavier, according to which they reached the cottage. The detective had asked for a backup which was secretly following them at a distance of a kilometre. Xavier was about to break the door using his foot, when Mason grabbed his arm and pulled him behind, "Don't be a fool Xavier, they can't know our arrival." Nodding his head, they both let the detective and Hawaii police enter the abandoned cottage. There were numerous narrow passages and it was really hard to know where they kept Alexander and Evelyn, until, "Stay away from my son!" Yelled Evelyn. Following the voice, the police increased their pace as they made their presence known to the criminals, warning: "FREEZE! THIS IS HAWAII POLICE." Savannah's eyes widened as she exclaimed in disbelief whilst looking at Evelyn, "You played us!" "You are a criminal." Spat Chris. "I'm not gonna let you
Never Again 🌷 E V E L Y N• I was being dragged, again. The bulky man held my forearm really tight and continued tracking me out of the cell and through the narrow passage I was pretty sure my blood circulation had stopped by now. "Rose!" Alex screamed when a man slapped him hard on the face. It made my blood at another level. "Leave him the fuck alone out of this!" I yelled to the top of my voice as I pushed my nails in the wrist of my captor. The man dragging me, pushed open the metal door before we entered. He shoved me, not so gently on a wooden chair and tied my arms and legs, they did the same with Alex and he was crying uncontrollably. It made my heart break again and again. Screaming in my head, 'Where the fuck are you Blake?!' Trying to wriggle out of the ropes. I tried hard but all the energy was drained from my body. I didn't have the energy to lift my finger, I just threw my head back and closed my eyes tightly. Looking sideways, "Alex," I called him as he looke
Never Again 🌷 •EVELYN / ROSE• That was probably the longest drive of my life, in these twenty-four hours my life had turned upside down. First my kids got hospitalized and my daughter's condition was critical when a guy with eyes familiar to my kids, declared his claim on my kids. He thought I was a fool or he was mistaken that I was weak. I could be anything but that, in these five years I've learned to cope with my unknown past, I know how to connect dots. And after connecting everything that happened in these past few weeks after Mr. Knight entered my life, it led to a conclusion. Xavier Knight is indeed related to my past, but to what extent, I didn't know until tonight. How could I be so foolish to not acknowledge the feelings, his look, that unknown connection to his son and the familiarity between my kids and him. I knew, I was afraid to voice out the truth, but somewhere back in my mind, I know who he is to my kids. But, for now I don't know what he is to me. Ther
Never Again 🌷 I moved my eyes to see Mason and Marcus, but they weren't there, "They went to fulfill the requirements." Answered Evelyn for me. She walked out of the room as I trailed behind her, once we were in a quiet isolated zone, seeing the rise of the sun. No words were exchanged and it was uncomfortable, I looked at her through my peripheral vision, my brows drawn together slowly as I gazed upon her pretty face. Even with the light scar on her forehead she still looked as beautiful as the day I saw her walking down the aisle. "I'm going to ask you something and please be truthful." She said, turning her body towards me to which I nodded. "Have we met before?" "Yes, we have." I answered absent-mindedly and mentally cussed myself, "At your office." "Before the office I mean." She cleared. "Not that I remember of, why did you ask?" I questioned. Stop it, Xavier. She knows you're lying. "You eyes," looking into my eyes, her gaze was like she was finding something in my
Never Again 🌷 X A V I E R• After the doctor checked my blood pressure, he went to see the status of my daughter. When I declared the relation of being the father to the kids, Evelyn's hard eyes weren't easy to ignore. They had questions, numerous questions in those dark browns. She looked like she was going to explode and burn me alive. Although, she did utter a single word, asking, "Why?" It wasn't just a word, it was the whole train of questions. I knew she wouldn't back down until I answered the question, so to my stupidity, I said, "It wouldn't take much time now considering the donor is her father." I very well knew it was a stupid reason, but I had to give one. Descending down the corridor, I made my way toward the room that the doctor had asked me to come to. I halted in front of OT-07, the room allotted to my daughter, my heart was racing at another level and I did not want to break down here. "I know," someone said beside me that broke the train of my thoughts. Te
Never Again 🌷 “Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow.” ~•~ A heavy feeling settled in Xavier's stomach as his body went extra stiff and rigid. A sudden coldness dreaded in his being when Evelyn said with a horror stricken face, "Kids! They are in hospital!" Aiden's eyes widened in alarm as he held her arm in a firm grip, "Let's go." And started dragging her towards the elevator. His feets were glued to the surface and wasn't able to make any movement. What did she mean by kids? Whose kids? Are they hers and Aiden's…? No-no, no, NO! Meanwhile, "I'm sorry, it's an emergency. I'll make it up to you later, we better leave." Aiden said in a hurry to Mason and Katherine. "Rubbish we're coming along, let's go," declared Mason, turning his head, "Marcus!-" Before Mason could finish, Marcus came with his car-keys, saying, "Let's go." It was hard for Evelyn to grasp any voice as she herself reached the elevator and pressed the button, not waiting
Never Again🌷 “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist.” ~•~ •X A V I E R K N I G H T• There she was, the love of my life, my wife. She looked so simple, yet so beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off of her as she walked in wearing the green dress. Amazement was so obvious in her honey browns, the moment my eyes landed her hand intertwined with Aiden, my jaw clenched. I balled my empty hands in fists to prevent myself from ripping his hands off her but when she slipped away from his hold, my fists loosened. Sitting on the stool, I saw her confused features while interacting with Katherine. Pouring myself a glass of whiskey, I sipped on it while just admiring her, my Rose. Even if she doesn't remember anything about her past, she still had the very name I used. For the last five years, I haven't seen her, not even a single glance at her photo that had been placed upside down on my desk. I felt someone's hard gaze and I found Aiden glaring at me. Followi
"I…" my voice trailed as I pulled him into a hug to which he circled his hands around my neck, "Yes, I'll be there." I said, rubbing his back.Pulling away, he kissed my cheek, as I said holding his hands, "But, you'll not run like this, okay?"Nodding happily, he said, "Okay."With that I ruffled his hair and stood up at my place, and Alexander went towards Xavier.Before Aiden could say something to me, he got interrupted by a call as he excused himself and went to attend the call. While I looked at father-son's bonding, Katherine pulled me towards an empty table, "How are you?" She asked.Although a smile lingered on my lips, a frown accompanied it, "I'm good, why do you ask?" I asked."It's been years and-" Katherine stopped midway as she realised something."Years?" I pressed, my smile disappeared as a look of confusion took c