Never Again 🌷 “Just ask how I'm feeling, I want to say. Just ask and I may tell you. But no one does.” Melina Marchetta ~•~ ~FIVE YEARS AGO~ •E V E L Y N• Ever since I knew about the dreaded agreement between Williams and Knight, I had cried myself to bed every night. Seeing as Marc wasn't here to comfort and change my mood, I was left on my own. After I ate, I took a nice warm bath and retired to bed early. Never had I ever imagined that for the rest of the week after I agreed to meet Xavier, I would have to handle a lot of my school work to complete it early. As Xavier Knight would arrive from New York to here in California on Monday, I also had to finish off my school work for the next few weeks. Trying to smooth out everything by myself and by Friday night, I finally let out a breath I didn't know I was holding all week. My weekend flew by so fast. I didn't even get the chance to relax my nerves. I had to divert my mind from him as I kept dreading for Monday. Waking up a
Never Again 🌷 “To hurt is as human as to breathe.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• Engrossed in our previous memories, I haven't heard Mr Walker entering my office. "What are you doing inside your office during lunch time?" Mr Walker's voice reached my ears and I immediately turned towards him. "Mr Walker actually-" "Didn't I tell you to call me Chris?" She asked, smiling as I nodded in yes. "Yes Chris, I just finished reading our new project." I told him and he sighed, leaning in front of my desk as he placed his hands on it. "We don't work like that here, Evelyn. Besides lunch hours are prohibited to our workers, using it for work. Now, come on." He motioned her to follow him. "But Mr Walker… sorry...Chris wait.." before I could say anything further, he had already gone into Xavier's office through the joined door. Sighing, I dragged myself up from the desk and trudged towards Chris' office. The sight of two people greeted me who were sitting in front of his desk, one of them was Xavi
Never Again 🌷 “It was never my intention to cause you pain. Whether you feel strongly or very little, that does not excuse thoughtless behaviour.” Jacquelyn Frank ~•~ E V E L Y N• Everyone was already in the limo when Xavier and I reached there. As we went in Chris asked, "What were you doing so long?" At that moment I felt a bit awful that I was also making everyone wait longer. And to rub salt in my wounds, Xavier laughed cruelly and replied, "She was being a woman, they always take time." "Well, she cleans up nicely." Chris chuckled and commented. "Thank you." I smiled. I hadn't realised that Chris' secretary, Lucy, had also joined us until she complimented me, "You look lovely." "Thank you Lucy, you too." I replied genuinely to which she smiled and started reading the file in her hand. Suddenly the vehicle stopped at this large building, it was so different from any I've ever seen, it's upper structure protrude outwards and it was magnificent. Everyone exited the li
Never Again 🌷 “Like a movie scene in the sweetest dreams, I've pictured us together.” Jennifer Lopez ~•~ •E V E L Y N• If I had to explain what type of person Xavier Knight had become, I couldn't. The way he was looking at me felt as if it was real but it wasn't. All these emotions, the manner he spoke to me usually were in contrast to the manner he was speaking to me right now. "What happened to you?" He asked and kept me locked in his arms. "Mr Knight, I.." Not caring about his pretence, I just wanted to tell him about this unbearable itching and pain. The odd unpleasant feeling of passing out in the midst of the event started to haunt me. This tormenting feeling inside me was growing stronger and stronger minute by minute. I had to get the hell out of this party, before the situation got out of control. As Xavier was about to walk away, I stopped him, "Xavier, wait." "What's wrong with you, Williams?" His face turned a bit irritated at me for keeping him waiting. Sudde
Never Again 🌷 “It has been said, 'time heals all wounds'. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.” Rose Kennedy ~•~ •X A V I E R• The wind blew my hair in a ruffled mess as I stepped out of my car. The weather was amazingly pleasant today, not too warm to cause me sweating, not too cold to make me shiver. But, when my eyes landed on the car stopped in front of mine, more specifically the redhead, my mood immediately turned sullen. "Thanks Kat, you're my lifesaver babe, I love you." She said to the person behind the steering wheel, looking towards her in a hurry. I wondered how someone being the braty ungrateful had learnt to thank someone. A sarcastic smile appeared on my face as I walked towards the building. Rose was rushing inside the building in full speed, this made me remember the other night when she got sick after eating those goddamn almonds, when I was seco
Never Again 🌷 “Only in the eyes of love, you can find infinity.” Sorin Cerin ~•~ •E V E L Y N• My breaths were coming out in gasps as I struggled to send oxygen towards my lungs. The nervousness was eating me alive, I've to stop and take a deep breath before looking at the little boy in Xavier's arms. "I miss you, Daddy." The little kid said, my eyes going from Xavier to the kid in front of me. Rather than looking at his son, Xavier was looking at my frozen state as he was trying to decipher my feelings. He has a son, I thought. Impossible! "Daddy!" The kid whined, breaking our trance as he followed his dad's eyesight to look at me. Beautiful, that's the only word to define him. He had an oval face, dark brown hairs complimenting his eyes. His eyes! Those enchanting, alluring eyes reminded me of mine. Exact replica of my eyes, light browns with green specks. Settling him down, Xavier tried to say, "Miss Williams, I think you should-" But I cut him off, showing my han
Never Again 🌷 “If two people are meant to be together, they will eventually find their way back into each other's arms…. No matter what!” ~•~ E V E L Y N• Our bodies were pressed against each other- fire to fire, heat to heat. I felt the heat surging from his body, rubbing against mine. My breathing hitched, yet I tried to push his built figure off me. "You think I'll simply let go of anyone who dared to rebuke me? And how can a silly….no, not silly, how can a spoiled selfish brat like you even talk like that to me? You have no right to indulge in MY personal matters! You get that?!" He raised his voice and I nearly flinched as his authoritative tone echoed around the room. I was numb to even react. My body ached, the whole world was spinning around me yet I never seemed to drown. I could feel his heartbeat thumping against mine. "Seems like your personal matter includes me and my family, so how about you tell me about Alexander?" I said, and tried to look confident under his
Never Again 🌷 “If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• Everything seemed to be exhausting me, no matter how much sleep or how much coffee I drank or how long I laid down, something inside me seemed to have given up. I've learned to be friends with the broken. They know how to survive and have a depth of great love and understanding. I learned that we should not fear as we will find our way eventually. It was in our bones, it was in our soul. Then why did I feel chills when Xavier threatened me to call Marc? Facing Xavier was one of my greatest fears and now facing Marc would be my breaking point. Because I was just not ready, not now. And now upon everything, I've a very handsome little boy invading my thoughts. I had to know about him, everything, I wanted to know everything. But, would Xavier let me be near him? No, why would he. I was still that person who ruined his life once and whenever he looked at me, he'd remember the same sh
Never Again 🌷 “I fell in love with his soul, before I could even touch his skin.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• -TWO YEARS LATER- It had been two years after that horrified day, two years for Marcus' wedding, two years being mother to three amazing kids, two years since Xavier started acting like him and me as hus, to win my trust back. And in these two years, he never touched me without my permission. I still get scared remembering the day when I thought I lost my kid, my son, my happiness, Alexander. Yes, Savannah did pull the trigger, but Xavier pushed the gun away from Alex and he missed it by an inch, or else… Breathing out, I suddenly remembered the day when Alex asked me if I could be his mother too, if he could call me Mom too. That day was the best day of my life, we both had tears in our eyes. Of course, I wanted him to call me Mom, but when he wanted to. His face held so much emotion, and Xavier actually shed some tears when he heard Alex calling me Mom, he was finally reli
Never Again 🌷 Xavier and Mason immediately contacted their detective and the Hawaii police. Evelyn texted the cottage's address to Xavier, according to which they reached the cottage. The detective had asked for a backup which was secretly following them at a distance of a kilometre. Xavier was about to break the door using his foot, when Mason grabbed his arm and pulled him behind, "Don't be a fool Xavier, they can't know our arrival." Nodding his head, they both let the detective and Hawaii police enter the abandoned cottage. There were numerous narrow passages and it was really hard to know where they kept Alexander and Evelyn, until, "Stay away from my son!" Yelled Evelyn. Following the voice, the police increased their pace as they made their presence known to the criminals, warning: "FREEZE! THIS IS HAWAII POLICE." Savannah's eyes widened as she exclaimed in disbelief whilst looking at Evelyn, "You played us!" "You are a criminal." Spat Chris. "I'm not gonna let you
Never Again 🌷 E V E L Y N• I was being dragged, again. The bulky man held my forearm really tight and continued tracking me out of the cell and through the narrow passage I was pretty sure my blood circulation had stopped by now. "Rose!" Alex screamed when a man slapped him hard on the face. It made my blood at another level. "Leave him the fuck alone out of this!" I yelled to the top of my voice as I pushed my nails in the wrist of my captor. The man dragging me, pushed open the metal door before we entered. He shoved me, not so gently on a wooden chair and tied my arms and legs, they did the same with Alex and he was crying uncontrollably. It made my heart break again and again. Screaming in my head, 'Where the fuck are you Blake?!' Trying to wriggle out of the ropes. I tried hard but all the energy was drained from my body. I didn't have the energy to lift my finger, I just threw my head back and closed my eyes tightly. Looking sideways, "Alex," I called him as he looke
Never Again 🌷 •EVELYN / ROSE• That was probably the longest drive of my life, in these twenty-four hours my life had turned upside down. First my kids got hospitalized and my daughter's condition was critical when a guy with eyes familiar to my kids, declared his claim on my kids. He thought I was a fool or he was mistaken that I was weak. I could be anything but that, in these five years I've learned to cope with my unknown past, I know how to connect dots. And after connecting everything that happened in these past few weeks after Mr. Knight entered my life, it led to a conclusion. Xavier Knight is indeed related to my past, but to what extent, I didn't know until tonight. How could I be so foolish to not acknowledge the feelings, his look, that unknown connection to his son and the familiarity between my kids and him. I knew, I was afraid to voice out the truth, but somewhere back in my mind, I know who he is to my kids. But, for now I don't know what he is to me. Ther
Never Again 🌷 I moved my eyes to see Mason and Marcus, but they weren't there, "They went to fulfill the requirements." Answered Evelyn for me. She walked out of the room as I trailed behind her, once we were in a quiet isolated zone, seeing the rise of the sun. No words were exchanged and it was uncomfortable, I looked at her through my peripheral vision, my brows drawn together slowly as I gazed upon her pretty face. Even with the light scar on her forehead she still looked as beautiful as the day I saw her walking down the aisle. "I'm going to ask you something and please be truthful." She said, turning her body towards me to which I nodded. "Have we met before?" "Yes, we have." I answered absent-mindedly and mentally cussed myself, "At your office." "Before the office I mean." She cleared. "Not that I remember of, why did you ask?" I questioned. Stop it, Xavier. She knows you're lying. "You eyes," looking into my eyes, her gaze was like she was finding something in my
Never Again 🌷 X A V I E R• After the doctor checked my blood pressure, he went to see the status of my daughter. When I declared the relation of being the father to the kids, Evelyn's hard eyes weren't easy to ignore. They had questions, numerous questions in those dark browns. She looked like she was going to explode and burn me alive. Although, she did utter a single word, asking, "Why?" It wasn't just a word, it was the whole train of questions. I knew she wouldn't back down until I answered the question, so to my stupidity, I said, "It wouldn't take much time now considering the donor is her father." I very well knew it was a stupid reason, but I had to give one. Descending down the corridor, I made my way toward the room that the doctor had asked me to come to. I halted in front of OT-07, the room allotted to my daughter, my heart was racing at another level and I did not want to break down here. "I know," someone said beside me that broke the train of my thoughts. Te
Never Again 🌷 “Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow.” ~•~ A heavy feeling settled in Xavier's stomach as his body went extra stiff and rigid. A sudden coldness dreaded in his being when Evelyn said with a horror stricken face, "Kids! They are in hospital!" Aiden's eyes widened in alarm as he held her arm in a firm grip, "Let's go." And started dragging her towards the elevator. His feets were glued to the surface and wasn't able to make any movement. What did she mean by kids? Whose kids? Are they hers and Aiden's…? No-no, no, NO! Meanwhile, "I'm sorry, it's an emergency. I'll make it up to you later, we better leave." Aiden said in a hurry to Mason and Katherine. "Rubbish we're coming along, let's go," declared Mason, turning his head, "Marcus!-" Before Mason could finish, Marcus came with his car-keys, saying, "Let's go." It was hard for Evelyn to grasp any voice as she herself reached the elevator and pressed the button, not waiting
Never Again🌷 “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist.” ~•~ •X A V I E R K N I G H T• There she was, the love of my life, my wife. She looked so simple, yet so beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off of her as she walked in wearing the green dress. Amazement was so obvious in her honey browns, the moment my eyes landed her hand intertwined with Aiden, my jaw clenched. I balled my empty hands in fists to prevent myself from ripping his hands off her but when she slipped away from his hold, my fists loosened. Sitting on the stool, I saw her confused features while interacting with Katherine. Pouring myself a glass of whiskey, I sipped on it while just admiring her, my Rose. Even if she doesn't remember anything about her past, she still had the very name I used. For the last five years, I haven't seen her, not even a single glance at her photo that had been placed upside down on my desk. I felt someone's hard gaze and I found Aiden glaring at me. Followi
"I…" my voice trailed as I pulled him into a hug to which he circled his hands around my neck, "Yes, I'll be there." I said, rubbing his back.Pulling away, he kissed my cheek, as I said holding his hands, "But, you'll not run like this, okay?"Nodding happily, he said, "Okay."With that I ruffled his hair and stood up at my place, and Alexander went towards Xavier.Before Aiden could say something to me, he got interrupted by a call as he excused himself and went to attend the call. While I looked at father-son's bonding, Katherine pulled me towards an empty table, "How are you?" She asked.Although a smile lingered on my lips, a frown accompanied it, "I'm good, why do you ask?" I asked."It's been years and-" Katherine stopped midway as she realised something."Years?" I pressed, my smile disappeared as a look of confusion took c