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2024-10-29 19:42:56Rufus inhaled sharply, his fingertips flexing against her hip. “I miss you so much”
“Did you?” she muttered. Why is he telling her that? He was with Alice for several days?
“Love, please trust me. I beg you to trust me.”
“How? When I can’t even remember the past and that maybe she had horrible past that made her ugly. It was her greatest nightmare realized. She’d feared that her past might negatively impact his attraction to her. And Alice...
Rufus breathed sharply and a low growl came from his throat. They stood there for a long moment, surrounded by steam and secrets, physically close yet emotionally distant. She hated it. The urge to cry was overwhelming and she didn’t fight it.
It felt good to get it out.
All the pressure of the long day seemed to flow out of her as she sobbed. The pressure of having no memories and of Alice and Rufus being together in France.
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