Miriam was astonished to see Jenna and even more overwhelmed to see the array of shifts and drawers. At least none of them were transparent, unlike some of Daphne's. No stays, but perhaps that was for the best. She had never liked being confined anyway.
Choosing a white one as if to make a point, she wondered what had happened to her gowns, though was relieved to see her choker. She touched the pale green ribbon beneath the single plait she had managed to fashion herself and felt a sense of achievement. Had she been transformed into a new person - Mia - overnight?
Cautiously, she ventured outside to see about breakfast. Cooking wasn't hard, it was the preparation which could be time-consuming. She had used a cauldron before, when she took a donation of food to a poor family only to find that their mother had fallen ill. It was mortifying to discover that a seven year old knew more than she about the chopping of vegetables and the girl had glowed under her praise, earning a special hug from her mother.
It was all a far cry from roast pheasant and she was thankful for that.
This was quite different. She hoped she wouldn't be in trouble for using her initiative. How hard could it be to make a porridge? Having found a sack of meal stashed at the back of the hut, she was determined to try.
Jenna helped her start a small fire and then it was a question of filling the cauldron with water. Between them they unhooked it from the suspending chain and lugged it to the river. Once full it was much heavier.
Sigurd was just emerging from his hut, looking fresher than he deserved. Seeing them struggling he came to assist.
Miriam avoided his pale green eyes after the initial glance, feeling self-conscious.
"Did Ketil order you to do this?" he asked. She shook her head. "You are going to be in so much trouble, Princess."
"Why? I'm not just cooking for myself."
The redbeard held up his hands and backed away, grinning. It irritated her no end.
Once the water was boiling they added some of the oatmeal and she realised she needed a stirrer. Raiding Ketil's weapons chest would only infuriate him further but she went to have a look anyway and that was when she discovered the lock. In the meantime, it seemed the ever-resourceful Jenna had gotten Sigurd to locate a wooden spoon. She took her leave soon after, signing her meaning in the simple way she had of pointing to her chest and then towards the palace.
Leaving the pot bubbling away, Miriam went back inside the hut. She didn't want to think about Ketil but she couldn't help it. He seemed to enjoy making her uncomfortable and she definitely didn't need any rouge.
Holding up a pair of drawers, she was mortified to see the Norseman regarding her from the doorway. He seemed to have a knack of turning up at precisely the wrong moment. His pose was relaxed, the folded arms probably a prelude to yet more mockery. Leaning there like that he seemed to be an extension of the wood, almost as if he had been carved. Immobility training; she supposed it went with stealth and had formed part of his military routine from birth.
Well, he couldn't disguise his scent. Or could he? Today he smelled faintly of an all-too familiar unguent. This was so unfair.
Thrusting the rather stiff linen aside she went on the attack.
"Been using the palace facilities, have we?" she accused.
"A guard's privilege."
"But not always a slave's, unless her master desires it."
"Did Jenna bring you more ribbons?"
"Why are you so interested in my accessories?" she demanded, hoping it was a word he wouldn't know.
"Who says I am? I was merely being practical, Mia. The pedlar is due to call again soon by all accounts."
"Then maybe you can purchase a comb for me, unless you want me to earn it first?"
"Curb your tongue, woman. Or I might just be tempted to take you up on that."
So saying, he uncrossed his arms and came all the way inside, closing the door.
She was extremely conscious that her drawers were of the over-large kind and were threatening to slide down her hips. That hadn't been a problem when she'd been able - no, allowed! - to tie them. Another discomfort to lay at his door. And yet, she couldn't remember him forbidding it. The smaller sized ones were likely to wrinkle and chafe if past experience was anything to go by.
Whatever happened, she wasn't going to venture outside without wearing any, even though Daphne had often boasted of doing just that.
"Am I in trouble?" she asked, taking a step backwards and almost tripping over the silver chest which contained his weapons.
"What makes you think you are not, Mia? Apart from disobedience and defiance, there is the not so small matter of your escape attempt."
Miriam knew she was in a predicament now. As a child, King Gregory was always punishing her for minor misdemeanours, unlike her frequent partner-in-crime Daphne. This time, she only had herself to blame.
"I did no such thing," she declared.
"Come to me, Mia."
Two spots of colour burned in her cheeks. She knew one side would be redder than the other. Never had she needed concealing white powder so much.
"Do you want me to crawl?" she asked, avoiding his eyes.
"Why would I desire that of you?
She could sense his barely held impatience.
"Father did. That's why my knees are ... "
Tailing off, Miriam realised she ought to move. Four paces later and she was staring at the middle of his chest. The aroma of sandalwood oil, one of her favourites, was much stronger now.
Ketil raised her chin so swiftly she let out a surprised gasp. Her drawers were on the brink of falling so she clamped her thighs together.
"I saw you in the night, peering out through the door. Tell me, would you have bolted had it not been raining?"
Those eyes. She couldn't bear to look into them much longer. Her legs were trembling and she wondered if pretending to faint would postpone her punishment. Unlikely, she decided. This man, this mercenary, was so knowing, so - indecipherable - that honesty was better than any of the wiles her sister would not have scrupled to use.
Miriam shook her head. "I have nowhere to go."
"Good answer," Ketil said. "So, why?"
"Why did I get out of bed and open the door? Isn't it obvious?"
"Maybe," he replied, starting to toy with her plait. "But I want to hear you say it."
"I wanted to - relieve myself," she whispered, lowering her lashes.
"But you waited until morning. Commendable. Mia, I would not have been able to protect you if you had gone outside without my knowledge."
"I'm not your responsibility."
"You are now, whether you like it or not. Look at me." His fingers brushed her cheek and she felt a tremor all the way to her toes. "Magnus says he saw you heading towards the palace before you appeared to think better of it."
"Magnus?"
"I asked him to keep an eye on you while I fulfilled my early morning duties."
"Had a bath, you mean?"
"Mia."
"Sorry, I - I wasn't thinking straight. I was going to confront my father, but I changed my mind."
"Do you always act so impulsively, so foolishly?"
"Have you never done anything rash?" she asked, and was gratified to see him flinch. "Is Magnus one of your mercenaries? Why haven't I met him yet?"
"You have, several times, as the bodyguard to the Princess Royal."
"The greybeard? I used to like him," she said.
"Explain."
"He's fallen out of favour now I know he's a spy."
"Be reasonable, Mia."
"Reason flew out of the window when my father sold me to a foreigner," she said.
That ice she'd been skating on was starting to reveal the freezing waters beneath if the expression on his face was anything to go by.
So this was how her last night with Ketil was going to be spent, with them both miserable and not even a loving kiss to temper her heartache. There was no going back now. In true Norse fashion she really had burned her boats. Miriam turned over, hugging the pillow. Once she had taken such a thing for granted. Yet the time spent without one had been so much more – enlightening. “Please say you will come for a visit when the snows melt.” “No.” It was an unfamiliar growl. “Ketil, this is hard enough without you behaving like this.” “Did your vows mean so little, Miriam?” That stung. “You know how to wound.” She wiped away a stray tear, determined to show no weakness. Her resolve was already crumbling, but he wasn’t to know that. “Go to sleep,” he said. “You will need all your strength tomorrow.” Something in his voice set her wondering. Miriam supposed she was merely clutching at straws. “You do not command me,” she told him, her eyes wide open. Moving onto her back in a huff
It was the hardest conversation yet but somehow she came through it, feeling virtuous and heartsick at the same time.“You know I am right, Ketil,” she said. “I was born to do this.”She could tell he didn’t like it.“Why now, Miriam?” he ground out. “Do you tire of me and wish for another? That noble husband I once promised to help you find.”“No, my love. There has only ever been you and I wish for no other. But King Hubert is losing public opinion. The people want a Feltspar. I owe it to Queen Eleanor.”“Well, that’s something at least,” he grumbled. “No debt of gratitude is owed to King Gregory, by any of us.”“I have to set right some of the wrongs he did. For her sake.”“You may think that, but I’m not so sure the King would welcome interference.”“He has already stated his approval.”“You sounded him out first? Miriam, sometimes I could strangle you.”“I – I didn’t want you to change my mind for me before I told him of my proposal,” she faltered, hating the fact that the old st
The fight was already under way when the two of them emerged into the light. Something was off about her husband’s stance and yet he was more than holding his own against a man who had spent his life pampered and indulged. It almost seemed as if Ketil were toying with him. That couldn’t be right. This was important.“Aunt Astrid’s brilliant, isn’t she? Better than half the men.”Trust Tyr to decipher what she could not. And where then was he, the love of her life? Not with Ragnar, who was giving a slow handclap. The gloves were new and she guessed he was becoming self-conscious about his deformity these days.Miriam held up her hand and asked for them to cease their duel.“There is no need now Tyr is free.”Expecting her cousin to back her, she was surprised to hear him say, “This matter needs to be put before the court.”She supposed it was only right that justice be served.“Will this take long? If a jury is to be sought then it could take weeks and we need to set sail for home befo
It was so much colder down in the dungeon. Miriam was concentrating so hard on not falling off the steps – the rope handrails had long since rotted away – that some of the fear for her first-born went unexamined. She longed for Ketil to scoop her up in his arms and carry her, even though she knew it would not be seemly. Even in the royal court long ago he had afforded her the dignity of walking.What had Mistress Ford said? Things were not as black as she had foreseen. Then why had Beyla experienced false pain? They had always been a close family. Her own legs were trembling and one look at her husband’s set face had shown her he was not himself.“What’s happening? I got here as soon as I could.”Sigurd. Just hearing his voice brought her a measure of relief. They had shared so much that was bad in the past. Surely she could come through this, as well?“It’s the King,” Njord told him. “It appears he has gone mad.”Thank God for that sensible, calm and competent young man. Whatever his
When they reached the palace as quickly as it was possible to do, Beyla feared that Njord would tell her to go to her room and bar herself in, admitting no-one. Instead he sought out her father with her in tow only for them to receive the worst kind of news. It seemed her brother was missing.The last possible sighting appeared to have been of him heading towards the edge of the cliff.“Tyr wouldn’t jump,” she said. “Not even if a thousand Celias changed their mind about marrying him.”“It was her family who objected to the match,” the Jarl corrected. “I thought all such prejudice was over and done with. Apparently not.”“Can you be certain it was him? I mean, Tyr’s a skilful climber. He might just have wanted some breathing space.”“That’s just it, Njord. One moment he was there, a speck on the horizon, the next he had vanished. I – I fear the worst.”Impulsively, Beyla hugged her mother. “If anything had happened to him, we would know.” She put a hand to her chest. “In here.”The ha
The day started out poorly and soon deteriorated with one exception. Miriam had begun to pack her things together but the idea was unappealing somehow. She felt restless and desired to be outdoors. Something was telling her there was a price still to be paid. Happiness was always costly in one way or another.Reassuring herself that Ketil was still on the mend brought its own unlooked for rewards and she lost herself in the bliss of their lovemaking for a while. Even so, she was on high alert like a mother hen for her chicks when the fox came to the henhouse. The notion that it was already here, once lodged in her head, would not go away.Was Beyla still under threat? Surely not Tyr? Could there be trouble back home in Eggsor? Magnus would have sent word if so and she didn’t mean the new King of Svedland.Considering Celia, who was seldom far from her thoughts if truth be known, Miriam realised how little she knew about her future daughter-in-law. Her first-born son loved her wholehea