"Is there anything wrong Miss Smith?" Mr Douglas asks.
My throat is tight, and I struggle to find the words to speak, to answer, but how can I talk when the air that is to fuel my words has evaporated from my lungs?"Miss Smith?"Mr Douglas's voice sounds like a faint siren to my already pounding ears. I lift my eyes from the paper and shoot my gaze at the boy that I have been trying to avoid making any eye contact with.Luke's eyes lock with mine. For a moment, the whole world goes silent and disappears, leaving me trapped in the chaotic blue ocean of my adversary's eyes.I feel the paper being taken away from my grasp, but I am too shocked and too immersed in my traumatic state to notice."Group Nine, we have Alicia Smith and Luke Evans."Luke's eyes widen in surprise. Low catcalls and whispers fill the air.This can't be happening! This nightmare can't be fucking happening to me!__________________________I am still frozen in place when Mr Douglas continues to call out the remaining three groups.What the hell is happening in my life today?!First of all, it was Sarah's unexpected question to me about mother. Secondly, I am suffering a pain in my left knee, thanks to Luke, the school's hot ass badboy for bumping into me and acting like a complete jerk. Thirdly, I am now paired with him for some stupid art project that I am so sure will determine the final outlook of my almost perfect result.What sort of bad luck is this?!"Remember, this project isn't just about the paintings. It is also about discovering more about yourself and your artistic abilities and energies."To hell with artistic abilities and energies Mr Douglas!"The project is to be submitted after your final examinations. It will be a crucial part of your grades in this subject. Have a nice day everyone."I tear my eyes from Luke's and groan inwardly as I watch Mr Douglas carry his files and notes and heads for the class door. Reaching the door, he stops and turns."Alicia, come to my office to receive a copy of the groups. I want it pasted on the class notice board for remembrance."I force a smile on my face and nod. To hell with remembrance!I glance at Reece, who is now staring at me with pity coating her eye pupils. I shift my eyes to Luke. He is indifferent now, with his right leg crossed over his left leg on his table in an obvious insolent manner.Typical Luke.I turn and trudge behind Mr Douglas as he finally leaves the class. I bang the door shut behind me.My trembling fingers rub over one another as I walk beside Mr Douglas to his office in silence, not even knowing how to begin my plea for freedom from the shackles of the walking handsome disaster that I am so sure will want to make this project a hellish one in my perfect academic life._______________________After some few minutes that felt like a thousand ages, Mr Douglas and I finally reach his office. He opens the door and enters. I follow him into his office and close the door as calmly and as gently as possible.He is more likely to listen to my plea if my actions do not show rebellion at him for the human chaos he has unknowingly unleashed into my life."Here, take it. Have it pinned on your class notice board."I collect the A4 paper from Mr Douglas's hand. I clear my throat a little, soothing my quivering nerves for the plea I am about to render."Mr Douglas, I have a favor to ask." I begin."And what would that favor be, Miss Smith?" He asks, his tone unnervingly even. His eyes are glued down to the students' assignments before him.I know Mr Douglas is a tough one, but saving myself and my sanity from having anything to do with Luke Evans is what only matters to me right now."Well sir," I continue, "I want to plead to you to please, pair me with a different group partner for the class project. Please sir. Having Luke Evans as my group partner—""—will be very alright for you, Miss Smith."Mr Douglas lifts up his bald head and leans forward."I am sorry Miss Smith, but I will not grant you your request. What you are asking of me is a favor of preferential treatment, which I will not fulfill. You and Luke Evans will definitely get along, and you both will work together to produce astonishing pieces for the project. Teamwork is built and not shyed away from Miss Smith.""Mr Douglas—""You can go back to your class now, Miss Smith."I can feel the deep frown forming on my face as disappointment and failure twists the coils inside my stomach. I try my best not to stomp the red rugged floor of Mr Douglas's office with my angry feet on my way out of his office.He didn't even give me a fucking chance to explain!I rest my back on the wall outside Mr Douglas's office, the A4 paper hanging limply from my hands. My brain rakes through a million options on how to evade working with Luke the bad boy on this wretched project and still retain my perfect result.I curse when no option gives me the desired solution I crave.My left knee starts throbbing in pain again, reminding me of my planned trip to the school's clinic. I lift my back from the wall behind me and straighten my hair.I turn and start to propel my feet forward, limping slightly as I walk down the hallway. I fold the A4 paper and tuck it into the left pocket of my blue jeans before taking a turn to my left.The door of the clinic stares at me from the far end of the corridor. My brain continues to whirl with thoughts on how I am going to navigate this impending doom.I reach the door of the clinic and turn the handle, pushing it open.What?!" I gasp.The breeze whips through Luke's hair, blowing it across his face. His hand pushes it back."Yeah. There is this lady called Sienna that I started seeing quite often with my dad since like three months ago. She is pretty, jovial, and I thought she was just one of my dad's friends. But this week Monday, my dad came out to me about his true relationship with her. I was paralyzed with shock to the point that I couldn't do anything that day." "You said you found out this week Monday?" I interrupt, my mind going through a puzzle."Yeah."The dots connect. Shit. "So that was why you weren't in school that day?" I blurt out, my realization hitting me with a bang.He nods. "The news fucked up my head so bad that I couldn't bring myself to come to school that day. I spent most of that day at Tyler's studio. I wasn't expecting to see you there later that day. I also wasn't in my right frame of mind." He sighs deeply. "I still feel a bit pissed at myself that I reacted so bad towa
This is cruel. This is so cruel. So cruel that I feel like dragging my fingers through my hair. So cruel that it reminds me of my own pain. So when Luke was grappling with his mum's death, I and Sarah were being whisked around from court to court to listen to my parents yell and throw curses at each other and to listen from judge to judge asking Sarah and I which parent we would want to stay with. Why do we have to suffer for the shitty things our parents did? We didn't force any of them to bring us into this world. The least they could have done for us was to try to be better for us."I passed the night at my uncle's place. I stayed in his house a couple more days, and then on the third day, in the morning, my dad showed up at my uncle's house, looking normal. He begged me to come back home with him. My uncle, who was his elder brother, beat him up so badly and had the police arrest him for trespassing his property. It was a tough, ugly scenerio to watch. During my mom's burial, my da
He goes super still and silent at my question for a while, but just when I begin to think that he may not answer me or do anything, his hands on my back and face leave my body. He steps back a bit from me and lifts his t-shirt up over his head, exposing his naked torso to me. My eyes go directly to the tattooed date on the left side of his abdomen.15. 05. 2012.I am not given enough time to ogle at it because Luke turns around in silence, his inked back facing me as he walks to a space on the clearing a little bit far from the motorcycle. I watch his hard muscles flex with each movement. They flex harder when he settles down on the mowed grass. He drops his t-shirt to his bosom, staring afar at the blue water crashing its waves to the rocks.I wonder what is going through his mind right now, but I know that whatever it is must definitely be related to my question earlier. His silence lures me to join him there, and I do. I walk over to him and settle down beside him on the grass. His
I stare back squarely at him, gulping hard. "Even if you wish you could take it back, the sad news is you can't, Luke, because I love you too."My somersaulting heart gradually stops thumping so hard, and I feel like a huge burden has just been uplifted from my chest. Luke blinks hard at my confession, the action making a single tear drop from his right eye down to his cheek. He wipes it away quickly as his eyes squint back at me, crease lines appearing on the top of his forehead. He takes a step back away from me, shaking his head. A sad chuckle escapes from his lips."You don't have to fucking lie to me that you love me just to make me feel better, Alicia. I do not want your pity. What I want is your complete honesty with me, at least I deserve that."My heart shreds. Why is everything crumbling so fast? I love him. Why can't he see that? I know exactly what I feel for him. It is crazy. Exhilarating, and I know for sure that I did not leave my fucking house just to come all this way
The wind whips through my hair roughly, wheezing past me in sharp gusts as Luke races down the road with a speed that steals every of my exhaling breaths away. I love the cool sharp feeling of the wind blasting my face, but what I love more is how the blowing wind carries Luke's scent to me.Gosh I love this. I love him. I still hate myself for having to deny the truth to myself for this long.We race past various cars and road signs, and I feel my eyes nearly popping out of their sockets when I catch the view of a set of hills outside town.The truth is that they are not just some ordinary set of hills that I have never seen before. They are the same set of hills that Luke and I visited the day he showed me his art studio for the first time. The blue water waves are splashing at the thick rocks beneath the tall cliffs, their crashing beauty reminding me of the awe I felt when I saw them for the very first time that day.I know Luke is taking us there. I can feel it deep in my guts.I
"Mr Douglas?" I croak out, still finding it very hard to believe my eyes.What the hell am I seeing right now?! What the freaking hell is going on here?!"Alicia what are you. . . . .what are you doing here?" He stutters back at me, his blue eyes bulging so wide that I can clearly see the shock and discomfort shimmering in them.Wait a minute.I turn my eyes away from Mr Douglas and place them right back at Luke, who is now staring at me like I just caught him gorging on a forbidden box of sweet milk candies. That is when I see it. Notice it. For the very, first, time.The resemblance is there. Fuck! It has always been there. In their identical deep blue eyes and perfectly sculpted jawlines. The rest of Luke's facial features look softer, feminine.And I figure out instantly that he may be sharing those softer features with his mom, who I am just finding out today, is dead.God. Why the fuck does no one in school know about them? Just how much don't I know about Luke Evans?The tensi