JORDI ADKINS“Why are you staring at me like that mom?” I stood right in front of the mirror looking at my shitty costume that my mom rushed to get me at some random store. Through the reflection, I could see my mom creeping up on me. “It’s creepy.”“I’m just... You’re a big boy now, Jordi.” She replied whimpering with such delight.“Mom, really?” I turned around to face her. “I’m about to turn eighteen in like three months from now. Why are you saying that as if I just turned fifteen yesterday. Quit treating me like a baby.” I went and it seemed that my mom’s not paying much attention to what I just said.“I just can’t believe my baby’s all grown up now.” She clutched her necklace staring at me as if she’s not ready to let me go out into the world. Although, she doesn’t actually need to know that I’ve been out there.“Er?...” I shook my head in utter annoyance.“It seems like yesterday you were just a crybaby and I’m just patching up your wounds here and there.” She breathes out just
JORDI ADKINS“Where are you taking me?” I inquired forced to trail behind Michiko who was just walking at such a fast pace as if someone’s running after her life.Michiko just ignored me and for a second, I was left hanging in the air thinking if I should just ditch her because frankly, I’m not friends with her or if should just be polite and follow her because she’s clearly the host of this party and I need to be in her good graces. I ended up choosing the latter.“This is my room.” She muttered once she led me inside this spacious abode adorned with lots of pink and girly stuff. The room felt definitely the gayest that I’ve seen in my entire life and I thought it was just some sort of a relaxation room and not her bedroom because it’s hell of a spacious room for just one person but I guess I just forgot that she’s filthy rich. “Welcome...”“Damn, Michiko. Your room looks more spacious than me and my parents’ room combined.” I said in awe.“Mich...”“What?”“My close friends call me
JORDI ADKINSThe night seemed very festive that even outside the Takao mansion, there are still plenty of people roaming around clad in their very own spooky costumes. Some are smoking behind these bushes, some are inching their way going towards the pool area on the east side where there’s a different sort of party happening and then some are already drunk as fuck most probably high too and they were just walking around like zombies.Zach and I just ran and ran until we got near the Koi pond where I had to stop because I almost tripped on my heels. I could already feel my knees burning. Who would’ve thought I would do some sort of a marathon on my first time wearing a six-inch pair of heels.“Are you okay?” Zach turned around and approached me.“Yeah, I’m fine.”“Alright.“The fuck was that? Did you just punch Chad right in the fucking face?” Breathing heavily, I couldn’t believe Zach just did what he did. I thought he was scared of Chad.“Hold on, you sound very familiar.” Zach repl
XAVIER ROCKWELLAs I walked inside this new expensive looking condominium space that my dad had bought for me, I was already beginning to wonder why he had to buy me a new place instead of just taking me to meet his family. It’s just an intrusive thought that I have in mind because I haven’t spoken a single word ever since he picked me up from that tiny little apartment that me and my mom had. Obviously for him, it’s such a complex entanglement and I was just having this fear that he might still be planning on hiding me for some unknown reasons. I don’t really know what’s going on with the old man and as much as I can, I tried my best to control my emotions and feelings. It was really difficult to not raise my voice at him and to smile fraudulently at him like everything’s alright when the truth was, there’s a small storm starting to form inside of me.Luckily for my own sanity, my dad decided it’s best to tell me the reason why he’s letting me stay at a different place rather than sh
XAVIER ROCKWELLThe following day was probably the most elated that I was in a long time and that’s all because of what had happened when I checked up on Jordi last night. It’s almost as if I consciously took a whole bag of edibles because my heart was racing and pounding like they never did in a very long time. Jordi was the first thing that invaded my head and of course, I’m more than thrilled to see him today. I can’t fucking wait to hug and kiss him and call him my fucking boyfriend. I can’t believe things have just escalated like this but I like it.I know dating a boy is deliberately something new to me because I’ve dated girls before but I didn’t have any sort of expectations that something beautiful like this would happen, that such a beautiful soul like Jordi would eventually come crash landing into my life. I have never thought I would be falling in love with another guy. Not in a million years. Not even when pigs finally earned some wings and flew over the rainbow striped s
XAVIER ROCKWELLIt’s been almost a month since I was calling Jordi my boyfriend and so far, the universe has been treating me the best. I’ve been filled with nothing but love when it comes to him and I don’t know if I deserve all of the love that I’ve been getting from him but it has been the happiest time of my life. I don’t know if I deserve the way Jordi was tickling my heart but one thing’s for sure, I’m going to be the best guy that’s going to love him inside and out.For all the giddy feelings and the burning emotions, such level of happiness comes with a price that Jordi and I have to settle in. There are a lot of difficult things being two men in love with each other. Clearly, it’s not that easy for us to be out and proud of our relationship unlike every straight couple out there who’s very much unashamed of showing their love in public. For the most part, sending pick-up lines, stealing glances and holding hands under the table was mostly our thing.In a sensible discussion,
JORDI ADKINSI am such horrible a person. My grandmother’s probably cursing me out in heaven right now and here I am just barely having all of these intrusive thoughts without actually doing something about it. It’s nearly a month since that Halloween party occurred and I haven’t even decided to finally be the honest person that I claim to be. Maybe Nikki was right when she called me a liar that time we had a fight.The truth is, I haven’t really been feeling okay lately mostly because of what happened between me and Zach at Michiko’s Halloween party. I have been trying my best to shake the predicament off of my shoulder thinking that perhaps I’d get over it as time goes by. However, I don’t feel like my guilt won’t go away anytime soon. Sometimes when I see how happy and contented Xavier is with me, I feel like I don’t deserve him at all. For some reasons, I’m clad with dread and maybe it’s all because I don’t want to lose Xavier. I know I never dreamt of actually dating him but now
JORDI ADKINS“WHAT THE... OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!” Her voice was piercing at first but then she seemed she went on an entire journey because her facial changed from being astonished to having her heart shattered and now she was just statue figure standing there like Medusa just petrified her.“Michiko!” I exclaimed jumping away from Xavier. I shakily made my way towards the shocked woman. “I-I... What are you doing here?” I inquired but she was just staring at me as if she had a stroke or something.There was a great moment of awkward silence and that kind of gave me a slight timeframe to think of something. However, my head just went blank just as Michiko was almost frozen solid. I don’t really know what to do and I’m shaking on the inside mostly because she’s currently the most popular girl in school. Not only that I wasn’t expecting this woman to show up at our house but she also witnessed me and Xavier making out.How in the fucking world did that happen?I inched closer towards her