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The Badboy's Heartbeat 70TH CHAPTER
JORDI ADKINS“WHAT THE... OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!” Her voice was piercing at first but then she seemed she went on an entire journey because her facial changed from being astonished to having her heart shattered and now she was just statue figure standing there like Medusa just petrified her.“Michiko!” I exclaimed jumping away from Xavier. I shakily made my way towards the shocked woman. “I-I... What are you doing here?” I inquired but she was just staring at me as if she had a stroke or something.There was a great moment of awkward silence and that kind of gave me a slight timeframe to think of something. However, my head just went blank just as Michiko was almost frozen solid. I don’t really know what to do and I’m shaking on the inside mostly because she’s currently the most popular girl in school. Not only that I wasn’t expecting this woman to show up at our house but she also witnessed me and Xavier making out.How in the fucking world did that happen?I inched closer towards her
Last Updated : 2023-04-23The Badboy's Heartbeat 71ST HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLI don’t think I have ever witnessed a beautiful coming out story in my life until this very moment. Watching Jordi and his mom’s little interaction yesterday almost made me want to shed a tear. There’s a lot of beautiful words to describe how things went down. It was beautiful to witness how supportive and loving Mrs. Adkins was to her only son. I almost thought she’s going to rip him apart right after Michiko went on her very own mannerless rampage after catching us making out. What happened just proved that she’s the coolest mom and Jordi’s highly blessed to have a mother like her.Speaking of Michiko and her temper tantrum, as soon as I got home from spending the night at Jordi’s, I had to make the initiative to give her a call. I blocked her last time because she kept on calling me and now, I can’t believe I’m just about to unblock her for this. I just warned Jordi to stay away from Michiko because I know what she’s capable of. She might be sweet but she can be spi
Last Updated : 2023-04-24The Badboy's Heartbeat 72ND HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLI would be lying if I’d say I’m not critically nervous about this upcoming thanksgiving dinner. Usually, thanksgiving dinner is a shitty dinner for me mostly because it’s just me, my mom and Hector. A dinner for three shouldn’t be that shitty but for the three of us, it was the shittiest that I have to suck up for years. We don’t have that much food served on the table mostly because they’ve spent their coins on coke and weeds and that’s okay, I don’t usually give a fuck about them pampering their vices. The only thing that makes the dinner unpleasant was Hector’s constant portrayal of his supposed alpha dominance and his unabashed display of being the so called man of the house. It was sucking all of the air in the room.Ever since my dad announced to me that I will be going to thanksgiving dinner with his family, I haven’t stopped thinking about what would happen. I had a lot of questions in mind and they’re all pretty much leaning towards negative. I can’t help but
Last Updated : 2023-04-25The Badboy's Heartbeat 73RD CHAPTER
XAVIER ROCKWELLDad’s house looked visibly and aesthetically expensive on the outside. I’m sure he got the best architect in the industry just to build this breathtaking mansion. The house was made out of stones and glass and there’s even two pools and a Jacuzzi. They even got some tropical plants and I just don’t how to react. I could still remember the house that dad got for me and my mom, it was still a big house but it wasn’t as expensive as this. He really got his shot for his true family and just bought a bootleg version for his mistress and bastard.When we finally got inside the house I was even more stupefied to see that the inside was even more designed with expensive looking stuff made out of marbles and crystals and all of the shiny stuff. There are two side by side statues of cherubim welcoming us by the door. And as I stepped inside following my dad, I was quick to notice the floor was made out of good marbles and they were glistening. I was instantly ashamed to walk wit
Last Updated : 2023-04-26The Badboy's Heartbeat 74TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSThis year’s thanksgiving dinner with our family was promising to be nothing but a boring one most especially when I learned that Xavier had to attend his dad’s family dinner last minute. I was really hoping that he would be a great addition to the dining table and his presence would at least provide a timely and healthy conversation. My grandma’s no longer here with us and there’s without a doubt that me, my mom and my dad are all going to miss her riddled speeches and her five-minute monologues that kept the dinner alive. Those are special and it’s not because she’s always reading us to filth but she’s also expressing how she truly loved and cared for every single one of us and how we could become a better person and how she’s thankful for everything. My grandma was a very lovely human being and she had true depth in her. Surely, we all are going to miss that for the rest of our lives. Apart from that, my dad’s sister hasn’t reached out if she’s going to join us this yea
Last Updated : 2023-04-27The Badboy's Heartbeat 75TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSAs the holiday rolled to an end, I was already having a mild hangover for the event that had transpired during thanksgiving. I still couldn’t believe my parents were fine with me being gay and they were very much expressive about it. I think my fear and uncertainly stemmed from every horrible story that I’ve heard of from people like me. I know it’s hard being hidden in the closet and choosing to come out to your parents is an undeniably rough journey for most. The mundane world riddled with different beliefs carefully made everyone believe that the default gender is male and female. What if there’s a world where people don’t have to come out?I think I’m very much lucky to have a family that don’t give a single shit if I was gay or not, or if I were to wear a gown or a suit, or if I choose to gawk over at naked men rather than naked women. My grandmother started the ripple and I am unbelievably fortunate to have the parents that I have. I still can’t believe they knew wh
Last Updated : 2023-04-28The Badboy's Heartbeat 76TH CHAPTER
JORDI ADKINSThroughout the entire half of the day, I have been riddled when so much anxiety that I just want things to freeze so I could give myself some time to think and breathe. Michiko got her dirt on me at such a pretty good timing and I eventually became a bona fide fool for actually falling right into her dangerous trap. To be fair, I don’t have any idea Michiko was such a bitch and so full of herself that she had to plant hidden cameras to gather some dirt on unsuspecting people. But Lala did warn me not to attend the party and I should’ve just blindly followed her. She never really did impart some very specific deets as to why.I couldn’t find Xavier anywhere and that alone was making me queasy and absolutely uncomfortable. There’s no denying the absolute fact that he saw the video of me making out with Zach. I’m just creating all of these thoughts inside my head but my gut was also feeling it. Michiko’s not a dumb bitch like every other girl, she’s actually smarter than mos
Last Updated : 2023-04-29The Badboy's Heartbeat 77TH HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLNo one ever told me wanting that something could this be detrimental. Definitely, it was not easy to be in my current situation no matter how I try to look at the bright side. Even though I wasn’t fully ready to go with it, I truly wanted to get introduced to my dad’s family because I want to know who my half siblings are. However, I wasn’t given any sort of hints that my asshole of a dad would introduce me to an entire clan. I thought that’s the only thing that’s dreadful and appalling but it turned out it was just the tip of the iceberg.I’m not even going to deny my true feelings about it. That was the worst thanksgiving dinner that I had attended in my entire seventeen years of existence. It’s even far worse than having dinner with Hector and my mom.I thought I’m going to get something positive in this dinner but yeah, my dad wasn’t really thinking about me, my welfare and my feelings. Getting to know the members of his family was just an exhausting process. My da
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The Badboy's Heartbeat 97TH HEARTBEAT
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The Badboy's Heartbeat 96TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINS“X-xavier?” Nikki was taken by a huge surprise just as she recognized the guy inside the yellow sports car.“Oh my god, it’s Xavier.” Jane whispered behind my ears but I was already having a lot of mixed emotions swirling up inside of me.My heart began to beat twice as fast and I don’t know if I was ready to see Xavier just as early as now. It’s true that I missed him so badly and I don’t even want to admit that to myself because I’m trying to get past him. Apparently, I have a long way to go now that I saw him today. I feel like I’m about to throw up but I also feel like I’m about to pass out at the very same time.Xavier looked amazingly different and that was the part of me who’s still hoping that we could fix this speaking on my behalf. He dyed his hair black and he looked bizarrely different but still hot as ever. I felt a slight pang on my chest and it seemed that my tongue got cut off.“I’m sorry, Nikki.” Xavier uttered.“Oh, shit. You dyed your hair black?” Nikki
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JORDI ADKINSIt was the smell of alcohol evaporating from my body mixed with a banging headache that got me running towards the toilet when I woke up from going to that house party Nikki invited us into. I was throwing up so badly that I almost felt like I’m going to start barfing all of my insides. I was hugging the toilet bowl as if it was the only friend I have in this trying times.I spent almost half an hour on the bathroom floor thinking I’m dying up until the moment my mom knocked on the door. I instantly felt good when I heard her screaming out my name. There seemed to be some sort of a healing power coming from her voice that made me stand up from hugging the toilet seat.“Jordi, Are you okay in there, sweetie?”“Yes, mom. I’m just throwing up, I’m fine. Don’t worry about me.” I yelled back.“Oh, I’m not worried about you, sweetie. I’m just knocking to remind you that you need to clean up your mess up in there. That’s what you get for overdrinking. I told you to drink moderat
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XAVIER ROCKWELLXander’s birthday party was well prepared for and it was as grand as the MET gala that there’s even a photoshoot at the gate for every person arriving. I was just taking a peek on my window but I could see everything. I don’t think I’ve celebrated a birthday like this in my life. Though, to me, the way I see things panning out, this was going to be the last birthday that Xander was ever going to celebrate in this household. Xander mentioned that he’s going to be kicked out of the house once this party was over and I felt slightly bothered and sad by that.The outfit that was given to me to wear was draped on the bed and it was just waiting for me to slip on them for the entire hour. It was a yellow suit with touches of black and a few sparkling stones. I don’t even want to be invited to this party and that’s all because I’m developing such laziness. I’m very lazy to go out there and meet new people.Right after slipping on the suit that was provided for me, I looked ov
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XAVIER ROCKWELLThe dinner with my dad’s family did not go well just as I was expecting it. The tension within the family was very much evident from the get go. I may have unconsciously observed everything.My dad and his wife Rachel doesn’t have the best relationship of husband and wife and anyone could’ve guessed that right away. They weren’t very subtle with how they’re treating each other even right in front of their children. In fact, I do remember my dad somehow loved my mother in a very different sense than what I just witnessed between him and his original wife and the mother of his three children. In this world, while it’s very much common that patriarchy is ruling, I have sensed Rachel was also after the money.Xiomara was that one member of the family who just doesn’t know how to adjust and is charged up with built-up anger and some nasty attitude. She hated everything and everyone. I’m personally giving her the benefit of the doubt because I don’t have any idea of the thin
