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Chapter 52 - Confession
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2021-11-09 22:05:11Have you felt guilty about something? Like deep nerve wracking guilt about something you did that you know you can't tell anybody about even though it kills you having to stay silent about it?
Up until the night of the the award show, that had never been the case for me but afterwards, after having Derris kiss and touch me the way he did, nothing ever really felt the same ever again.
Max. He was the main reason for my guilt, the reason why I now found it hard to sleep at night. He'd done so much and after betraying him the way I did and then having to go back to pretend like nothing happened, well, it was killing me. Slowly until I was sure I would go crazy.
I could have just broken up with him and ended things but I couldn't be sure which would hurt more: breaking up with him or telling him I cheated. And the absolute last thing I wanted to do was hurt Max.
And then there was Derris. The very person who started this whole thing. To the surprise of no one
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Neither of us had spoken since Max uttered words that I never thought I would hear from him. To avoid enraging him even more, I kept to myself while his attention was completely on the road ahead of him. He didn't spare me a glance and I could tell just how much I'd hurt him.Now I was torn between telling him the other thing I'd planned to or leaving that for another day.I glanced over at Max and if his tightened grip on the steering wheel, white knuckles and furious scowl on his face were anything to go by, he was definitely not ready for more news today. I was better off telling him another day, preferably when we were not in a car.For the umpteenth time since we got in the car, I glanced over at him and felt my heart clench. Even if I didn't tell him that I never liked him to begin with, our relationship both as friends and a couple was definitely over now.When the car eventually stopped, Max gave me no time to even figure where we were before he b
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I stepped into the car and sank into the car seat, feeling it get wet underneath me. Almost instantly, I froze and slowly looked over at Derris whose eyes were on me. I knew why and it didn't give me a good feeling. "I'm sorry. I'll clean it up, I swear," I promised even though I had no idea how I was to clean spoilt milk off the car seat and get rid of the smell. However, Derris merely rolled his eyes at me and stated, "Don't mind that. Are you okay? Did Aria hurt you?" "Uh, nope. Just the milk," I replied. "Yeah. Sorry about her. I know she did it because of me," he mumbled as he slid the key in the ignition and started the car. I tried not to let my surprise show as I played with the hem of my skirt. I was back to wondering how this guy went from hating me to standing up for me in a matter of days. What brought about the change? Why was he doing this? "Why?" I found myself blurting out before I could help it. "Why what
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