Declan – A year ago
The cell phone slams against the wall with a loud crack. “Wow, Outlaw. What the fuck?” I turn to Hunter with an angry scowl. “They fucking lost him, Hunter!” His eyebrows scrunch up in question. “What? Who?” I point to the now broken cell phone lying listlessly on the abandoned warehouse’s floor. “That was Cameron. Reaper and Savage had Kazik, but the bastard somehow escaped before they could take him. That’s why that motherfucker, Christoph, was not in this shitty-ass Brooklyn warehouse. Our mission has been blown.”
Last night one of my contacts informed me that Christoph Kazik would be transporting a new shipment of girls. Everything was planned. We were going to swoop in and save those girls, but now everything is ruined.
“We planned his capture, and the asshole somehow knew. Now, here we are with our dicks in our hands in the middle of nowhere.” I croak out angrily. I can barely contain my rage.
The night is quiet, and the moon is shining brightly as if mocking our efforts. Rolling my shoulders, I try to loosen my tense muscles. “This is bullshit! A cluster-fuck of epic proportions. Priest wants me to find Christoph. He hopes that he’ll lead us to Willem. But how am I going to find him now? The fucker has probably gone underground by now. Fuck!” I inwardly curse as I sift my fingers through my hair.
Frustrated, Hunter raises his arms over his head and kicks out in the air. “Goddamn it!”
Shaking my head, I angrily stomp my way to my car and kick the front tire. Hunter sighs deeply and consolingly places his hand on my shoulder. “Let’s regroup, man. How about we go get some coffee and plan our next step. There’s this diner a few blocks from this shithole that we can go to.”
I’m about to decline his invitation when the sky opens up, and a shower of rain begins to fall across the city. Even the weather is against me tonight. Sighing deeply, Hunter quirks his brow and points to the car. “Coffee?”
Seeing that there’s nothing else I can do at the moment, I nod my head, take my keys out of my jacket pocket, and slide inside the car. It doesn’t take us long to make it to Hunter’s diner. The diner is a typical greasy spoon with a hopelessly depressing aura. The outside walls are a worn pink color that was probably last painted in the nineteen-fifties. There are very few cars around the depressingly dark lot and a dim light casting a solemn shadow through the dirty, shabby windows.
Once I stop the car, Hunter steps out and strides toward the dingy front door. Before I join him, I reach into my glove compartment and take out another cell phone. Thankfully, I keep a spare in case I need it. In my business, it’s always useful to be prepared. Sliding it into my pocket, I follow behind Hunter and keep a wary eye on the surrounding area. I scan the dark corners of the street, trying to gauge if there is danger hiding in the shadows. I know it’s paranoid, but it’s best to be prepared for any attacks in my business.
The bell chimes when the door opens, combining the crowd's sounds and the screech of the rusted hinges. Oblivious to the dangers around him, Hunter makes his way to a corner booth. I want to slap him in the head when he plops down on his seat. He doesn’t even bother giving the place a thorough inspection.
Hunter’s a Confradia tech. He was recruited by one of the top Confradia Assassins, Priest, several years ago. He found Hunter at a nearby garage fixing computers and working at a Pep Boys. The kid was barely making ends meet until Priest hired him on the spot. Hunter is one of our youngest recruits. He’s twenty-two. But don’t be fooled by his age. The boy can fix just about anything. Unfortunately, when it comes to looking out for danger, Hunter is still very green. Priest asked him to assist me this evening. I usually work on my own, but I needed to make sure the place didn’t have any surprises.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m very good at what I do. My tech skills are well-honed. However, Hunter is in a league of his own. He’s almost as good as the west coast director, Logan Blake.
Taking a seat in one of the yellow peeling booths, I sit in a corner and maintain a birds-eye-view of all the patron’s ins and outs. It’s very late, which means there aren’t many people in the diner. There’s an elderly man in the corner talking to a waitress with a sixties beehive, a teen couple huddled together around a table sharing coffee, and a middle-aged waitress serving two factory workers.
My inspection halts when she steps out of the kitchen door. She’s beautiful with long russet hair and rich brown eyes. Her hair is tied back, highlighting high cheekbones, a lush mouth, and long lashes fluttering over doe's eyes. Her lips are pouty and pink, making me imagine them against mine. I bite my lip and lick it as if savoring the taste of her luscious lips. Her body is perfect. She’s wearing a typical sixties diner uniform in an ugly color, but it doesn’t hide the rise and fall of her high breasts and small waist. My eyes roam across her body to her long tanned legs and rounded bottom. I have to stifle a groan when she bends down and refills the teen couples’ coffee.
She’s beautiful… and young. My head whips back to Hunter, who is snapping his fingers in front of me. “Outlaw…did you hear me?” He asks with a concerned frown. I shake my head, clearing my thoughts before I respond. “What?” He laughs sardonically. “Dude, I’ve been talking to you, but you’ve been zoned out. What’s up?” I shrug my shoulders and maintain an even expression. “Nothing. I’m just thinking about how everything went to shit tonight.”
Before I can say more, the woman walks up to our table. She’s even more beautiful up close. I don’t know why, but anger surges through me when Hunter’s eyes widen at her presence. My body stiffens at the scent of her lavender perfume and fresh linen scent. My senses instantly go on alert. Hunter smiles flirtatiously, which pisses me off even more. I feel disjointed at the thought of anyone looking her─and I don’t know why. Clamping my mouth shut, I stifle the urge not to take him by the neck and yell, “She’s mine!”
Unaware of my turmoil, the girl gives us both a sweet smile and says, “Hello, boys. My name’s Santana. Would you care for some coffee?” Hunter puffs out his chest and straightens up in his seat. I almost want to punch him in the teeth when he whispers huskily, “Well, hello there, beautiful. My friend and I would definitely love some coffee.” Santana smiles then gazes back at me. She must see something in my demeanor because her smile slips. A deep male part of me reacts when she takes a step back and pours coffee into both our cups. Eyes locked in a battle of wills, I dare her to say something. I won’t pretend that I’m not enjoying the way her chest heaves raggedly or the way she bites her lips and covers her chest with the menu. She’s definitely affected by my presence.
Hunter clears his throat with a snicker and waits for a response. As if finally noticing that she’s staring at me, she snaps out of her trance and blinks rapidly. “Um…I…I’ll leave you a menu and be back to take your orders in a minute.” To my gratification, she doesn’t take her eyes off me. Not even when she has to place the menus on the table. I won’t pretend that I can’t take my eyes off her either. She’s exquisite, and I’m just as entranced by her as she is by me. Before she walks away, she gives me one last cursory look and bites her lip. Licking my lips, I narrow my eyes. My dick is as hard as a rock and ready for action.
Chuckling, Hunter releases an exasperated breath and slumps back in his seat. “What the fuck, man? I can’t win with you and Priest. It’s like I’m invisible when you two are around. Fucking pretty boys.” I smirk and take a sip of my coffee before I settle it back in my own seat. “It’s the suit, kid,” I murmur with a wave at my black double-breasted Armani suit. “Women love a man who is well dressed. I should know.”
Hunter scoffs, offended by my blunt statement. “I look good.” I run my gaze down his band t-shirt and ripped jeans with a sneer. “No, you don’t. You look like a poor college kid. Women want a man who dresses like he’s serious. Not some punk-ass kid who looks like he still lives with his mother.”
Hunter’s mouth gapes open. “What? I have a job.” Quirking a brow, I shake my head and shift in my seat. “I know that, and you know that. The problem is that you don’t look like you do.” Hunter gazes down at his outfit with deep contemplation. “I guess you’re right. Damn, that’s too bad cause she’s hot.”
Glancing back at the girl, I catch her looking at me and snicker. It’s cute how she quickly looks away, pretending to pick up some things from the counter. After a moment, she walks back to our table, this time avoiding eye contact, which makes me want her even more. My cock stands to attention at the thought of sliding between her welcoming thighs. However, it gives me pause that she looks so young.
“Do you know what you want, boys?” She asks, taking out a notebook and pencil from her pocket. Hunter points at something on the old laminated menu and replies. “I’ll have a piece of cherry pie, sweetheart.” She writes his order down then hesitantly looks at me. “And you?” She asks. Her voice is husky and thick with desire. My mind conjures many answers to her question, but I refrain from saying what I really want to say. “I’ll just stick with the coffee.”
Without another word, Santana hesitantly takes the menu and walks away.
Slumping back in his seat, Hunter crosses his arms in front of his chest and mutters, “You lucky bastard.” I roll my eyes in response. The boy needs to learn how to be a graceful loser. Leaning over the scarred laminate table, I push my cup away. “We need to regroup and talk to Priest. Christoph and Kazik will not get away with what they’ve done. It would be a disaster of epic proportions to lose them now, considering all of the confidential information they have on the Confradia. We need to find out who betrayed the Confradia before it’s too late.”
Hunter tightens his jaw with a grim scowl. “Yeah, man. I know what you’re saying. Ever since we found out Kazik was alive, we’ve been sorting through records in hopes of finding out his end game. We’ll figure it out.” Just then, Hunter’s cell phone rings. It must be Priest because he answers it right away. I listen intently for a couple of minutes until he disconnects the call. He shifts uncomfortably in his seat, which puts me further on edge. “Well?” I ask with an impatient scowl.
Hunter grimaces before he responds. “That was Priest. The Confradia wasn’t able to recover Willem. They scoured the water, but they didn’t find him or his body. They don’t know if he’s dead or alive. Unfortunately, Christoph disappeared along with him, and any lead we had on them has grown cold.” Hunter rubs the bridge of his nose before he continues. “That’s not all, though. The Confradia is also pissed off because Reaper and the others went after Kazik. It appears that they were never given permission to run an investigation on Kazik. They’ve asked Priest to reprimand Cameron, Savage, and Reaper. They also called Jaxon Maxwell in to revise Reaper’s unsanctioned relationship. They’re considering expelling Reaper from the Confradia. Priest is running interference with Jaxon right now, but we need to go.”
I grit my teeth in rage. Leave it to the Confradia to object to one of their Assassin’s being in a relationship. Not to mention the fact that Reaper went off the book because he had to save his love. That’s why I never want to fall in love. Love makes men stupid. However, I don’t think it’s reason enough to punish Reaper. Jaxon Maxwell, code name Ares, is the East Coast’s director. He’s our boss and ruthless asshole, which means the Confradia is going after Reaper with a vengeance. Could this be a conspiracy?
“We better go then.” Rising up, I place a twenty on the table and crash into Santana. Santana gasps in shock, toppling the plate in her hand onto the table. Before she can fall, I wrap my arms around her waist and hold her against my chest. We’re both face-to-face now. I groan when her firm breasts settle against my stomach and her hands rest on my shoulders. Her body feels incredibly good against mine. The urge to kiss her is nearly overwhelming. Gazing into her beautiful eyes, I lean close and whisper. “I apologize, but we need to go.” Her lower lip trembles as she gazes into my eyes. “You’re leaving?” I nod my head, never taking my eyes off her lips.
“Ready, man?” Hunter asks, interrupting our moment. Santana and I both break apart with a grimace. Thankfully, other than Hunter, no one noticed our captivated state. Stepping back, I point to the money on the table. “Keep the change.” Santana rubs her thighs with a shy smile. “Yeah, thanks.” Giving her one last look, I turn around and walk out the door.
“Holy shit, that was intense,” Hunter mutters with a sly grin. Ignoring his comment, I slide into the seat of my car and turn the ignition. However, Hunter is not good at reading subtle cues. “Dude, you two were seriously hot together. I can see the steam coming off your bodies. I thought you two were going to make out right there.”
Maybe if I shoot him, he’ll stop talking. “Shut up, Hunter!” I grit out through clenched teeth. Instead of being cowed, Hunter continues. I swear the boy had no sense of self-preservation. “You should have asked for her number, man. She was seriously into you. I know I would have if she had noticed me.”
Slamming down hard on the brake, I face a now startled Hunter. “Listen, kid. I don’t know how you are with Priest, but I prefer to keep my private life private. Which is why I’d appreciate it if you’d drop it. Am I understood?” Hunter swallows hard then gives me a hearty nod. “Yeah, I got it, man. It’s cool.”
That night we both meet up with Priest and the others. If thoughts of a gorgeous brunette run through my mind, I ignore it. I will never tell Hunter this, but I do regret not asking for her number.
SantanaI place my palms against my burning cheeks as I watch the most gorgeous man I’ve ever seen walk out of the diner’s doors. He was only here for a few minutes, but I feel like my world has fallen off its axis. It was just something about him. From the moment he walked through the door, he commanded the attention of everyone in the room. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. My body was practically vibrating with my arousal.Even though he was with a young guy who would have been closer to my age, I couldn’t take my eyes off his gorgeous dark hair, blue eyes, and brooding face. His six-foot frame and muscled body felt so good against mine. I almost melted when he spoke. His voice was as sweet as honey and deep and gravely.I don’t know what came over me. My nipples bead, and my sheath throb with the need to be filled. Sighing with frustration, I move back to the counter and begin to pile the dirty dishes. I can’t believe wh
DeclanA harried Hunter meets me near Priest’s garage door. He’s pacing in place and coursing his fingers through his hair nervously, so you know he’s stressed. “Sorry for interrupting you, man. But we found something you really need to hear. Go on back, Priest is waiting for you.” I nod my head and stride purposely through the garage. This is no ordinary body-shop. Priest owns a street racing garage. The garage is located in an industrial area surrounded by aluminum fencing. It’s about the size of a factory, but inside it is wall-to-wall steel with industrial lifters and equipment. There are at least sixteen cars in various stages of readiness littered around the large space. I pass by Priest’s prized black Tesla and make my way to his office.Several men in jumpers wave as I pass by. Once I reach Priest’s office door, I step in without knocking. “Priest, this better be good because I was in the middl
SantanaWhy is it that when someone dies, you can forgive their most grievous sins? However, when they are alive, you retain your anger and let it fester until it almost swallows you whole. I look at my stepbrother Connor, who is swallowed by his oversized sports jacket. His shoulders are slumped as he gazes down at the two caskets being lowered to the ground. He looks so young and desolate, trying to look grown-up. But he’s just a boy. Sadness overwhelms me when I see his trembling shoulders and tear-stained face. He’s only sixteen and has known only pain throughout his short life. I’ve tried to protect him, but it has been a difficult task.Now our parents are dead, and all I feel is a relief. What am I going to do with a sixteen-year-old boy? I think to myself. I’m only twenty-one years old. Don’t get me wrong, Connor and I have had it harder than most. Our parents were a train wreck from the moment they met. It was seventeen y
Declan- PresentI control my breathing and take cover behind a wall as I hone in on my target’s location. Holding my gun up near my ear, I listen intently for his footsteps to come closer. Suddenly, a figure darts into the open warehouse door. His footsteps echo in the silence of the empty, abandoned warehouse. I can hear the crackle of his shoes as he tries to stealthily make his way across the floor. Slivers of light slip through some of the broken windows managing to penetrate the darkness of the empty room. I watch intently as the shadow moves closer to my hiding place and let him take a few more steps before I take him. Collins is holding a gun in his hand as he runs his gaze around the room nervously. Before he moves past me, I reach for his gun hand and elbow him in the face. He falls on his back, holding his nose as his gun skids across the floor. Moving forward, I step in front of him and point my gun with its silencer at his head.The bastard rolls over
Santana“Connor!” I call out to my brother as I make my way out of the room. You’d think that after all of these years of caring for him, I’d be less disturbed by the thought that I have treated my brother like a baby. At this point, we’ve both established a routine where he turns off his alarm, and I have to drag him out of bed every morning. “Connor!” I call out in frustration with a solid shake to his shoulders. Anyone would say that an eighteen-year-old should be a little more responsible, but in the case of Connor, they’d be wrong.Groaning and yawning, Connor turns over and gives me a grouchy look. “What the hell San? What time is it?” I look at my cheap plastic watch then back at him. “It’s seven in the morning. Classes start in sixteen minutes. Get up!” He rolls back in the seat and gives me his back. “I don’t want to go to school.”Narrowing my
Chapter 7: Blood will tellDeclanOnce the Confradia men take Collins away, I stroll into the nearest bar, ready to wash away the sins of the day and find an even keel. A small part of me feels bad for Collins because his family was put in a precarious position. But another part doesn’t because he brought it on to himself. Taking a seat on a nearby stool, I gesture for the bartender, Ronny, to serve me a drink.Striding towards me, Ronny gives me a welcoming smile. “Declan! It’s good to see you.” He calls out with delight as he stretches his arm out. Ronny’s old biker with tattoos all over his body and thinning gray hair. His leather Harley Davidson vest strains around his muscled shoulder as he leans over the bar’s counter and shakes my hand. “Hey, Ronny. How are you?” Ronny shrugs his shoulders. “Same as always. Just pounding the pavement every day. How’s it going with you?” I shake my hea
SantanaI’m beyond exhausted tonight. All I feel is relieved when I get to the apartment. As usual, Connor is sitting in front of the kitchen counter with his computer in front of him. “Hey, Connor,” I rest my bag on top of the living room table. Connor nods his head but never looks up from the computer screen. Nothing ever changes. I think with an exasperated smirk. “What’s up?”Connor shrugs. “Nothing.” That’s when I see the picture on the counter. “What are you doing, Connor?” Connor picks up the picture and points it in my direction. “I couldn’t stop thinking about this picture all day. I mean, it doesn’t make sense. Do I have a brother? Is this kid my brother?” He asks. From the set of his shoulder and tight lips, I can tell that he’s going through something. He seems frustrated yet hopeful at the same time.“I don’t know, Connor. Maybe
DeclanI meet Priest as soon as I get to the body shop. “Declan…good, you’re here.” He mutters sarcastically. Unperturbed, I take a seat in a nearby chair and drily ask. “Cut the shit, Priest. You know I’m busy. What is this about?” Priest smirks and walks around his desk to stand in front of me. “Actually, I think it’s best if I show you. Follow me, Declan.” He gestures to the door, takes his walking stick, and walks ahead of me. Even though he had corrective surgery to regain his eyesight, he’s still walking around like he’s blind. I guess it’s taking some time for him to adjust to his new eyes. They’re kind of freaky when you look at them, which isn’t to say that women are deterred.Releasing a resigned sigh, I follow Priest down the corridor until we make it to one of the rooms used to detail cars. Curious, I look inside and see a young man tied to a chair. He looks unharmed.
EpilogueDeclan“Damn it, Connor! Why is there pizza sauce all over my laptop?” Connor peaks behind the office’s door, his face set in repentance. “Sorry, man, I was eating a slice when Hunter called and asked me to look up some data.” Giving him a withering glare, I wipe my keyboard and look back at the screen. “Where’s your sister?”Connor takes a seat in one of my office chairs and waves his hand above his head. “She’s out shopping for Sophia and Micah’s wedding present.” Exhaling deeply, I lean back in my chair and look at my brother. It’s been almost a year since Santana and I moved in together. Though Connor moved into a dorm, he still spends most of his time around our apartment. I can’t say it hasn’t been great because it has. After some work, Connor and I convinced Santana to hold off on working and attend school full-time. Because of that, she’ll be graduati
Santana“Wake up, sleepyhead.” I blink my eyes open to see my brother sitting next to me on the bed. “Hey? How did I get here?” I gaze down at my blanket-covered body, confused. Connor takes my hand and leans close to me with a proud grin. “We’re back in Priest’s garage. Declan carried you up here and tucked you into the bed.” I bite my lip and take a deep breath. “How long have I been asleep?” Connor smirks. “Almost two days, Sleeping Beauty. Priest said to let you sleep. The drug that crazy old witch gave you was still metabolizing through your system. Declan and Priest told me you were a total badass. That they didn’t have to save you because you were about to break out of that place on your own.”Sliding up on the bed, I lean back on the headboard with a bemused sigh. “Yeah, it was scary, but I didn’t have a choice.” Connor’s lip quirks. “I’m so glad yo
DeclanPriest and I arm up as Connor and Hunter attempt to hack into Perroni’s computer system. Thankfully, whoever took Santana didn’t disable her GPS, so we were able to track her. He must have not counted on the fact that Santana knew professional Assassins. And even though Connor is computer savvy, I’m sure they assumed he’d be lost or dead in the woods. Criminals can be so stupid sometimes.Once Hunter had her coordinates, we made our way to upstate New York until we were in front of a mansion in the middle of nowhere. Using our binoculars, we scope out the structure. We watch as a vehicle winds its way up the driveway. A man in a suit steps out of the vehicle and approaches the door. “This is where they must be holding the auction,” I mutter to the others.Priest takes another look and nods. “Yeah, and the man who just stepped out of that vehicle is Christoph Kazik.” I turn back to the house and take another
SantanaI don’t know where I am. I look around the empty, darkened room and pull my messy hair behind my ear. My body aches from being dragged, and my knees sting. There’s dried blood on them and on my bare feet. I must have lost my flats while they dragged me around. I’m alone, but I can hear male voices outside the door. I struggle against my bonds and slide across the barren floor, trying to decipher what they are saying but scurry back as soon as the door opens. Two men step inside. One of them is Perroni, and the other one is the one that dragged me out of the bus.Perroni smirks as he takes in my haggard appearance and squats down in front of me. “Hello, Santana. Surprised to see me?” He asks with a mocking sneer. I don’t respond. There’s no point because I know he’s playing with me. “I heard Connor got away. Unfortunately, he didn’t make it very far.” My heart skips with terror as I sit up and loo
DeclanI watch my brother and Santana step into the bus with a hollow feeling in my stomach. Every part of me objects to the idea of letting them go. Biting my lip, I pucker my mouth and tighten my fists around my cell phone. The look on Connor’s face as he walked away was nearly crippling, but it was worse to see Santana’s resigned yet disappointed expression. She hates me, and I don’t blame her. I’m a coward who let her shoulder the responsibility of caring for my brother without a fight and the man who made love to her with no promises. And even though it was the right thing to do, it still stung to wake up alone in her bed.My body aches from the exertion of trying not to run after them. Before I do something stupid, I turn to my car and drive away. It's the longest, most difficult drive I’ve ever experienced. Rubbing my chest, I swallow hard and inhale deeply, but the ache doesn’t abate. If anything, it feels worse. It gets to t
SantanaIt’s time to leave. This morning I snuck out of my room and spent most of the day trying to avoid Declan. I didn’t go back into the room until I knew he was gone. After our intense lovemaking, I figured it would be best if I left things as they were. Unlike me, Connor made every effort to be in Declan’s presence. He has always been the more forgiving of us. When I asked him, he told me it would be a waste of time to be angry at Declan, considering nothing would change. He’d rather savor every last minute he had with his brother. I figure that I’d let him have this, even if I didn’t agree with Declan’s easy disposal of his brother. I even let Connor ride shotgun on the way to the bus stop. There’s no point in having any further contact with Declan. It would just add to my sadness, and I’ve had enough sadness in my life.Once I left the bed, I went to the bathroom, cried a little, and gave myself a pep talk. W
Declan“You didn’t tell me that Connor’s sister was so beautiful.” My mother says in a conversational tone. However, I know her better than that, and I can tell that she wants to know if I’m interested in Santana. I don’t react, opting to keep my face expressionless before I respond. “Yes, she is. I didn’t know that it mattered.” Seeing that I’m not giving anything away, she deflates back in her seat with a sigh. “That’s too bad that she’s leaving, but maybe it’s for the best. I meant what I said about Connor; the boy looks just like you at eighteen. You must be relieved that you don’t have to deal with them for much longer.” I look at my mother from the corner of my eyes, trying to gauge her purpose, but she keeps a neutral expression.My thoughts return to the fact that Santana and Connor plan to leave. It was definitely unexpected, and I don’t know how to feel about
Santana“Hey, sis, where’s Declan?” Connor asks the moment I step through the office door. I shake my head and take a seat in one of the comfortable cushioned chairs. “I don’t know. What’s up?” Connor shrugs. “Just getting some things settled. Did you eat?” I nod my head. “Yeah, I ate.” Connor smiles in contentment and goes back to his computer. The kid is one-track-minded for sure. Rising from the chair, I pace around the room and turn back to him. “So, I was thinking. We still have a few dollars in the savings account and Alva’s ring. Since there’s nothing left here for us, I thought maybe we can start over again somewhere else.”Connor’s brows quirks with surprise. “What do you mean?” I take a deep breath before I reply. “I mean, maybe we can take a bus somewhere and find a new town to live in. One of my high school friends, Dana, is a physical therapist
Declan“You’re a selfish bastard, you know that?” Priest startles me from my thoughts as I watch Santana walk away. Once she’s out of sight, I turn to the living room doorway and come face-to-face with him. “I have no other choice, Priest.” He shakes his head and turns back to the stairs. However, it doesn’t stop him from casting one last stone. “Is that what your father said to your mother before he left you? Would it have made you both happier if he gave your mother money? Because to be honest, even though you’re an ass, it seems that Connor and Santana are shortchanging themselves for simply wanting you.”My stomach plummets with bile remembering how painful it was when my father walked away from us. I know that it would have hurt me if he’d just give my mother money and pretended that I didn’t exist. I should be happy that Santana and Connor want me to be part of their family, but