Chapter One

Chapter one

Keisha’s pov

I've lived in moonlight pack all my life. I turned eighteen a month ago. I've been living with my uncle and his family for eight years now and trust me it's no fun living here.

I stopped going to school when my parents died in an attack when they traveled. I started living with my uncle and his family. I was forced to stop school cause they weren't going to pay for my tuition fee.

Since I've been living with my uncle I've had no friends to talk to. The only person keeping me going is my due who has been my supporter since my uncle took me in.

My wolf has a white and brown fur with golden eyes that sparkle at night just as the moon shines. It's neither big nor small.

Living with my uncle and his family comes with a lot of rules. I'm not allowed to go out. I haven't shiftted in a long time. I've lost the feeling of shifting and I miss the green grass under my paws running and drinking water from lakes.

I'm only allowed outside when I'm going to the kitchen to clear the dishes and join the other maids in cooking and I'm not allowed to talk to anyone.

Everyday I wear an overall top and ripped jeans with my old sneakers. I only have three pairs of clothing and as for shoes I've got just two pairs.

I always have to cover my whole body because of the treble scars my uncle keeps living on my body.

The first two months of living with my uncle and his family were not all that bad but in the third month things changed. They all started treating me badly like I was a curse. My uncle would come to my room often every night and beat me up till I'm not able to move but my wolf due will always take some of the impact so I can heal fast after my uncle had left.

He punished me so bad most times I wondered if I was even family at all.

They all dreaded me at home and talked about me like I was a plague that befell them. It got so bad to a certain point where on this night I heard foot steps approaching my room and I thought again to myself another night of torture. I had already prepared my body and mind to face the pain that was about to befall me little did I know he had something worse planned out for me.

“I hear the footsteps get louder and louder as they approach my room door. I could also hear cold whispers in the air as my room door creaked open. I see my uncle and my cousin (Wesley) walk right through my door with menacing looks on their faces. He says to me with a terrifying voice ”

“You worthless bastard, I wished you died along with your parents. I’m going to show you what it means to be a slut tonight”

He then commands Wesley to hold me down. I’m already in fear and despair ,shaking in outer confusion cause I was clueless about what was about to happen. While tears rolled down my eyes gently I watched Wesley rip off my clothes as he pounced on me like a lion ready to devour its prey. I struggled with everything in me but then I wasn’t just strong enough to fight him off. I looked him right in his eyes and I saw how pleased he was with the way I screamed for help and then I heard my uncle’s voice.

“Shut up you unfortunate peasant. You’re a disgrace to us all so let your cousin cleanse you and make you a pure breed. At least then you will be a useful slut.”

*Breathe in*

*Breathe out*

*Breathe in*

*Breathe out*

This is the matrix I have to repeat to myself to keep from crying out as the whip cracks against my tender back and legs. 

*Don’t talk back*

*Keep your eyes down*

*You’re below us*

*Never raise your voice*

*Do as you're told*

*Do what is asked and you keep the pain at bay*

These are the rules that has been set and driven into my head since the day my uncle changed and turned his back against me but I have my own rules.

*Never cry*

*Never let them see you hurt*

*Don’t let them feel inferior*

While thinking of all these in my head the unholy act was still going on and that drove me back to reality. The next thing I could feel were Wesley’s cold and rough palms dashing against my face and him. He looked me in the eye and said.

“Soon enough you feel me in you”

I could hear him laugh so  hard after that statement. I felt so numb at that point I always knew they hated me but then I never knew they could be so heartless and inhumane. He then pinned me to my bed while with the help of my uncle I was tied down like a horse tied in its stable. 

I watched my uncle take a seat to enjoy the view. I immediately felt so immensely disgusted I couldn’t believe I even called this person's family. I then see Wesley take out his penis. It looked all hard and awoke already. It seemed he was so happy to make me face my worst nightmare. I closed my eyes so hard so as not to see what was about to happen next. I then felt him thrust his penis into my vagina. I was a virgin so I screamed in pain and agony but he didn’t care. He kept pleasuring himself with every stroke I couldn’t help but let tears roll down my eyes.

I could feel his hands all over me. I could feel his hot breath on my neck. I screamed in pain and let out some emotions thinking he’ll maybe feel some compassion for me but instead he gagged my mouth closed and continued using me as a sex toy to pleasure himself. At this point I felt like giving up. I had no more will power or strength in me anymore to fight back. I was weak and had no strength. I laid down there and let him keep on doing what he was doing. All I could think of in my head was suicide and that was if I wasn’t already going to die from the trauma and pain I was already going through.

At some point I closed my mind towards everything that was happening around me and to me and just felt numb. I couldn’t feel anything and suddenly I heard my uncle’s voice in the background.

“That’s okay my boy I guess you’ve thought her a lesson she would never forget in a heist and I guess she knows her place now too”

I could then hear him walk towards me. I tried opening my eyes to look him in the eye to see if he felt any remorse at all for what he had just orchestrated but my vision was pretty blurry at this time and all I could see was a smirk on his face and his satisfaction as to what he had just put me through. He then said to Wesley.

“ come on boy come get cleaned up you’ve proved to me that you’re a real man”

I then closed my eyes for a bit as they both walked towards the door. I finally heard the door shut. Tears rolled down my cheeks, I tried screaming in anger but then I couldn’t because of how weak I had gotten. I mustered strength to sit up and then I looked at my bed and saw it all messed up. Standing up from my bed I staggered and walked towards the window. Beyond my reflection I saw the heavy rain and the dark night growing. The trees wavered with the strong winds and puddles began forming. Sounds of the wind whistling echoed through the night.

Still feeling numb, I walked towards my bathroom. The only thing that came to my head was me taking a hot bath and washing off his smell off my body. I turned on the shower and let it run hot for a while. I then took a step into the hot rushing water. I gnashed my teeth in pain as the water came pouring on all the wounds and injuries on my body. I fell down to my knees and started crying as I started having flashbacks of the whole experience. For the first time in my life I really felt like a slut and felt so unworthy.

Right there I felt my uncle was right all along. I should have died with my parents. I felt so bitter and angry. I couldn’t even look at my own damn reflection. I felt disgusted when I remembered how he smiled and laughed at my pain and then I heard my due talk to me.

“Don’t listen to him Keisha. He’s an absolute idiot! Eventually we will be free from this stink hole. Heak maybe we will find a mate!”

Whatever you say Due! 

Due my wolf had been the “only person” who keeps me sane and not terribly lonely. Other than Luna Due is my  companion. 

The Luna has always been kind to me but I can’t open up and tell her anything. I'm too scared for my life, I’m just going to stick to my plan of running away but to where..?

Once I leave I become a rogue and I have no friends in any neighboring packs.

After pondering over this I then stepped out of the shower and reached out for my white robe. I took a towel and wrapped it round my head and then walked out the bathroom. Heading to my wardrobe I took out a really long night gown and wore it. I took out a clean and fresh set of bed sheets and a blanket too headed toward my bed and took off the messed up bedsheet and blanket. I laid on the new set and spread my bed.

I jumped in bed and covered myself with my blanket. At this point I felt so alone and so horrible all I could do was wish death upon my so called family. All I could think about was how my whole life has taken a new turn and definitely not for the better but for worse. I already thought my life was shit now. I didn't think about it anymore but knew it and felt it. Wesley took something very precious from me and he took it in the worst way ever.

I knew it would be hard to go to sleep after what had just happened but that’s all I wanted doing so as to skip my reality and rest a bit. I forced my eyes shut but every single time I did I got horrible and terrible flashbacks which made me scared. I kept feeling Wesley’s hot breath on my neck every single time I closed my eyes. It was traumatic. I just wanted to feel numb once more but I couldn’t. It was at this moment I started having lots of suicidal thoughts. It felt to me that I was losing my sanity and that my mental health was at its barest minimum. All I could do was just wish this never happened but then what was done had already been done and there was no reversing it because what has been done can’t be undone.

I tried so hard to sleep. I plugged in my earphones and went to my favorite playlist. It always brightened my mood when I was down and it had never been bad at its job. In a twinkle of an eye I started feeling a bit sleepy and before I could realize I was fast asleep while cuddling my pillow.

Coming back to reality, it's a dawn of a new day I wake up to the sound of the birds chirping it sounds so melodious and pleasant to the ears I then look out my window up to the sky it’s a really beautiful day it just makes me want to leave a fairytale where everything is so magical and perfect, but no that’s just the irony of my life.

I lazily get up from bed to freshen up because I have a long day ahead of me. I woke up feeling tired and groggy, but i knew that i had to get up and start my day. I knew I had to was the dishes, dust the house and also help make breakfast with the other maids.

As I got out of bed, I felt a wave of exhaustion wash over me. I rubbed my eyes and yawned, trying to shake off the sleepiness. I looked at the clock and realized that I had overslept. I only had an hour to get ready for the meeting with the Luna and do all my morning chores.

I hurriedly rushed to the bathroom and quickly brushed my teeth and washed my face. I then went to the kitchen to help make breakfast for the pack. I really was so tired that I accidentally spilled coffee on my shirt and had to change it.

After I finished my breakfast, I went up to my  bedroom to get dressed. I then looked at the pile of laundry on the side of my bed and sighed. I knew that I had to wash them, but I didn't have the energy to do it.

I decided to leave the laundry for later and head out to the meeting.

Walking to the meeting with the Luna I overheard some other wolves say.

“Do you see the little trash following the Luna?”

“What is she doing?”

“Your cell is downstairs you undeserving slut”

“People are trying to eat here”

I quickly heightened my steps to catch up with the Luna with my head down trying to make myself invisible. Due started snarling and pacing in my head at the comments made by the pack members as I and the Luna walked by.

During the meeting I was so tired that I couldn't even focus or concentrate at all. I kept thinking about all the chores that I had to do when I got back home but then one thing the Luna just said perked my attention. 

“In two weeks there will be a moonlight eclipse ball where various packs from different colonies would be invited and every young girl from the age of 18 and above would also need to be in attendance to find their various mates and I wish y’all good luck in finding your mates.”

So many thoughts were running through my head and Due was beyond excited, prancing, running and jumping in my head owing to the fact that we may be able to find our mate.

“Keisha finally we’ll be able to find mate and I definitely have a good feeling that he’s going to love us and take care of us and burst us out of this stink hole we call a house”

I don’t know due I don’t think I’ll fit to fall in love yet and i really don’t think anyone in the right senses would fall for me talk more of even caring for me, I mean just take a look at my scars they’re hideous and besides you know I’m a slut like uncle says and also hated by all and loved by none but just the Luna. I don’t even feel worthy of having a mate.

“Don’t talk about mate like that. You’re always on the negative. You know mom and dad really loved themselves so why do you feel our mate wouldn’t love us? I have a very good feeling that he’s going to love and take very good care of us. We’re still meant to be loved no matter what we’ve been through and yes I know you’ll say we’ve been through a lot but then that isn’t a criteria not to be shown true love.”

Whatever you say Due I just hope this really works out cause I’m tired of the incessant pain and trauma I have to go through everyday.

After my conversation with Due I realized that it was past time for me to head back home.

After the meeting, I rushed back home and started cleaning the house. I vacuumed the floors, dusted the furniture, and cleaned the kitchen. I still had to do laundry, but i was too tired to do it.

I collapsed on the couch, exhausted and frustrated. I had so much to do, and i didn't know how i was going to finish everything. I closed her eyes and took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down.

“I’ve always told you to take it easy in yourself you’re not a robot you know? You know what? Why don’t we go out for a run you know it’s been really long since I’ve been set free.”

You know if we’re being cut we’ll get into big trouble with my uncle and I really don’t want to add any more to my already existing problems.

“It’s just going to be a one time thing we’ll be very careful you know it’s been long I was out in the woods I miss it, miss running through the woods while the winds blow behind my ears, I miss the smell of fresh earth listening to the squirrels up the trees chattering and miss lapping water from the fresh running lakes and miss seeing the sun's reflection on the surface of the water.”

I miss that too Due and I want it so bad like you do but I don’t want us getting in trouble with my uncle but then I definitely know I need a getaway. You know what? Let’s do this!