If only I had known…

(Lydia Richmond's POV)

"We have a deal, Alpha Quinn. Seven big bags of gold and you have her to yourself forever…" I heard my father, Charlie Richmond, say.

It broke my heart. At that moment, I knew it couldn't be amended. It was already decided. My biological father was about to give me to the cruel Alpha Quinn for seven bags of gold. It was quite a fortune but I had never imagined that seven bags of gold equaled my very existence. It hit me as odd.

"Deal!" Alpha Quinn replied. "The seven bags of gold would be provided. The deal is good as sealed."

My father smiled slowly. He was enjoying the happenings around him. He looked towards me and met my eyes piercing him. His facial expression changed instantly but he managed to look away before his conscience began to prick him. He looked towards Alpha Quinn again and smiled.

That was a day I could never forget. It was one of the saddest moments in my lifetime.

Exchanging me for seven bags of gold? Very remarkable!

**************************************

I am Lydia Richmond. I am a female werewolf from the Kingsford pack. I am twenty five years old. I am tall, slim, curvy, and beautiful. Adding all features together, I can be classified as a sexy lady. I had no issues whatsoever. I was not only beautiful and curvy, but also full in the right places. My boobs were full and my ass was fleshy enough for a man to hold on to.

But despite all these amazing feminine features I possessed, I had an issue which haunted me every second of my life. 

It all began when Alpha Quinn expressed interest in having me as his breeder. He was captured by my nice feminine features and he went through my father to buy me as his breeder. Alpha Quinn already had a lover whom he wasn't mated to officially. This was his longtime friend, Beatrice Baker. According to what they have shared, they had been together for more than half of their entire lives. They started off by being normal friends and then moved off to being lovers. 

It was obvious Alpha Quinn wanted a child but Beatrice Baker wasn't able to provide that. This was what made him approach my father to buy me as a breeder with the intent for me to have babies for him. He wanted nothing more, nothing less. I was meant to be used and dumped.

Of course, Alpha Quinn did a background check on me before approaching my father. He checked the fertility rate of my lineage so as not to make another mistake of bring a barren woman into his mansion. He was satisfied with what he saw and made his next move of buying me instantly.

It took me time to adapt to the circumstances. The first few weeks of staying at the Alpha's mansion was the worst in my life. I cried all through since I hated the progression. There was no one to comfort me. Thinking about that point in time gets me laughing now. If I had known then, I wouldn't have cried. I would have been happy since there was still peace of mind for me then.

At that period, Alpha Quinn's lover, Beatrice Baker, wasn't available at the mansion. She went for some sightseeing at a neighboring pack and she spend a month and a week. I had everything to myself at that point. Alpha Quinn understood what I was going through and he let me off for sometime. He didn't force any sort of lovemaking between us and he only made me feel comfortable with him.

But still, I cried and didn't let him have his way with me.

Yeah, that's why I particularly regret my unwillingness then. It was lack of experience and naivety.

I thought I was suffering then but unknown to me, the real suffering was yet to come. If I had known, I would have enjoyed those times. I would have!

Alpha Quinn was so patient with me then. I could vividly remember one of those times he came to me. How I wished I had listened to him early enough when he still cared for me.

That day was remarkable.

***************************************

"Lydia…" he called softly. "Why are you brooding?"

I didn't answer. This was causing me more heartbreak. It was like a situation where a person torturing you without halt tells you 'sorry'. I felt like strangling him right there.

But I didn't…

"Lydia!" He tried again, this time more sharply.

"What is it?" I answered angrily. I was looking at him with in anger. I was sure he could notice this.

He sighed.

"You haven't been talking to me despite me trying to indulge you in a conversation…" he began. "You are here for a reason but you are yet to work towards that reason. We have made no progress and I have to confess, I do not like it. You sound like I am trying to force myself on you."

"But you are!" I shouted at him impatiently. I couldn't tell where I got that confidence from. I could shout at him without any fear.

"What am I doing? I do not understand what you are saying…" he told me impatiently as well.

I still possessed that confidence. He had been so nice to me that I felt I could talk down to him. I must have forgotten that he was an Alpha.

"Listen attentively, Alpha Quinn…" I began to say. One would think I was addressing a child of mine. "You are actually forcing yourself on me. I do not want this and you know it. I wish to correct the impression that I am here on my free will. You and my selfish father sealed the deal. I didn't want to be part of your scheme. Keep me…"

This was all I could say before I heard a massive slap on my face. It stung me and left me with a mix of pain and unbelief. I continued to ask myself, "what the hell just happened here?". Of course, I had the answer to my own question.

I didn't realize at that moment that I had just lost the respect which Alpha Quinn accorded me. The other things that transpired were predictable. He beat me up and began to tear off my clothes with an intent to force himself on me.

I tried my best to get him off me but I was unsuccessful. After several trials, I gave up and allowed him access.

Alpha Quinn tore off my clothes to shreds and removed his robe and shorts only to reveal his long and hard dick. It took him no time to slip this in between my legs. It was a forceful and painful penetration for me as I was a virgin then.

He didn't even care about my loud and painful moans. He kept on thrusting in and out like a man would do to a pussy which had been taking penises for long. He didn't care to know if I was a virgin or not or if he had to be careful. I had provoked him and forcing himself on me was the only thing to appease him.

At last, he came. He didn't last long probably because of the anxiety he had, the pressure he put on himself, and the tightness of my virgin pussy. He came inside me and collapsed beside me on the bed. 

I was crying already, not out of pleasure but of pain. I felt more hate towards him than ever. It took Alpha Quinn some time to recover and the moment he did, he looked at me with angry eyes and pushed me off the bed.

I fell on the hard floor and sobbed the more.

"So you were a virgin?" Alpha Quinn began to say. "No wonder you have been so uptight and stingy with your body."

I looked at him with mean eyes. He didn't seem to care about that.

"You could have had it with me gently…" he continued to say. "... But you chose the hard way. I have tasted you regardless and I have to confess that you are really sweet. I would love to have more of you."

I couldn't control myself anymore. I did not see Alpha Quinn as someone like me anymore. He looked like a beast, acted like a beast, talked like a beast, and thought like a beast.

"Shut up!" I screamed and covered my eardrums with my hands. I didn't want to hear anything. 

Unpredictably for me, Alpha Quinn rushed and slapped me once more.

"Do not talk back at me again or I would have you see hell!" He shouted at me angrily. 

Now, I understood.

"From now on, the battle line is drawn. I would show you why you're nothing but a breeder!" Alpha Quinn shouted at me loudly. He stood up from the bed, put on his robe, and left the room leaving me naked on the cold floor.

I didn't know before but it was that moment I lost my self-esteem, respect, and confidence.

I graduated from being a lady filled with confidence to a weak lady.

But that was only a tip of the iceberg. There was more to come.