**** Enzi ****
Three days! She’s only been here a few days and she’s already turned my life upside down. This girl is driving me nuts. I should never have taken her. What the hell was I thinking? I should have left her there and come back in a few months. If I had, this whole nonsense with her and Merideth wouldn’t have been necessary. I can’t believe my mother arranged that. It’s not fair to Merideth, or to me, and most certainly not to Alyssa, but my mother is right about it being an effective cover, a cover that has already proved necessary. No one would possibly suspect that she means anything to me. It hurts like hell, though.
I look up when Jayvon bursts into my office.
“They say they were just told to take pictures of all the girls they see. Then they’d be told who to grab. They thought they were going to be kidnapping random girls, not necessarily a specific one. They weren’t given any descriptions to look for anyone in particular.”
I rock back in my chair and blow out a relieved breath. Jayvon has been monitoring the interrogation of the men we captured on our lands today, taking photos of our pack facilities and our pack members. Given that I couldn’t trust myself not to rip their heads off, I left that job to Jayvon. I almost lost control at the thought of them being here for her. It’s killing me to have my mate so close to me but not be able to treat her as she deserves or as I want. I want to cherish her, to worship her, but her safety is paramount. Even if she hates me forever, I will keep her safe.
“She’s not in any of the pictures they took,” I say, gesturing at the photos displayed on my desktop computer. My wolf is still fuming within me, and I’ve been constantly at odds with him since I met Alyssa. I’ve essentially been at war with myself every day.
“Good thing she threw that little poolside stunt then,” Jayvon says with amusement.
“It’s a good thing I locked her in her room, yes, but she can’t stay there forever. What the hell am I supposed to do?!”
I hadn’t really been looking for my Luna; however, I was briefly thrilled to find her. Then, Simon filled me in, and all this shit happened. I’m constantly on edge and I hate myself more and more each day.
“Enzi, I know you wanted to keep all this quiet, but I think you need to consider telling Darryl. And maybe Jamie. They need to understand why you are obsessed with her,” Jayvon suggests.
I rub the back of my neck and groan, “I know, and I’m not obsessed.”
“You are,” he snorts.
“Fine, I am. Has anyone noticed?”
“I don’t think so. She’s only left the pack house for training so far. But your Delta and Gamma should know what’s going on. Jamie already feels a pull to her and he can’t understand it. He thinks it might be a mate bond, but he can’t feel it completely because she’s young and doesn’t have her wolf yet,” Jayvon explains.
“Fracking hell!”
Gammas have an innate inner drive to protect their Lunas. It’s strange that he feels that pull since Alyssa is not marked by me yet, meaning the mate bond hasn't even snapped in for her. It must be because she and I are both Alphas. The Mood Goddess’ magic is hard to comprehend, an it makes sense that Jamie would mistake the Gamma connection for a mate bond, though. Alphas often sense mates even if their mate is underage, but an underage wolf never senses his or her mate until they are 18. Non-alpha wolves can sometimes feel an attraction for their mates and sometimes have suspicions of who their mates are, but they never recognize the full mate bond until it snaps in for both individuals.
I’ve seen some young couples who have dated for a long time and made that assumption. They talk themselves into believing their partner is their mate, then when they turn 18, the disappointment is heart-wrenching. That’s one of the many reasons that a lot of wolves don’t date until they find their mates. I can’t have Jamie pursuing Alyssa, thinking she might be his mate.
I mind-link Darryl and Jamie, asking them to meet me immediately. In a few minutes, I’ve given them both a quick rundown of the situation and explained the stakes.
“So… she’s your mate?” Jamie asks with disbelief.
“Yes,” I admit.
“Then why are you being such a dick to her?” Jamie exclaims; his Gamma instincts kicking in. His job is to protect the Luna. Next to me, her mate and Alpha, he would be the closest person to her in the pack. Despite the pride that he’s already feeling protective of her, I can’t help the small growl at his disrespect toward me and my possessiveness over my girl.
“I explained that. There are things she doesn’t know, threats she can’t fathom, and for now, it’s best that no one knows who she is or why she’s here.”
“What if someone recognizes her?” Jamie queried.
“It’s doubtful. None of our pack members have been to her pack, and when we brought her here, we told everyone she was Jayvon’s cousin. I also instructed Jayvon to tell her and anyone who might ask that her last name is Smith,”
“Because that doesn’t sound fake at all,” snarks Jamie.
I ignore Jamie and continue, “People might recognize the name Johnson, so we needed to change it. Her parents were popular, well known.”
“She really doesn’t know who her true family is?” Jamie asks, shaking his head.
“Nor why they want her,” I add in answer.
“How can she not know though? Surely someone would have told her where her mother came from, even if it weren’t her parents. You can’t keep a secret like that quiet. Someone in her pack would have said something,” Darryl comments.
“According to her uncle, Alpha Simon, Luna Mara’s parents cut her off completely when she fled and ran off with his brother, her mate, Noah. Her parents pretended she didn’t exist, they completely erased all evidence of her. Luna Mara never mentioned them to anyone either. Very few people know where she came from, only Alpha Noah’s immediate family and his Beta. Alpha Simon said Luna Mara tried to contact them several times over the years. She even sent photos of Alyssa, hoping that her parents would at least want to know their granddaughter. They never responded to any of those attempts. They didn’t hear from Mara’s family until recently when they needed her.”
“Bro, I have to say, Alyssa deserves to know what’s going on. I hate that you are putting her through this,” Jamie raises his concerns.
“Believe me, I despise myself for it. At first I thought claiming her was the safest option for her. Who’d dare attack us? But when I got in the car after the wedding, I found this on my seat.” I pass Jamie the note that threatened to kill her if I publicly claim her as my wife and mate.
“Goddess!” Jamie swears. “Any idea who sent it?”
“None. And that’s not all. I got that one while we were in her pack, and this one was pushed under my office, earlier today..”
I hand Jayvon the second note. He quickly scans it, before handing it to Darryl who does the same thing before handing it to Jamie. This note specifically references my holding her in her swimsuit and that they are always watching us. It kills me that I can’t figure out what’s going on here.
“If any of you have a better idea, please share it.” I say. “I know I’m being a dick but I’d rather be a dick that keeps her safe than a loving mate who gets her killed. We need her here and we need to keep her identity secret at least until she’s of age and I can mark her. It’ll be easier to protect her then. Once that’s done, he won't want her any more. Just like he didn't want his daughter anymore when she chose Noah.”
“If she’ll let you. If she chooses you after all this,” Jamie mutters.
I growl at Jamie’s snark, I hear both Jayvon and Darryl stifle a laugh. No one challenges me, Jamie certainly never has before, he’s already so damn protective of his Luna. Jamie’s right, though. At the rate I’m going, she won’t let me touch her, she’s already said as much, let alone mark her as mine. And I can’t blame her one tiny bit.
Still, the thought crushes my heart.
I try to ignore it and keep talking, “It’s the only way to keep her safe. They killed her parents to get to her, for Goddess’ sake! And I’m sure there’s more Simon didn’t tell me. The question is, what else could he be hiding? It’s only for three more months. Then I’ll tell her everything.”
**** Alyssa ****
It’s three full days before I see my dickwad jerkface husband again, up close and personal. I watch him at most mealtimes sitting beside his future Luna. I’m thankful that he’s not into PDA. Other than mealtimes and training, I don’t see anyone the whole week. Mistress Merideth hasn’t visited again and I don’t know anyone else here. I suspect my loving husband told her to ignore me as a punishment. Thank Goddess for books. They mysteriously turn up while I’m sleeping or out of the room and have been my only company lately.
For both meals and training, a warrior named Jamie collects me from my room and walks me to and from my destination. I am not given time to linger either. Jamie is a couple of years older than me, quite attractive, and seems genuinely friendly. Anyone who saw us walking together would assume we are good friends, maybe more. No one would make the correct assumption that he is my jail guard. At least he is nice.
Sometimes after training or after meals, I would find a small surprise in my room. Chocolates, flowers, and books to relieve my boredom. I suspect it was Merideth, or maybe Jamie; they are the only people that have actually shown me any kindness since I’ve been here. Plus, the books were mostly sappy romance novels, which seems more like a Mistress Merideth’s thing. This was not a genre I’d ever read before, and I was quickly finding that I really enjoyed them. They were light and easy, and I didn’t have to think too hard. Yet, I still found myself completely pulled into the ridiculous stories. They gave me something else to think about other than my own horror story. Escaping into a ridiculous world was definitely appealing.
In an effort to relieve my boredom, I also wrote letters to my uncle and my best friends back home. I begged Jamie to find me paper and envelopes, and the next time I saw him he had a gorgeous packet of notecards for me. Though he told me not to seal the envelopes as the Alpha would need to review my letters for any potential security red flags — of course he would.
Even though I appreciated the ability to write to my friends, I couldn’t actually tell them a damn thing! I couldn’t tell them I was married. I couldn’t tell them what pack I’m at. I couldn’t tell them the truth about how he treats me. So really, I was still just as alone and isolated as I was before. What could I even say? My letters were vague and not like me at all. I told my friends I was visiting a few different packs, meeting new people, and that I missed them and would love to hear from them. At least they would know I was alive somewhere and thinking of them.
In my uncle’s letter, I asked after his family. My cousin was due to be born around the same time as my birthday, so Aunt Carin’s due date was rapidly approaching. I could use some happy news. Even though logically, I only just sent the letters, I couldn't help but get my hopes up every time I saw Jamie, thinking maybe he had a reply for me. No such luck yet.
Since it has been a few days since seeing real people, imagine my surprise when I’m woken up one morning by a giggly someone bouncing on my bed.
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**** Enzi **** Never in my life would I ever think that I would have it in me to treat any woman with such disrespect. I hated how my father treated my mother. It’s in fact what I hated the most about him. He was an asshole to me, but it was how he treated my mother and my brother that upset me the most. I could take it, and I took most of the hits for Xavior and as many as I could for my mom, even though she hated when I got hurt “because of her.” Though it was never because of her, it was always because of him. There was something wrong with my dad. Werewolves are monogamous, and our mates are our treasures, the most important person in our lives. Until we have children of course. Nothing is more important to a werewolf than their family and their packs. Usually, werewolves find and marry their mates, and live happily ever after; it’s very rare that a werewolf would cheat on his fated mate. Mistresses are rare. Yet, my father had several. Now, I find myself stringing two women al
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**** Enzi **** Bethany is a bitch, but she’s smart, and she came to us from another pack. There was no way I could let her discover my secret. I was still internally kicking myself for my asshole comments about Alyssa’s weight when the mind-link came though, “Intruders, not wolves...” Tyson choked the words out and I could tell from the quality of his inner voice, and the pain I could sense from it, that he wouldn’t live. Immediately, I send out a mind-link that was pack-wide, “Warriors to me. Everyone else, head to safety. We’re under attack.” My eyes scan the area, looking for my treasure. I spot her and mind-link Jamie, “Get her to the safe room, now!” “Yes, Alpha. I could stay and fight, everyone is heading that way, she’ll follow the crowd naturally.” “No! Get her to safety first. She is my priority,” Nothing can happen to her before I’ve had a chance to give her the life she deserves. I’d never forgive myself if she leaves this world feeling abandoned and unloved when n
**** Alyssa **** It’s been two weeks since I’ve seen him. During this time, I’ve not been allowed to leave my room. Food has been delivered to me, and I’ve been exempted from training. I did not even attend Ava’s mom’s funeral. It’s not that I knew her, but I felt like I needed to be there for Ava. I’m miserable, bored, and annoyed. There are only so many books you can read before you start wondering if a violent escape of some kind is in order. When I was finally able to get an answer out of Jamie as to why I was locked in my room, he told me the Alpha was worried about me, and it was for my own safety. He refused to tell me any more than that. Ava was, however, allowed to visit me a few times. She kept calling me Luna, which made me nervous. I was petrified that the Alpha would hear about it in case it caused her trouble or he’d lose his mind at me over it. Ava insisted though, and she’s so freaking adorable and sweet that I couldn’t deny her anything. For the first time tonigh
**** Alyssa **** Here we go… I poke my head out my door to find no Jailor Jamie on the lookout. I send a silent prayer to the Goddess, and suck in a breath. Thank the Goddess, I did not want anyone to see me like this. Nope, forget everybody. I’ve got this. My body is buzzing with nerves as I muster my newfound courage to knock on his door; I feel ridiculously self-conscious. Besides that now-shredded bikini, I’ve never worn anything so revealing. I take a deep, calming breath. Goddess, I’ve never felt so edgy or been so daring in my life. I am a hot fucking Goddess, I tell myself. I’ve painstakingly applied smokey makeup and left my hair in long loose waves. It’s the first time I am wearing the sexy black lingerie set I purchased that day we went shopping a few weeks ago. I suck in a breath, and I pull my shoulders back to push the girls out for maximum cleavage. This sheer material of the cover-up thing that actually covers nothing tickles as it skims my curves. I can do
**** Alyssa **** It’s been a week since I saw him. Well, I’ve seen him, but not actually spoken to him, which is fine, perfect really! At least he hasn’t made a point of saying something hurtful to me or shoving his latest beauty in front of me constantly. I requested to see him several times throughout the week only to be told he’s too busy. It’s not that I actually want to see him, I figure, perhaps, if I pester him enough, he’ll agree to a quiet divorce just to get rid of the annoying nagging wife. I certainly hope so. He also did not have my door replaced during that time. I assume that’s my punishment for gifting him with a well-deserved slap. Losing my door equates to losing the only means of privacy I had here, and it is a blow to what’s left of my tattered dignity. I have no friends, no family, and now I can’t even close my damn door to cry alone about it. He’s broken my door twice in the time I’ve been here. Both times he had it repaired immediately — so yes, definitely pun
**** Alyssa **** 3 Months Later.… I was hesitant when Enzi first suggested a real wedding. We'd been through so much that I was happy to just move on without it. He had to build a case, explaining how guilty he felt that I hadn't been given the dream wedding he thought I deserved the first time around. He said that he'd always planned for us to have a proper ceremony where he could shout his love for me for all the world to hear. I could hardly believe this was the same man I'd met all those years ago. In the end, we agreed to a wedding that included the traditional Luna oath as part of the ceremony, effectively killing two birds with one stone. Now the day is finally here, I am thankful and thrilled he's put as much effort into this for me. He's gone above and beyond to make me feel special. The pack house and grounds have been completely transformed. I'd decided on a fall wedding with a fall color palette. I wasn't much of a party planner, but apparently, Jada, Enzi's mother
**** Alyssa **** As Dara stares at Uncle Simon, the room falls deathly silent. Simon, however, is staring out the side window, clearly lost in thought, oblivious to the significance of this moment. Then, I see his nose twitch and eyebrows crease. When his eyes scroll the room and finally land on Dara, his mouth drops open in shock. Oh, Goddess. No, this can't be happening. I want them both to be happy, but this is too much for him, given everything he's gone through in the last couple of days. Jamie said Simon had been understandably isolating himself, clearly depressed. On the other hand, Dara has wanted a mate for so long. She's the fairytale type. The type that always believed her prince charming would find her one day and sweep her off her feet. Instead, Uncle Simon has just been betrayed by the woman he loved for a decade and is facing running a pack and raising a baby and a toddler while grieving. His present circumstances are way more stressful than when he took over from my
**** Alyssa **** "Hey, Alyssa, sorry to disappoint you. It's just me: Jayvon." "What's wrong? Can I talk to Enzi? Why are you calling Adrian from Enzi's phone? What happened?" I don't know why, but I am suddenly sure that something must be going on. "He's fine. Well, not exactly fine. He was injured, but he's healing, and he will be 100% soon," Jayvon explains, very poorly, I might add. "Let me talk to him… I need to hear his voice," damn, did I just actually say that? "Well, the thing is, it's his voice that's injured. He is currently unable to speak. Which is refreshing," Jayvon grunts, and I laugh in spite of my worries. It sounds like an irritated Alpha might have just whacked him. And if that is the case, he can't be too sick. "I'm switching to facetime. He wants to see you," Jayvon says. A minute later, the screen shows Enzi lying in a hospital bed, much like mine. I have accepted his video but have yet to turn mine on. Reason being that he'll demand to know why I'm in a ho
**** Enzi **** The last thing I remembered was Simon and the hospital floor. Now I am in a fracking wildflower meadow. What the hell? How is Simon? My mate! Oh, holy Goddess, my mate! "She's fine. Or she will be." I turn toward the calming, musical voice and see a gorgeous woman with silvery blond hair and sparkling blue eyes. I recognize her immediately. Three and a half years ago, I dreamed of this woman, and she told me to go to the ball where I met Alyssa. When I recounted that dream to my mother, she was convinced I'd met the Moon Goddess, and at the time, I wasn't, but now I am. Of course, it's rare, but in every generation, a few people claim to have met her. It's why our belief remains so strong. "You're the Moon Goddess!" I feel an unusual sense of panic. That's definitely not a familiar feeling for me, except when my mate is concerned. But here I am in the presence of a literal God; that, or Doctor Dan has given me some good drugs today. "Yes, my child. Though, I go by m
**** Enzi **** In total, the labor was about two hours. I tried to ignore it, but with shifter hearing, it was hard not to hear the doctor's orders to push. I heard that humans often experience a whole day of labor, and I'm glad our Moon Goddess was kinder to shifter women. I've visited plenty of the packs' new moms here in this very hospital to know that the shifter labor can be anything between 1 and 5 hours. "She's had the baby." Simon's voice interrupts my thoughts, and I promptly leap to my feet. Usually, I would say congratulations, but that doesn't seem to fit this situation. "Girl? Boy?" They had wanted to be surprised this time around. "A girl. She wanted a girl," Simon says with obvious sadness. "Healthy, I assume?" "Yes. She's perfect." "And Carin?" I ask.. "She'll be healed by morning," he shrugs. Good. We still have questions. I pat Simon on the shoulder. I don't know if there are any words to heal his broken heart right now, and I've never really been good at
**** Alyssa **** "What about my friends?" I question, trying to sound calm, but I know I've just snapped, and I am well aware that my voice sounds higher-pitched than usual. "Oh, they are fine; everything is fine. Don't worry. I was going to tell you what we learned," he hastily says, obviously sensing my rising panic. "You could have started with that," I flop into the armchair and dangle my legs over the side, feeling slightly annoyed but definitely relieved. "Carin was right about my father taking Marc and Dara's pack and killing their father," he says. I had a feeling she wasn't lying about that. I suck in a breath, "How are they?" My voice is tight and whispery. I wish I could be there for them both. What a crappy way to learn about the father you never knew. "Well, I was just a baby when it happened, so I don't know much other than the basic facts as reported to me. We have a few old warriors in the pack we've been able to talk to. We've confirmed; theirs was one of the
**** Alyssa **** As the plane makes to land on the small private runway in the jungle, I feel my nervousness spike. I don't know a lot about this grandfather of mine, and I've never been to South America before. I'd known, growing up, that my mother was Brazilian, and even though she shared some of her culture with me, this still all seem so foreign, yet at the same time, it feels oddly like home. "You're quiet," Adrian commented with a small, amused smile. We are driving down a road flanked by thick rainforests that I can't keep my eyes off; it is like the trees are calling to me. "I'm just… I want to explore." That's true, but not the full extent of my current feelings. "He's going to love you. He already loves you," Adrian answered my biggest fear without my having to express it. A surge of gratitude caused my smile to twitch. "Thanks," I said, not quite sure what else to say and definitely not willing to admit how much those words affected me. I know my parents loved me an
**** Alyssa **** Three dead. It hurts my heart to see three wolves dead because of me. One looks young, probably my age, and the other two look older. I recognize the older two from the files I examined years ago, but I only remember a little about them as individuals. And that just makes me feel worse. All three must have families who love them; I wonder if the young man had met his mate yet? Just then, a familiar and unexpected voice breaks my revelry. That is a voice I haven't heard in person in many years, and it takes a moment for me to fully register who it is. "Well, I never should have trusted a rogue to do a Luna's job." My brain was still grappling with her words, and I couldn't quite process what she meant. What the heck is she doing here? A heavily pregnant Carin steps out of the plane with a smug grin, and a gun pointed right at me. "Aunt Carin?" This does not make sense. If she's here, does that mean she had something to do with my parents' deaths? And how did
**** Enzi **** I thought my heart would explode when she suggested staying in my room last night. It took her a while to fall asleep, I could sense her nerves, but I could also sense that she was starting to need me, want me. She finally rolled her back to me and tucked herself in as my baby spoon. Fracking perfect! "Is this alright?" she'd asked. "Yep," my answer was short because having her heavenly self this close to me set my soul on fire. I was desperately trying to think unsexy thoughts so that she wouldn't feel the rapidly hardening buddy poking her from behind. When I did fall asleep, it was the first time in a long time that I felt this at ease. Now, the golden glow of the sun is just tinting my room. I'm sure I didn't get much sleep, but having my gorgeous mate beside me, feeling safe and comfortable with me, made me feel fully refreshed regardless of how much sleep I had. "I love you, Alyssa. Even if you don't love me yet, I will always love you," I whisper while she