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A FIGHT WITH MY EMOTIONS

Author: Ogala Miriam
last update Last Updated: 2025-01-16 23:00:02

AXEL

I had blown the plan. I wasn't supposed to mention Laura's name. It was a critical mistake, one I couldn't afford to make. She couldn't know my true identity, not now, not ever.

The most agonizing part was that her memory still haunted me. The scent of her smooth cologne lingered, refusing to fade away.

‘Oh, Moon Goddess, please, take this torment from me.’ No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't shake the thought of her from my mind. It was as if I couldn't escape the memories that haunted me.

Her slender legs and silky skin were etched in my mind, refusing to be forgotten. But I knew I had to try and shake off the image - it wasn't the right time, and seeing her again wasn't a necessity… not now. Yet, my emotions seemed to have a mind of their own, and they were getting the better of me.

‘I need you in my study,’ I mind linked my beta, Tom.

His response was instantaneous: ‘On my way, Alpha.’

Within minutes, Tom appeared in my study. I couldn't help but appreciate his efficiency;
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