Chapter 3
It's cold, my chest is cold. I inhale and moan in pain when the act causes my chest to twist with every pressured breath I take in.
My eyes feel like lead as I try to see through the darkness. Another whimper escapes my lips when I feel a slight pinch on my stomach.
A steady voice speaks, “She's responsive, Alpha.” He says.
My nose twitches as I try to discover where exactly I am. The smell of antiseptic is sharp in the air. I perceive wood and fur, the general scent accredited to werewolves but what I realize is missing is the familiar smell of home, my pack, my family.
My body reacts immediately, my hind limbs kicking frantically as my mind switches into flight mode.
“The patient seems to be having a seizure, doctor.” An authoritative female voice alerts and I'm immediately surrounded by hands, multiple strong holds pull down my wolf and I growl in pain, fighting even harder.
“Do something to stop this, Banks!” The same female voice orders.
“Yes, Alpha. The drugs should kick in any moment from now.” A man responds just as my body begins to feel too heavy to be controlled. The weight of multiple hands holding me down lifts then as I unwilling get plunged back into utter darkness.
The second time I wake, my eyes thankfully are functioning. My body is numb and my mind empty except for a memory on constant repetition in my head.
“Aura!” My mother's cheerful voice yells from across our backyard. A giggle escapes me as I race across the yard, running like my ten-year-old life depends on it. A loud roar from the monster behind me forces me to scream. I'm only a few feet to my savior when I am tackled to the floor by the big bad monster. My father wraps his hands around my head as he twists in the air so that I land on his strong body during the fall.
A loud laughter fills the atmosphere as my father evilly celebrate his victory. “You cheated!” I accuse, hating the feeling of defeat.
“Aura, we both know you just aren't fast enough.” He teased, releasing my angry form from his body.
I stand in protest, tears stinging my blue eyes. “No! I'm faster than you. I'll prove it.” I state.
“Aura, it's alright to loose sometimes.” My mother says, trying to soothe me.
“No ma, I'm really fast. You can ask my classmates. They all tried to hit me but I was too fast for them. I…”
“What?!” My father exclaimed, the light in his eyes instantly darkening. “What did you just say?”
I stand confused when my mom eyes redden in tears.
Laying in what I've come to discover is a hospital bed, I understand perfectly what I didn't understand then. In that moment in my yard, my parents had realized how worthless the pack viewed me but they had said nothing about it. Perhaps they didn't want me to worry or think less of myself or maybe they had belived I would amount to something good in life.
How wrong they were. How wrong they were to keep me alive. How unfortunate for them to have been cursed with me for a child. If only they had aborted me. If only they had clawed my worthless life out when I'd first shifted, when I'd first shown my useless omega.
My ears are soaked with my tears but I can't find it in me to react to anything but the tremendous pain in my veins.
I try to sit up but fall back with a groan. My head is heavy and my life worthless. The bag of yellow fluid connected to my hand stays still, as still as my bleak future. A future just as useless as my life. What am I to do without my parents?
I've always been sheltered by them. I've only ever known their kindness. Every other has hated me or at least disliked me. I can't be stupid enough to prolong this waste of a life.
I weakly growl, reaching for the needle attached to my hand. With one slow motion, I pull it out of my vein. It drops to the floor with a ting in the empty room. I release a sigh and wait, praying that no one comes in till I'm gone.
I have no idea where I am or why I'm here but I'm certain of something; I don't want to be here. I don't want to live any longer. The quicker I get to be with my family, the better for me. I should never have run from death. I should have accepted it then.
A strong shiver strikes my bones and I rattle with a sharp cry on the bed. Biting down on my lip I try to stifle my groans, knowing my end is not far away. My muscles spasm and I scream as an excruciating pain roots out from my abdomen.
Hot tears rush from my eyes when the door is pushed open. It hits the wall with a loud bang.
“No…no!” I cry as a middle aged man runs to my bed. Two other women follow behind him.
“Goddess damn!” He curses as he pulls my stiff arm and reconnects a clean needle.
“No pl…please d…don't.” I beg in fright. I don't want to live. I'll hurt people if I stay alive.
The man calls out orders that are quickly followed by the women who accompanied him.
Then my heart beat slows to an unfamiliar rhythm and a lone tear escapes my eye. Finally, I think– finally I get to be free.
“Get Ace!... NOW!” The doctor yells, despair clouding his gaze.
Just when I'm sure it's time, when I can no longer remember how to breathe, a man walks through the door, his eyes hold mine captive as he strides toward me. I take note of the tattoos lining up his strong arms and neck, the gold earring dangling from one ear and the sharp claws aiming for my face.
My mouth opens in a silent scream and he slips in a finger. A warm substance drops on my tongue. Another drop and I pick up the metallic taste of blood. Another drop and my shivers cease.
His warm brown eyes hold my gaze as he feeds me his blood… The blood of an Alpha. The only thing capable of speeding up the healing of a lower ranked werewolf.
A soft calm envelopes me as my pains drastically reduce and my eyes flicker in dizziness. But before I fall asleep I hear him speak tenderly to me.
“Sleep tight, pup.”
Those words cause a slight satisfaction within my chest. Suddenly, I'm not all too eager to loose my life.
Chapter 4“You are required to eat everything on the tray before ten am. By then the Alpha of Darkwoods will be with you.” The male doctor from earlier states. It has been a week since my last attempt at suicide. A week since I'd last seen Ace, the man who restored my life. His brown eyes were imprinted into my memory after that day. I had mistaken him for the Alpha but he isn't. This is something I learned yesterday when the Alpha of Darkwoods– the pack that had collected me from the claws of Alpha Mich– paid me a visit. When I'm done eating, just as promised, Alpha Elena saunters into the room. Her brunette hair sways gently over her shoulder, her beautiful green eyes take note of my surroundings before finally landing on me. Then her lips pull up in a smile as she speaks, “I see they are taking good care of you, Aura.” “Y..yes Alpha.” I say, my heart unsteady. Although she has been nothing but friendly and sweet, I can't help but fear she'll soon show her true colors once she
“Gently, Miss Aura. Alpha Elena would like you in one piece and I definitely don't want to be on her bad side.” I nod my head, causing my wavy brown hair to fall over my eyes as I lean all my weight– which I am guessing is not much after all– against the pack maid. She supports my arms above her shoulder as she once again adjusts the crunches under my armpit. I wasn't this bad but after last night, my muscles keep protesting and refusing to corporate with me. I don't remember how I got back to my room but I do remember his every touch. I clearly remember the fullness of him inside me. I bite down on my lips to stop the lewd images in my head.Hanna, as I've come to know her, looks at me and smiles encouragingly. “There, there, you're doing just fine.” She says before pulling the door, which we've been standing before since the last ten minutes, open. I bite my tongue against the cold that immediately assaults my body but one glance at how unaffected Hanna is by the cold and I strai
Xzen's POVIf there's anything that differentiates me from my younger brother, it will be my tentativeness but I've failed to live up to my expectations for myself. How did I fall so low? I lift the jug and drink the water I've been staring at for the past ten minutes. No matter how hard I try, I still can't figure out what exactly made it impossible for me to resist the Omega's sweet seduction. I'd found it hard to tear my gaze away from her eyes, the depth of them as vast as an ocean, captivating yet terrifying. I'd felt almost drowned in her sweet scents. Goddess, even without knowing a thing about who she was then, I had still jumped her like a hungry beast. I close my eyes, reminiscing her sounds, those moans of pleasure. The way she writhed within that soft nest of hers as I pounded her tight heat. Her silent tears while her eyes rolled back in ecstasy, her fingers clutching tightly my biceps. The only audible word I heard through my blinded pleasure was her plea for more. I
It's been several days since my arrival at Blackvine and although I'm trying to keep my hackles up, it's so hard not to let my guard down amidst such loving people. I smile as I step into the cold night, my bare feet absorbing the chill from the carpet grass leading to the backyard of the pack mansion. I've only been outside twice since my stay here and I'm only outside now because Hanna is fulfilling her promise to me. I don't want to do wrong in the eyes of the same pack that rescued me from the claws of my previous mate. So I promised Hanna to put my all into my physiotherapy and now that I can walk with only a little limp, she owes me a bath in the famous hot pool. “You will love it, trust me. I would have chosen to be a healer but I lack enough concentration. The last time I mixed a herb for a rabbit, it died within five minutes. Apparently, I'd mistakenly mixed in a poisonous mushroom.” Hanna chats excitedly. She swings her arms around animatedly as she continues to share her
Chapter 8I stand frozen as my surroundings echo the shout of the woman in pain. My heart trembles at the memory of that night. The night I lost my family. The night I lost all that mattered to me. I can still hear my mother's scream of agony. I can see the blood-soaked body of my dead father, his lifeless eyes gazing in terror at me. The worthless daughter of his. The one who brought them nothing but pain and heartache ever since her birth. “Aura?” This pathetic excuse of a werewolf, this useless, rejected omega.“Aura! You need to breathe!” Hanna's frantic plea reaches my ears and for a moment I cease to hear the angry howls of my past pack mates.I gasp with an intake of breath, feeling my chest tighten with the effort it takes to get air into my lungs. My eyes water as I choke on air. Through my teary eyes, I can see Hanna's lips moving like she's trying to tell me something.“W…what?” The strain it takes me to mutter that one word causes me to push my heavy head against the wa
Chapter 9Xzen's POVThe sound of cheerful children fills the pack house and I stride out in quick step outside the house. I can't concentrate with all this noise. Why mom keeps letting these little pups into the house baffles me. That it's children's day doesn't mean all children in Blackvine should be granted access into our house. A low groan leaves my throat when I encounter more pups outside. Some are even in their wolf form and baring their teeth playfully at their friends. It kinda reminds me of I and Ace when we were much younger. We would play around like this, chasing each other in the woods and talking about any and everything but all that stopped three years back when we lost our Dad. He doesn't talk about it and I don't either. What I told Ace the day of our father's burial was all I planned to tell him and I don't regret it one bit. He deserved to hear every word. It was his fault, no matter how mother tried to convince the whole pack it was an accident. Ace has always
Chapter 10Xzen's POVThere are only a few reasons why my mother might call me into her study and all of them revolve around my duty to the pack. So as I push open the heavy wooden doors and step into my mother's study, my heart beats with anticipation. The low lighting envelops me, giving me the familiar feel of walking into a cave. Dark walls surround me, adorned with ancient tapestries that whisper secrets of our pack's history. The air is thick with the scent of old books and leather, a familiar smell that doesn't fail to bring me both comfort and unease.My eyes adjust quickly to the darkness, and I take in the familiar sight of my mother's domain. Her massive wooden desk sits at the far end of the room, polished to a high shine from years of use. Behind it, the high-backed white chair looms like a throne, casting a long shadow across the floor.Long shelves line the walls, packed tightly with dust-free books bound in worn leather. The flickering candles cast shadows on the walls
Chapter 11My body trembles as the large guard leads me down the dimly lit hallway, the cold air of the high-ranking pack's den envelopes me like a shroud. The walls are adorned with ancient tapestries that depict the pack's history. They seem to loom over me, casting long, taunting shadows on the floor. The chill of the night seeps through the stone, making my skin prickle with goosebumps.The footsteps of the guard echo off the walls, the only sound breaking this oppressive silence. I quicken my pace, trying to keep up with his long strides, my heart racing with every step. The hallway stretches out before us, lined with doors leading to the private chambers of the pack's elite. I know because this part of the hall is way too elegant to be given to any lesser. I wonder why I'm being brought here.The air is thick with the scent of wood smoke and damp earth, an underlying scent of this pack. I shiver, despite myself, feeling the weight of these Pack's history and power bearing down o
Aura's POVAt first we don't notice the sky darkening, too lost in the heated kiss to realize. But then raindrops begin to fall, gently at first, then it intensifies into a relentless downpour. “Hmm,” I moan against Alpha Xzen's lips a second before he pulls me up to wrap my legs around his waist. My fingers tangle in Alpha Xzen's hair while his hands roam my curves like a starved man. But our bliss is short-lived. A squeak leaves my lips when the rain suddenly becomes a torrent, forcing us to seek refuge. Alpha Xzen grasps my hand, “follow me!” He shouts under the rain, pulling me along with him. Laughter escapes my chest as we run like two pups in the rain. Xzen glances back at me, his eyes warm. I run after him, feeling my heart lighten as I'm led back to my shelter. Our footsteps splashing in puddles.Michel and Henry must be in their outside rooms on both sides of the small house, as they are nowhere to be found when we burst through the shelter's entrance.The door barely ge
As I walk up to meet Alpha Xzen, my heart pounds heavily in my chest. He stands a few feet away, two guards standing beside him but not too close. His eyes are fixed on me as I step closer, expecting him to say something– anything that'll give me some indication of why he's waiting for me. But instead, Alpha Xzen's eyes shine as he simply gently tugs me away from the rising murmur of the small groups of individuals standing and sitting in the green field. A kind shiver graces my spine at the warm contact. I inhale, noting how good he smells. Alpha Xzen's thumb rubs softly the back of my tensed hand and I instantly relax, feeling a calm heat course through my hand to my heart. I stumble slightly, caught off guard by his sudden quick movement, like he's scared I'll refuse to follow him. "W...where are you taking me?" I ask, trying to hide the uncertainty in my voice. No, it's not that I'm scared of Alpha Xzen, but because I'm not sure what to expect from him. He doesn't respond resp
Aura's POVThe grass is wet today. Wet drops quickly slip into my sandals as myself and Bay stroll down to class. Today's our exam. It's our final practical class, one that I and Bay have been studying hard for. Like every other day, Bay came to wait at my door so we can stroll to class together but I don't believe that's the only reason. Considering how interested in Henry she was when I got out, I'd say he's the main reason she keeps showing up. As we stroll, I silently listen to Bay rant on about how Michel is always ruining her fun with Henry and how unfair it is. “I mean, I'm no longer with that cheating count so why can't I mate with a mateless beauty?!” Bay unsurprisingly yells.Yes, she's is... a lot. She's loud, blunt, and very dramatic, but somehow it all just works. Most days she's like a breath of fresh air to my worrisome mind, stirring things up and keeping me in the present.I realize, as we walk, that I've never known anyone like Bay. Someone who's so unapologetical
It's been days since I last saw Alpha Xzen, and weeks since I moved out of the pack house. Through out this time a lot of things have been inconsistent. Although I hate to say it, I'm better off within the pack house where every thing is set in motion for me. Here at the shelter I can hardly coordinate myself. It's only now that I've tried living on my own, without the help of the pack that I realize just how much was being done for me back there. I never had to make my own meals, never had to wash the dishes, never had to worry for anything materialistic, Alpha Elena ensured I had it all even before I asked. It saddens me to remember I never once really thanked her before moving out. I'd been too blinded by hurt. Also I have noticed how most pack members tend to stare when I pass by. At first I'd quicken my pace and hurry off but ever since Bay made it her duty to walk me home, I've realized they all are simply curious about me. Most times whenever Bay waves at them they run up
Xzen's POVOne look at Aura and I'm suddenly transported back to that evening…when I saw her with Ace. My frustration rises as I remember how close they both were to each other. I felt a pang of jealousy then, and I feel it now.I've tried so hard to get her to open up to me but she chooses to share space with Ace. Someone who's barely in the pack these days. How could she spend time with him so easily, when every time I take a step towards her, she takes a hundred back? It doesn't make sense. Hell, I thought I knew her, thought I understood her fears and her boundaries. But now, I'm not so sure.Aura's expression is confused, her brow furrowed in concern. She takes a cautious step back, her eyes darting towards the door like she's reminding herself of the available escape. Her stance is frightened, her weight shifting on to a leg as if she's ready to flee at any moment.I also notice how her tiny hands are clenched into fists, her knuckles white with tension. She's trembling, ever
Xzen's POV"And where is he?!’’ I glare deadly at the guard, my demand shaking the room. The man, a tall, confident figure with chiseled features and a strong jaw line, bows submissively, but answers calmly, ‘'I do not know, Alpha.’'I take a step closer, my anger escalating. ‘'When last did he report to duty?!'’ I question, my chest heaving. I'm hit with a pang of irritation when I notice Collins sitting at a corner of the room, frowning.'’Relax, Alpha,'’ Collins says as he tries to intervene. '’It's just a training session. I'm sure someone else can stand in for Ace.'’I whirl around, directing my fury at him. '’You've been gone for a while, you have no idea just how lackadaisical he's been,'’ I snarl, my eyes flashing with anger.The guard seems to sense ann opportunity and speaks up, '’Alpha Xzen, I could fetch Ace if you desire.' He lifts his head a bit, his confident demeanor permanent. Just as trained.I frown, my eyes darkening. ‘'From this day forward, he ceases to be the Pa
Ace's POVI'm aware that whatever I'm about to say will possibly make no sense to Aura at this moment. My words might hold no value to her but I must at least try. I've tried getting her alone, in a quiet setting where my thoughts would be more organized but if I keep waiting for that time, I may never find it. That bright and radiant eyes or the petite omega now look dull. The sight causes an unpleasant feeling in my chest, and although I'd like to wipe it off with a joke, I know now's not the time. We are sitting on a bench in the open filled outside her healing class. I notice some trainees checking us out but I pay them no mind.As I prepare myself to speak, I notice how Aura's shoulders are slumped, her arms wrapped tightly around herself, as if trying to hold together the shattered pieces of her heart. I should have been there for her. I would have been there for her. I still wish to be there for her, if she'd let me.. I take a deep breath, my own heart racing with a mix of
My heart drums in rhythm with my feet pounding against the damp earth, mud coats my bare feet, slipping through my toes just like my breath coming in ragged gasps as the wolves close in around me. Panic claws at my heart when I spare a glance behind me. Their eyes glow like lanterns in the dark, the zeal to kill burning like wild fire in their orbs. I move faster, my soul freezing, blood curdling as my mother's scream pierces the air. I don't see him at first but as I get closer, the trees around me blur and I see my father standing in the direction I'm heading. Blood pours down his eyes and the open slit in his throat. My steps falter as hot tears break free. “P…Pa!” I scream. He gazes at me with accusing eyes. His voice is barely above a whisper, "You caused this." Those words sear into my mind like a branding iron, the guilt and horror boldly threatening to consume me.“NO! NO!” I scream in fright when sharp claws dig into my skin, scraping against my bone. Alpha Mich pays me
With a drop in my aching shoulders, I step out of the warm pack house, and the silence itself is deafening. No one speaks, not even a whisper. Everyone's eyes follow me, their faces etched with sadness and…guilt. Some gaze down, unable to meet my eyes, while others watch with muted emotions that mirror my own.I feel like I'm walking through a sea of regret, their unspoken words hanging in the air like a challenge. But what's there to be sad about? I'd been the one to make the wrong decision of running away. I'd caused the death of my unborn pup. I'd caused it all and now that I think of it I feel I've mistaken their pitiful stares for guilt. But they have every reason to pity the weak omega. The fool who lost her pup when she tried to find a better route in life. Two guards approach me, their expressions calm. They both offer to help me move my belongings. I nod at them, grateful for their assistance, as I'm still a bit tired. It's been over a week but my body is still recovering.