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RAINIMy throat thickened, and I wanted to swallow, but I couldn’t.How could I, when my heart was heavy with thoughts…I was standing there regardless, watching each and every move.Trinity didn't say anything else for that moment as she was busy with her phone flipping through something I couldn't see.All I did was stand there and just stared, paralyzed, wondering why she was acting as though she was trying to hide something from me —Could it be that she was trying to hide the fact that she was jealous, I tried to weigh the thoughts in my mind before coming down to the fact that there was nothing for her to be jealous about.Has she always been like this?As we ate breakfast together, l leaned back in my heavy armchair, nearly shrouded by the darkness that was slowly descending upon the room and the shadows of the trees overhead.I looked out of the window at the rain, which looked to be heavy in the clouds.One of my hand rested on the table round the cup and the other reached to
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ZAVIERRaini.I hadn’t seen her in months, but the pull was everywhere, especially in the crevice of my heart, that looked to be colonized by the thought of her.She was everywhere. In the pictures she left behind and I still kept around his house, in her scent that still drifted into the hallway from her old bedroom…She might not be here, but the thought of her still filled everywhere."Zavier!"I blinked, jerking my head to the left, hearing Bianca call my name.She walked out of the crowd, her hair freshly cut and plaited complimenting herdark eyes looking impatient, and her stride determined came over to where I was."I was starting to think you weren’t coming again, I arrived three hours before you."I hesitated, feeling my heart tighten as though I could sense Bianca watching me.I thought about what to say , but I couldn't think of any as I forced a smile as shestepped up to me, taking my bag."Two hours." I corrected it.She slipped a hand around the right side of my wai
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RAINI.As usual River drove.It was just three months of carrying a Zavier child but I was already straining with the pregnancy already, it was almost as if I was trying all I could not to keep myself sane.The mere thought of him being around gave my body goose bumps as I was trying all I could to take away what Bianca said from the back of my mind while trying to hide the fact I was unsettled from my sister.The short trip to the hospital was uneventful, aside from the fact that I was trying all I could to stop myself from crying, I was doing all that was within my power and strength, but the more I thought about it the harder it was for me to think or even do anything.There was no will to stop myself any longer…Why is everything happening?I felt bitter as I thought to myself about the whole situation again and again, this time the tears did fall from my eyes unrelentingly.It took a while for her to notice, but she eventually did, turning to look at me square in the face.In-be
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ZAVIER Was it normal to feel so illusional, I felt exactly that way as I tried to make my way out of this madness I was feeling at the back of mind.In the back of my mind, I could picture myself back in the woods somewhere far away.I hurried to my feet, in a way right there at the back of my mind I could hear the sound of leaves as it unrealistically crunched beneath my feet, the tall trees and shrubs that were a mere blur across my optical gaze and heart raced past.Walking toward the door and peeping outside, I could hear the sound of humans in the farthest distance.For the sheer love of it— I enjoyed the look on the woman's face when she had seen my x-ray.Her eyes constantly scanned the picture before looking at me again…"Fuck!" I muttered as I bumped into a trolley causing a bit of noise that must have alerted someone.I waited to see if anyone was around or had heard it before quickly adjusting my path and pace to suit the hallway.At the same time, I was aware of the
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ZAVIERAs I watched the door close, I could swear that my heart was beating heavily from where it stood. It was frustrating…That brief moment of silence that existed between time and the periodic breathing that came after closing my eyes.In my life, regrets were easy to come by.The manner at which it came by was in such a way that they piled up, each one upon another until it was as though nothing was left in me than this feeling as though, weakening a man’s resolve.I didn’t regret much, and up until recently I had only felt guilt and pain,each one that followed me around ever since she left.Yet right at this moment, seeing her again… I regretted letting her leave.The regrets and everything I felt was heavy on my mind and even as I tried getting rid of it, it just wouldn't leave.It was as though, I was still married to herMy heart wanted to cleft close to her, I wanted her more than I had ever wanted anything and it hurt my heart to see that I was leaving me with a frustrating
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RAINII Had always taken my sanity for granted, but at that moment I wished I could feel every bit of it , and the fact was was I did.I even pinched myself to be certain it wasn't a dream.Of all ways I had probably thought about seeing this man,this was definitely the most unscripted,I had never imagined that I would see him this way or or this manner.It was the twist in a drama, and I was the starting character only that I didn't read this part of the script as my lips was agape."What is going on!" My mind screamed.Could it be? No, it can’t be and I was probably hallucinating.It felt so surreal, it all had taken place so fast that I couldn't process a word before he stormed off out of the room again and for a minute it looked like he hadn't been there in the first place, it was like …I sighed.Several thoughts ran through my mind as I sat up on the bed that I was laying on still looking at the door way.“Are you okay?” the doctor asked, confused. My face expressed shock but co
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RAINI.Zavier did make my heart pump so hard that I felt like I was on a damn roller coaster and the fact about it all was that he wasn't even her, yet I could fell his heavy presence all about .It was crazy…It was crazy the way this was turning out.I tossed and turned on my bed unable to fimd sleep wondering why I was feeling this way, it was like I was coming in terms with the obvious.He wasn’t in my dreams, and he wasn’t the first person I thought about when I woke up usually, but as a thunder clasped across the sky in s distance,I could have sworn that he was right there.He did was haunting me.I tucked my hair behind my ear, noticing the warm breeze that briefly drifted into the room, a lightning flashed to my left on the wall and I quickly averted my eyes as if I didn’t see it.It was like he left in there scar.I could feel it burning into my soul, this scar that made me less than perfect, I guess.Tossing again ony bed, I urged myself to get up dipping my forehead i
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RAINIAs the light from the sun made its way to the room and blurred through the floor-to-ceiling windows and into my eyes I shielded my eyes —yawning.I blinked at the alarm clock that read Seven a.m. and then rolled onto my back.Fear hit me in the chest for that minute as I thought about what had happened the previous day and how and for a minute I still trembled.The fear in my heart was quickly replacedwith a relief so strong I felt breathless.I had to do something about this…I sat on the side of the bed with my face toward the window, my elbows on myknees, and my gaze out lost in thought.From the mere thought of him, my heart quaked, in a way I was still finding out hard to see if he was really there or perhaps it was just reality and my dream state playing a trick on me.Every cell in my body was filled with desperation, longing, and frustration…The three battling away in my heartWhen I stood up that morning I could still feel that he was actually there, watch
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