Another day at training. I didn't mind though. I liked the idea of strengthening my body. I didn't like being weak. I wanted to be able to do things on my own and defend myself. Xander didn't let me train yesterday, telling me to take the day off after my breakdown during our run. Compared to what I had witnessed around the camp, Xander was so easy on me. He probably realised I would break if he treated me in the same way.
Two days ago, I remembered bits and pieces of the attack and I couldn't remember anything else. The whole experience was terrifying, but I was glad for Xander’s presence. At first, I thought he would push me to work harder, so I would get over whatever memory that made me panic and heave. He proved me wrong.
Xander was so gentle with me. He held me tightly and protectively, protecting me from my mind, which was my number one enemy at that moment. I was safe in his arms even though there was a war going on inside of me. His soothing words calmed my
I hope you're enjoying the story! Published on May 12th, 2021 Sara
Do you think it's okay to go out?” I wondered, glancing at Rowena. We were watching TV since we had nothing to do. Xander was out with Jorah who still seemed to be wary of me. I still didn't understand what I did wrong to make him think of me as nothing but a suspicious being, yet I was determined to fix the image he had about me. Ever since what Sorrel told me on my first day, she hadn't tried to talk to me, which was extremely odd. She just threw one warning and walked away. Did she hear me ask Xander about her? Did that make me unworthy of her trust in her eyes? Was I even supposed to trust her? I had been here for a month and I hadn't seen anything bad from neither Rowena nor Xander. The day he threatened to kick me out, I thought that was going to be the end of my safety, but I realised later what he meant by doing that. I was never going to get better while sulking inside my room. He challenged me, allowed me to get the anger I had inside of me and made me dire
Dinah told me to let go of myself and the music was going to take control over my body and move me. She was right. I didn't know how I was doing it, but I was enjoying myself on the dance floor. I swayed my body to the music as I savoured every second I spent on the dance floor. “I'm tired! I'm going to sit down,” Dinah shouted over the music to Rowena and me. “I need to sit down too!” Rowena said, and I whined. I didn't want to stop dancing, but I was sure that they weren't going to leave me alone on the dance floor. “Let's just drink what we ordered, then we can dance again.” I nodded and let them take me to the VIP area again. Jorah wasn't there, but Keith and Xander were. “We’ve got a great dancer here!” Dinah exclaimed as she took a seat beside her mate. “You are?” Xander seemed surprised to learn something like that about me. Truthfully, I was surprised too. “Seems like it.” I shrugged. “Which one is my drink?” I asked hi
I tried pushing that person away, but I couldn't. Weakness was taking over me. Every move I tried to make was restrained. I couldn't see straight and no matter what I did, I couldn't get away from that person. “Where the fuck do you think you're taking her?” That voice was familiar, but I couldn't determine whose it was. All I knew was that I was safe again. “She's my girlfriend. She came with me and she's going with me. Back off.” No, I wasn't his girlfriend. I didn't know that person. I tried to say anything, but I couldn't. My tongue felt heavy. “And you decided to drug her!” Before I could process what was going on, I heard screams, and the person who held me let go. I thought I would fall because my whole body was unstable, but somebody else caught me. What was happening? “Fuck! Priya, can you hear me?” Was that Dinah? “Xander! Stop! You're going to kill him!” That was Rowena’s voice. “Man, stop! She's fine! She's safe!” T
The sunrays made contact with my face, waking me up from the deep sleep I was in. I felt myself holding something— or someone. I opened my eyes and saw Priya sound asleep in my arms. I smiled a little to myself at how adorable she looked in my embrace. Her face was buried in my chest and her arm was thrown lazily around my torso. When she asked me last night to sleep beside her, I was slightly hesitant. At the end of the day, I was a man and she was a stunning girl. While we were dancing at the club, I wanted to kiss her, to take her away from everyone and have her for myself, but I had to remind myself that she wasn't eighteen yet. I had to remind myself that although she didn't remember who she was, she was still healing and maybe a bit traumatized and she probably wasn't sure of any choice she made. Every move I made was preceded by her consent, but even her consent wasn't enough at that moment because she wasn't fully okay. She still had a long way
Nobody was at home. I had the whole place for myself, but I didn’t enjoy the place when it was this empty. It was boring. Rowena added life to the place and as for Xander, he added… excitement. He made my heart perform backflips whenever he was around and he never failed to make my stomach erupt with butterflies. I made my way to the kitchen to pour myself some juice and I found Sorrel there. Whenever she was around, I didn’t feel comfortable. “I see that you’re falling for the Alpha,” she commented and I had to suck in a breath. Was I? I shouldn’t fall for him. I had to acknowledge the fact that this wouldn’t end up well, yet I wasn’t doing anything. “I’m not falling for anyone,” I said. I wasn’t sure if I was speaking the truth or I was in utter denial. “Whom are you lying to? Yourself?” She let out a sarcastic laugh. “Who do you think you are to talk to me like that?” I snapped. She was way out of line and I didn’t appreciate the way she sp
“Are we doing this correctly?” Xander asked me as we chopped the vegetables mentioned in the recipe. “Is there a wrong way to chop vegetables?” I wondered as I cut the yellow pepper into long slices. “You have a point.” He chuckled. “Cutting onions is the worst! I don't like how my tears are running uncontrollably,” he huffed, making me laugh. “I don't even know what I'm crying about!” “I got scissors, you got paper. You lost. End of discussion,” I teased him and put the pepper in the pan. After lots of complaining from Xander and me teasing him about how his eyes were watery and red, we put all the vegetables in the pan and we kept stirring them in the cup of oil we added before putting the vegetables. “Just a pinch. Don't add too much!” I instructed him as he added salt, pepper, garlic powder, and paprika. “Okay, you go boil the water for the pasta,” he told me and I nodded. This was fun. Having dinner at a fa
Four days had passed and Priya hadn't talked to me ever since that night on the roof. It was perfect, but it was dream-like and I was aware that it would turn into a nightmare if I didn't act rationally. She didn't understand that this was all for her own good. She thought it was easy for me to do that to her, but it wasn't. I was adding salt to fresh cuts while telling her that we had to stay away from one another. It was painful to see that look in her eyes. Terribly painful that I wanted to inflict on myself the same pain I made her go through. It was almost impossible for me to just stop kissing her, to take my hands away from her body, to tell her that kissing her and holding her was a mistake. She thought I didn't see her blue eyes that I had grown to adore glisten with tears. I hated myself for doing that to her, but this was for her own benefit. I couldn't do that to her. Even if she hated me for doing that to me now, she was going to be thankful later. When
I hugged my knees tighter to my chest as the thunder rocked the sky, causing me to flinch in my place. It was hard to control how I felt. The lightning brightened my dark room, sending fear down my bones. A sob escaped my mouth as my whole body shook in pure fright. I didn’t know that I was that scared of storms. I wasn’t just scared. I was petrified. My heart was about to stop at any given second. It was my first time to experience a storm like that since I woke up and found myself in Silver Moon Pack. I closed my eyes, trying to ignore how my heart was thumbing and just when I thought that I was starting to calm down, the thunder shook the sky again. I was trembling in fear. A hazy image appeared before my closed eyes of myself in a place that resembled a cell. I slowly shook my head and let go of my knees and reached for one of the pillows on the bed. I couldn't even hold the pillow properly because of how my fingers were violently shaking. I held it tighter
The plane landed and it took everything in me to prevent myself from squealing like a child. I couldn't believe that I was here again. I was less than an hour away from seeing Delora. I missed her so much. FaceTiming and constantly talking weren't enough. I needed to see her. “Somebody seems ecstatic.” I could feel the grin in Xander’s voice. “I can't believe that I'm here! It's been so long since I last saw her,” I told him. I wished I could tell her what I was, so she would be able to visit me in California, but I couldn't do that. I was afraid of the way she might react. Some things were better left unsaid. The two of us got up once we were allowed to leave the plane. Delora was waiting for us at the airport, but we weren't going to her apartment. I decided to make my friend experience the lush life she never got to have. Since Xander and I were going to stay at a seven-star hotel for two weeks, I booked a room for her too. I wanted to spend as muc
By winning the battle over Crimson, I became the legal heir of being its Alpha. After all, I was Elbert’s daughter and the Luna of the pack that won the battle, not to mention that I was a member of Crimson; Elbert never declared me a rogue. According to the Charter that set the provisions for packs, if a member of a pack won in a battle against the Alpha of the said pack, then legally, the said member had the right to the Alpha position. Since Silver Moon’s victory meant my victory too, this meant that I was the new Alpha of Crimson. Since I had become the Alpha of Crimson, everything related to the pack was under my administration, but I demanded a meeting with our friends who were also our advisors— Oriana and Dorin, her mate, were also among the advisors. There was something important I wanted to talk to them about. “It doesn’t make sense if I am a Luna here and an Alpha there. This is too confusing and pointless,” I spoke, earning their attention. The wedding wa
Xander fulfilled his promise. He gave me my dream wedding, just like how I imagined it in my head. As always, he did whatever he could to make my dreams come true. Excitement filled me as I stared at my reflection in the mirror. The white gown I was wearing was everything I could wish for in a wedding dress. The top was heart-shaped and the sleeves were long, glittery, and sheer. Tiny stars of a lighter shade than the dress’s colour were scattered on the fabric, making me feel like I placed a hint of my favorite time of the day on one of the most memorable dresses I would ever wear. Melanie made sure to design the skirt of the dress as a modified A-line, knowing it was my favorite. Despite her pregnancy, she insisted on making me the dress. She gave me a flawless one. “Here you go.”Oriana placed the floral tiara on my head, making me smile. “You look gorgeous,” she beamed, gently hugging me from behind. “Thank you,” I grinned, placing my hands over hers.
The moment I walked out of the Alpha’s house, I could hear the howls and fights that filled the area. “I'm free! I'm coming!” I told my pack through the link. I followed their scents, hoping that they were really winning just like Oriana told me. If my mate or any of my family got hurt, I was going to tear Crimson into pieces. “Hurry up, Luna,” Keith replied. Relief washed over me once I heard back from any of them. Thankful for the elastic clothes I changed into, I quickly turned into my wolf form and I dashed towards my family. “Are you safe?” I had to know. Please Moon Goddess, let them all be okay. When I received no reply, I raced towards their scent. Not them. Not my family. I waited for so long to have people like them. I wasn't ready to lose any of them. My heartbeats accelerated when I reached the battlefield. There was no time to be nervous or scared. I was going to defend each mem
My wrists were on fire from the silver chains. I was lying down on the hard ground. I had been in this cell more than once, and each time, my blood used to run cold and I always thought I was going to die. Even though this was my first time to be chained with silver here, I wasn't afraid. I knew I was helpless and the silver was wearing me down, but I was certain help was on its way. Most of the time, they kept me sedated and I was barely given food. Oriana did her best to help me out which made me believe that she was innocent, yet part of me was still reluctant. She snuck food for me from time to time and she even stayed for hours with me, trying to keep me company even when I gave her a hard time. Neither my mate nor my family was going to leave me here. It was a matter of time. I was sure of that. I was hoping that Xander would act rationally. I didn’t hear him talk to me after the last time he did. I had been waiting for a while. I just needed to get out of here
They had my mate and I needed to be fast. I was aware that by every minute, she was suffering one way or another. I wasn’t going to sit on my ass and feel her pain through the bond without doing anything.Almost six days passed over the last time I heard her sweet voice through the bond. I barely slept as I spent days and nights preparing my warriors for the attack. No words were sent to the council because they would do nothing but delay me.I intended to kill Oriana the moment I saw her. She betrayed Ayla even after she was forgiving enough to reconsider a relationship with her. Betrayal ran through her blood. She was a Crimson after all.“Xander, we received this almost ten minutes ago. A Crimson left it on our borders and left,” Keith told me, handing me a paper. We were all gathered at my house to put the final touches to our plan. We were going to retrieve Ayla. She was our Luna and we were ready to do anything to get her back.The
She betrayed me. I was an idiot for trusting her. I thought there was a chance for us to be actual sisters, but I was wrong. She was a Crimson. Their venomous blood ran through her veins. Giving her a second chance cost me my freedom, but I was sure that he was coming for me. The whole pack would come for me.“Ayla, you have to believe me. I swear I knew nothing about this.” Crocodile tears rushed down Oriana’s face as she stood behind the bars separating us.“There’s no need to carry on with your act, Oriana. I fell for your words and here I am in the dungeons, but I can assure you that they will come for me. Silver Moon will rattle your temporary peace,” I spat, doing my best to ignore the burning sensation of the silver manacles against my bare wrists.“I didn’t know! I swear on my daughter’s life. I never wanted to hurt you,” she whimpered, but I ignored every word that escaped her lips. “It w
Letting her meet Oriana on her own wasn’t a good choice, but she kept insisting that nothing bad would happen. I didn’t know how I believed that she would be safe. I should have sent somebody else with her. “Something bad must have happened to her! It’s been eight hours and she’s not answering her phone!” I hissed as I paced around the house. Keith was with me while Jorah and Declan were sweeping our borders with Crimson. She told me she wasn’t going to meet Oriana anywhere in their territory and they agreed to meet on a neutral land, but something didn’t feel right. She wasn’t even answering me through our mind-link. Suddenly, an idea popped into my head. Without saying a word, I ran out of the house and Keith was right on my heels. Her car had GPS and it was connected to my phone and hers. I could easily track her car. I opened the GPS on my phone and drove to where it was. My demons whispered ill-thoughts in my head that I wanted to scream out
“Okay, I really don't understand where you're taking me,” I told him as I took the bottle of juice out of the plastic bag. “You know, I'm kind of your mate. You don't need to worry about me killing you.” He chuckled. I removed the cap and gave it to him. “I know!” I exclaimed, laughing a little. “I just want to know where we're going.” “You'll find out in two hours or less,” he told me. “Fine.” I playfully rolled my eyes. Loana left a couple of days ago and yesterday, after returning from the airport, Xander surprised me and told me I needed to pack. I thought we would be going on a business trip, but it turned out to be a four-day getaway. Being the usual pain in the ass he was, he refused to tell me where he'd be taking me and no matter how many times or what I did to bribe him, he didn't give in. To give him some credit, he did tell me that we wouldn't be leaving the states. I reached for the AUX and connected it with my phone, deciding to