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Loving Him, Hating Herself
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The Alpha's Desires What Did You Do?!
Alpha Carl knew what he had said was a lie. There was no way he was going to let go of her after she had told him those words. The fact was that he wanted to hear her saying those words because they would help him holding onto her the more. He would never let go of someone who shared the same feelings with him. His grip on her waist tightened and his mouth held hers firmly as he kissed her lips hard. She was not kissing him back but the fact that she was not pushing him away was enough for him at the moment. His lips synced perfectly with hers and her warm body pressed against his own body. But it did not last for long as Ethel finally got the strength to push him away. She pushed him off her and wiped her lips frantically. "You.... Why did you kiss me?!" "You liked it, didn't you?" "I came here to tell you something important but I guess I will just leave and hide myself away forever, from you and from your enemies!" She turned to leave but his voice made her stop. "You will
The Alpha's Desires Taken Away
Ethel looked back at beta Tyler who was now walking over to the door as well, to see what was going on. Ethel looked back at her mother who was impatiently waiting for an answer. "What do you mean, mom?" Ethel asked. Apart from the kiss that she had shared with Alpha Carl that morning, she did not think there was anything else. "I heard you slapped him! You slapped the Alpha! You are not direct family to him and you dared to touch the Alpha! Even your father and I would not dare do that"Ethel's heart skipped a beat. How did her mother get to know about what had happened?"You slapped Alpha Carl?" Tyler asked and Ethel slowly nodded. Tyler hissed and threw his head backwards which had Ethel's heart even more worried. "Is there.... Is there anything wrong?" Ethel asked, exchanging glances with her mother and Tyler."Firstly, there is everything wrong in you slapping the Alpha of the pack. He is the Alpha and he remains the Alpha of the pack no matter what might have happened betwe
The Alpha's Desires The Other Woman
Alpha Carl was standing outside of the huge entrance door into the house, waiting for Ethel to arrive. The house was well lit, he did not forget that did she was scared of the dark and so he had made sure every part of the house was illuminated just like those times when she stayed with him. He could barely wait and it was taking a lot for him not to grin widely. A car zoomed into the place but it wasn't the car that Alpha Carl was waiting for. The car door opened and Lucy stepped out of the car, dressed in a beautiful and sexy outfit. She walked to Alpha Carl who seemed unmoved by her presence. "Alpha Carl" she called his name slowly. "I... I am sorry for last night, for drugging you. I.... I just wanted to...."Two cars zoomed into the mansion and Alpha Carl's attention was immediately drawn to the two cars. He felt his heart racing as she waited for the cars to park and for Ethel to alight from the car, looking as beautiful and as alluring as she always was to him. And she
The Alpha's Desires She Really Wanted To Stop
Ethel checked herself out in the mirror for the umpteenth time. She was skeptical about wearing the maid uniform. "You have to get to work and clean the living room. You might be Miss Ethel but you can't laze around and check yourself out in the mirror a thousand times." The head of the maids said to her. Ethel nodded and walked away from the mirror, holding the hem of her uniform. The maid uniform was short and skimpy and heck, it was tight too, definitely not the perfect uniform to work in. And she could not imagine what Lucy would think if she saw her in this. Lucy would be reassured that she was here to seduce Alpha Carl. But she could imagine what Alpha Carl would have done to her if she had dressed up in this uniform before Lucy woke up from coma. He would have grabbed her, pulled her close, whispered how sexy she was to her and groaned against her ears about how crazy she was driving him. And then he would have pinned her to whatever surface he could find and rip away the
The Alpha's Desires Caught
"Alpha Carl" Ethel called out against his lips but her voice was not strong enough to show her protestation. All that her voice did was turn Alpha on. "Ethel" Alpha Carl called her name, his lips just a inch away from her lips. He looked into her eyes to see if there was still the resistance and hesitation in them but it was gone. He pulled her into a hard kiss and a soft 'hmmm' left Ethel. She hated herself for being like this but just what could she do? This was who she was whenever it involved Alpha Carl. She loved him and her love was always getting over every other feeling. His strong hands ran down her back and grabbed her ass, giving it a squeeze Alpha Carl slowly broke the kiss as he smacked her butt and watched her face in pleasure. Only the heavens could explain how much he missed this. With a groan escaping his throat, he picked her up like she weighed nothing and threw her on the bed. His fingers reached for the buttons of his shirt and he jerked the buttons off,
The Alpha's Desires I Won't Leave
Ethel's quickly pushed herself out of the grip of Alpha Carl. She pulled her ripped clothes together, trying to cover up her body. "Ethel!" Lucy banged on the door. "Ethel! What are you doing in there with my mate?!" The door was banged even harder. Ethel glanced at Alpha Carl, then at the door that was being banged by Lucy, tears filled her eyes. She hadn't wanted to do this with Alpha Carl. She hated herself for betraying her sister and her family yet again. She was hurting Lucy and she did not want to do that but this man... The man in front of her who was picking his shirt from the floor, why could she not resist him at all?She sobbed quietly, not knowing how she was supposed to face Lucy once the door opened. Alpha Carl walked up to the other side of the bed that Ethel had cuddled herself. He put his shirt over her torn uniform but Ethel quickly slapped the shirt away from her body. "You caused this! I told you to let me be, to let me go!" she shot up from the bed. "We
The Alpha's Desires Bond
"Alright!" Alpha Carl groaned and raised his head, glancing at Lucy. "Be stubborn all you want but that will no longer be in my home. Lucy, you have to move out. There is no point in you living with me when I feel nothing for you. Ethel will live with me from now on" He added. "No, no! You are not keeping me here" Ethel shook her head. "Angel, don't say anything"Lucy stared at Alpha Carl, tears gathering in her eyes. "How could you not love me at all? I did not...I did not do so much just to lose you to Ethel" She cried."Ethel" she called and looked at her twin sister who was also crying. "Why are you crying? You made him fall for you! You are supposed to be happy! You are happy!" Lucy yelled at Ethel and more tears rolled down Ethel's face. "I hate you, Ethel. I hate you for taking my man away from me but I would not let this go! I swear I will get my man back from you" she swore and walked out of the room, her tears running down her cheeks. "I told you not to" Ethel sobbed.
The Alpha's Desires Lucy And Her Dad
Alpha Carl walked the short distance from the stairs to the room where he had left Ethel. And he could not stop thinking about who could have manipulated the mate bond of he and Ethel. He was glad however, glad that the moon goddess had not made a mistake but someone had done it. He was glad that he had fallen in love with the person the moon goddess had prepared for him.With just that revelation, their love did not feel wrong anymore and Alpha Carl hoped that Ethel would feel the same about their love after hearing that they were originally mated to each other. But none of his gladness could push away the question of who could have chosen Lucy for him. He pushed the door of the room open and saw that Ethel had changed into one of the clothes in the closet and she was not looking like the same woman he had left in the room. Her eyes were fierce and her stance was determined. "I am not doing this with you, Alpha Carl. I am going back home. No...." She shook her head. "I am not
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The Alpha's Desires The End
"Do you, Carl Hillard, the Alpha of the River Alley Pack take Ethel Adams as your wife and Luna, to stand by her and be with her all the remaining days of your lives, in good and bad health, in good and bad situations, to offer her strength when she needs it, to be her husband?" The priest asked. This time, Alpha Carl was much more at peace knowing that no one would barge in to inform them of an attack on their Pack. "I do" Alpha Carl replied all smiles. The priest gave a small nod and turned towards Ethel. "Do you, Ethel Adams take Carl Hillard, the Alpha of the River Alley Pack as your husband, to stand by him and be with him all the remaining days of your lives, in good and bad health, in good and bad situations, to offer him strength when he needs it, to be his wife?""I do" Ethel replied, almost too quickly. Alpha Carl chuckled at how ecstatic she was. Like they had planned, there were very few people at this wedding. They put on the rings and Alpha Carl had his chance to
The Alpha's Desires Retake The Vows
A week later"You know I still can't push away the fact that our wedding wasn't perfect. We didn't even get any wedding shots or even get to dance" Alpha Carl pointed out, his arms wrapped around her waist in a back hug while his face was buried in her neck. "Yes, that's right" Ethel pouted and ran her fingers down to his own fingers, feeling the moon ring on his fingers.It was still shining, even after Lucy had survived. "I was thinking...." He turned her to face him and kept his hands on her waist. "How about we retake our vows? I am sure our pup would love that" he bent down and kissed her stomach.Ethel smiled as he stood up straight. "We already did the vows...." She started. "But you are right. I was planning on dancing and taking loads of pictures but none of that happened and our rings too...." She raised her hands up. "We could only find yours when we returned to where we dropped it" she grumbled with a cute pout. Alpha Carl ruffled her hair fondly "That's that. I wo
The Alpha's Desires Laughter
Ethel let her body drop into the nearest sofa as soon as she was in the living room. Tears filled her eyes again. The Pack members were cheering at their success but she was crying at her loss. She could not even tell her mother yet. She did not know how to break the news to the poor woman, how to tell her that barely a month after her husband died, her daughter had also died. They had confirmed that she snuck out of the house and they had no idea where her body was."Ethel" Alpha Carl whispered her name and scooped her into his arms. "It's going to be fine" he whispered and kissed her forehead while she sobbed into his chest. Suddenly the telephone rang but the two in the living room were in no mood to pick it up until Alpha Carl raised his hand to pay Ethel's hair and realized that the moon ring's light was flickering. "Flickering...." He mumbled the word and Ethel's eyes widened, seeing that. "Lucy.... She is probably not dead" the both of them shot up from their seat. Ethe
The Alpha's Desires Her Death
Surprise, shock and yet relief ran through Alpha Carl's body as he realized that the moon ring's powers was now with him. But it meant one thing, Lucy was dead.... Someone had killed her or she had killed herself to save the entire Pack. With his paw raised up and the moon ring's light shining brightly, everyone froze. The enemies froze because they knew they were doomed, the River Alley Pack members froze because they were relieved, Ethel and Tyler froze because they were breaking apart. Lucy was dead! They had lost her!Crumbling to the floor, Ethel shifted back to her human form. "Noooooooooooo!!" Ethel screamed out loud, breaking the silent freeze the moon ring's light had caused. "Lucy!" She cried out as her heart wrecked with pains. Her twin sister was dead. This was a nightmare she hated! She didn't want Lucy dead, she wanted her alive. Tyler's eyes filled with tears. He had asked her not to harm herself, he had told her not to die as long as he was alive but she went ah
The Alpha's Desires The Moon Ring Shines
Lucy was seated at the edge of the bed in her room, her feet shaking badly and sweats pouring down from her forehead. Suddenly, the door opened and beta Tyler walked in. Lucy was shocked to see him. They were in the middle of a war, how could the beta leave the war?"Beta... Beta Tyler?" Her voice was shaky and she could hardly speak in one breath. Was he here to eliminate her on behalf of the Pack? She was willing to do so now, anyways. "Are you here to get rid of me?" She asked, her voice still shaky. "Very much the contrary. Ethel was worried about you trying something stupid. She wanted me to come check on you and assure you that things are going fine" he replied, sitting on the sofa inside of the room. "Are.... Are things going fine?" She stuttered out. "Not at all. Things are going from bad to worse. We are losing men. Though we have managed to get rid of a lot, we are still very much behind" he replied. "Then why are you here? You... You should be there, fighting for t
The Alpha's Desires Death
Lucy's lips parted in a whimper. The bouquet of flowers in her hands fell to the floor. With another pack onto them, she knew they could not win, unless they brought the moon ring to shine, unless they killed her. She trembled with fear and her eyes filled up with tears. "N.... No" she shook her head in disbelief. She wanted what was happening right now to be just one nightmare of hers that stemmed from her fears but it wasn't a nightmare, this was reality. Just when she thought that her life could be good, just when she thought life could be peaceful for her, everything had come crashing down upon her. She wished she had never said yes to being the fake mate of the Alpha. Now, their fake manipulated bond was too strained to even work. Even if Alpha Carl slept with her and marked her right now, the moon ring still would not shine. Everything was on to her life. Her death was the only thing that could save everyone but death scared her, she didn't want to die yet. Ethel, see
The Alpha's Desires The Moon Ring Is The Only Way
"Do you, Carl Hillard, the Alpha of the River Alley Pack take Ethel Adams as your wife and Luna, to stand by her and be with her all the remaining days of your lives, in good and bad health, in good and bad situations, to offer her strength when she needs it, to be her husband?""I do" Alpha Carl replied, more than willingly. "Do you, Ethel Adams take Carl Hillard, the Alpha of the River Alley Pack as your husband, to stand by him and be with him all the remaining days of your lives, in good and bad health, in good and bad situations, to offer him strength when he needs it, to be his wife?"With a huge smile on her face and her hands clutching tightly the flowers, Ethel said the words. "I do"Loud cheering erupted amongst the guests as the vows were made The rings were brought forward and Alpha Carl slipped the ring into Ethel's fingers, his heart racing as he did so. She was finally his woman!Ethel equally slipped the wedding ring into his finger and the both of them raised thei
The Alpha's Desires The Wedding Day
The Wedding Day"Are you sure I look good?" Ethel asked for the hundredth time after dressing up. "You look perfect, Ethel. Trust me" Lucy assured her and turned to their mother. "Doesn't she look perfect, mum?" She asked. The three of them were in a huge room that had been earlier filled with the people doing the perfect makeover for Ethel. "She does, she looks more beautiful than I looked on my wedding day with your father" their mother replied and the atmosphere of the room turned slightly sour. "You did not have to mention father" Lucy pointed out. "I am sorry. I... I just spoke, I did not think about it""It's okay. It's a happy day" Ethel lightened the air with a huge smile on her face. "That's right" Lucy affirmed. Lucy equally looked beautiful in her pink gown, her hair was styled beautifully and her makeup complimented her beauty. Lucy walked close to Ethel and adjusted the dress. "Is there anything wrong?" Ethel asked. "Not at all. And don't be nervous, Ethel. Eve
The Alpha's Desires Friendship
"I think this one looks really good" Ethel said, standing in front of a wedding gown. "No, no and no. You are becoming the Luna. This..." She pointed at the gown. "Is not good enough" she shook her head. "There is no such thing as you being a simple, beautiful bride. You are going to be a sophisticated beautiful bride" she added and Ethel chuckled. "Alright then. Why don't you choose cause I really do not know what to pick?" she responded. "Alright then" Lucy mumbled and looked around at the wedding gowns. "What about this one?" Lucy asked, standing in front of a sophisticated wedding gown. The wedding gown was decorated with tiny gems that caught the light of the room. It was a gown that would definitely catch the attention of even thousands of people. Lucy was sure Ethel would look elegant, beautiful and expensive in the dress. It was perfect."You have to pick this, Ethel.""It's really beautiful. You made a better choice""Leave things like this to me. I will make sure yo
