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The things we do

Author: Joy Apens
last update Last Updated: 2022-04-09 06:15:36

WARNING! TRIGGERING MATURE CONTENT!

Nikolai's POV

My head swirled with thoughts of today's events as I staggered through my bedroom door. Alcohol did nothing to lighten the load on my chest nor the rage I was feeling. I buried my head in my hands as I sat at the edge of my bed. Why had I let him escape? Why did I do something so stupid? 

"Why did I..." I swallowed, clutching at my hair with shaky hands. I knew it could not have been helped but I couldn't help but feel so stupid about everything. My chest began to heave once more when I stared at Elle's portrait on the wall. I had failed her. I had failed once more. I let her murderer escape when he was right in front of me. 

I raved with anger as my thoughts went to the prisoner. I had the perfect revenge tool against Jonas right in my grasp for weeks now. And instead of taking out my revenge and making her suffer like I was supposed to, I was out here playing nice to her. I even let them convince me to
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Merelle
I hope she won’t forgive him…he’s a dumb alpha
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Vici Bright Teague
OH. MY. GOODNESS. I am loving this book! I have felt every emotion that the characters have experienced. I can't wait to get to the next chapter!!!
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Shy
Oh my gosh. PLEASE, PLEASE don't ever let her forgive him for this. I hope she rejects him & it kills him. Rape is never okay. Even for revenge.
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