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2024-10-29 19:42:56Nikolai's POV
I couldn't explain exactly what was going on, it felt like I was going crazy. I still couldn't believe that I hadn't been making any progress in getting my revenge. I was shocked, confused, and for some reason, angry...
It was as though the anger began to manifest as soon as I acknowledged the fact that I was angry. I refused to accept that it was my fault. It wasn't... it couldn't be. I had been alert and focused. Why did she have to be there at the festival? Why did she have to get mixed into the crowd, and worse still behind the very woman I had planned on abducting. This was her fault. Not sure where I was going, I made my way to where she was.
As I swung the door of her room open and walked in, my brows furrowed in confusion. She was nowhere to be found. I moved toward the bathroom to check and that's when I saw her. She lay crumpled on the bathroom floor, her eyes half-open and her breathing shallow.
As soon as her eyes met mine,
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