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The Alpha's Caregiver 76–A broken Omega.
EUDORA.For days after that, I drowned in one nightmare after another. And that was even the times I could close my eyes to sleep because the poor things have endured so much pain from the heaviness of being kept open for too long. But there was barely any difference being awake or asleep made because I still heard those screams. They still echoed in my head. Made it feel like a dark empty room, bouncing off its walls because there was no way out—not a door, not a window. Just a room. I still felt those hands too. They caused a Squeamish feeling to wash over me each time I thought of them and the places they’ve been on my body. I’d wash and wash and wash myself till the sponge bruised my skin and the soap caused it to sting but even that didn’t make the feeling of filth go away. I felt like dirt each time I remembered how I almost got claimed against my will. And I still saw her. Laila.Lifeless in every single image that crossed my mind.I hated it. I hated that it was the image
Last Updated : 2023-06-14The Alpha's Caregiver 77–New feelings.
ALPHA REX.My neck and shoulders were stiff from sitting in the same position for hours while Leticia painted. The air was cool and silent as it has been since my return from the MoonBorn pack. I knew she had questions but she probably also knew that I wasn’t going to give her answers to them.I didn’t miss that since my return, she’s been walking on eggshells around me. It was a given, since I walked into the house at dawn, carrying a beat-up and unconscious Omega in my arms, with her nakedness covered by my shirt and while Zena’s concerned voice rang aloud, Leticia had stood there, eyes fleeting between the Omega in my arms and me. It’s been three days since then and nothing has changed. Zena was still nothing short of a raging storm around the house. If she wasn’t cussing at me, she was at the Omega’s door, knocking. And of course, the Omega has refused to show her face ever since that day. At first, I’d been worried that she was going to hurt herself if she stayed in there for
Last Updated : 2023-06-15The Alpha's Caregiver 78–On his bed.
EUDORA.I was awake when someone slipped a book under my door.My first thought was that Zena hasn’t given up on me like she made it seem the last time she was here. For a brief moment, I laid there, contemplating whether to go for the book, fighting between the inquisitive and the rational part of me.In the end, the inquisitive one won but first, I listened for footsteps and when I could make out none, I got off the bed and went for the book, flicking its first page open. The only person who could give me a book was Zena but it was also weird, what kind of book it was. It wasn’t the usual one we both read and enjoyed. It was some sort of self-help book and its title was even more weird. “Kicking trauma’s butt with style!” It was a typical Zena thing to do but she also didn’t know what I had gone through. Isn’t that why she was at my door, day and night, requesting for answers? Did she know already? Or was it so obvious that I had gone through the hardest phase of my life? I re
Last Updated : 2023-06-16The Alpha's Caregiver 79–Longing for her.
ALPHA REX♣️♣️♣️Was this a dream? Or a part of a distant memory? Or a nightmare that was slowly gearing up to feel me with dread throughout the night again. I didn’t know, but one thing I was sure of was that it wasn’t from my horrific past that I hated with everything within me. This…this view in front of me, unfolding before my very eyes wasn’t from my past. And I would know that because I have never seen it before. I would know that because it was almost impossible. I would know that because I have never seen HER before whenever I laid down to sleep. Simply put, I have never seen HER in my dreams. But there she was, in the middle of a lush green field, white dress billowing around her as the wind blew around her, the flowers of the field bowing to her at the enforcement of the wind. If this was a show, her long silky hair was the star and it was the only familiar thing about this strange lady in my dreams because her hair was in two halves; black on one side and a mass of whi
Last Updated : 2023-06-17The Alpha's Caregiver 80–How to heal?
EUDORA.I was awake when someone slipped a book under my door.My first thought was that Zena hasn’t given up on me like she made it seem the last time she was here. For a brief moment, I laid there, contemplating whether to go for the book, fighting between the inquisitive and the rational part of me.In the end, the inquisitive one won but first, I listened for footsteps and when I could make out none, I got off the bed and went for the book, flicking its first page open. The only person who could give me a book was Zena but it was also weird, what kind of book it was. It wasn’t the usual one we both read and enjoyed. It was some sort of self-help book and its title was even more weird. “Kicking trauma’s butt with style!” It was a typical Zena thing to do but she also didn’t know what I had gone through. Isn’t that why she was at my door, day and night, requesting for answers? Did she know already? Or was it so obvious that I had gone through the hardest phase of my life? I re
Last Updated : 2023-06-18The Alpha's Caregiver 81–As long as he has his way.
EUDORAI didn’t know which was faster—the way I raced to my room or the way my heart was beating. Either way, I didn’t stop till I was back in the confines of the room I’ve been in for the last three days. I paced up and down the room, now fully awake and reminiscent of how last night I’d gone. I couldn’t believe I shared the same bed with Alpha Rex and I was still alive to even think about it. I do not even remember when I closed my eyes or when I got comfortable enough to sleep.But I remembered how his whimpering was constant for more than a minute after he pulled me in with him. I remember how he gripped even tighter with each sound that left his lips, drawing me even further into his chest. I still had a distinct memory of what it had felt like with my back flushed against a chest that was all muscles. There was no inch of softness in the Alpha’s body. That alone should repel me and remind me that his body was just like his heart. Hard and dark. Yet sleep took over before I co
Last Updated : 2023-06-19The Alpha's Caregiver 82-Defects of Nature.
EUDORA.Zena hesitated after saying the first few words that will take me into her world and maybe even understand her and her relationship with her brother better.I realized I never even stopped to think about how she became blind. I just found it fascinating, how she was able to find her way around her weakness while mine has wrecked me over and over. I settled beside her on the bed, touching her arm reassuringly. To let her know that I was willing to hear her story despite myself. She continued. “I was born in my brother’s absence and then, I didn’t even know I had a brother. No one spoke of him.” It must be true then. That Alpha Rex was locked up at a really tender age for her to not have known him while growing up.“I was young but I could tell our family wasn’t perfect. I would always wake up to my father and mother arguing and as I slowly began to make sense of the world around me, I realized most of their arguments were about this brother no one has told me about.” She
Last Updated : 2023-06-20The Alpha's Caregiver 83–Someone you shouldn’t be dreaming about.
ALPHA REX. “Do you often dream about someone you shouldn’t be dreaming about?” I’ll probably regret asking this question from my Beta who never takes anything serious unless it has to do with the pack. His expression was that of amusement when he turned to face me. I knew he was about to open his darn mouth to say something to piss me off. “Don’t even think about it, Logan. Just answer the damn question.” I said quickly before he could open that large mouth of his. Sometimes, he makes me wonder if I was crazy when I chose him to be my Beta of all the males available but another side of me knew it was because he was the only one who was willing to be by my side as my Beta.As soon as I returned from and took over, most of the males in the pack moved out with their families including the Beta families that it was customary for me to choose from. No one was willing to be under the control of the beast that was me. I didn’t care at first. No, I didn’t even care until the end. I didn’
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EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
