I'm here again, on the night of the full moon. The night when all of my misery happens and this time, I'm afraid that something might mess up again this time and I don't want that to happen. Instead of being happy every time the full moon will rise, I'm hiding to the problem that might chase me again and to the curse that might hunt me even in my sleep. They're waiting for this night to come yet I'm hiding from it like a coward- a kitten that's so afraid of monsters and tigers. I am a self-proclaimed tigress yet I'm being such a pussy just because of a damn full moon.
I just hope that there will be a time where everything will be normal for me. Where I won't hide anymore because I'm safe and I won't be afraid anymore because I can already protect myself from any curse that was meant for me. I know that's impossible. I totally know that yet I am still hoping for that to happen and for this nightmare to stop.
Blade... Yes, he's mak
"Yes, I'm accepting you to be my king, Blade," I answered while looking right at his eyes, making him see how genuine I am and how I badly want to marry him before I saw him stood up and kissed me passionately. It's was not that long when I felt something on my wrist. It wasn't painful like what happened to me when I found out that I'm a vaewolf, instead, it's bringing a tingling sensation down my spine. It's making me feel so fulfilled like I've been longing for this moment to come. I don't know how to react nor how to move. This feeling instantly made me quiet yet my heart is so full of emotions that it's even exploding because of it and I know that he can also feel what I'm feeling.I distanced my face from him to look at my wrist that's now glowing. It seems like the moonlight is connected to it and it was so overwhelming that I didn't even know if I'll be afraid of what happening or if I should be happy and amazed by it. I can't even explain what I'm
"Now, Aze. Do you really know who this monster is?" She asked me like I know anything about what she's talking about but I really am totally puzzled by every word coming out from her lips. I have no idea on what this is all about. Call me stupid but I just can't really read her mind. She changed... And now, I can feel how powerful she is that even my ability can't read her. I don't know what happened to her for her to turn this way but I know that it's not good. My heart can't stop beating fast because of the way she looks at both of us especially Blade but I'm not jealous about it because it's anger that I can see in it instead of adoration.She won't do this if this wasn't about anything serious and I have a bad feeling about this. I know her and she won't do anything without any reason especially when it comes to me. I know how she treats me as her sister just like how I see her. I don't know, but I think I won't like anything that she'll tell me and it
I saw how carmen smirked as she slowly walked near me while Blade seems to be statued at his place, quite far from me but it's still enough for me to see every expression that he's making including the fear in his eyes that always crosses his eyes every time Carmen tries to tell me things. I looked at Carmen's eyes and saw anger and concern in it. Is she concern about me? But Blade isn't hurting me so there's no need to worry about it. He's taking a good career of me and making my life the way I never imagined it will be that's why I don't know why this is happening to her. He has hurt me, yes. But that's emotionally and I know he didn't mean that and he would never want that to happen to me again.He just didn't tell me he loves me, he made me feel it, and just like me, the last thing that he wants to give me is pain. How can this precious man hurt me if I'm the one who doesn't deserve how perfect he is? But I still want to know where Carmen is coming from what
I just kept on staring right at his eyes. Trying to find the Blade that I love but I don't think I can still see. I don't think I still know him after learning the truth. I think I came back to the time when I first met him where I know nothing even his name because now, I don't think he's still my mate. I don't think he's still the man that made me crazy. I don't know that a single truth will affect me this way. It isn't a joke nor a game. I don't want to face things like this. I hate hating him but what can I do?It's not even destiny who's making me mad at him. It's him who's making every reason why I am furious at him. It's no one but him and I think it's time for me to stop blaming destiny because this time, it's him whom I should blame everything. His plans ruined us and just because it's unsuccessful means it's already alright because that won't change the fact that he planned to take my damn life.I saw how a glint of gui
"Stay away from me..." I whispered just enough for the both of them to hear because of their enhanced senses as the pool of tears started falling from my eyes like a faucet of misery starting to embrace me when I don't even want to embrace it back and as thoughts and what-ifs started to envelop my mind like a river of sorrow flowing continuously that seems to have no end.Damn this life! Why do I even need to go through this? Why does pain always love to come right after an ecstatic feeling, and why do I need to suffer just to feel the happiness that I always wanted to stay with me? I guess life is just really meant to be unfair when it comes to me for it to throw every misfortune towards me. It's just that after everything that I've been through I still hold on to the fact that everything will be fine when the time comes. That soon, it will be up to me but It failed me. I was wrong and I shouldn't have expected that in the first place when I know how crue
I just woke up in a dirty room surrounded by trees- a simple house that seems to be abandoned for years because of how old it looks like and how fragile its walls are. I don't even think it can still survive a strong rain nor snow because I know that it'll easily break.The wall Is made of wood- cheap and not sturdy enough for a family to be safe while leaving her and the ceiling is just a simple one that has so many spider webs on it. It's not even safe from wild animals nor even from creatures with bad intentions because everyone can easily enter this place unless this forest is protected by a powerful creature.I held my head when it started aching like hell. The pain in it is unbearable like it made me remember something from yesterday. I don't know what happened last night. All I know was I was crying and after that scene and betrayal and after learning the truth. Everything became blurry as I feel my eyes got exhausted, my
"What are you doing here?" I almost forgot about what happened yesterday the moment I saw him here. Standing like he knows nothing but is not even surprised why I'm here. I know he knows everything. The news might have blown up already especially that he's the monster's brother. But my question is why the fuck is he here? And why are they together? Do I have to know something or is this just a coincidence? Do I have to be afraid now for seeing him here? Because my guts are telling me that he has a plan and his being here has something to do with what happened yesterday.I mean, of course, it has but I'm just curious why he found me this early and why Carmen was missing a while ago and showed up with him. Is that a coincidence? No, it isn't. It's obviously planned. I not that dumb for me not to know that. I'm not even assuming things because that's the only reason I can see why he's here. Unless he has a relationship with Carmen. But how? That's impossible.
I don't know why I should be the one running away from him like a weak kitten being hunted by a rogue and crying like I'm the weakest woman of them all when he's the one who should be afraid of every anger he caused me. And to every pain he made me experience. I can't believe that he still has the guts to tell me that I should hear him out first when he already admitted it and I already proved it to myself based on his gestures and expression. I know when a person is guilty or not and he totally is guilty of everything. He can't even deny it because he already knows that he can't do that anymore.I won't even give myself a chance to hear his lies anymore. Who knows? That can be another trap again to make a fool out of me and make fun of me just like what he did. I can't believe I loved this fake jerk. Betrayal hurts big time... Really. I hope he'll know that. If I can just curse him right now, I will. But I can't do any curses. That's just for the moon god
I just get back home immediately thinking that I was able to wipe them all out but then I found out that there are still those people that I missed out and instead of going back, I called my men to kill them all. I kept on talking to them even though I know that Aze is listening for I can feel her presence just behind the door. She can never hide herself from me because I can feel and hear even her heartbeat. I found her there and just as I expected, she really listening to whoever I'm talking to but to my surprise, I saw her with tears falling down her cheeks and found out that she's jealous because she assumed that I'm pertaining to some woman. How the hell will I even cheat if I'm already head over heels on her? So I did what I can do to make her feel better and that night, everything happened. I marked her as mine- I marked her body as my property and so as confessed my love to her which she answered that she's feeling the same way. &nb
Blade"Daddy! Come on! I want a baby brother already!" Avi kept on saying that to me while posting her lips. She's such a cutie and I know she got that from her mother.I just scratched the back of my head for I don't know how to answer it. I mean she's still my princess and I don't know how to explain her adult things but I also don't wanna lie to her so might as well keep my mouth shut. She's an innocent little princess. I looked at my wife to ask for help for I know that she can explain it to our daughter in a good way but she just rolled her eyes at me like she's telling me that I should deal with this for this is my fault. Oh damn."Sure baby, I can give you a baby brother only if you're mommy will agree," I said while sitting in front of her for our height to be just the same and making her sit on my lap and that way, it'll be Aze who'll need to answer her this time. That's a great idea, right? I'm such
It's been a week since he explained everything to me. At first, it was hard for me to believe him. I mean how will I even believe him if all these years, I thought he just fooled me? He can't even blame me for my trust issues but I guess it was still partly my fault for my trust in him was weak enough for me not to hold on to him on those times where waves and waves of problems are trying how strong our relationship is. It wasn't easy for us, I know that and we should have trusted each other instead of leaving without even letting the other one explain. That's where I was wrong but he should have also told me that part of him. I could have accepted him if he didn't wait for someone to tell it to me in a way where I'll hate and disgust him.I just couldn't contain it anymore because pain already took over me that I don't even have any strength to hear him out. Everything just drained me. I was so exhausted with too much emotion I felt that day that made me
"A-are you planning to kill me?" I asked him again after hearing the door screech and I'm assuming that it's him. Of course, who else will visit me here? Is he checking if this time is the best time to kill me? Pathetic, but I can't even shout at him because I know that if I did, it will be the end of me. I'm expecting that to happen. He can even make me his dartboard just for him to enjoy and that's what terrified me not because I'm afraid of him but because I'm afraid to die if that means I'll leave my daughter alone and he'll surely have a way to get her the moment he found the truth out. He can easily get her the moment I die and my poor baby will just experience hell with him. That will never happen. I will protect my daughter from him because he doesn't deserve her in the first place. I'm glad he still doesn't know a thing about her.I don't want him to know for I know that he'll take my daughter away from me and hurt her just like what he did to me.
I woke up feeling a bit of pain in my temple yet it's still unbearable so I just erase it in my mind and yawn thinking about how good my sleep was but I immediately get up after knowing that I'm in an unknown room and I can hear the wave's tranquil sound that's soothing my ears. But instead of appreciating it, I am bothered. I am at a party last night and then this happened. What the hell! Does that mean I'm with him? Does that mean he again got me? No... This couldn't happen... I don't want this to happen. Why did he take me here and how did he manage to plan all of this when he's not with me and he knows nothing about what's running in my mind? We just saw each other for fuck's sake after years so what is he up to?What the hell is he planning to do with me? I know he has one... It's impossible that he just did this because he saw me and I have a bad feeling about this. And if he managed to manipulate our situation and turn things the other way around, t
I plastered a big smile on my face the moment I entered this familiar place again. This palace... It's been years yet it still brings nostalgia to my whole system like it was just yesterday. I can clearly remember everything I've been through inside it- both happy and worst moments. Nothing changed but the aura surrounding this place- a dark and intimidating one that was actually colorful when I was still here. I guess this palace's true color just showed itself to me.My memories kept on playing over and over again like a broken tape telling me that my life started here. Everything started here, I'm aware of this but it already ended and will never go back to its place because change is the only thing that stays and love isn't included in that. My mind seems to be playing with me, it keeps on reminding me how I've smiled laughed and cried my heart out here but that's already my last because this time, I'm here for an evil plan. A plan that can't be ruined
"Are you sure about this, Aze?" Mom asked me for the nth time today and then again, I just nodded at her as a response. How many times have I heard her ask me this question today? I can't even count it anymore and no matter how many times I'll tell her that my decision is already final, she just kept on sighing deeply, she obviously doesn't want me to leave. She's the one who's stopping me to do this since the day of my training.Yes, I took a training lesson but it's just my brother who teaches me things. I also met someone in the same situation as me- yes, a vaewolf just like me. She teaches me everything she knows. She came from a different pack but she knows almost everything about vaewolves and what we can do. There are still things that she doesn't know but she definitely knows 90% of it and I learned a lot from her.She's a great woman, sadly, both of us experienced different situations but the same pain. She also became a
Time passed so fast just like how fast the wind can pass a place. I can’t still remember hating myself for being pregnant and not wanting to have a baby because I know that he's the father but I didn’t know that it’ll be such a blessing a will save me from everything. I didn't know that this is the one that can complete me and change me into a new Aze who deserves to be called a mother.I was always lost and I didn’t even bother to find myself. I was angry at everyone because I thought they'll all just betray me in the end. I don't even trust myself because I am still capable of hurting myself yet this angel did. This angel found me and save me from my misery. I once thought that being a mother will be hell for me- that I won't be successful in raising a little angel and I'm not capable of doing so but I was wrong. I can’t imagine that I was able to take it- to give birth and raise a child and that’s because of them. Tho
No… This can’t be happening. Oh, God… Please, no. Don’t let our fake love have fruit. Don't let something unwanted happen. I don’t want a memory of him to stay with me for the rest of my life. I can't even imagine looking at a child that reminds me of my heartbreak and betrayal. That will totally be hell for me. That may even seem like the world is punishing me again. Yes, I once wished to have a family with him back then but everything has changed now… Now what? They will give me a child when I already don't want one from him? Goddamn it! Please... Please make this disappear and take this out of my system. I can't... I don't think I'd be able to do this- to become a great mother. I don't want a child hurting just because her mother is hurt. I don't deserve this and I can't handle this now that I already lost everything.I won't be worthy enough to be a mother and I don't know why it is given to me. Is it even a gift