I don't know why I should be the one running away from him like a weak kitten being hunted by a rogue and crying like I'm the weakest woman of them all when he's the one who should be afraid of every anger he caused me. And to every pain he made me experience. I can't believe that he still has the guts to tell me that I should hear him out first when he already admitted it and I already proved it to myself based on his gestures and expression. I know when a person is guilty or not and he totally is guilty of everything. He can't even deny it because he already knows that he can't do that anymore.
I won't even give myself a chance to hear his lies anymore. Who knows? That can be another trap again to make a fool out of me and make fun of me just like what he did. I can't believe I loved this fake jerk. Betrayal hurts big time... Really. I hope he'll know that. If I can just curse him right now, I will. But I can't do any curses. That's just for the moon god
"Aze... My baby. Glad that you finally decided to forgive me," she exclaimed with an excited voice. She really seems so happy to see me here but I don't feel the same. I don't want to pop her bubbled but I also don't want her to expect anything from me including the hope that we'll still be ok after everything. That's already impossible and I don't what to start talking again or I know that I'll just hurt her. I don't want to cause another pain yet I don't want to push myself to treat her damn right. I don't know how I can do that anymore. I already forgot it the moment I opened my eyes in this cruel world. I don't this that'll still happen so she better stop hoping or expecting anymore. She can't even bribe me just to forget her. I'm not that shallow. I've learned my lesson already and I don't want to tell it to her one by one. I have such a sharp tongue so she better shut up."I can't remember telling you that I already forgave you," I said nonchalantly
I saw a baby's crib and I think that was mine. The one that I used when I was still in their possession. Although I can't remember it, it's obviously mine for every inch of this room have everything connected to me including my photos and everything I left before vanishing and being lost in their arms for years.Then I saw my bed... It's full of dresses. I think that was the ones I used when I was still a child and the full room is literally filled with my pictures with and without them. I was so happy in that picture. I was in full smiles while looking at the camera but the one that caught my attention when both of them, my mom and dad was kissing both sides of my cheeks while I was smiling and there I saw how perfect our family was. How happy we were before that incident and everything just changed because of a curse where I need to start my misery already.It was just ruined and that made it turn out like this... That made all
"Mom..." I called her to get her attention which u did after I decided to go out and talk to her. I don't know how my mood and feeling was changed in just a minute. I didn't even expect that to happen. I thought it'll take me years to forgive him or it may even be impossible already but no... It only took me a minute or two. That's how fragile my heart is. It can easily melt yet it can also break easily and be fixed impossibly. I don't know if I'll call that an advantage or disadvantage. I don't know why I'm still this easy to forgive even though I've been proved wrong by the people I love. I guess this is the part of me that I can never change anymore but I'll still try to or it'll be easy for Blade to play me again like a goddamn toy that can be disposed easy and go back to him when he already wants me again. I'm not that kind of woman. He can never bribe me with something just to give up. Betrayal is the last thing that I wanted to experience yet that's what the world is always g
No… This can’t be happening. Oh, God… Please, no. Don’t let our fake love have fruit. Don't let something unwanted happen. I don’t want a memory of him to stay with me for the rest of my life. I can't even imagine looking at a child that reminds me of my heartbreak and betrayal. That will totally be hell for me. That may even seem like the world is punishing me again. Yes, I once wished to have a family with him back then but everything has changed now… Now what? They will give me a child when I already don't want one from him? Goddamn it! Please... Please make this disappear and take this out of my system. I can't... I don't think I'd be able to do this- to become a great mother. I don't want a child hurting just because her mother is hurt. I don't deserve this and I can't handle this now that I already lost everything.I won't be worthy enough to be a mother and I don't know why it is given to me. Is it even a gift
Time passed so fast just like how fast the wind can pass a place. I can’t still remember hating myself for being pregnant and not wanting to have a baby because I know that he's the father but I didn’t know that it’ll be such a blessing a will save me from everything. I didn't know that this is the one that can complete me and change me into a new Aze who deserves to be called a mother.I was always lost and I didn’t even bother to find myself. I was angry at everyone because I thought they'll all just betray me in the end. I don't even trust myself because I am still capable of hurting myself yet this angel did. This angel found me and save me from my misery. I once thought that being a mother will be hell for me- that I won't be successful in raising a little angel and I'm not capable of doing so but I was wrong. I can’t imagine that I was able to take it- to give birth and raise a child and that’s because of them. Tho
"Are you sure about this, Aze?" Mom asked me for the nth time today and then again, I just nodded at her as a response. How many times have I heard her ask me this question today? I can't even count it anymore and no matter how many times I'll tell her that my decision is already final, she just kept on sighing deeply, she obviously doesn't want me to leave. She's the one who's stopping me to do this since the day of my training.Yes, I took a training lesson but it's just my brother who teaches me things. I also met someone in the same situation as me- yes, a vaewolf just like me. She teaches me everything she knows. She came from a different pack but she knows almost everything about vaewolves and what we can do. There are still things that she doesn't know but she definitely knows 90% of it and I learned a lot from her.She's a great woman, sadly, both of us experienced different situations but the same pain. She also became a
I plastered a big smile on my face the moment I entered this familiar place again. This palace... It's been years yet it still brings nostalgia to my whole system like it was just yesterday. I can clearly remember everything I've been through inside it- both happy and worst moments. Nothing changed but the aura surrounding this place- a dark and intimidating one that was actually colorful when I was still here. I guess this palace's true color just showed itself to me.My memories kept on playing over and over again like a broken tape telling me that my life started here. Everything started here, I'm aware of this but it already ended and will never go back to its place because change is the only thing that stays and love isn't included in that. My mind seems to be playing with me, it keeps on reminding me how I've smiled laughed and cried my heart out here but that's already my last because this time, I'm here for an evil plan. A plan that can't be ruined
I woke up feeling a bit of pain in my temple yet it's still unbearable so I just erase it in my mind and yawn thinking about how good my sleep was but I immediately get up after knowing that I'm in an unknown room and I can hear the wave's tranquil sound that's soothing my ears. But instead of appreciating it, I am bothered. I am at a party last night and then this happened. What the hell! Does that mean I'm with him? Does that mean he again got me? No... This couldn't happen... I don't want this to happen. Why did he take me here and how did he manage to plan all of this when he's not with me and he knows nothing about what's running in my mind? We just saw each other for fuck's sake after years so what is he up to?What the hell is he planning to do with me? I know he has one... It's impossible that he just did this because he saw me and I have a bad feeling about this. And if he managed to manipulate our situation and turn things the other way around, t
I just get back home immediately thinking that I was able to wipe them all out but then I found out that there are still those people that I missed out and instead of going back, I called my men to kill them all. I kept on talking to them even though I know that Aze is listening for I can feel her presence just behind the door. She can never hide herself from me because I can feel and hear even her heartbeat. I found her there and just as I expected, she really listening to whoever I'm talking to but to my surprise, I saw her with tears falling down her cheeks and found out that she's jealous because she assumed that I'm pertaining to some woman. How the hell will I even cheat if I'm already head over heels on her? So I did what I can do to make her feel better and that night, everything happened. I marked her as mine- I marked her body as my property and so as confessed my love to her which she answered that she's feeling the same way. &nb
Blade"Daddy! Come on! I want a baby brother already!" Avi kept on saying that to me while posting her lips. She's such a cutie and I know she got that from her mother.I just scratched the back of my head for I don't know how to answer it. I mean she's still my princess and I don't know how to explain her adult things but I also don't wanna lie to her so might as well keep my mouth shut. She's an innocent little princess. I looked at my wife to ask for help for I know that she can explain it to our daughter in a good way but she just rolled her eyes at me like she's telling me that I should deal with this for this is my fault. Oh damn."Sure baby, I can give you a baby brother only if you're mommy will agree," I said while sitting in front of her for our height to be just the same and making her sit on my lap and that way, it'll be Aze who'll need to answer her this time. That's a great idea, right? I'm such
It's been a week since he explained everything to me. At first, it was hard for me to believe him. I mean how will I even believe him if all these years, I thought he just fooled me? He can't even blame me for my trust issues but I guess it was still partly my fault for my trust in him was weak enough for me not to hold on to him on those times where waves and waves of problems are trying how strong our relationship is. It wasn't easy for us, I know that and we should have trusted each other instead of leaving without even letting the other one explain. That's where I was wrong but he should have also told me that part of him. I could have accepted him if he didn't wait for someone to tell it to me in a way where I'll hate and disgust him.I just couldn't contain it anymore because pain already took over me that I don't even have any strength to hear him out. Everything just drained me. I was so exhausted with too much emotion I felt that day that made me
"A-are you planning to kill me?" I asked him again after hearing the door screech and I'm assuming that it's him. Of course, who else will visit me here? Is he checking if this time is the best time to kill me? Pathetic, but I can't even shout at him because I know that if I did, it will be the end of me. I'm expecting that to happen. He can even make me his dartboard just for him to enjoy and that's what terrified me not because I'm afraid of him but because I'm afraid to die if that means I'll leave my daughter alone and he'll surely have a way to get her the moment he found the truth out. He can easily get her the moment I die and my poor baby will just experience hell with him. That will never happen. I will protect my daughter from him because he doesn't deserve her in the first place. I'm glad he still doesn't know a thing about her.I don't want him to know for I know that he'll take my daughter away from me and hurt her just like what he did to me.
I woke up feeling a bit of pain in my temple yet it's still unbearable so I just erase it in my mind and yawn thinking about how good my sleep was but I immediately get up after knowing that I'm in an unknown room and I can hear the wave's tranquil sound that's soothing my ears. But instead of appreciating it, I am bothered. I am at a party last night and then this happened. What the hell! Does that mean I'm with him? Does that mean he again got me? No... This couldn't happen... I don't want this to happen. Why did he take me here and how did he manage to plan all of this when he's not with me and he knows nothing about what's running in my mind? We just saw each other for fuck's sake after years so what is he up to?What the hell is he planning to do with me? I know he has one... It's impossible that he just did this because he saw me and I have a bad feeling about this. And if he managed to manipulate our situation and turn things the other way around, t
I plastered a big smile on my face the moment I entered this familiar place again. This palace... It's been years yet it still brings nostalgia to my whole system like it was just yesterday. I can clearly remember everything I've been through inside it- both happy and worst moments. Nothing changed but the aura surrounding this place- a dark and intimidating one that was actually colorful when I was still here. I guess this palace's true color just showed itself to me.My memories kept on playing over and over again like a broken tape telling me that my life started here. Everything started here, I'm aware of this but it already ended and will never go back to its place because change is the only thing that stays and love isn't included in that. My mind seems to be playing with me, it keeps on reminding me how I've smiled laughed and cried my heart out here but that's already my last because this time, I'm here for an evil plan. A plan that can't be ruined
"Are you sure about this, Aze?" Mom asked me for the nth time today and then again, I just nodded at her as a response. How many times have I heard her ask me this question today? I can't even count it anymore and no matter how many times I'll tell her that my decision is already final, she just kept on sighing deeply, she obviously doesn't want me to leave. She's the one who's stopping me to do this since the day of my training.Yes, I took a training lesson but it's just my brother who teaches me things. I also met someone in the same situation as me- yes, a vaewolf just like me. She teaches me everything she knows. She came from a different pack but she knows almost everything about vaewolves and what we can do. There are still things that she doesn't know but she definitely knows 90% of it and I learned a lot from her.She's a great woman, sadly, both of us experienced different situations but the same pain. She also became a
Time passed so fast just like how fast the wind can pass a place. I can’t still remember hating myself for being pregnant and not wanting to have a baby because I know that he's the father but I didn’t know that it’ll be such a blessing a will save me from everything. I didn't know that this is the one that can complete me and change me into a new Aze who deserves to be called a mother.I was always lost and I didn’t even bother to find myself. I was angry at everyone because I thought they'll all just betray me in the end. I don't even trust myself because I am still capable of hurting myself yet this angel did. This angel found me and save me from my misery. I once thought that being a mother will be hell for me- that I won't be successful in raising a little angel and I'm not capable of doing so but I was wrong. I can’t imagine that I was able to take it- to give birth and raise a child and that’s because of them. Tho
No… This can’t be happening. Oh, God… Please, no. Don’t let our fake love have fruit. Don't let something unwanted happen. I don’t want a memory of him to stay with me for the rest of my life. I can't even imagine looking at a child that reminds me of my heartbreak and betrayal. That will totally be hell for me. That may even seem like the world is punishing me again. Yes, I once wished to have a family with him back then but everything has changed now… Now what? They will give me a child when I already don't want one from him? Goddamn it! Please... Please make this disappear and take this out of my system. I can't... I don't think I'd be able to do this- to become a great mother. I don't want a child hurting just because her mother is hurt. I don't deserve this and I can't handle this now that I already lost everything.I won't be worthy enough to be a mother and I don't know why it is given to me. Is it even a gift