The next day I walk straight past Nina and ask May if she wants to climb some trees with Zak and me. I can see Nina's eyebrows crease in confusion out the corner of my eyes as May and I have rarely ever spoken to each other, nor have we ever played together.
‘Sure,’ she smiles.
‘Okay, let’s go.’ I smile and wave for her to follow.
Nina stands there watching us, then runs after us. ‘Hey, I want to climb trees too, you know!’
I stop and face her. ‘No, only my friends can join,’
‘What are you talking about, Magnus? I’m your best friend?’
‘You were never my friend,’ I growl and regroup with others.
Nina’s face turns sombre, with a hint of confusion.
‘That’s harsh, don’t you think, Magnus? You and Nina have been the best of friends since you were both babies,’ Flint says.
‘No, they forced us to be friends, our mother’s planning constant playdates every day, and if she were my best friend, she wouldn’t be getting me into trouble every day. Nina no longer exists to me,’ I snarl.
Flint and Josie flinch and give each other a sad look.
‘You are welcome to join us as well, just not Nina,’ Flint and Josie hesitate at first but decide to follow us as May grabs my hand with a smile and drags me towards the trees. ‘Come on, guys, let’s see who can climb to the top first,’ she giggles.
‘Sorry,’ Flint and Josie say to Nina, ‘We want to go with them too.’
Nina looks down at her feet to hide the rogue tear sliding down her cheek.
We race towards the trees, and I’m the first to arrive with May. Moments later, Flint, Josie, and Zak arrive.
I could sense Nina watching us play from a distance, but I completely ignored her. Gripping onto branches one after another, I’m the first to reach the top of the tree. May climbs the same tree and sits next to me on the top branch.
Flint, Josie, and Zak shuffle along the vast, thick tree branches and make themselves comfortable as we all admire the view of Shadow Crest.
‘We’re so lucky to live here,’ Josie says.
I couldn’t agree with her more. A forest of trees surrounds Shadow Crest, with mountains in the distance. The buildings and houses are the Victorian styles with steeply pitched roofs, painted iron railings, and large porches. I look over at the Packhouse mansion. Excitement fills me for the day I become Alpha, but I can’t help but feel something is missing. It’s digging at my heart and soul, eating me away inside. I’ve never had this feeling before.
‘Are you okay, Magnus?’ May asks. I look to May, who is only two years younger than Nina, and, unlike Nina’s Brown doe-like eyes, May’s are blue. The rest of her features are like Nina’s, except May’s hair is much shorter.
‘Yeah, I’m fine. Why do you ask?’
‘Well, you seemed to be lost in thought and look sad.’
‘Oh, sorry, I was just thinking about… things,’
‘I know we have spoken little before today, but if you ever want to talk about anything, you can always… talk to me,’ she says, hopeful.
‘Thanks, May. I’m sure I will open up my thoughts to you one day,’ I smile.
May blushes and casually looks away.
‘Last one down is a rotten egg!’ Zak yells.
We all quickly swing down and drop from one branch to the next.
‘I won,’ I smirk.
‘You only won because Nina isn’t here. We all know she is the fastest of us,’ Josie pouts.
‘If you mention her name to me again, Josie, then you can join Nina and become non-existent to me, too.’
Josie has a hurt look on her face and steps back while Flint glares at me.
‘Let’s go to Shadow Lake for a swim before we go back to the Packhouse,’ May suggests.
I nod in approval and head towards the lake. With May by my side, Josie approaches and walks by my other side.
We arrive at the Lake. I pull my shirt off, then my socks and shoes, and dive right into the cool water. Zak and Flint join me in the deep end while May and Josie roll up the legs of their pants and stay in the shallow area.
We duck under the water and hold our breaths for as long as possible. Zak is the first to swim back up for air, followed by Flint. Then, feeling like I was not enjoying myself as much as I usually would, I decided to swim away from them and hide behind a large boulder in the lake. I pull myself up for air and peek over the top of the boulder, watching Zak and Flint waiting for me to swim back up.
Their faces change to that of worry as they think I’m still down there.
‘Magnus?’ Flint says.
They all look at each other and nod. Then, all holding their breaths, they duck back down while I stay behind the boulder for a few moments. I look over at May and Josie, who are oblivious to my joke.
Trixie swims back to the surface for air and looks around in circles, confused about where I could be. Then Zak and Flint float to the surface and panic.
‘Magnus!’ they yell, grabbing May and Josie’s attention.
‘We can’t find him. You don’t think he drowned, do you?’ Flint asks.
They all panic—May and Josie cry.
Nina sprints out from the bushes and dives into the lake with great speed
‘Magnus,’ she screams each time she comes up for breath, frantic, tears pooling in her eyes.
I can’t contain my laughter any longer. I lift myself onto the boulder in hysterics.
‘Magnus! That was not funny,’ Flint yells.
‘Not cool, Magnus,’ Zak growls.
‘Come on guys, don’t be like that.’
I swim to the shore to where May and Josie are. As soon as I step onto the grass, I can’t help but sense someone is behind me. I see tiny little Nina glaring up at me with her hands on her hips and tears streaming down her cheeks.
‘Don’t be like that? Are you serious, Magnus? We thought you had drowned. I thought you had drowned, and all you can say is, “Don’t be like that?” I thought you were dead,’ she says, hitting my chest repeatedly.
That strange feeling comes over me again, eating at my inner conscience and soul. I look over at Zak and Flint, who are making their way out of the lake.
‘We better get back home before mum sends the warriors out looking for us,’ I say, treating Nina as if she was a ghost.
Everyone looks at her with sympathy. I don’t know why. No one ever looked at me that way when she had played her stupid pranks on me.
We walk back to the Packhouse while Nina follows us slowly in the distance behind us.
As soon as we arrive at the Packhouse, I freshen myself up and join my parents for dinner with the rest of the Packhouse. Nina sits in her usual seat and tries to make eye contact. I pay her no attention and watch her shoulders drop out of the corner of my eyes.
‘Bed early tonight, kids, the weekend is over, and you have school tomorrow,’ my mother says.
We all moan and grizzle except for Nina, who stays silent.
‘Is everything okay, sweetie?’ Leon asks Nina.
She shrugs and stays silent as she pushes the food on her plate around with her fork.
‘What did you get up to today?’ Amelia asks.
She looks up at me for a moment, but I keep myself busy eating my dinner.
‘I climbed trees and swam at the lake with the others, mum,’
‘Sounds like you had a fun time.’
‘Yeah, fun…’ she mumbles.
After a couple of months had passed, Nina stopped greeting me each day, knowing I would not respond. Now in high school, she had become a loner. Keeping to herself in class and went to the library at recess and lunch. May would elbow me and glare if she caught me staring at Nina, but she would always get jealous and cranky at any girl I glanced at. ‘Stop elbowing me, May,’ I growl.‘Stop staring at Nina then. You haven’t spoken to her in seven years, yet you are always staring at her. Besides, you should just be focusing your attention on me. Everyone knows we will be mates,’ she beams.‘Not if I can help it.’‘Your such an ass Magnus,’ she growls‘Yes, I’m told daily by many girls I have a nice ass,’ I smirk.‘Who is telling you that? I demand to know their names right now,’ she says, glaring at every female in the classroom.‘May, you need to get over it.’‘No, you need to get over Nina!’I glare at May, making her cower back in her seat.‘I can’t get over someone I was never into
‘Magnus, nice of you to join the class. Just because you are the future Alpha does not mean you get special privileges. Now take your seat before you get yourself detention,’I growl under my breath, ‘Yes, Mr Thomson,’ and plonk my books onto the table and sit next to Nina.Nina stiffens in surprise as I sit beside her. She looks at me and is trying to contain a smile. I try to tune her presence out and tune into Mr Thompson. He talks about different types of soil that are low in nutrients and high in nutrients. Nina’s pen flicks back and forth as she listens to Mr Thomson. Her hands are small and dainty, and her nails have been freshly manicured and painted with a very light, subtle pink. Her long brown hair drape down her arms. I watch as she tucks her hair behind her ear, revealing a gold earring and exposing her nape. My eyes focus on the nape of her neck. I feel my heart racing. I break out into a sweat and feel my heartbeat pounding erratically through my chest.‘Magnus… Magnus!
Without greeting Mr Thomson, I enter the science room, place my bag on a table, and sit in silence, avoiding eye contact with Mr Thompson and Nina.‘Late again, Magnus,’ he huffs with his hands-on hip.I shrug my shoulders and look away. Nina is sitting four tables away. It’s obvious she also isn’t happy to be here.‘Well, if you two think you are both going to sit here in silence, then you have another thing coming,’Nina and I turn our attention back to Mr Thomson.‘I have borrowed some tools and a spare tabletop from the woodwork room. You will both spend detention fixing the table you broke,’‘What! But I never broke it,’ Nina protests.‘Do not care, Nina, now come and take this hammer,’ he growls.I abruptly step down from my chair and march to the teacher’s desk, muttering and mumbling in dissatisfaction. Nina takes the nails and hammer, and I carry the tabletop. Nina kneels next to the broken table and assesses it closely. I kneel opposite her and place the tabletop down.Mr Th
And then it happened. It all hits me at once, that dreaded feeling but tenfold. That feeling when a hole in the ground opens up and just swallows you whole. Guilt. What have I done? She didn't make the Pack think I was a joke. It wasn’t her responsible for all the pranks. It was me all along.‘There’s the nest,’ she says, not realising the bombshell she just dropped on my head.Nina hovers over the nest. I climb next to her as fast as I can. She stretches her hands out to put the baby bird back in its nest.‘Careful,’ I say, cupping my hands under hers. Nina looks up at me for a moment, and we lower our hands, gently placing the bird back in its nest.‘There you go, little guy,’ I say and give it another gentle pat on the head.The sun is setting, and the moon is rising. It’s a breathtaking sight. We sit next to each other and watch its beauty in silence, the comfortable silence. We lean back on our hands, and our pinkies touch, but neither of us moves our hand away. I want to apologi
Sitting up, I look at myself in the mirror. My hair is a ragged mess from tossing and turning, and I can see slight bags under my eyes. My back feels okay, just a little tender, but nothing that can stop me from going to school. I shower and dress in jeans and a tight-fitting black shirt showing my muscular physique with my favourite pair of black sneakers. As I comb my hair back, it flings back into the shabby style, giving me the ruggedly handsome look instead of the sleek, pretty boy look I usually go for. I take my seat at the table for breakfast.‘Magnus, darling, how is your back, dear?’ mother asks.‘It’s fine. It wasn’t anything major, to begin with.’‘I’m glad to hear,’ she smiles.I see Nina down the other end of the table, talking to her parents while eating her breakfast. Josie is constantly looking between Nina and me. It’s time to go to school. Nina grabs her bag and races ahead of us. I want to catch up to her, but she is faster than me. We have an assembly this mornin
It’s lunchtime. I race to the cafeteria to ask Nina to sit with us for lunch, losing Claire along the way. All eyes are on me from my loud, eager entrance as I enter the cafeteria. My eyes dart to the corner to see Moss sitting at Nina’s table having a good laugh. I barge back out of the cafeteria, passing Josie, Zak, Flint, and Paul. Claire manages to catch up with me.‘Where are you going, Boo-boo?’‘Anywhere but here,’ I growl.‘What’s his problem?’ Flint asks.They enter the cafeteria, and Josie can see why Magnus is upset. The new and hot, attractive guy is hanging out with Nina and is flirting with her. She frowns at the thought of it all, feeling sorry for Magnus.Not wanting to be in the Cafeteria, I decide to hang out in the library for the first time in my life. I sit myself down at a table with the school nerds. They all gasp and stare at me while I bang my head on the table.‘Stupid, stupid, stupid, I’m so stupid,’ I say.‘Um, Y-you’re putting a dint in the t-table,’ I hea
‘What the hell Claire?’‘What’s wrong, Boo-boo?’ she says and tries to cup my face. I lean back, avoiding her touch.‘You can’t just kiss me like that.’‘Why not?’‘Because you just can’t.’‘Oh, I see, too soon?’‘Yes, too soon, Claire, we haven’t even been on a date yet,’‘I’m sorry, Boo-boo, I’ll hold off until then,’‘I’d appreciate that,’‘Now, are you going to try this shirt on?’I take the shirt and put it on.‘Oh, very smooth, now try this one on.’‘This one is fine, Claire. We have an outfit picked there. It’s time I take you home,’‘So soon?’‘Yeah, I forgot I have an um… assignment.’‘Oh, okay then,’On my way out of the Packhouse, I run into Seth.‘Hey Magnus, where are you off to?’‘Taking Claire home. She lives near the school.’‘I’m about to drive past the school. I can drop Claire home if you like?’‘Oh, could you?’ I say, a little too excited, to Claire’s dismay.‘Sure,’‘Great!’ I take Claire’s hand and help her in the car and shut the door before she can kiss me on t
‘Do you want me to call your parents to come to pick you up from school?’‘No, I’ll stay,’‘I’d prefer you go home and put ice on your face, Magnus.’‘Look, I’m staying, okay? If it makes you feel better, I’ll rest here for the next period until recess.’‘Okay, well, I’ll get you an ice pack then.’She returns a moment later and hands me the icepack; I hold it against my swollen black eye for the next hour. Then, finally, the recess bell goes. I toss the icepack onto Nurse Carla’s table and walk to the cafeteria. Students stare and whisper as I walk by them.‘I heard he knocked Moss out and almost killed him.’‘Well, I heard he picked Moss up with one hand and threw him halfway across the oval,’Well, at least the whispers and rumours were to my liking. Entering the cafeteria, Claire lets out a gasp and races towards me. She cups my face.‘Boo-boo, I heard there were rumours a fight broke out. I did not know it involved you. Oh, my poor snookums,’ she says, embracing me. I notice Nina