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Naomi D.sorry, took me a bit longer to write. had to take my youngest to the dentist yesterday and didn't have time in the evening to write either. My hope is to update daily, but I am aiming for at least four times a week this month. Thank you everyone who added this story to their library and those who gave me gems. AndA you're nr. 1 now. And Mandie was my first gem ever for this story. a fellow dutchie? in dat geval, bedankt voor het lezen! Hoop dat je het leuk vond.
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 23. Land
Moon’s pov I didn’t remember much after my speech. All I hoped was that, I would hang on long enough for the rogues to leave. If they saw me collapse, it would ruin the speech. “Well, you did say you would die for your pack.” Angela said. “I didn’t mean, right then. Like after fighting some more people.” I replied jokingly. I woke up in my tent, being covered by bandages and smelling like herbs. Tabitha had made us healing potions over the years, but I had never needed it until now. Usually my healing abilities were enough, but I was injured too badly. When I saw Racheal being attacked by that feral wolf and almost losing, I told her to go back. She refused, telling me she could handle it. But I had already lost too many people in my life, I couldn’t loose her too. That fucking feral bastard took advantage of that moment and bit into my neck. A few inches to the side and he would have ripped half my neck out. I lay in my bed, feeling fucking exhausted. I wasn’t scared of someone
Last Updated : 2022-10-13The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 24. Dead
Kai’s pov “So will you finally tell me about Mona?” Clara asked me a week after I returned from the Wolvin pack. I hadn’t paid much attention to Clara. To anyone really. I focused on my training and I hunted at night, to avoid Clara. I knew she still wanted to know about Mona, but I needed time. I was still angry at myself for actually believing Mona for a second. Actually thinking she was trying to protect me and then she came up with this elaborate lie. Why would someone use a young girl to kill Kimiko and Mona’s mom? Why use Mona to seduce men and then blackmail them? There must be better people out there to use than Mona. And what the fuck was their plan anyway, because it didn’t make any sense. Probably because the whole fucking thing was a lie. “Yet, you’re thinking about it.” Ronin growled. “And you didn’t kill her. Again.” “Don’t remind me of my weakness.” I growled back. “Raider? Are you ignoring me now?” Clara asked disappointed. I still hadn't answered her question, I
Last Updated : 2022-10-13The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 25. The Ritual
Moon’s pov After the attack and everyone from the other packs left, we started packing up. I contacted Alpha Malcom and he let Racheal and some others visit, so they could check out the land, while I was still healing. I trusted Racheal to pick the right area and she came back really excited. Alpha Malcom had been very helpful and the area was beautiful. He had even offered us to help us build some houses in the near future. We decided to send our kids, families and elderly first. Alpha Malcom would send men over to help us move and I assigned most of the soldiers to accompany them. It was a long journey and I didn't want anything to happen to them. I would stay behind with a few others, so we could finish up clearing out the rest of the stuff and wait for the rogues that wanted to join us. We wouldn’t let them in our pack unless they would follow our rules, but they could form their own community in a small area of our land. Now all that was left to do was the fucking ritual. Tha
Last Updated : 2022-10-14The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 26. Collateral damage.
Moon’s pov I didn’t have time to think about what I saw during the ritual. What I remembered. If I would, I would break. I could already feel some cracks in my foundation. I needed to focus on something else, because I’d be no fucking use to my pack if I broke down now. I didn't need to mindlink the people at our new location. I knew if we were attacked it would have to be here. Our pack was vulnerable. We didn’t have enough people there and there was no magical border while the witches were working on me. It had to be our old packground that was attacked. When I got the confirmation that it was indeed our pack, I wondered who’s link I felt break. There wasn’t just one, there were several people dead. What the hell had happened?! “Don’t blame yourself.” Angela tried to say, but she knew it was already too late. This was my fault. I was their Alpha and I put my own needs first. Racheal and I shifted and the witches followed behind us. I had asked Tabitha if she would ride on my ba
Last Updated : 2022-10-16The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 27. Doubts
Kai’s povWe were getting everyone ready to travel to the rogue territory. Beta Norman was coming too, plus a fuck load of workers to help us dig.I still didn’t trust Beta Norman, but mom was right. He would have been really fucked up in the head, if he would use his own daughter like that. But he knew more than he was telling me. And he had responded to the name Helena. I didn’t know what was going on. Everything Mona had told me could be a lie and there was no way for me to ask Mona any more questions, because she was gone.Ronin hadn’t said a word to me in over a week. He refused to come out and was clearly mourning. I hoped that if a problem arose I would still be able to shift. I wasn’t mourning, but confused. I had mourned Mona five years ago or more like I mourned the life we could have had. Okay, now Ronin would have probably told me I was full of shit, because I didn’t mourn her. I was pissed off and the rest I buried deep down.I missed Ronin’s remarks, even if they were i
Last Updated : 2022-10-17The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 28. Hide
Moon’s pov Tabitha and I left the packground before Mary woke up. I held myself together until we reached the caves. I broke down crying and I didn’t stop until I was too tired and weak. I fell asleep, my face felt swollen from all the tears. The next day I woke up, hoping everything was a bad dream. Hoping that the man I thought was my dad, hadn’t used me to do unimaginable things. That he hadn't used me as an assassin, a whore, a liar, a spy? I hoped I’d feel better when I got confirmation that it wasn’t my fault. That I’d feel like maybe I was a good person after all. It wasn’t my choice to do all these bad things. But all I felt was dirty and weak. If I had been stronger? Maybe then I could have stopped myself from killing my mom, killing Kimiko. “You are the strongest person I know,” Angela tried to reassure me, but there was no point. I once again had cost the lives of others. This time I hadn’t killed them myself, but I had been responsible. Lukas, Elisha and the others had
Last Updated : 2022-10-22The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 29. Angry
Kai’s pov I think I’m going fucking crazy. I kept smelling Mona’s scent. It was hidden behind a disgusting smell, but it was there, very faintly. It must be something from her here in this fucking tent. Maybe Beta Norman kept something from Mona here to fuck with me. I could barely sleep here, knowing this was where she died. At least she spent her last night fucking some guy. I had wanted her dead, yet I couldn’t do it. But now that she was actually gone, I realized that was a bunch of bullshit. It was never about me not being able to kill her. It was that I didn’t want her to fucking die at all. Even if she was a liar, a monster. I didn’t want her to die. I had grew up with her. I thought I knew her. And then, when everything went to shit, I thought she was a monster. But now? Now I didn’t know what to think. Something was off. In the morning I woke up and decided to greet the soldiers from Alpha Malcom. I just needed a fucking excuse to get out of here. I smelled that scent ag
Last Updated : 2022-10-23The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 30. X
Moon's pov I watched Beta Norman day and night, barely getting any sleep. I didn’t understand why he wasn’t visiting the caves. He only ever went to the dig site, which wasn’t anywhere near the caves. After five days I was tired, hungry and sick of hiding and climbing up into trees smelling worse than shit. Couldn’t Tabitha have made a better smelling potion?! The more I was by myself the more I remembered and the worse I felt. There were some good memories too, a lot of them. But it made me feel like crap everything even more. I could have had a good life with Kai, if all this hadn’t happened. I was focused on my revenge, but it went too fucking slow. I needed Beta Norman by himself, so I could attack him and stop whatever else he was planning. I tried to keep my eye on Beta Norman, but it was Kai that drew my attention. He walked out of the campsite and went into the opposite direction of the dig site. He kept walking and I followed him. It was obvious he was trying to reach me.
Last Updated : 2022-10-24
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 98. The End
Moon’s pov- ONE YEAR LATER -"Luna?""Luna Moon?"I kept forgetting that I was now Luna."Yes?" I said as I turned around.A mother and her kids were standing there looking at me."Wow, you’ve gotten big." Her little girl said."Ashley! You can’t just say those things." Her mother scolded her."It’s fine. I am big. But can I tell you a secret?"Ashley nodded her little head."It’s because there are two babies inside of me.""Wow! two!" Ashley said excitedly.Her mom smiled at me, "I just wanted to thank you. Alpha Raider has been a wonderful Alpha and has handled everything on his own so well for all these years, but having a Luna is really special. We feel complete, and you both have done such wonderful things for our pack. The Crimson Crescent Pack is on its way to becoming one of the most powerful packs in the whole country, thanks to you and Alpha Raider. We’re really proud to be members."I smiled and was almost brought to tears. Stupid hormones."Thank you; that means a lot.""W
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 96. Breathe
Moon’s pov"Breathe, breathe through the contractions." The midwife said."You fucking breathe." I replied, getting sick of hearing her voice."I’m sorry." Kai said to the midwife, "She didn’t mean it like that."The hell I didn’t.The midwife smiled at us, "don’t worry, I’ve been told worse.""You know, I read somewhere that an orgasm can help with the pain." Kai suggested."An orgasm? You’re thinking about sex right now? That’s the thing that got me into this situation in the first place.""No, I didn't mean it that way, I,-""Just go hang out in the other room with Diego," I yelled, "I need to focus, and Mary will call you when the baby is almost out."Kai nodded and left the room, looking defeated."Maybe I shouldn’t try to have a baby?" Mary joked. "It looks painful, and it turns the future mother into this scary beast that even drives away alpha males.""You want out too?"Mary laughed. She wasn’t scared of me. "No, I can handle scary Moon.""So you’ve been trying to make a baby?
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 95. Bebe
Mary’s povKnowing Moon would give birth in a few months sped up the whole house's construction. Alpha Raider even jumped in to help, and Moon sent some people from our pack to assist as well.It also meant that once the house was done, which would be in a few weeks, Diego and I would start living together.I looked forward to it and was anxious at the same time. I was used to having my own room, my own space, and not having to think about another person. But falling asleep next to Diego and waking up next to him every morning would be wonderful. Knowing I could snuggle in those big, hairy arms of his would be worth giving up some of my personal space."Moon and Raider would have no issue with giving you another room. The house is big enough." Beth, my wolf, said.I didn’t need another room. Diego and I wouldn’t be spending most days together, so this would be just evenings, nights, and mornings. And days off."So plenty of time," Beth joked.I had grown a lot more comfortable around D
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 94. Family
Kai's pov"So are you and Maria planning on moving to our new packhouse too?" I asked Diego.He looked unsure."I mean, Mary and Moon are friends, so I kind of assumed it would have come up." I said, "You don’t fucking have to. I mean, it’s just a question.""Maria is her best friend, and soy tu mejor amigo?" said Diego, laughing.I knew what Amigo meant. "I am not your fucking best friend. We’re not in high school."He nodded his head with a stupid smirk on his face, "did you learn Spanish for your amigo?"I growled, "never fucking mind, Diego. You’re getting way too familiar anyway; I wouldn’t want to live with you again."He smiled at me despite my anger, "Maria and I would love to live in the house with you, Alpha Raider. We also talked about perhaps building our own casa in the future.""Well, mi casa es su casa, right? You and Mary are welcome to stay at the packhouse." I said, "for Moon of course. She would love it. I don't fucking care either way."Diego laughed as he walked ou
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 93. Siempre
Diego’s povI knew Maria could handle herself, but I felt this strong urge to protect her and make sure she was okay. Maria was the strongest person I know, but I felt like sometimes she tried to be even stronger and wouldn’t admit when something was wrong.I had felt nothing during our bond because I was most likely sleeping. But I did have this vivid dream of fighting people, which must have been because of Mary.Now that we’re both marked, we feel everything the other feels, and although I already knew Maria was a lot more sensitive than she looked, I hadn’t suspected to feel so much from her. She felt deeply, just like I did, but she kept them hidden by acting though."So, you want to check up on Mary, huh?" Alpha Moon teased."Por supuesto [of course], just like you went with Alpha Raider, no?"Alpha Moon laughed, "yeah. But Mary was doing her job, and my mate was being a reckless idiot. Going in alone could have gone so terribly wrong.""He was doing his job también [as well]. He
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 92. Punished
Kai’s povA loud scream tore through the packhouse, and then there was silence. We walked down to see Luna Suzanne and Darius in the living room, hugging each other."It hurts, honey, but I’ll be okay. You matter more to me." Suzanne said to her son. We weren't needed here anymore. I wouldn't want to hang around with the person who killed my mate just a few seconds ago.I looked at Darius, and he nodded his head. I could feel his alpha aura now; the transfer was complete.We left the packhouse and walked to the car. We weren’t stopped by any guards, and the gates opened for us to pass through. Darius, sorry Alpha Darius must have told them to let us pass.Ten minutes into our ride home, Moon sighed."Kai…""I know, I’m fucking sorry.""You can’t just do these things, what if something happened?"I shrugged my shoulders, "it didn’t.""And you can’t just talk for me. That was not your secret to tell. I am a damn Alpha; I can handle my own problems. I don’t need a knight on a white horse
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 91. Wolfsbane
Moon’s pov"So you’re going to Alpha Paul now to pay him back?" I mindlinked Kai."No, well, I wanted to kill him, but I will try another way first.""And you’re taking Darius with you?" I asked."Yes, my Moon.""The same guy that tried to kill you literally an hour ago?"Kai laughed, "the same fucking guy. I trust him. I don’t know why, but let’s just say it’s a gut thing.""Well, I have a gut feeling too, and it says that you’re being reckless. Going inside Alpha Paul’s territory with his son. If he does kill you, it looks like you provoked it." "Alpha Paul isn’t strong or brave enough, that’s why he sent his pup to do his nasty work." Kai growled. "I’ll be fine.""Yes, you will.""What’s that supposed to mean, -" And Kai stopped as soon as he spotted Angela beside the road."I'm coming with," I mindlinked and switched back, naked beside the road.I'd been waiting for a car for about ten minutes. No one would travel this road this late at night, so I wasn’t worried someone else migh
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 90. Pinky Finger
Kai’s povThe first few days were just the fucker following me around. He didn’t say much, and I was grateful; I already had a beta and a gamma who wouldn’t shut up. Diego in particular, goddess, did he even have a filter? It was like every thought he had needed to be said out loud. Even if no one could fucking understand him anyway.I showed Darius around; he watched Hudson handle the books without seeing all of our finances, and Darius watched Diego train his soldiers. I had no fucking clue what we were doing. Is this how you train a future Alpha? Or do I need to put him to work too?Alpha Paul didn’t find shit in the ground, just like we expected, but he wasn’t finished yet. He still had a few days left, and he wanted to use them all. I think he was just stalling, so we couldn’t start building yet.Or it was because on the fifth night of the idiot staying here, while I was trying to sleep, little Darius secretly snuck out of his room and into the hallway.Did the fucker really think
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 89. Darius
Kai’s pov"So, you followed my advice?" Moon said, looking at Mary’s mark during breakfast.If Mary could blush, she would. Goddess, she looked mortified, but it was fucking funny to see that face of hers. I wondered if they finally had sex or tried he other stuff Moon told me about. I mean, I wouldn’t fucking mind seeing my mate touch herself.I looked at Diego, "now we really need to get that land."Diego nodded, "Si."Okay, chatty catty wasn’t really in the mood to talk this morning. He would probably tell me and Hudson everything later.Diego kissed Mary, and I gave Moon a good kiss before they left.Diego sighed, "I want Maria here, todo el tiemp [all the time]. Alfa Raider, cómo se hace esto? [Alpha Raider, how do you do this?]"I didn’t really understand that last part because it was in fucking Spanish, but I did know how he felt. "It’s fucking hard being away from Moon."Beta Hudson and his family came down for breakfast after Moon and Mary left, and it made me realize even mor
