Helmut narrates I had struggled to make a decision with Aitana. Although I felt I should punish her with more time in the cell, so that she would learn that she should be obedient and invisible to me for the rest of the months together, I felt bad if she continued to stay there. Aitana was like a child with her sweetness against a rustic, dark and cold world. She was the contrast to all the women I had ever had, because, each of them had already reached adult maturity. But, Aitana was that sweet girl who, not being in society, grew up being sweet, naughty and innocent. Something that attracts me too much, to the point of not knowing how to treat her. To the point of hesitating like now. "Sir, already the lady has left" Peeta says and I sigh deeply. "Where did she go?" I ask, though I don't wish to know the answer. I would be too disappointed to know that she is doing the wrong things, that the innocence I love so much is just a mirage or that, because I punished her, she is now t
The girls were so excited that in less than an hour we were already touring the island as if I were the wife of a drug dealer. Only better, because I am the wife of a millionaire alpha. It had to do some good to be the wife of someone like him."So, what are we going to do, ma'am?" asks one of the girls. "Anything that's fun and costs a lot of money. We must give Helmut a big message and that's not done by economizing."The girls hesitate, but, as soon as we get to the first stores, the fear disappears and we start buying clothes for all of us, eating all kinds of food, playing games, relaxing in spas and even, entering the casino. Clearly, before that, entered a boutique where to buy underwear, I had to sell my kidneys and my heart, to buy it. But what does it matter, if my sentimental situation allows me to buy it without money? I enter excitedly and I am surprised to see the tiny fabrics that adorn what is considered underwear. That's when I question whether it's a good idea to
I look around and it looks like I've put on a wig and clown makeup, because everyone is smiling at my husband's words, making it clear that he's not kidding when he talks about the money he has. The bastard is immensely wealthy."So, if you didn't know how much I spent and you obviously didn't come to claim that from me, why are you here?" I ask confused. "I wanted to see if you were getting in trouble," Helmut says and I roll my eyes."I'm not a child." I remind him."Only girls roll their eyes like you do and I don't like it. It shows how spoiled you are" Helmut says and I smiled."I'm so sorry your wife is spoiled. Now that you've seen that there are no police let alone firemen putting out the fire, you can leave." I say pointing to the door, but, Helmut doesn't leave."Actually, I came to see how the men were behaving with you. At the palace, I can control that no one enters your house. But, here it's complicated. So, I had to accept you mixing with men." Helmut says and I sigh d
From where I stood, I could see Helmut's confused expression as people passing by looked at the two of them in surprise. Something that made me a little embarrassed, because they heard what he had said.Immediately, Helmut looks around with a murderous look on his face and everyone leaves giving us the privacy they should have given us in the first place. "Just when I think you're not going to surprise me anymore, along comes this" Helmut says and in my mind I smiled.'At least I'm keeping him interested, even if it's to scold me' I say mentally.'You haven't answered my wish' I say and he tenses his jaw.'Ask for something else and I assure you I will fulfill it' Helmut says."If you don't want to touch me, let me do it for both of us" I say bringing my hand closer on his chest, but, he immediately recoils as if my touch will affect him too much. What I don't know is whether it affects him positively or negatively. Although, from his gestures, it seems that he rejects me out of dis
Hours laterI could no longer see well. I was so dizzy that it was impossible to see a single thing. Helmut, on the other hand, was smiling as if nothing was wrong. It was as if the alcohol only affected me, was he used to drinking?"I think you should go and rest. You're already very drunk." Helmut says and I deny, even though it makes me lose what little balance sitting still I have. "I still want to keep drinking. I think I could last a little longer" I say slurring my words."You should know your limits" Helmut says and I smile."How could I know them if this is my first-time drinking alcohol" I ask and that makes Helmut smile."I would expect nothing less from you. If you've been locked up forever, I doubt you've had a chance to drink alcohol." Helmut says."Do you like that I'm this innocent?""Not drinking alcohol doesn't make you innocent. Besides, from the books you read, I can tell you are the opposite of innocent" Helmut replies and I blush. "Well, I'm a young girl, I wan
I couldn't understand what he was doing, because, although I had to have him on my side, to keep him from killing me and to have a good life, I couldn't complicate things by kissing him just because I had wanted to.Our lips are parted for lack of breath, but his forehead stays glued to mine in a way that makes me feel that my bold move hasn't angered him, let alone, he has the energy to threaten me again."This is a mistake, woman. You shouldn't kiss me if you want to be well, if you want to live" Helmut whispers in a soft tone, to the point of not sounding like he is warning me of the death he is going to bring upon me.'I could assure you that even in his sleep he speaks only to threaten me. This man is strange'"Why would kissing you kill me?" I ask wishing he would tell me the cause of his constant threats.'Because I feel pleasure when you do. Even though you are not an expert kisser, you kiss in a way that could be considered a drug because of how addictive it is." Helmut whisp
Two months laterTime had passed in a slow and painful way. As if Helmut had put a curse on me, since that night I have started to feel bad to the point that as soon as I left the room where we had been drinking, I fainted.My classes are few because I have to rest and, not knowing what I have, I just stay in bed suffering from pain or fainting that can't find its cause. Helmut since that night where he finally told me a little of what he hides, disappeared.So, I have not been able to talk to him and get more information. Cleo, comes back smiling while bringing towels in warm water to help me lower the fever that appears in my body every two days and lasts only five hours showing itself, something the doctors don't understand why it happens either."Ma'am, how are you feeling today?" asks Cleo and I sigh deeply."It's good that my body is taking turns with the symptoms. But, it's still exhausting" I just say as she places the towels on my forehead and chest."It's really strange how
With effort and awkward struggle, I fix the watch, although Cleo tells me it's not a good gift for a person as cold and serious as the alpha of a pack with a reputation for being ruthless."It doesn't look as beautiful as in the pictures I used as an example, at least it looks like a good bouquet" I say sighing deeply."I still think it's a bad gift" Cleo says and I deny."It's better. This way, I won't be giving her something that someone else gave her in the past" I say and hand the bouquet to Cleo."Why are you giving it to me?" Cleo asks and I smile."Because you'll be the one to take it" I say immediately and she denies backing away. "No, of course I won't. I don't want to die so young" Cleo says and I stare at her."Don't be a coward, you're a she-wolf. You're not fragile" I say and she looks at me painfully."I'm not fragile, but, I'm not immortal either. If the lord doesn't like it, I'm afraid he'll take his anger out on me." "You'll be fine.""Why don't you take him? Even i
Fifteen years laterThe world continued its course, my pack had been consolidated thanks to Ariana's contributions. Albert, today he was returning home after fourteen years studying at the academy. Although he always saw for special dates or the anniversary of his mother's death, this time his return was different, because he saw to stay.Ariana gave orders to her people, while I had become a gardener who kept the garden where Aitana rests beautiful. Although to be honest there is little I have to do, because the islanders take turns every few hours to take care of the flowers and bring new ones in honor of the woman who fought to the end.So, I am almost all the time exercising, answering Ariana's tough questions so my brain doesn't rust and going to medical checkups at the insistence of my children.But, today, I would not be the boring man in his monotonous routine, today I would see my son. That one who had succeeded in that academy that now had t
Everyone on the island begins to show their respect for Aitana, while I watch as everything we experience here passes like a few seconds in a trailer. Remembering how I despised her and she wanted to leave here, throwing herself out of a window, makes me realize how much we have changed.Because it is in this place where she wanted to escape from, where she now wants to be forever. One by one they leave, leaving only Cleotilde's family and my closest men, those who knew our story.The night arrives and the castles are illuminated, at Aitana's request, we enter the one that was my castle, where the memories of my mistakes slap me so hard that I find it complicated to continue, however, a warm hand is placed on my hand and invites me to continue."Collect all the pain in here, I want to take it with me." Aitana says and I swallow hard."Aitana...""I am an expert in bearing pain, let me pick up all that pain clinging to those memories, I will take them with me
Six months laterWe had spent the time the doctors had given Aitana and although I wish that was the sign that they had made a mistake with the diagnosis, that was not the case. She had gotten much worse. So much that it hurt.There were times when she didn't remember who she was, others, where she didn't know how to move and at some, she would become so violent as she screamed for them to end her life. She would vomit, many times she would soil herself because she couldn't even warn them.Other times, she would wake up not knowing how to talk and with each step, her brain cancer would take over so much that we had to put the videos and photos we had taken on each walk, because many times she was suspicious even of the children.Today, for example, she did not speak, she did not move, it seemed that she was in a vegetable state, but, it was because her brain was barely functioning, being invaded by a tumor that looked like something full of spikes that were even
We had to let go and I was glad that even remembering all that we had lived and not remembering how well we had spent these months traveling, she decided to move forward. I couldn't say that I decided without knowing what I was doing, because Aitana knew it and I was glad she didn't hold a grudge."I want to leave here. I want us to resume our family trip today" Aitana says and I try to process what's going on."I understand, we will be leaving today" I say trying to get up."Although I don't remember what happened these past few months, there are pictures that give me an idea of it. Also, a few days ago, I had started to write down my thoughts of what I had experienced and although I left a general idea of what I had experienced, I know that I have enjoyed it. That we have been happy" says Aitana and I nod."We really have been. Even though we have measured time, we've spent time being happy the four of us." I murmur and she holds out her hand, which I take.
I could not understand what was going on. The woman who had been hostile when I asked her to come back, was now kissing me. I didn't understand what was going on and although I wanted to kiss her, I pulled away feeling that I was taking advantage of her confusion."Is something wrong?" asks Aitana and I stick closer to the back of my seat, to be away from her."I don't want you because of your mental confusion to feel like I'm taking advantage of you by kissing you" I say and she smiles."I'm the one who started the kiss.""But, I have my memories and I know you didn't agree to come back with me before the surgery or after you didn't have all your memories of the past like you do now." I murmur and she smiles."You are so cautious now. You don't look like the man who kissed me on our wedding day, just because I had another man's scent near me" she murmurs.I immediately, blush for having been so bold knowing I had a curse that could have killed he
The following dayWe had not been able to leave Amsterdam as we had planned, because Aitana was still not awake. Fortunately, the doctors said it was exhaustion that had her sleeping and not something serious.Exhausted from almost no sleep, thinking that she would wake up, I go out to have some coffee and with the computer working on the door of her room, I wait for the hours to pass. However, I have barely managed to sit up in the chair, when I hear a groan.Fearing that something bad has happened in my absence, I open the door to the room, which makes my legs weaken. The woman, who had not woken up, moans slightly as she tries to get up."I'll help you" I say running to her.Gingerly, I help her to sit up and I stand watching her, waiting for a scolding for allowing her to fall, an apology for scaring us or anything. I don't care if it's an insult, what matters to me, is that she speaks.That she tells my mind that she's alive. Because just seeing he
After the words he had said, the boys tried to be strong, but, again they walked away and in front of the pulpit they cried begging for strength to face this, I felt the same way.In silence I cried and when we ran out of energy, we looked at each other and I felt it, the connection of father and sons had been formed, there was no way for anyone in the world to deny or doubt that they were my sons, because this calamity, had consolidated the attempts of connection that in the past had been tried to be made.Something good had happened among so much suffering, but, I did not like the way it had happened. It was painful, we were united, but, it was painful to see my children suffer and me not being able to do something to be able to alleviate their pain."What should we do now?" asks Albert"Show strength to their mother. She suffers a lot, but, she keeps it quiet because she doesn't want you to realize what is happening. But, she didn't want to do that
The hours pass and we are finally allowed to see Aitana after several tests were done and confirmed that she was out of danger. Relief overcomes us and the boys thank God audibly as they wait to see their mother.Happy that my children are not violent like me, we advance to the room where the woman is still not awake. The doctor watches me and I understand that the time to know everything is now.So, I nod for the doctor to come to us and help me to tell what is happening with Aitana. Because I know that alone I can't and I can't disturb more Aitana who tries to look strong, although she suffers a lot."Guys..." I say calling their attention, after they both take their mother's hand, to then kiss this or her forehead."Is something wrong?" asks Albert when he sees that the doctor doesn't leave."I want you to hear your mother's health report. But, before that, I want you to tell me something, are you guys tough guys?" I ask and they look at each other"
I felt that the hourglass that showed me that I had little time left with Aitana, had run out of time from one moment to the next and it was all someone's fault. So, I run towards the people trying to run away from me.Seeing how they run, the desire to hunt takes over me and I run transforming myself into the wolf that never loses a prey. The beast that appeared when the curse caused me to only see my prey to kill it.I run after my prey and many people present scream when they see me turn into an animal, but, I don't care about that. My wife had been hurt and they had to pay for it. Without any fear that the man would die on the spot. I throw myself at him and he falls down with his face looking up at me."S-sir, please. Don't hurt me" the man says in a whisper, while in his gaze there is a fear I can't describe, the only thing that surprises me is that he didn't wet his pants because of the fear he feels.He knew how to do it. Just one bite, one scratch and hi