Chapter 2: Attempting to leave.

I have never felt so unwanted as I do now. While it's understandable that he doesn't love me because we've barely seen each other and that his father has died and he's sensitive, none of that justifies his mistreatment.

"What did I do to him, did I offend him to make him treat me this way?" I ask painfully.

"He must be confused. Don't make a big deal out of what he's doing. Surely he has an explanation for doing this" says the butler.

 The euphoric shouting causes me to look towards the source of the noise and my gaze meets his. The music begins to play loudly and everyone jumps up and down excitedly, while Helmut watches me as if he is amused by my state.

"None of his excuses, can justify how he is acting" I mutter painfully. 

"Ma'am... maybe he."

'Will you continue to wear that ridiculous wedding dress when it's clearly not necessary, wife?' asks Helmut using wolf communication to taunt me.

'You're a badass' I say and Helmut smirks in satisfaction.

Ready to jump the castle in order to escape from this damned hell I walk smiling, believing that I would start my happy dream, when what is being lived is a nightmare and that I have been married for only hours.

"Ma'am, don't go. Don't give him that pleasure" says the butler and although I don't want to indulge him in it, I am too upset to think about it. More so when he smiles at me and then kisses one of the girls while watching me in amusement.

It is clear that my anger, amuses him and even prompts him to kiss another of the women as we make eye contact. Showing me that if they had cheated on me with the husband they had promised me and the one they were now giving me.

"Ma'am..."

"No explanation you want to give me, if you see fit to explain this to me, is going to justify what you are doing to me" I whisper in annoyance and pain.

Feeling pathetic for being dressed as a bride, while he is in casual clothes, making out with several women, I rip off my veil and roughly wipe my cheeks, while wishing I could fly and land on his body, to devour him in one bite. 

On the rooftop of the castles, we look at each other without feeling even a hint of love. With a long distance between us and the cold breeze hitting my face, I watch as he is in a joyful mood, while watching me with hatred, when I am just in my wedding dress, feeling pathetic and hurt.

'How I wish I could jump long enough to fall in front of you and make you pay for this you have done to me' I say mentally and he smiles.

'Oh, humans talk about flying cats. But, I've never seen a she-wolf flying. But, do, it would be so much fun to see a wolf jumping or a crazy woman in a wedding dress.' Helmut replies in a mocking tone.

'I'd like to do it and have my angry look be the last thing he would see in his pathetic life. But, I'm no bird, I'm a silly she-wolf who believed the lies of an old man who must be laughing at me in hell.

"Miss..."

"How can you be so heartless to someone who hasn't hurt you?" I ask annoyed. Determined to insult him, I look at him and speak to him. "I have offended you for you to treat me like this!"

"You offended me when you thought I would be a faithful and loving husband. Don't be foolish and wake up. This is reality, little one, and learn to live with it. Because to your misfortune, we are husbands." replies Helmut without some kind of perturbation. 

Actually, he seems to be amused by my annoyance. I even think he would be able to laugh. I'm sure he would be able to do that, so, I prepare to leave.

"Wow, what a fool I've been to think that today would be my happiest day because I would marry the one I love. To the perfect man." I mutter disappointed at how blind I was to believe in a story you only see in fairy tales.

"Third floor on the left. There are whole shelves of books there with perfect men. Look for your husband over there. Because if you talk about me, this is who I am and I'm not going to change" he says kissing the girl no matter what she thinks or how bad it might look doing that when we just got married.

"Everything is ruined. This was not the reality I was sold. My beautiful dress is a mess, my face is stained as a sign of the humiliation I'm living, the husband I was promised doesn't exist and not even as a fellow of the same species, he cares about me." I whisper analyzing my reality.

"Miss... don't think like that. I am sure that Mr...."

"I am nothing to him, I am a hindrance, a nuisance. This is not the husband I want and I'm not going to have him. I refuse to endure a life by his side" I whisper and immediately, I transform into a wolf, to run back where I came from and at the window closest to the ground, throw myself without caring about cutting myself.

It's preferable to end up with that man tied to something I don't like. I'm too young to live through this hell. I haven't behaved badly enough to live through something like this. So, staying is unnecessary.

I run, completely ignoring the world I leave behind. Wanting it to stay there, so, I run fast as my legs sink into the mud. An image flashes through my head, of Helmut searching for me and tracking me by footprints.

But, my mind slaps me in the face as my idea doesn't relate to the reality my now husband has shown me. So, I move forward knowing that they will not follow me and they will not make a drama because I give up in record time, the man that the moon sent for me.

In the distance I hear screams and howls, but I don't stop. I want to free myself from the chains that I see so far and therefore, I disappear into the forest without caring that there are wild animals with more strength or bigger than me.

My heart is pounding, and I whimper knowing that I have no place to return to or seek refuge. I curse that I have fallen for a deception and assure myself that I am not going back, even if I must sleep in the forest and eat like a wild animal. 

For even that, is better than going back to being the wife of a man who undoubtedly has no heart. So, I move forward even without knowing where I'm going. After all, nothing is going to be worse than living with that man for the rest of my life.