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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 36: Mirror Image
ALPHA ZADEAyda sighs and scratches behind her ears, she looks away before I get the chance to make out what I’m reading in her eyes.“I want you back there, everyone does,” I add when she still doesn’t speak more than a minute later.“I don’t think I’m ready,” she says, like she always does and I have to fight the tremble I feel in me at that. I nod, smiling and hiding whatever I’m feeling beneath it. “I heard you found your mate,”She turns to me, her eyes wide with…is that glee? Well, that is an unexpected emotion and I feel bad for breaking her heart but I hope she never gets to meet the witch I have to accept is actually my mate because fate decided to give me the finger.“Yeah,” I cleared my throat, swallowing down the bitter feeling in my chest. “Who told you?”She bites her lip, a look I can’t decipher in her eyes. She is much different now, and not just from her hair that wasn’t this white the last time I saw her among other things, I can’t pinpoint what it is about her that
Last Updated : 2023-05-22Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 37: Locked Woman
FEYREI didn’t let myself think of how weird Alpha Zade had acted when he saw me trying to go up the stairs.Okay, I’m lying. It is all I have been able to think about for the past two days. When I’d gone to see Asher later in the day, he noticed how my head wasn’t really there but then he reached the conclusion that I was probably thinking of my mate and going back there. As if.I mean, sure I was thinking of him but not in the way he had presumed.One thing is constant in all of this and that is my newest obsession with finding out what the cold hearted alpha is hiding. Because I did see a silhouette of a person, so there is definitely someone up there and not just ghosts. The way he acted confirmed it.I considered asking Delilah then thought against it, she is loyal to her alpha to a fault and I doubt they’ll give up important information like a woman he is hiding in his attic.What makes you think it’s a woman? I ignore the voice in my head although it is making a point.I didn’t
Last Updated : 2023-05-23Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 38: Creeps
FEYREIn the end, I chickened out and refused to meet with Alpha Zade. Nothing good would have come out of it because I wasn’t prepared. So I need to sit and think before acting.He is smart, a little too smart which means I need to be extra careful and cautious, and I should be two steps ahead of him at all times. Being all friendly with him out of the blue would arouse suspicion, I’m sure the interaction is still on his mind, just like it is on mine. Better if I give him time to get over that then I can find a way to call a truce.I just need to figure out how to get over my distaste for him, or learn how to hide it at the very least.With nothing to do I decided to go for a walk, totally not because I wanted to look around the pack to see if there are more women that need help or, who knows, maybe he has a run down building where he hides all his victims. I can never be too careful.And try to not end up like one of them.Or maybe you are just jumping into conclusions, you have a b
Last Updated : 2023-05-23Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 39: Business Transactions
FEYRE“How has the pack been treating you?” Alpha Lucien asks, taking a sip from his Macallan.He’d invited me to drink with him after we met outside and since I didn’t have anything better to do, I agreed. It was either this or drowning in my thoughts in my room alone, either the thoughts of the shadow will kill me or that of the alpha.I am very close to hitting rock bottom and I can’t allow that.Also, alpha Lucien’s company is not that bad, especially when you compare it to that of his son’s.“It has been okay,” I mutter, bringing the glass up to my lips though I don’t take a sip, I don’t put it back down either which leaves it hovering awkwardly over my mouth.“That is good. I hope you’ve settled in easily.” There is curiosity in the man’s eyes and in that instant, I know there is more he wants to know and this is not just a friendly chat. This just shows me how I need to be careful around every one of them.No one is excluded. I’d been the one reminding Asher we weren’t allies,
Last Updated : 2023-05-24Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 40: Reach A Truce
ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo
Last Updated : 2023-05-24Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 41: Blueprint Is The Same As A Map
FEYREI have an ample lot of time on my hands with nothing better to do, and I have realized I can only work out so many times before my body starts aching. I have resorted to calling Asher every day, even if I feel like I’m disrupting his work.He is too nice to mention and he always picks when I call, even offering a game or something so I can feel less idle. I really don’t know what I’ll do with my life without him. I’ve always thought that finding his mate will be what will pull us apart, I know no female wolf will like her mate hanging out with another female all the time, forget that he is like my brother and just the thought of anything that is not platonic with him makes my skin crawl.Asher and I together will be like incest and I am really not a fan of it.Meeting with alpha Lucien didn’t help, not in the way that I thought, his pretty much cryptic answer when I asked why I was here didn’t help. I have tried to not let myself think of it too much. And since Alpha Zade doesn’
Last Updated : 2023-05-26Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 42: Uncovering Things
FEYREI needed to come up with a new strategy, and fast. The more minutes, hours, days, I spend wasting time—or working and not really making progress—might be another woman getting hurt.How I went from trying to make the alpha feel again, to trying to uncover if he is a sicko that kidnaps women surprises me. I know I have a knack for a little adrenaline and work but I never thought I would be into this as much as I am. With the blueprints safely tucked into the back of my closet, all I need to do now is how to set phase two of my plan into motion. Getting him to trust me. I already know that is going to be the hardest part of my plan. Thanks to Delilah’s blabbering, I got to know that there are cameras in almost every part of this house.I can’t hack into them unfortunately but if I get close to him, I can know how to access them. Learn to deactivate it so I will do that the day I choose to satisfy my morbid curiosity. I’ll go up there and if I find a woman there like I suspect, I
Last Updated : 2023-05-27Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 43: Run
FEYREI am not taking Delilah’s relationship advice obviously, I’m not even in a relationship to begin with but she insisted, even offered to help in every way she can, when I got tired of her painting what she thought our relationship would be like, I sent her out of my room and made it a point to lock the door from inside. I have officially run out of energy to deal with her today.I breathe out, scratching the back of my hair absentmindedly. I am standing in the middle of my room with my hands on my waist and no closer to figuring out what I want to do. Now that I have good reason to believe he is not hiding anyone I feel at ease.It is just the mate bond making me feel relief when I shouldn’t even care.I take my jotted notes and hide them in the back of my closet along with the map. Relief courses through me at that thought. I didn’t even know why I cared so much about what he does or how I didn’t want him to be bad. Being irritable and arrogant is way better than being a strai
Last Updated : 2023-05-28
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 47: Game On
FEYRE If I thought I had something to think about because of the kiss, it just got worse with this news of the summit. Dylan tried to make me feel better by saying it is nothing and it will pass in the blink of an eye. He didn’t realize he wasn’t helping so I just smiled politely and thanked him. After he left I rushed to my phone and called Asher who didn’t pick. It felt like my life was crashing down before my eyes and all I could do was watch the fires consume it. I’m hoping I’ll have something to pick up from the ashes when all of this is done. Before we get to that, I’ll have to meet with alpha Lucien to hear from him why I need to go with his son. Can’t I just stay here and do, I don’t know, luna stuff? When I agreed to do this, I didn’t know they would need me to make public appearances with him. I feel cheated, really. I decided I would meet with him after lunch, if he is there then it would be even better. I am already dressed so I just wait anxiously as the time goes.
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 46: Summit Invite
FEYREIt has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t even bother turning up for breakfast today.I have been jumpy all day, since we got back. I ran to my room and immediately locked the door, like I expected him to come knocking it down till I opened. He didn’t and I hate to admit that I was a little disappointed.I’m not sure I’m ready to face him, all the weird energy surrounding us is suffocating.Someone had mindlinked him, that was the only reason we had separated. I remember how I had felt annoyed by whoever caused the interruption.It felt awkward immediately as we untangled from each other. The tension filling the space.As big as where we were standing was, it felt too small and I thought I would suffocate.The ghost of the lust that was still alive in the air,
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 45: Destroy Me
ALPHA ZADEI knew she was going to be my downfall from the first time I met her, I needed an escape from her which was why I chose to come here to read. It was one of the places my mother used to spend her time with.The only remnants of what used to be her pack. After she met my father and found out they were mates, they decided to merge their packs. It was the beginning of their problems and till today, I had wished she stayed as the alpha of her pack and never went for love.Love. Just the thought makes me scoff.I didn’t plan on seeing her there, I couldn’t even understand what she was doing there. All members of the pack stayed away from this part of the pack. Only a few teenagers are found loitering sometimes but even that has been prohibited. After almost ten years as alpha, I have accepted that you can’t control or stop them, just make sure they won’t hurt themselves.Some stories about ghosts of the people that died in the fire here returning to haunt the people of the pack m
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 44: Spying
FEYREI start walking, following Alpha Zade’s scent and the further I go, the stronger it gets. I start with a slow walk which develops into a jog and before I can even think it through, I find myself running.I hear footsteps coming from behind out of nowhere, also running and I pick up speed. It is hard keeping my attention on his scent when I feel like someone is following me. I don’t want to turn to confirm out of fear that something scary is actually there.With my wolf not in sight, I know fighting here is not going to be a good idea, I don’t know how many they are or how strong they are. If I make the mistake of getting hurt here, no one will find me. I’m noy connected to this pack and there will be no way to mindlink or try to pin down my location.Shit, I didn’t tell anyone I was going out.I reach a turn and come to a halt, my breathing ragged. My lungs are burning and my hair has fallen out of its ponytail.I dance a little on my feet, my head feels hazy and I cough out lou
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 43: Run
FEYREI am not taking Delilah’s relationship advice obviously, I’m not even in a relationship to begin with but she insisted, even offered to help in every way she can, when I got tired of her painting what she thought our relationship would be like, I sent her out of my room and made it a point to lock the door from inside. I have officially run out of energy to deal with her today.I breathe out, scratching the back of my hair absentmindedly. I am standing in the middle of my room with my hands on my waist and no closer to figuring out what I want to do. Now that I have good reason to believe he is not hiding anyone I feel at ease.It is just the mate bond making me feel relief when I shouldn’t even care.I take my jotted notes and hide them in the back of my closet along with the map. Relief courses through me at that thought. I didn’t even know why I cared so much about what he does or how I didn’t want him to be bad. Being irritable and arrogant is way better than being a strai
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 42: Uncovering Things
FEYREI needed to come up with a new strategy, and fast. The more minutes, hours, days, I spend wasting time—or working and not really making progress—might be another woman getting hurt.How I went from trying to make the alpha feel again, to trying to uncover if he is a sicko that kidnaps women surprises me. I know I have a knack for a little adrenaline and work but I never thought I would be into this as much as I am. With the blueprints safely tucked into the back of my closet, all I need to do now is how to set phase two of my plan into motion. Getting him to trust me. I already know that is going to be the hardest part of my plan. Thanks to Delilah’s blabbering, I got to know that there are cameras in almost every part of this house.I can’t hack into them unfortunately but if I get close to him, I can know how to access them. Learn to deactivate it so I will do that the day I choose to satisfy my morbid curiosity. I’ll go up there and if I find a woman there like I suspect, I
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 41: Blueprint Is The Same As A Map
FEYREI have an ample lot of time on my hands with nothing better to do, and I have realized I can only work out so many times before my body starts aching. I have resorted to calling Asher every day, even if I feel like I’m disrupting his work.He is too nice to mention and he always picks when I call, even offering a game or something so I can feel less idle. I really don’t know what I’ll do with my life without him. I’ve always thought that finding his mate will be what will pull us apart, I know no female wolf will like her mate hanging out with another female all the time, forget that he is like my brother and just the thought of anything that is not platonic with him makes my skin crawl.Asher and I together will be like incest and I am really not a fan of it.Meeting with alpha Lucien didn’t help, not in the way that I thought, his pretty much cryptic answer when I asked why I was here didn’t help. I have tried to not let myself think of it too much. And since Alpha Zade doesn’
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 40: Reach A Truce
ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 39: Business Transactions
FEYRE“How has the pack been treating you?” Alpha Lucien asks, taking a sip from his Macallan.He’d invited me to drink with him after we met outside and since I didn’t have anything better to do, I agreed. It was either this or drowning in my thoughts in my room alone, either the thoughts of the shadow will kill me or that of the alpha.I am very close to hitting rock bottom and I can’t allow that.Also, alpha Lucien’s company is not that bad, especially when you compare it to that of his son’s.“It has been okay,” I mutter, bringing the glass up to my lips though I don’t take a sip, I don’t put it back down either which leaves it hovering awkwardly over my mouth.“That is good. I hope you’ve settled in easily.” There is curiosity in the man’s eyes and in that instant, I know there is more he wants to know and this is not just a friendly chat. This just shows me how I need to be careful around every one of them.No one is excluded. I’d been the one reminding Asher we weren’t allies,
