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18: Ruin
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FEYREDylan and I don’t make it to three steps before his alpha’s imposing presence fills the small place, crowding it with all of his negative energy and large body. The place quieted down almost immediately and seeing that, the effect he has on people, how he commands them with just his presence, without having to use his words. It is both hot and unsettling.“Heading out?” he asks his beta but his eyes remain on mine. There is a violent energy surging there and I swear thunderstorms have looked calmer.I resist the urge to grab Dylan’s hand and beg him to stay here with me, there is no doubt I’ll be dead if I’m left with this man only.“Yes, I don’t think anything would interest the luna here.” Dylan’s voice is so professional it makes me rethink their friendship. I definitely do not talk to my best friend like that, alpha or not.But it is good, the longer they stand here talking like they belong in a black and white British sitcom, the easier it would be for me to sneak out and r
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 46: Summit Invite
FEYREIt has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t even bother turning up for breakfast today.I have been jumpy all day, since we got back. I ran to my room and immediately locked the door, like I expected him to come knocking it down till I opened. He didn’t and I hate to admit that I was a little disappointed.I’m not sure I’m ready to face him, all the weird energy surrounding us is suffocating.Someone had mindlinked him, that was the only reason we had separated. I remember how I had felt annoyed by whoever caused the interruption.It felt awkward immediately as we untangled from each other. The tension filling the space.As big as where we were standing was, it felt too small and I thought I would suffocate.The ghost of the lust that was still alive in the air,
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 45: Destroy Me
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 44: Spying
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 43: Run
FEYREI am not taking Delilah’s relationship advice obviously, I’m not even in a relationship to begin with but she insisted, even offered to help in every way she can, when I got tired of her painting what she thought our relationship would be like, I sent her out of my room and made it a point to lock the door from inside. I have officially run out of energy to deal with her today.I breathe out, scratching the back of my hair absentmindedly. I am standing in the middle of my room with my hands on my waist and no closer to figuring out what I want to do. Now that I have good reason to believe he is not hiding anyone I feel at ease.It is just the mate bond making me feel relief when I shouldn’t even care.I take my jotted notes and hide them in the back of my closet along with the map. Relief courses through me at that thought. I didn’t even know why I cared so much about what he does or how I didn’t want him to be bad. Being irritable and arrogant is way better than being a strai
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 42: Uncovering Things
FEYREI needed to come up with a new strategy, and fast. The more minutes, hours, days, I spend wasting time—or working and not really making progress—might be another woman getting hurt.How I went from trying to make the alpha feel again, to trying to uncover if he is a sicko that kidnaps women surprises me. I know I have a knack for a little adrenaline and work but I never thought I would be into this as much as I am. With the blueprints safely tucked into the back of my closet, all I need to do now is how to set phase two of my plan into motion. Getting him to trust me. I already know that is going to be the hardest part of my plan. Thanks to Delilah’s blabbering, I got to know that there are cameras in almost every part of this house.I can’t hack into them unfortunately but if I get close to him, I can know how to access them. Learn to deactivate it so I will do that the day I choose to satisfy my morbid curiosity. I’ll go up there and if I find a woman there like I suspect, I
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 41: Blueprint Is The Same As A Map
FEYREI have an ample lot of time on my hands with nothing better to do, and I have realized I can only work out so many times before my body starts aching. I have resorted to calling Asher every day, even if I feel like I’m disrupting his work.He is too nice to mention and he always picks when I call, even offering a game or something so I can feel less idle. I really don’t know what I’ll do with my life without him. I’ve always thought that finding his mate will be what will pull us apart, I know no female wolf will like her mate hanging out with another female all the time, forget that he is like my brother and just the thought of anything that is not platonic with him makes my skin crawl.Asher and I together will be like incest and I am really not a fan of it.Meeting with alpha Lucien didn’t help, not in the way that I thought, his pretty much cryptic answer when I asked why I was here didn’t help. I have tried to not let myself think of it too much. And since Alpha Zade doesn’
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 40: Reach A Truce
ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 39: Business Transactions
FEYRE“How has the pack been treating you?” Alpha Lucien asks, taking a sip from his Macallan.He’d invited me to drink with him after we met outside and since I didn’t have anything better to do, I agreed. It was either this or drowning in my thoughts in my room alone, either the thoughts of the shadow will kill me or that of the alpha.I am very close to hitting rock bottom and I can’t allow that.Also, alpha Lucien’s company is not that bad, especially when you compare it to that of his son’s.“It has been okay,” I mutter, bringing the glass up to my lips though I don’t take a sip, I don’t put it back down either which leaves it hovering awkwardly over my mouth.“That is good. I hope you’ve settled in easily.” There is curiosity in the man’s eyes and in that instant, I know there is more he wants to know and this is not just a friendly chat. This just shows me how I need to be careful around every one of them.No one is excluded. I’d been the one reminding Asher we weren’t allies,
