"Sir, so how can he read and write if he doesn't know the alphabet?"
"Yeah. How can he spell out his name?"
"He can talk but he can't write?"
The questions from the class erupted again as Justin explained what is the learning difficulty disorder called dyslexia. As they talked upon the story, Justin shushed them softly and the noise calmed down a bit.
"He needs to get therapy. It costs a fortune, so his mother, Jane, cannot afford it. How can they sustain their daily needs if you will have to add it on? The question is, how can Justin survive from being like that forever?" Justin asked the children.
***
THE YEAR 2005
"How much is the therapy, doc?" Jane asked while darting her eyes from Justin to the doctor sitting across her.
The doctor sighed and said, "You can receive special treatment for him for a one to two hour time from teaching professional. It costs about 4,000 pesos per hour. If you want to go for therapy for him, it would cost at least 8,000 pesos per day."
Jane widened her eyes and gasped. She can't believe how it is so expensive for them. Her job as a housemaid in Sy's mansion was not enough. She got paid 5,000 pesos per week on that house in exchange for her service, no more than that. Justin's supposed therapy for his dyslexia is much higher than her salary.
"I-it's... i-it's so expensive," Jane stuttered as she locked her gaze towards the doctor.
"I know, ma'am. But you can have an alternative, if you can do it, maybe Justin will get better a little bit," the doctor said. As the doctor explained the alternative therapy for Justin that Jane can do at home, she cannot focus on it. She is anxious about Justin being labeled as a kid without knowledge of the language they are talking about.
"... and as you can see, ma'am, you have to do this for Justin," the doctor finishes his explanation about the alternative therapy. Jane nodded as if she understood it even if it is not, and said a thank you. The doctor wrote the summary on a clean piece of paper and gave it to Jane. Jane bowed as she received it and said thank you again.
When their appointment had ended, Jane hustled Justin and they left the office of the doctor. She held Justin's hands as she pressed the elevator button that was going down to the first floor and waited.
Justin looked at her and asked, "Mom, what did the doctor say?"
Jane looked at him and said, "He said, you look healthy. You should eat more apples."
She smiled as Justin giggled by what his mother said. She caressed Justin's cheek as the elevator door opened and they squeezed inside. The elevator is packed with people, so Jane gripped Justin's hands tightly. In a matter of seconds, the elevator door opened and everyone went outside to different hallways of the ground floor.
When the two are walking towards the cafeteria to get something to eat before going home, someone grabs a hold of Jane's arm and the person faces her suddenly.
Jane is holding Justin's hand as she saw that the one who gripped her right arm is Stan!
"Jane," Stan said. Jane opened her mouth and gasped. She furrowed her eyebrows as she fumed. This is the time again they saw each other after 3 years of separating.
"What are you... doing here?" Jane asked furiously.
"How are you?" Stan asked hastily. Jane locked her eyes to Stan's like the tears brimmed in it.
"Fine... after you left, "Jane said sarcastically.
"Jane," Stan pleaded.
"Please, Stan. Don't ever show up right in front of our noses. It's not funny," Jane said. As Justin looked at Stan, he didn't recognize him so he shook his mother's hands.
"Mom, who is he?" Justin asked as Stan looked at him longingly. Jane shifted her eyes and glanced at Justin.
"Justin, it's just a stranger who asks for direction, hm?" Jane said quietly. Stan closed his eyes and looked the other way as Jane said that to their son.
Justin nodded and waited for them to wrap up the talk.
"Jane, I just want to see Justin," Stan mumbled as tears dripped down his cheeks. Jane shook her head and gripped Justin's hand close to her waist.
"Mark my words: You will never see him again," Jane said, infuriated, and turned her back suddenly. Justin followed and just stayed quiet as Jane looked upon the sky so as not the tears to fall down her cheeks.
'I miss you, Stan. But I cannot forget what you did,' Jane said in her thoughts.
***
"Justin didn't recognize his father at that time. He was only three years old when he was kicked out of the house, and he was left alone with his mother. His grandfather joined them, and Justin's condition is getting a lot worse than Jane never imagined," Justin said.
***
THE YEAR 2005
"Dad, can you please teach Justin the letters 'K' to 'O' now? I need to go to Sy's mansion immediately. The head maid will be furious at me," Jane shouted from the bedroom while she is still prepping up for work.
"When will you be back?" Jordan asked her.
"I don't know, Dad. Anyway, it is just a ride away from our house. It's not much longer than that," Jane said as she put some essentials on her backpack. The year 2006 is getting closer, and Justin will turn 7 at the time January hits the calendar. She picked up the square metal case that holds her savings and counted it.
"Jane, don't exert your body much further. It's okay for me living like this," Jordan said then approached her daughter. Jane counted the money as she glanced at his father.
"Dad, I'm saving up for his birthday. And I thought we could enroll him in a private school for him not to be late," Jane said. Jordan sighed.
"Jane, we both know what Justin's condition is," Jordan said.
"Yes, Dad. But he is... he is improving, right? He can now say the basic alphabet. He can now read aloud with the letters being apart. I thought we could give it a try," Jane explained then she sighed exasperatedly.
"Jane, when was the last time you two visit a doctor?" Jordan asked his daughter. Jane got speechless by that and just sulked her shoulders down.
"It's my opinion for my grandson to be checked upon a professional. Instead of saving up for his birthday, Jane, why not save up for cheap therapy for him?" Jordan asked.
Jane shook her head and said, "It's obvious, Dad. I can't afford it."
"You can use the money you saved up for his birthday in his therapy. Jane, you are a mother now. I understand the pain you are going through," Jordan said.
The tears fell into her cheeks and looked at his father. Jordan held out his left arm and steadied himself on the cane supporting his balance as Jane approached his father. She cuckooed her head into his father's chest like a baby and howled.
"Why does Justin have to live like that, Dad?" Jane asked her father while crying.
"God knows, Jane. He will not grant it to us if he knows we can't survive it," Jordan said as he soothed his daughter's hair. Jane cried and cried until her eyes got puffy.
***
"Sir, why does his mother want to save up the money for his birthday, not for his therapy?" One child asked Mr. Ramos.
"Because... Jane missed Justin's joyful look whenever he celebrated his birthday. Everyone is happy with their birthdays, but Justin's celebration is different. When his father left the house, Jane never saw it again. And that is one thing she wished to see again, Justin's lovely smile," Justin told the class.
***
THE YEAR 2006
"Happy birthday, Justin!" Jane and his father, Jordan, surprised him. Justin smiled slightly as he observed the cake on the center table with the number 7 in it. His smile vanished as he tried to recognize that figure on the birthday cake.
Jane looks longingly towards him, waiting for that lovely smile to arrive. But she didn't see anything. Her eyes felt droopy as she looked at his father. Jordan smiled sadly and shifted his eyes towards Justin again.
Justin pointed slowly at the number on the birthday cake as Jane and Jordan's eyes followed where he was pointing.
"What... what is that, Mom?" Justin asked.
"Huh?" Jane asked back as she realized that Justin was pointing at the number standing at the top of the cake.
"What is that figure, on the cake?" Justin asked while he was still looking into it.
"Justin, it's a number. I taught you that, right?" Jane asked him.
"No... I don't recognize it... Mom, what is it?" Justin asked while shifting his eyes from the number and looked at his mother. Jane froze at her place and was unable to move from it. She looked at his father. He also had the same reaction to Jane.
"Justin, didn't you recognize the number 7?" Jane asked while waiting for her child to respond.
He shook his head and held it. Jane's tears are on the verge again as she realizes that Justin is not getting better, as opposed to what she thought.Jane took a step back, gasping, her breath quickens as she realized that Justin is not normal towards other kids. She swallowed constantly and looked at his father."No, no. Why?" Jane said over and over again quietly. Jordan held out his arms, and Justin looked at his mother, puzzled by Jane's actions. Jane put her hands over her mouth, howled, and ran upstairs. Justin's eyes followed her until it was out of his sight."Grandpa, what is happening to mom?" Justin asked his grandfather. Jordan approached him and patted his head. He licked his lips and said, "She is happy to see that you are a 7-year-old kid now.""Really, Grandpa? Why is she crying?" Justin asked."It's okay, Justin. Your mom is just so happy today, hm? Don't worry about it," Jordan said to his grandson. Justin nodded as he looked on the stairs again, confused.Meanwhile, Jane burst the master's bedroom door open. She slammed the door closed and felt the tears pouring continuously out of her eyes. She looked into the thick mattress, the one she shared with Stan for 4 years and glared at it furiously."It's your fault, Stan. It's that damn cheater's fault," Jane mumbled angrily to herself while weeping. She put her arms around her knees, bowed her head into it, and felt her shoulders shaking."Justin, my baby. He will not be normal," Jane mumbled while her lips quiver. She sobbed over and over again. She cannot control the tears from coming. Someone knocked on the door, and she had no strength to open it."Jane, Justin is so worried for you," Jordan said through the door. Jane cried silently."Please, Dad. I want to be alone for now," Jane mumbled. She is sure that his father heard it."I will explain to Justin. Come out after you have gotten better," Jordan said. Jane heard the rustle of the feet and knew that his father left the door. She cried again and felt that it will not end.
***
"Little did they know, he had another condition. Another learning difficulty disorder that causes problems in an individual's ability to learn number-related concepts, perform accurate math problems, problem-solving, and perform other basic math skills. It is called 'Dyscalculia'," Justin elaborated.
"So, sir, where did he get it?" One girl asked.
"As for Justin, he is a kid who was born with it. So we may say, in science terms, that his condition is inherited either from his father's or his mother's family," Justin answered.
"How did the story go?" One boy asked from the back of the room.
"We just started, children. The rising part of the story is beginning," Justin said.*** THE YEAR 2006 "What are we doing here, Jane?" Stan asked his ex-wife. Jane held the cup of coffee tightly and looked at him. "I need to say something to you. About Justin," Jane said. Stan listened intently to what Jane said. Justin, who is a 7-year-old kid now, is suffering from his rare condition called dyslexia and dyscalculia. Dyscalculia, which is also called 'math dyslexia', is a learning difficulty disorder on counting numbers and solving mathematical problems. "About what, Jane? What is it about Justin?" Stan asked and locked his stare to Jane's eyes."Stan, Justin is suffering in a rare condition called dyslexia. And now, he has dyscalculia," Jane said quietly. Stan widened his eyes and gasped. "Dyslexia? What is that? And dyscalculia, what is... what is that?" Stan looks confused by what Jane said. "Dyslexia is a learning difficulty disorder. Justin cannot read, write, and even spell out his name. I used the alternative method, but he should be in therapy. A special
*** THE YEAR 2006 "I don't want to be with him that brings so much pain to us. The unbearable pain that Mom cannot overcome," Justin mumbled while his back is facing his Grandpa's. The door opened silently, and Jane peeped with her one eye and saw that his father was talking to his son while laying down. Jane saw that Justin was covering his whole body with the comforter. Jordan looked at the door and sighed. Jane's tears fall once again, her eyes were now puffy. Jane decided to open the door wide and entered. She sat down beside Justin who is covered with the comforter and put her left arm on top of it. Jordan patted her daughter's shoulders, brought his cane, and went out of the bedroom. "Justin," Jane called out to her son. Justin didn't even make a noise, but Jane heard him sob. "Justin, tell me why you said that to your father," Jane said softly. She removed the thick comforter slowly and saw that Justin is crying on his pillow. Jane sighed. Jane patted his back, lay down, a
*** THE YEAR 2007 "Dad, I will bring Justin with me. Are you okay alone here?" Jane asked while slinging her bag onto her shoulders. Justin zipped up his jacket and wear his small backpack with his toys inside it. "Yeah. Don't worry about me, Jane. Go ahead," Jordan said and stood up. He hugged his daughter with one arm. Justin hugged his grandfather tightly then Jane hustled him outside of the house. They are going to the Sy's mansion, and Jane thought that it is good for Justin to take a breath outside of the house. Jane's work there in the mansion is going pretty well, she has been a housemaid for 5 years now, and the payment gets higher based on her length of service. There are several housemaids serving the family of Sy, and Jane is one of them. Justin, however, stuck in the house all day, and even if he tried to read countless times, memorize the basic alphabet, tried to count numbers, his dyslexia and dyscalculia hinder him from learning that simple thing. Justin stayed th
*** THE YEAR 2007 Inna held Justin's hand as she guided it towards the kitchen to drag him along with her. Justin looked through his mother who is walking fast towards the other hallway and out of his sight. He looked down and shifted his eyes again towards Inna. Inna looked at him and smiled. "Where are we going, Inna?" Justin asked her while they are walking towards the wide kitchen that holds a 10-chair white, porcelain dinner table, a kitchen counter, the upgraded and high technology appliances that he made him amazed by the richness of the Sy. "Just stay here at the kitchen, hmm. I will help the cooks out there," Inna said when they stopped at the entrance of the kitchen while she was crouching down. Justin nodded at her even though he didn't understand why he would be all alone in the kitchen of the Sy's mansion while the cooks are roaming around the counter, cooking different cuisines for the family. Justin observed the cooks, maybe some of them are multi-awarded chefs beca
"Do you think that it is correct to answer and retort back to your parents disrespectfully?" Justin asked a moral question for the children to reflect on in their attitudes towards their Values Education subject today. He raised his hand, waiting for someone to answer his question. "I guess, your parents taught you to be respectful. The Philippines are known for their courtesy and family virtues. And every Filipino kid respects the elderly especially the parents who will sustain your needs even if you grew up to be a man or a kid," Justin discussed the statements. He waited again for someone to respond, and now, another kid raised his hand. "Yes, what can you say?" She stood up, and answered, "Because if we become disrespectful when we are kids, we are going to grow up with that kind of attitude." Justin nodded slowly, absorbing the answer of the kid who is alike with some teenage lady who will become an adult soon because of her mature response, and smiled. "Thank you so much. Yo
***THE YEAR 2007 "Don't worry. Everyone is living with sadness. Happiness can be a rose full of colors in one moment, but as time passes, the petals fall one by one, wilted and sagged as the joy faded," Marian said thoughtfully to him. Justin observed how mature she thinks for her age. He thinks that Marian is the same age as him, but he can't count numbers so he wouldn't know. It is better not to ask about it, Marian can judge him for who he is. "Don't you want to say something?" Marian asked him a couple of minutes after they observed the trees while still standing up in the narrow street. Justin looked at her and stuttered. "I... I don't want to say anything," Justin said quietly. Marian chuckles and looked down. "C'mon, why are you crying?" Marian asked him again. Justin locked his gaze and battled with himself on whether to say it or not. What if she finds out that he can't read, he can't write and he can't spell, even count numbers? As he was about to say something, someone
*** THE YEAR 2008 Danny grabbed his shirt, and with a huge impact, he pushed Justin to the bookshelf. The books fell from the upper compartment and rained down on his head. One by one, the books slammed through and Justin felt the pain as his body drooped down on the floor. He sat down and glared at Danny while his vision gets fragmented because of the tears. "Don't ever punch me again, huh?" Danny said while still nodding and his mouth is opening slightly. He is breathing heavily now and wiping the little blood that came from the bruise on the side of his mouth and sat down on the bed. Justin held his head, smoothen his hair, and felt the pain from the books that fell upon him. He swallowed while controlling his sobs to come out in a loud noise as he pants. Danny just lay down and closes his eyes. He smiled like a maniac as the door opened and Jane emerged. Jane ran over to Justin and saw that he is crying silently. She glared at Danny as he got up from his king bed and just grim
***THE YEAR 2008"Okay. Let's just ask who the hell punched you?"Hazi asked Danny seriously. He just narrowed his eyes and think."You know, we are the King's Guild, your guild. We can avenge you, Danny," the kid with the glasses said as he smirked.Danny shrugged again his shoulders and smiled like he knew what he will do to Justin."Why not, we talked to him formally but scary?"the kid with his hands inside the pockets of his jacket suggested it to Danny. He put his hands underneath his chin and remembered his name."The one who punched me might not do well with talking, you know why, guys?"Danny asked and looked at the kids. The three got confused and waited for him to answer something."Because he can't read and spell out his name, that is why," Danny said then cackled. The three
***THE YEAR 2019, one month after Jordan Mendoza died.The engagement party for Danny Sy and Marian Aguinaldo.The golden brushes were laid down on the dressing room of Marian as she was sitting down on the couch, with her hair fixed up in a bun. She was looking at her bare face at the reflection, and melancholy music was playing over the speaker by the side. She was at the dressing and vacant room of the Sy's mansion, waiting for the makeup artists, who will be painting her face to make her glamorous.Marian stared back at the grieving eyes looking back at her. This was it. The time she would be marrying someone she doesn't want to be off. She just wanted a happy life, wherein she could decide what will happen to her life. She sighed as she glanced at the door, it opened, and someone came inside.She was holding a black bag in her hand. She was als
***THE YEAR 2019, the burial of Jordan MendozaPaul was left alone on the side of the hallway as Marian stood still and averted her eyes towards the other way. She sighed as she looked down at her feet and she doesn't know what to feel. She had never experienced being without parents or something, but for ma'am Jane, she lost them both."I never thought that the smile I will never see was with my father," Jane shook her head as she glanced the other way and she cried while Danny was looking up from his seat. He saw the name of Jane's father as he heard weeping on the other side."That was when the time I saw him smile 2 months ago... it took so fast for me to realize that it was the last smile I would ever see from his lips," Jane cried as she closed her eyes tightly and she remembered the time when she had to undergo that crisis once aga
***THE YEAR 2019, the burial of Jordan MendozaJane was wearing a collared ivory shirt, while she was holding the marble and gray jar close to her chest, as she walked down towards the hallways. The maids from the mansion were also there, paying their condolences and wishing that the soul could rest in peace after it had been buried. The emotions were clear from her face as she walked very slowly, while Justin was holding a white rose in his hands. He was behind his mother, as he looked down and the tears trickled down once more. Marian was also there, and she had been perceived to be there when she knew that Justin wouldn't have someone to lean closer to. She looked the other way as Jane walked past ahead of her while sobbing. They stopped in front of the priest in the hallways and bowed down their heads. The chrysanthemums and orchids were lined up on the table as the priest held onto the microphone han
***THE YEAR 2019, the results of Birschet International School had been released, 2 months afterDanny pursed his lips as he stared down and Hazi was doing the same thing. Paul huffed an air as he pocketed his cell phone on the pockets of his coat and he glanced at the building. He walked towards the porch as he stepped on the front lobby and said, "Let's go."Paul was the first one to walk ahead as he breathed out. His son was puzzled about his rush and he knew that his father was so worried about his nanny. Danny followed suit as Hazi turned his heel around also and they rushed to get through the lobby. Paul was the first one to press the buttons on the side. He ran towards the steps and he was rushing as he placed his hands on the buttons as he waited for his son and Hazi to come inside.Justin was sobbing as he wiped the tears and stood up fr
***THE YEAR 2019, the results of the Birschet International School had been released, 2 months afterDanny huffed some air as he said, "What are you doing over here? I thought you had to take a guard with both Justin and Marian."Hazi didn't answer any about it and he knew that he had to unfold what happened in the last two months after the arranged marriage plan. They don't have anything to do with the arranged marriage and Marian's mother had a knack to still push what happened on that established plan. Danny and Hazi took some time to delved into the silence in between them. He sighed as he glanced the other way and knew that he had to ask what happened with the plan."Marian's dream to be a professor at Birschet International School is now coming true," Hazi was the first one to initiate the topic as he knew that Danny would like to keep his mouth shut tight
***THE YEAR 2019, the results of Birshcet International School had been released, 2 months afterJane let Marian grasped her arms on the bench while she sat down on the bench. She swallowed as she wiped the handkerchief on her face while the tears were streaming down on her face. She glimpsed at the doors shut tight as she knew that her son was now inside the morgue. Marian looked at her worriedly as she pursed her lips while she glanced out of the way. She bit her lip as she looked the other way.Justin halted abruptly in his place as the doctor removed the blanket over his head. He bowed down his head completely as he glanced the other way while still huffing some air over his mouth. He saw how blue his skin now was, the white hairs were still on his hair, not moving, his feet were now parallel with one another, and his chest was not breathing up and down.Justin walked
***THE YEAR 2019, the results from Birschet International School had been released, 2 months afterDanny swallowed as he glanced at the other way and soothed both of her arms with his hands. Jane sobbed as the doors finally opened and someone came out from there. He was wearing a surgical mask and a blue uniform. He wore off the mask from his mouth and glanced at the people outside. Danny whispered to his nanny that the doctor finally came out and Jane quickly stood up from her seat. Justin also did the same thing as Hazi and Marian followed suit. Jane glanced at the doctor as she placed her hands on her chest while asking, “Can I see my father now?” The forensic doctor nodded as he instructed something while Jane was nodding her head. Only one can come in inside the morgue as the doctor said that they should wait for minutes. Jane hurried inside while the tears we
***THE YEAR 2019, the results of Birschet International School had been released, 2 months afterJustin was surprised by her touch that Hazi looked away suddenly. Justin grabbed a hold of her wrists and smiled at her. He put it down on her sides while Marian’s inner brows were raised. She swallowed as Justin turned his heel around and didn’t have the time to speak any more words towards Marian. Hazi was left alone with Marian as she smiled at him. “Let’s go,” Hazi said simply as he followed Justin inside. Marian pursed her lips and followed Hazi behind. Meanwhile, Danny was sitting down beside Jane now on the outside doors of the morgue, still waiting for them to be summoned and enter the room as soon as possible. Danny sighed as Jane was still weeping beside him. Danny turned his head towards her while he swallowed and said, “Everythin
***THE YEAR 2019, the results of Birschet International School had been released, 2 months afterJustin was left alone at the swing while remembering that scene. He placed his fists on the sand while he punched it over and over again but the pain won't go aside from his heart. He shook his head as he finally sat down in a curling position while he howled in the center."Grandpa... why?" Justin asked himself in a crying voice while he propped up his arms wrapped around his knees while he cuckooed his head in between. He was surprised with what he did but he knew that he couldn't know what he will do. The thunder cracked together with the lightning on the clouds while he was still sitting down on that sandbox. He doesn't care if he will be soaked with sweat or rain now, he just knew that he was in pain, and he couldn't move. He felt numb, resentment over the one that was ru