♡ Mia's pov ♡Colby's eyes are wide. Practically like globes honestly. And they were filled with disbelief, shock, terror and confusion."You're joking? Is it April fools or some shit? Because Mia girl, you can't blow up my mind like that, it's way too early for this shit." Colby lets out in one breath.I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, sighing as I rose to my feet. "Unfortunately no, it's not April fools. Nor are we even in the month of April. I'm not kidding Colb, I've been feeling sick for a few days now."I flushed the toilet while my best friend looked at me like I was some kind of ghost.Was I pale?I opened my mouth to ask him but he beats me to it. "Does he know?"His question completely took me off guard even though I should have expected it.I looked away from him guiltily and sidestep him to walk to the sink. I hear his exaggerated breath behind me and cringed knowing he was about to throw a fit."Oh my God Mia! You didn't tell him?! Are you crazy? He deserves to k
♡ Mia's pov ♡Plop.My eyes widen.Oh no."Mia. What was the sound of that? Did you take a dump or?" Colby's voice cracks through the door.I winced, turning around slightly to stare at the toilet bowl. Floating and looking ready to drown in the water was one of the pregnancy tests.I managed to have caused it to slip from my fingers when trying to pull up my jeans. It was a bad idea to have been so close to the toilet in the first place.Now I was paying the price.With my jeans almost at my hips, thankfully I still had one test alive and in my grasp as I use the other hand to pull it up my jeans while backing away from the toilet."Don't get mad. But one of the tests is currently having the time of its life in the toilet bowl." I winced while speaking."You dropped them in the toilet!" Colby blasted in disbelief.I cringe. "I said one Colby. The other is safe....kinda." I pinched the test not wanting my fingers to touch where my pee had touched."Girl you better not drop the other.
♡ Mia's pov ♡"You didn't go to kill the baby did you?"I felt like I was zapped somewhere else, another reality, where no one spoke, not a single sound was heard, except for Brianna's voice.I looked around the room lost with my ears ringing.I must've heard wrong.Why else would everyone be so frozen?Why we're there no reactions or changes of expressions?Why was Kade so-I stop when my eyes fell into a blue storm. He was also frozen where he stood, his hand still plastered to the table, his gaze still on me, his face so...stiff.His eyes, on the other hand, they told something, they wanted to express something. But all I seem to get out of them was the look of confusion."Did you?"Her voice, was so acidic with false worry. So nasty.They pulled me out of that reality where I only saw frozen faces and threw me in another where the faces expressed different emotions.Confusion. Shock. Interest. Intrigue. And expectation. They were expecting my response.My heavy tongue gave me reli
~ Kade's pov ~ I paced in front of the room, raking a hand through my hair so many times that my scalp had begun to throb from the assault. "Calm down you're making me even more nervous." Colby voiced out, looking like he was about to throw up. I groan, tugging at the roots of my hair and turn to him. "Did you know?" I managed to wrench out of my throbbing throat. God, I was holding back tears and it only caused my body to feel like I was about to die. Every breath I took feel painful. Colby's brows pinch as he looks up at me from his seat. "Knew about what?" "Dammit Colby the least you could do is stop pretending that you don't know what I'm talking about!" I sneered. It was wrong of me to pass the frustration of the situation on him. But I couldn't help it. I needed to let it out. If I didn't I would suffocate. Colby winces and mumbles. " I only found out today. I was the one who made her take the test today and it came back negative. You must know she was going to tell you.
~ Kade's pov ~ I have never felt so anxious in my life before, so scared of the unknown, so terrified of someone else's words. Words that can change you, break you, tear you apart. This kind of fear was crippling. I can't seem to hear voices, the words going around me. I'm aware of mouths moving. I'm aware that something important was being said. Something I should listen to. And when my eyes shift from the doctor currently speaking to Mrs. Cross I knew that whatever was being said, wasn't good. I could see the pain in both their eyes, gleaming so strongly that I was nearly tempted to look away. Then Mrs. Cross's hand lift to her mouth in a gasp and I just knew the doctor had delivered the worst news ever. And perhaps it was that which prompted my ears to work again, to get the information I needed. Information I was sure would rip my soul." She might need a few days or months to cope with the loss of the fetus. Miscarriage is not an easy road to emotional recovery. She's young
♡ Mia's pov ♡Why?That was the question that kept swirling in my head over and over. The answer never came to me though, and I was sure it never will.I will never know why this had happened. Or why it had to. I would never know.My throat felt impossibly sore when I was done screaming. But I knew the reason I stopped was because I had no more voice left to scream. I had no more energy to even cry.No more tears to soak the pillow under my head.I felt cold, dead even.I didn't feel like myself anymore.And I feared that.....no one would be able to save me from the darkness that has chosen to swallow me whole.And maybe....I didn't want anyone to.I'm aware of the door reopening again, but I'm too lost in my sorrow to even turn around and see who has entered.It's only when I hear the warmth of my mom's voice I know it's her. "Mia baby," She started her voice cracking in grief.The sound made my heart throb."Twizzler...." Dad started and I clenched my eyes tightly, my heart shatteri
♡ Mia's pov ♡I lifted my shirt and turned my head to face the mirror. I brushed my palm over my flat stomach.It was odd to think that there was once a baby in there. A baby that was a part of both Kade and me.I blinked as I felt moisture in my eyes.It was crazy how the thought of being pregnant had scared me so much these last few days. I was so relieved when the test came back negative.So relieved.But now, I wish that I still had my baby in my womb. That I hadn't lost him or her even though it was too early to even tell what gender the fetus was.Finding out you were pregnant and then losing the baby, was gut wrenching. Painful. The most pain I had ever had to endure.I felt lost. Scared. Guilty for not being more careful. Guilty for being a failure.The door creaks open in my room and I drop the shirt quickly so it would cover my bare belly.The doctor cleared me to go back to school any day I choose. I didn't think I was ready for that yet. I don't think I was ready for all t
♡ Mia's pov ♡"Are you going to school tomorrow Kade?" Mom asked. Perhaps trying to cut the thick awkward silence we all were in. I had decided to try. At least show them I was trying to move on. Despite my earlier actions to wanting to be alone. Colby's words had latched into my mind, and given it took some time for me to realize pushing them away would do me no good, I was trying now. Kade dropped the spoon into the bowl. We were having soup today because Austin felt for it. "I'm not sure yet." He admitted and I felt his heavy stare on the side of my face. I brought the spoon filled with soup into my mouth. "I'll go when Mia goes. I want to be there for her- I dropped the spoon in the bowl roughly and it clicks loudly. It has the entire room going in silence. I glared at the bowl of soup. "Why?" I asked tightly as I fisted my hands on the table. "Do you think I'm some kind of damsel in distress? Do you think I need more pity stares? More painful stares?" I lifted my head to