Now that I thought about him again, I felt tears starting to form again. I’m mad at him for rejecting me even if I didn’t actually confessed to him, also because he is maybe the reason Penny is back. If she wasn’t back, my friend wouldn’t suffer. I get that Tess is an amazon girl and she is also fearless and a fighter, but she doesn’t deserve what happened. She doesn’t deserve the pain because, Penny is insane. And I…. I don’t deserve this pain given by Skylar because, I haven’t even confessed to him properly. That’s unfair. But, I’m not really confessing, since I was already rejected.
Maybe that is the thing about liking someone for too long. Liking someone for too long doesn’t mean they have to like you back too. And maybe, Skylar is really insensitive, he just said ‘stop liking me’ casually. Like it was a line from a movie and he wanted to try it to someone, and then he chose me.
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“Grandma, can I ask a question?” I asked.“What is it darling?” she smiled at me then, held my hand.I looked at her.“In all of the stories you told me up until now that I’m close to a grown up woman, I’m 17 now, if you’re missing it grandma. So, why does the girl in your story always die?” I curiously asked.I wonder why the girl in her story named Avis like mine, always dies. The happenings in the story changes, but the ending is still the same, I’m getting pissed off by that. “Because, she always chooses to save him. She always wants to save him.” She answered as she caresses gently my hands.“That’s how love works; you get to experience sacrificing your own happiness or even own life for the sake of your love ones.” She continued.“Is she
Vaughn walks until he reached beside me. “What are you doing here?” I asked him. “That should be my question. It’s past 1 A.M. and you are still roaming around outside.” He said, concerned. Then, he looks at Skylar. “What are you planning to do this time, Skylar? He asked to Skylar. “Just like what you did earlier.” Skylar answered with a grin in his face. “Stop it. She’s innocent.” Says Vaughn as he glared to Skylar. “Really?” Skylar smirked then glanced at my side. “If you are talking about me, yes I’m innocent.” I said to Skylar and there is still his smirking face. “I don’t think so.” He answered. He looks like he is enjoying this conversation because he is smiling to annoy me and Vaughn. “What?” I exclaimed. “Why do you have the necklace?” he asked. And the smile in his face is now gone. “What necklace?” I asked back. Now that he mentioned it. I roam my hands around my neck to feel m
“That is hilarious! I wish I was there! Oh my god! I missed every exciting moments that happened to you!” commented by Tess. She’s so happy even that she was stabbed yesterday. I don’t know why she still attends school today when she’s injured. Its lunch now and we’re here in a café talking about what happened last night and what I think about the two having a steamy romantic relationship between them. But, my mind is flying somewhere, so I cannot focus to Tessa’s comments after I told her the story. Early this morning, I woke up from a dream and there are tears on my cheeks again, but this time, my grandma was not there telling stories. Instead, I was there, I am the girl; I received a necklace, from a guy whom I don’t know, but he looks like Skylar. He has Skylar’s resemblance when it comes to eyes, nose and lips. Also, I feel like I’m the girl there in that dream, but I feel like it’s a different girl too. It’s so frustrating! I gently messed my ha
“Aren’t you gonna ask where I am going?” Penny asked. Well to be honest I don’t care where she would go. I don’t even care about her existence. “You’re still cold-hearted asshole god.” She commented. “And you are not?” I rebutted to her. She’s acting like she’s isn’t evil like me, I hate it. “Can’t you even thank me for travelling around this world just to find the balance, I mean the girl?” She asked. “Just go.” I just said and gets into my car then, drive away from her. It’s been hundred years when I exist here on earth and we still haven’t find the girl who is also called the balance. She is fated to be the balance of Dark which is me, and Light which is fucking Vaughn. If she was found first by Vaughn, and didn’t die for about three months after we had found her existence, then I will die, so I need to find her first to kill her so she can’t balance us and Vaughn will die. That is our fate. I kill the balance
I woke up from a loud bang from what I know is happening outside. After that, I heard a continuous shouting also from outside, from which I recognized a woman's voice and a man’s voice. I tried to remember what happened earlier, but I couldn't. I looked around the room and there's no special about it. I just found books, shelves, cabinets, and a long sofa, with the room’s gray motif, including gray bed sheet, pillowcase, sofa, and curtains. Just when I realized I wasn't in my own house. This isn’t Tessa’s room. There’s no room like this in Tessa’s house. Where am I? Did I just enter someone’s home without permission? Questions flooded my brain. All I remember is I was escaping from Skylar because of the embarrassment I did. I go down from the bed and wear the slippers waiting there. “You’re awake.” I look above to the person entered the room. I didn’t hear the door opened though. It’s Skylar. Why is he here? Wait… is this his f
I put the pen down as I stopped writing and remembered the pendant earlier. While looking at it earlier, I felt like something tugged me when I saw that thing. It made have goosebumps for a sec but I don't really understand why.I just brushed it off earlier and because of it, it made me quiet the entire time riding in Skylar's car. Skylar might have noticed it or he just don't careI just got home because when I wake up at Skylar, the school time is over, my mom is gonna kill me for sure. I walked up and tried to fix the things in my desk after I wrote something. That feeling still bugged me till now, and it's quite annoying actually.I lied down in bed and reached for the remote of my television in my bedside table. I should just watch some movies to ease my mind, since I'm done with my school works and other related stuffs.Horror movie seems quite nice; I think it can relieve my thoughts on the pendant if I watched some.
I must say, I felt like I’m in the other dimension with Skylar when we’re riding all the way from our house to Tess’, in other dimension where it’s only the two of us. The time we had together was so precious to me and magical even if it is just 15 minutes and we even didn’t talk. And that was the first time that I saw and hear him laugh. His laugh…..is so manly and addicting in my ears. I want to hear it every second!“So, what’s going on between you and Skylar?”I wish the time stopped so I could be with him for too long. Then, I remember Vaughn. Was there really going on between them?“Earth to Avis!” shouted Tess to me and claps her hand in front of my face.I slightly jump on my seat because of what she did. We are sitting here in her bed in her bedroom. It’s been 1 hour since Skylar drop me off here in Tess’ house.“What’s your problem?!” I shoute
Beach.I parked the car on a vacant lot next to the beach guardhouse and proceeded to check in too. I can hear on my back the sound of Skylar's closing the door. The whole ride was honestly so quiet, maybe because he is angry that he bump his head or something, although Skylar is really silent most of the time."Kindly sign your name here, Miss." The attendant said. I told what is told and quickly glance at my back. Skylar was at my back, both of his hands on his pocket.I proceeded to go in and sit on a bench after he also checked in the beach counter area. I kept thinking about what happen to Skylar and to that guy earlier. What was it though?It felt so suspicious. It made me curios now somehow.I felt his presence and saw that he sit next to mine. He just stared at the sea or the sky in front of us."What made you come here with me?" I ask, breaking the silence."Just bored." he slowly answered.I nodded.I glanced a
"So, uhmm," I started. I don't know if it's appropriate to ask because we just kiss then, we let each other fell for the moment together. And, lastly we confirmed each other's feelings. I felt my face heated when I remember our scene back up there, in the rooftop. "Hmm?" He hummed as he looks at me with question in his eyes waiting for me to answer. "Is this our first day that we're officially in relationship?" I finished. When I asked it, I looked on his side to see his reaction. He is looking in front, away from me when I saw him smiled and bite his inside cheeks. He then, holds tightly my hand and say, "Yeah, you can now mark this date on your calendar as our first day, and we'll celebrate monthsary and anniversary." He answered. I giggled at his answer. "You knew about that?" I asked. "About what?" He asked back as we turn to the left of the campus where the parking lot is located. "About monthsary and anniversary thingy." I an
I can feel my heart beating rapidly and unusually fast. I am currently in front of the stairs that will lead to the rooftop. It was still 5:50 pm but I don't know why I was early but I was also nervous to come inside. Skylar was so unusual these days and his actions make me either somehow hope for something or get mad. Those past moments make me actually hope for something, that being with him might be possible, but it all got discarded once i heard penny that I was ruining their relationship. Hearing it made me realize how pathetic I could be, it makes me feel embarrassed and somehow annoyed. I'm embarrassed of how I clung to that possibility, and also annoyed to myself. But now, seeing that note, it made me hope a little but I'm trying my best not to, he has a girlfriend, I couldn't be more pathetic than I was. “Stop it, Avis.” I whispered to myself and did a deep sigh. I looked up at the stairs in front of
I hate Monday’s. It’s the worst day of the week.I got up from bed and collected the papers I’ve left last night while printing it. Being a History major is hard yet exciting and I love it so much. I won’t give this up over mom’s plan for me in her company.I have a presentation later at Mr. Velenzuela’s subject. One of our terror prof, but he teaches well so it’s all good.***I arrived at school 15 minutes earlier before my class starts, so I’ll have time to prepare my presentation.“Hey, Lei,” I called our president in an organization where I joined at. We are also block mates in this subject, she majors in History too. “Can you help me set this up?” ask and points at the projector and my laptop. She went to me and I focused my attention on the papers I’ve printed. I’m gonna hand it out to my prof before I start the presentation.“It’s connected now, you can try it.” Lei look at me and smiled. “Thank you!” I tap her back to show my gratitude.The room is already getting fill up by
“Hey, Sunflower.” Dad called me, but I can’t seem to get my mind out of Skylar, Vaughn, Penny, the party…and the balance. I felt like I dreamed a weird one again last night, when I fell asleep with Vaughn on my side. The word that has been repeating in my dream is ‘balance’. I don’t get it. I’m so confused. And grandma was there in my dream again. “Sometimes dreams are warnings.” Words of Ms. Bailey whispered in my head. WHAT THE HELL! Why are this all problems adding up together?! I played the bacon in front of me as I remember Penny’s words and it is hitting me like steak knives deep in my heart. So, Skylar and Penny is a thing. Then, why did Skylar do something like that? Why does he make me fall hard to him that I can’t ever get out?! I would be probably happy when the news was Skylar and Vaughn is a thing, not Penny and Skylar. I sigh. This is giving me a headache. Glad, it’s Sunday and I do
After the incident, I guided Avis to a private room to have her time. I led her to a sofa while the tears are still running down on her cheeks. She sat down. I can hear her sobs, I know that she is trying to suppress it but she can't. I sighed and hug Avis tightly, I can understand what she's feeling and I felt so sad and angry for what is happening now. I took some water from the pitcher and poured a glass of water to her. I gave it to her and she reached it, her hands are shaking. I sighed multiple times seeing Avis in this state. It somehow also makes me sad for her. She was still shaking and looks so confused but she's trying to conceal it. Avis don't deserve this, she deserves the best but why is she receiving shits like this? "Try to rest, Avis. Don’t worry, I will protect you here." I pat her head and wipe those tears from her cheeks. She nodded and tried to lie down on the sofa. I fixed the cushions on her side and fixe
I both looked at Vaughn and Skylar, all of them looked good and dashing tonight. "All right! So..shall we go inside?" I both asked them because the air kinda feel intense for some reason. I was about to turn my back when a rushing person suddenly jumps at me and clanged it's full body to my neck. Of course, it's Tess. Because I can't fully grasp the sudden situation, it resulted for me to have an out of balance and fall to the ground, of course, with Tess on top of me. "Aviiiiiis! My wifeeeeey!" She hugs me tightly after we got up. "Can you please inform me that you are gonna do that? I nearly had a heart attack. “I said to Tess and she laughs. "I'm sorry, I thought the boys will be there to catch you," she smiled to me and intensely takes a mad stare at both Vaughn and Skylar. "Kidding! Come on in, guys!" She said to boys and she proceeds to link her arms to me, resulting for me to be dragged towards inside the house. Both Vaughn and
I’m finally done! FINALLY! I lean on the back of my seat and stretch my arms widely. I noticed that Skylar is still here on my side, sitting, and he is quietly sleeping resting head on the top of the table. I thought he gone home. I checked my phone to check the time. It’s already 10 PM. Did he actually wait for me? Wow… he is seriously not his usual self tonight. I felt a little happy and contended that he is now talking to me, but still anxious on why he suddenly avid me for past few days. Should I ask him later? I lean closer to him, focusing my eyes on every detail in his face. Why does he look so perfect? He looks so peaceful and like an angel when he is sleeping. I rest my head on the table while still staring at him. This is the longest time I’d stare at him. I move my hand closer to him as I touch his hair that falls in his face. The features of his, I’ll memorize it. His eye lashes that is
"Oh, Skylar..." I slowly said as I saw him. He looks at me with something within his eyes and I can feel goose bumps for no reason. He pulled the chair next to me and sat. I just remained silent and quickly wipe off my tears. "I'll just give this back to you tomorrow," I said, pertaining to his handkerchief. "Tough day?" He asked quietly. I just nodded to him. I closed my eyes for a second because I just realized that he always caught me always in my pathetic state, just why?! And why was he here? Didn't he keep on avoiding me since the beach day? "What makes you come here?" I asked with a low voice. I started to open again the books and proceed to continue my work. "You," he said. I abruptly stopped writing when I heard what he said. My heart skipped a bit and tried to recall if I did hear it correctly. I look at him and I could see him trying to scan some of my paper works that are neatly stocked on th
Arghh! I’ll never drink alcohol again on weekdays. Wrong move Avis. Your stupidity nowadays is hilarious that someday you'll die because of it, Avis! I just finished my afternoon class and I badly need to library because I have a lot of school works to finish today since I’m half day absent yesterday. I should’ve been on my way to home now, but I think I’m gonna overtime because of the stupidity I did yesterday. I also haven’t called or talked to Tess about her plans tomorrow Saturday about her birthday plans. I didn’t also have the chance to eat lunch earlier. I’m hungry, I think I’m gonna cry. I entered my library card and walk over to Ms. Bailey. “Good afternoon!” I said, showing her my most beautiful smile. Please, don’t remember it! Please! Please! “Where’s the book?” she said then remove her gaze on mine and focus on organizing the books on her desk. “I forgot it.