“Please.. don't be mad at me” she helpless uttered at inabot ang laylayan ng sleeves ni Cairan upang hatakit eto She was so cautious, feeling nya kasi ay anytime baka magalit sakanya lalo si Cairan, she's scared na baka masira ang kung anong meron sila pag nagalit eto…Napansin naman eto ni Cairan at nanlambot ang puso nya, she was really anxious.“I’m not angry or mad, you don't have to be cautious of me” he uttered and reached out at her to rub her hair.“Hindi ako sanay na cautious ka sakin, I want you to be comfortable with me, always” dagdag pa ng binata.Matapos nang halos ilang oras ay nakarating na sila sa gate ng village nila, as always hindi na pinasok ni Cairan ang sasakyan nya dahil sure syang hindi eto magugustuhan ng dalaga.After everything, Astria is still scared of them being caught kahit na wala naman silang ginagawang masama. Naiinis man si Cairan doon pero wala syang magagawa he can't force Astria in that matter.“Uhm… thankyou kuya Cairan for the ride and sa pagt
Habang sya laging may kung sinong buntot nang buntot!? This feeling is suffocating Cian, sanay syang malaya sya sa lahat ng bagay at lagi syang pinapabayaan ng magulang nya. Ngayon e halos idikit na nya ang sarili sa bahay nila, he can't leave, he can't raced or worse hindi nya mapuntahan ai Roxie dahil sa mga bodyguard na halos 24/7 nang nakabantay sakanya.All he can do now is walk around their neighborhood and still nakabuntot parin sakanya ang mga bodyguards nya.It's frustrating to him.Sobrang bored na bored sya at di rin sya makatulog dahil sa gulo nang utak sa mga nangyayari kaya naman napagpasyahan nyang maglakad lakad tapos ganto ang bubungad sakanya? He witnessed Astria coming out of that bastard’s car? what the fuck?Sobrang naiinis sya gusto nyang magwala at awayin si Cairan dahil how dare he use Astria to provoke him!? Gusto nya etong puntahan sa kotse neto at bulabugin para pababain but he can't do that.Bukod sa umalis na ang sasakyan ng binata bago sya makalapit ay…
“Ha! I really hate that side of yours, Cian. You always throw your troubles on me— I'm so done with this, I don't have any words to say anymore. It was you who made lolo Carlos get in the hospital, not me, Stop blaming me” lantang saad ni Astria sa binata saka tumalikod at tuluyan nang naglakad papalayo kay Cian. Si Cian naman ay masamang nakatingi sa likod ni Astria na ngayon ay unti unti nang dumidistansya sakany “Astria! You will regret this. Sure akong may masamang balak sayo ang bastardo nayon! Kung ayaw mo talaga sige, I'll just wait for you to come to me crying the shit outta you because of him!” inis pang sigaw ni Cian sa dalaga Napabalik tingin naman si Astria dahil sa sinabi neto “I won't, If he do betray me I will not crawl back to you! I won't regret anything, ikaw ba? Will you not regret choosing Roxie over your own family? Lalo na naospital si Lolo Carlos dahil sainyo, kaya mo bang piliin sya?” she sarcastically said at matatalim ring tumingin kay Cian. “Ha! talaga?
Kinabukasan, kahit na nahirapang matulog si Astria ay maaga parin syang ginising nang kanyang telepono. It's ringing non stop kahit na alas sais pa lamang nang umaga and she knows why it's ringing so loud. Ganito sya gisingin ni Roy, he won't step up on his room pero bubulabugin nya eto gamit ang telepono nya. Kahit tinatamad ay napilitan na lamang maligo ang dalaga at magbihis, pinapababa na sya nang tatay nya dahil ano mang oras ay baka dumating na ang mga Funtaveriá para pagusapan ang engagement nila ni Cian. She don't know what to feel, gusto nyang umayaw pero hindi nya kaya… she's so helpless. Ting. Her phone rings and vibrated again, nagtext ang dad nya at pinapababa na sya para salubungin ang mga Funtaveriá. Labag man sa loob ay wala syang magagawa, bumaba na lamang sya nang walang kabuhay buhay ang enerhiya. Hindi pa nagsisimula ang lahat pero feeling nya ay sobrang pagod na pagod sya, di rin mawala sa isip nya ang banta ni Cian— hindi nya alam kung may sinabi ba eto sa
“You're always with Cian all-day long and a lot of people knows about your childhood engagement dahil sa lolo mo kaya alam kong alam mo na ang pagiging malapit mo kay Cairan can cause some scandal and it's not good for Cairan, Cian and especially for you— you're a woman, i know you know how much important reputation is sainyong mga babae” dagdag pa neto at kitang-kita ang pagkadismaya sa mukha. Hindi naman makasagot agad si Astria, her heart is aching feeling nya ay nalaglag sya sa kung saang madilim na bangin. Gusto nyang sumagot, tumutol o idepend sarili nya pero hindi nya magawa, nanigas sya na tila ba isang bato. “Star…” pagtawag ni Odette sa dalaga kaya naman napaangat eto nang tingin “Talk to tita, You just happened to take that- I mean Cairan's car right?” pagsabat ni Odette at todo pigil sa sariling tawaging Illegitimate si Cairan. She can't blurted out that word infront of Cael kasi. Lahat nang atensyon ay ngayo'y nakay Astria. It's overbearing. Their stares pressed he
After hearing what Odette said, everyone in the room was stunned. Even Cian, halos hindi sya makapaniwala sa narinig, he never knew this. So... kahit pala umayaw si Astria sa engagement na ito ay kailangan parin nyang maengage? at hahanap sila nang bagong magiging fiancé nya!? What the hell is that!? Napakurap-kurap naman si Astria, feeling nya ay nakikita na nya ang lahat nang nasa harap nya. Hindi lang pala sya ang tila ba kulong na kulong sa ganitong situwasyon. Even Cian, he's not as free as she always thinks he is. Like her, his feelings and opinions aren't seen by his own parents. Kinokontrol nila ang lahat-lahat sakanila leaving them no choice but to do what they want. He needs to sacrifice for the sake of his family's reputation. While her… She needs to sacrifice for his father's company… kahit na ang tingin lang naman talaga nang ama nya sakanya ay isang tool or way upang mapalapit lalo sa mga Funtaveriá at magamit ang reputasyon nila para umangat ang kumpanya nya.
Matapos marinig ang mga tinuran ni Astria, mas mabilis pa sa alas kwarto kung papaano biglaang nandilim ang mukha neto at napayukom ng kamao. Napalunok si Astria dahil rito ngunit pilit nyang nilalakasan ang loob. She didn't do anything wrong, walang mali kung mamahalin nya si Cairan. It's not something to be ashamed of, sobrang tanga nya dati na kinakahiya nya ang koneksyon nya sa binata! “What the fuck are you saying right now? You're saying absolutely nonsense right now! Alam mong engage ka kay Cian Astria, wag kang magsinungaling sakin, I know how much you like Cian!” inis na sagot ni Roy sa anak. “No! not anymore, ayoko na nang engagement na to! I don't love him. Si Cairan ang mahal ko!” sagot naman ni Astria na halos naluluha na. Why did she realized it ngayon lang? those foreign feelings, those signs bakit ngayon lang gumana ang isip nya at i-recognize ang mga iyon. She's so mad at herself. “Shut up! anong mahal! I never saw you with him paanong mahal!? pinapaalal
“No! You can't stop me from meeting him! unless you break my legs!” inis na asik ni Astria sa ama na mas nagpasama ng timpla nang mukha neto. “What the fuck are you saying!? are you going to crawl papunta sa bastardong yon!? will you continue meeting him!? Astria babae ka jusko naman!? Wala kabang hiya!? ikaw pa ang lumalapit sa lalaki!?” inis na asik sakanya nang ama na halos mapatampal na lamang sa noo nya. Hindi makapaniwala si Roy sa mga lumalabas sa bibig ng anak nya, how can she be this rebelious. “I don't care! I will continue what we had, ayoko nang hayaang kayo ang kumontrol ng buhay ko! all my lifespan nagsunod-sunuran ako sain—” hindi na natapos ni Astria ang sasabihin nang makaramdam na lamang sya ng sakit sa kanang pisnge nya. Mabilis ang mga pangyayari, hindi nya namalayang nakalapit na pala sakanya ang kanyang ama nya at nasampal na sya. She was once again slapped by her own father. Her cheeks is red at naluluha ang mga mata ni Astria dahil sa hapdi at sakit. Masy
Hindi na nakapagpigil pa si Astella, she broke down and rushed towards Roy para paghahampasin eto, she didn't even care kung gaganti si Roy sakanya. Ang bawat hampas ni Astella ay talagang tumatama kay Roy, magaan lang ang kamay neto ngunit ang mga kuko ni Astella ay sumabit sa balat ni Roy dahilan upang magkasugat at magdugo."You! how dare you uttered those words! hindi lang ikaw ang nawalan Roy, ako rin. Anak ko rin yon! Wala kang konsensya! Hindi ikaw ang pinaka nasaktan rito, ako yon Roy, ako! I carried that baby for Eight months! Pero ano bang alam mo!? eh bobo ka naman. You kept looking down on Us women pero tingnan mo yang sarili mo ngayon Roy, samin ka umaasa— kaming ng anak mong babae, umaasa na isasalba namin ang kumpanya mo! then whose the useless here? You're relying on woman for everything now. Sinong mas walang kwenta satin?" puno ng galit ang mga kataga ni Astella at patuloy na hinahampas at kinakalmot si Roy.Nagulat naman si Roy sa inaasta ni Astella, she looks like
"Hindi naman, sabi nang doctor ay baka daw binubog sya because of her bruises and pasa sa mga katawan nya kanina nang icheck sya ng mga doctor, her face is swollen. Kaya naman may mga nainfect at namaga na mga sugat that cause her fever right now" Saad ni Cia at mariing napapikit, hindi sya makapaniwala na kaya ng tito Roy nyang magawa ang ganong bagay.Hindi naman makapaniwala si Astria.Don't tell me.... binugbog ni Roy ang mommy nya!? Hindi sya nakapaniwala, naaawa sya sa kanyang mommy...Wala na syang pake."Send me the location kung saan sya nakaadmit ngayon" tanging sambit na lamang ni Astria.Cian took this as an opportunity for her to unblocked him."Unblocked me first, isheshare location ko sayo" seryosong saad pa ni Cian.Napakunot noo na lamang si Astria, she knew that Cian is taking this happening as an opportunity to be unblocked, pero wala syang magagawa. She needs to go kung nasaan ang monmy nya."Okay" saad ni Astria at ibinaba ang tawag.Si Astella naman ay nasa isa
He really achieved a lot kaya proud na proud si Astria, ilang taon lang ang tanda sakanya ni Cairan pero napromote na eto bilang isang director."Got slam? what does it mean?" seryosong tanong ni Cairan at nakakunot pa ang noo.So cute, he's so clueless. Pigil ngiti na lamang si Astria dahil sa cuteness ng binata. Bahala sya mag-isip."You're a techy, Use your 4g Internet" pigil tawang saad ni Astria."I use 5g" sagot naman neto at napaseryoso, hindi ba tuloy nakapagpigil pa si Cairan at napatawa na lamang dahil sa binata.Gulong gulo naman si Cairan at hindi alam ang nangyayari sa kasintahan.Matapos pa ang ilang minuto ay huminto rin si Astria sa kakatawa "Sige na, baka malate ka pa sa pasok mo" pagpapaalala ni Astria at kinuha ang coat nya na nakasabit sa stand."Ah, oo nga pala" Cairan completely forgot na aalis pala sya dahil sa kasintahan.Kaya naman sinuot na ng binata ang coat nya at pumasok sa study upang kumuha ng ilang papeles na inuwi nya pati ang laptop ay kinuha nya rin
Astria woke up in her man's arm, napatitig nalang sya sa maamo netong mukha. After their talk na halos mag-iisang linggo narin ang nakalipas, their life began to be peace. It seems that they really communicate so well, ngayon ay halos malaya na sila, they even communicate when things get hard such as everytime na tinatawagan ng Psychiatric si Cairan because of his mom. Every time he go, sinasabi na nya sa dalaga... but still hindi pa sya neto sinasama and Astria understand why. He didn't want to shock her.And she respect that at hinayaang maging ready ang binata, she didn't rushed him.Anyway, simula din ng araw na iyon ay halos magkatabi na silang matulog dalawa gabi-gabi. Maybe their fight brings them closure to each other, kagabi kasi ay halos nagkwentuhan lang sila nang mga bagay bagay hanggang sa tuluyan na silang nakatulog."Done staring yet?" nagulat si Astria dahil lumingat lang sya para sana tingnan ang oras nang biglang magsalita ang binata at nagmulat ng mata.What!? he
He lift her up at dinala na kama.Kumalma naman sya ng ibinaba sya ng binata sa kama.Niyakap naman sya ng binata, hinalika ang kanyang noo, tungko ng ilong, at ang kanyang mga pisnge nang ilang beses ang ulit.Astria just stretched out her hands and touched the man's chest, dahil nga sa init kanina ay pinagpawisan silang pareho. Cairan's skin is kinda sticky from sweat but she didn't feel disgusted at all.It was the result of their burning love.She even leaned deeper unto his arms. Hanggang sa napahinto sya at tahimik na dumistansya papalayo sa katawan ng binata.He didn't seems to calm down yet.She's lost in thoughts ng magsalita si Cairan "You didn't belive me?" he uttered."No..." nag-aalangang saad naman ni Astria. She even bit her lips and for a moment, hindi na napigilan pa ang sarili at napatanong "Hindi ba uncomfortable pag ganyan?" pointing out about Cairans bonér."A little bit, but It's ok" sagot ni Cairan at ipinulupot sa dalaga ang kamay nya upang yakapin eto "Stop be
"It's done" he uttered at dahan-dahang nalakad papunta sa likod ni Astria "Ano bang sasabihin mo?"There was a rustling sound behind her earlier, as if a man was putting on clothes. Kaya naman nakahinga na sya ng maluwag. She concluded that the man is now dressed up, and was about to turn around.She was stunned.Cairan fooled her, hindi pa sya nakadamit at nananatiling topless... and ang worse ay ilang dangkal na lamang ang layo ng binata sakanya.Sobrang lapit... she can even feel his breathing!One deep breathe at amoy na amoy ni Astria ang binata, he's signature cool and woody scent is lingering into her nose."H-hoy! I-ikaw!" she stuttered so much, hindi nagpaprocess ang utak ni Astria dahil sa hiya, as if her brain stopped working.After lot's of courage, she finally turn around para tumalikod ulit sa binata at akmang bubuksan na ang pinto para makatakas sya sa napakadaring na posisyon nila ng nobyo...However, Cairan was fast. Nanotice nya ang balak gawin ng dalaga kaya naman a
Halos naiiyak ang mga mata ni Astria after realizing their miscommunication, she realized that both of them are really novice when it comes to dating. They have been walking on a thin ice and very very careful not to hurt each other... but those moves brings a miscommunication to them.They should have talked to that like what they're doing right now."You can always be here, I told you that already. My door is always open for you" he quickly said at lumapit sa kasintahan.He cupped her both cheeks at gamit ang hinlalaki nya ay pinunasan neto ang mga luhang tumatakas mula sa mata ni Astria."You can live here, Whenever you want, even if it's forever. No it's better if Forever nga" he uttered and softly planted kisses on her face "Well, kung ayaw mo naman rito sa hotel. We can buy a house?" suggest pa ni Cairan, napatango-tango nalang si Astria na puno nang luha ang nga mata.She's relieved that they fixed their conflict.Maybe in future, they will have a home together.After their he
But he can't do that, it will be their problem kung pipilitin nya ang dalagang dumipende sakanya. Tama si Astria, it was their first time being in love and things might get messy, even how to get along in intimacy might be new to them. they need to take their time to adjust for those foreign things. Matapos ang ilang minuto, nagsalita na si Cairan. "I don't think that you're useless or pabigat ok? All I need is you here with me, that's all enough" seryosong saad ni Cairan sa dalaga. He's always been alone sa halos di na nya mabilang na taon, he often feels lonely kahit na nasa madami syang tao o kahit nasa circle of friends nya sya. Those people na akala nya ang magiging closest persons or family nya ay sila pa talaga ang nanakit sakanya. For him, not leaving, abandonubg or giving up is already precious to him. Parang naiintindihan narin ni Astria ang lahat, on why he's cold earlier and now saying na all he needs is her with him. He's ok with everything hanggat magkasama sila.
Dahilan upang mapahinto si Cairan. She walked papalapit sa binata na ngayo'y tahimik. Astria took a deep breath tila ba naghahanap ng lakas ng loob. And then, She reached him and hug him out of nowhere.Nagulat naman si Cairan sa ginawa ni Astria, kaya naman ibinaba nya ang ulo nya and this time he spoke in a lower tone "What's wrong?"Astria just hug him tighter, her ears are against in his chest and she could clearly hear his heartbeat."I-I just want to hug you" she uttered in a soft voice, bihira lang kay Astria ang maglakas-loob at mag-initiate nang daring na bagay such us kisses or even hugs kaya naman hindi eto inaasahan ni Cairan at hindi agad nakareact.She felt very uneasy ngayon dahil sa mga pagbabago sa binata and she really want to do something to comfort him kaso ang problema lang talaga ay hindi nya alam kung papaano.Only hugging ang tanging naiisip ni Astria kaya naman, she hugged him tight so that she can make him feel better.Tahimik lang si Cairan nang halos ilan