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2024-10-29 19:42:56Destiny's POV
I sat by the bar taking another sip from my glass savouring the taste since I knew I was only allowed two drinks tonight, being that somebody had to be sober enough to keep watch. It was a sad and depressing reality to know that we as women had to be on guard even in the moments that were made for us to relax and let go.
The reality was even more depressing when you realized that no matter the situation the blame was always going to be shifted onto us.
My gaze went to my best friend Aliyah who was dancing in the arms of a man on the dance floor enjoying herself and even though I came to do the same thing my body was not up to follow through.
No matter how much I tried to avoid these situations I alwa
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