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Chapter 13 : He was so cynical
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When Laura was done doing my mom's make up, she left to go put her dress on. I took this time to tell everything that had happened with Eric. All the deeds, that I didn't feel proud about doing. She couldn't stop laughing because she said she couldn't imagine me sneaking around, when we were kids I sucked at it. Whenever we would steal cookies that were being baked by Mrs. Johnston for church events, I always made us get caught by either making noise or just being clumsy and banging my head on the counter. I told her I had mastered the skill as of now and she only hysterically laughed. "It's sexy, I suppose?" She said putting the finishing touches, I had my eyes closed so I couldn't exactly see her reaction. "What's sexy?" I mustered clearly confused. "Eric being able to speak Spanish, next time he fucks you... scream yes, papi chulo fuck me hard." Laura mimicked and I had never felt so embarrassed. "Papi chulo really? Pimp daddy?" I questioned."Yep, pimp daddy because he is very
Last Updated : 2022-07-21TROUBLED Chapter 15 : He was so cautious
4am. That's the time, Eric and I left the beach. I couldn't wait to hit my comfortable bed honestly. I was tired and worn out and my dress was wet. Eric had mischievously held me bridal Style only to have us both landing in the cold sea water. I told him, I was mad and wouldn't be forgiving him anytime soon but I'm about twenty minutes our lips were sealed together and our bodies entwined in every imaginable way. It was pure bliss, every moment with Eric was always blissful. When we got home, I saw both of my parents cars already parked. They were clearly home, I was twenty-five anyways and this is my life. Eric's I don't care attitude was rubbing on me. We quietly walked up the stairs careful not to make any noise. Now fluttering my eyes, everything was still a blur and I could hear my mom knocking. I panicked, thinking Eric was here but looking around he wasn't and I was dressed in his white dress shirt, reaching my knees. I had a blanket covering me with warmth. He had clearly
Last Updated : 2022-07-21TROUBLED Chapter 16 : He was so open
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Last Updated : 2022-07-21TROUBLED Chapter 17 : He was so inlove
I took the ride with my dad to the hospital, i was trying to avoid Eric. Remembering what he had said and the way things had turned out. I had to be content and accept that he was never mine to begin with and he would never be mine. He was Debby's it showed in the way he talked about her, the way his frown immediately turned into a smile. He simply adored her and she was one lucky girl. For a moment... I wished I was her.But as long as he was happy."You and Eric seem to have ironed it all out?" My dad said, I had been in deep thought that I didn't realize he had already parked at the hospital. "Yes, we did. Thanks dad, I think I understand him more now." I gave him a brief smile. "You don't seem happy?" He questioned his eyebrows furrowed. Ofcourse I wasn't, Eric was inlove with someone else and he had made it clear now I couldn't exactly smile at that, now would I? "I am happy, I just hate needles that's all." I muttered."You're a nurse darling, how can you hate needles." He ch
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My day was too good.Weird because I had only known Nicholas for just a day or just hours but I felt like I had known him forever. I didn't want to jump into conclusions and compare him to Eric or Robbie because fact is he had not made any advances or asked me out. He was just genuinely a nice fun person, I admired heat of imagination and mental excitement. When I said I was avoiding Eric... I really meant it. After I was done with my shift at five pm, I went to Laura and Sam's apartment. Sam was mad and grumpy because apparently I ruined another... session. I wasn't sorry about it, Sam was an ass and one way or another this was put back for all the times he snatched my bestfriend and made her not show any interest to hang out with me or call me because she was booed up. I mentally rolled my eyes at the thought, being friends with someone who is in relationship not just any relationship but a serious relationship is annoying. Sometimes I felt like hitting Sam with my shoes whenever h
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Last Updated : 2022-07-21TROUBLED Chapter 20 : She was so desperate
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Last Updated : 2022-07-21TROUBLED Chapter 21 : She was in denial
I purposely woke up earlier than her so i could watch her sleep and feel like the luckiest jerk in the world. She actually wanted me? This beautiful woman wanted me! She had not said it back as in 'Ich liebe dich' or 'I love you' but i respected that. I respected that she was still thinking about this as much as i was and figuring it out. Deep down, i knew this was just an excuse... figuring what out you may ask? I was well aware that i wanted Leona in every way possible but then there was Debby. My feelings for her were mutual maybe when i actually see her all my feelings will just come right back or not. Maybe not, maybe i just want to be with Leona then there's the thought that I felt this way about Leona because I was lonely? Felt needy? I honestly don't know. I was a confused cockroach and i was just dragging Leona into my pit of misfortunes. I am selfish enough to do that... selfish enough to not let her go be with someone who actually wants to stay with her... for as long as i
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TROUBLED Chapter 46 : They were so at peace
They stood stagnant in their position for what seemed like the longest time when it had only been merely been a few minutes. Eric felt patient, he knew it wouldn't be that easy but at least he was trying. Leona let out a sigh and stared back at him with her eyes just waiting to burst the dam of tears. She looked so vulnerable. "I can't—" she sniveled when a tear fell. "I don't want this anymore. It's not going to work. We always try and you always promise that it will but as soon as something comes up. You push me away and the only person you want is Debby. It hurts because whenever I feel down and sad... the only person I want is you but you don't want me. You don't love me. If you did you wouldn't have said what you said the last time we talked." She paused. Eric could feel the physical ache in his chest. A part of him didn't know if he should let her be from here on or if he continued pursuing her that would be some sort of harassment. "You told me that you wanted a new start and
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TROUBLED Chapter 44 : It felt so surreal
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