' Where am I?'
That's the first question that pops in mind after waking up and finding myself, in a very large bedroom. It looks manly that's for sure. I have never been in such a large room before and being here, is starting to freak me out, not knowing what I am doing here and where exactly am I.
I couldn't have fallen asleep, then I would have felt someone bring me here. I can only think of one thing, that I actually fainted. There is no other explanation for this or I wouldn't be waking up, in a strangers room.
And Lucia wouldn't simply allow that to happen, knowing that I would more then likely freak out.
Oh my gosh, Lucia.....Where is she?
As if my thoughts were heard, I hear the door suddenly opening and that's when I see her head peek in.
" Oh, you're awake. Good." She says so calmly, entering the room amd walking towards me.
She's way
He's been locked in his office for the rest of the day and I have been relieved by this. I certainly don't know what he was thinking bringing Ava here, when I could have looked after her at Mr Davies's home.Despite how uncomfortable I have been in his home, after being reminded of how things were between us. I simply can't pretend anymore and that is why, it's best that I leave for good after today.I can't be in the same place as him anymore, he's confusing me and the resurfacing memories are haunting me, more so the feeling of betraying the promise I made to myself, that I would never let him make me feel weak again.Glancing at a sleeping Ava, makes me sigh, knowing that after today, things will be different. I might never see her again and this time, I mean what I say. Mr Davies is being discharged tomorrow and it's a relief, that he is okay. His family is here and they will help him out, there is no need for me to be he
I had to do it. I had to finally tell the truth, well atleast most of it without the mention of his identity. I definetly wasn't protecting Mr Cullen but by not mentioning his name, it was my way of steering away from trouble.That man has troubled me enough and I don't need him on my case again, because I mentioned his name and caused any form of tension with his family. No, that night I walked out of that door, it was my own silent goodbye, my own way of putting an end to whatever game, he wanted me to be part of.When I'd returned home after seeing Colton, two days ago, I noticed that where Mr Cullen had grabbed on my arms, left some bruises and this pushed me more, into believing that not seeing that man again, is the right thing for me.Colton on the other hand was so expressive in his emotions, as he was listening to my story. He'd been upset about that day, when I'd told Mr Cullen about the pregnancy, and ofcourse, he
Am I dreaming?Jackson is kissing me right now.Woah, oh my gosh, Jackson is kissing me right now.When it really sinks in, I pull away, breaking the kiss first. Wide eyed, I nervously touch my now warm lips, trying to calm my racing heart." Jackson." I breathe out behind my fingers, not knowing exactly what to say or think." Skylar I -----" he tries to touch me, but I take a step back instead.His face falls and I look away." If things were different, I would have been the father of your baby." My head snaps to him when he says this.What in the world did he just say?" I would have said don't give her away and let me be her father."I open and close my mouth, trying to say someth
" I hope you and your dad talked things out, he was really hurt by how you acted towards him."" We talked mom." I sigh.It's in the late morning and I decided tovisit a few places, dropping off my CV. Now I am currently walking around town, having bought myself a nice milkshake." Am I boring you?"" No mom, you're not. So how are you doing?"" I'm okay sweetheart."" Is everything okay at work?"" Yes, I'm looking towards a promotion."" Wow mom, that's great news!" I say, feeling both excited and happy for her." Well, let's hope ----"" Mom, you deserve that promotion, don't doubt that. In fact, I'm positive that you will get it."" Thank you for your confidence in me."" I believe in you mom, you know I do."" You, believing in me gives me strength sweethear
The swelling had finally gone down yet a bit of soreness, still lingers. I'm just glad that I can use it much more than I did last night.I didn't sleep well last night because I had a lot in my mind, my body is still recovering from how uncomfortable, it was in that jail cell. I can't believe that Lucia and I actually spent a few hours in jail, but I don't regret defending my friend.Mr Sanders deserved it.What she had expressed though, while we were in that bar has come into mind, and I can't help but want to give the couple, a bit of space. I won't lie and say it didn't bother me, that Lucia would have such thoughts about me, being alone with Charlie.Oh what the heck, it kinda stung and my heart experienced a shot of pain. I would never think of letting myself be in such a position, or think of doing something so hurtful, being disrespectful to their love.I've been feeling guilty as I rep
I close my eyes for a few seconds, releasing a heavy sigh, when I hear my phone ring. It's not dad anymore, because he got the message loud and clear, when I ignored each and every one of his calls.It's mom now and I wish to do the same, that I did to him.But I can't.It's not her fault." Again Skylar? When will this end huh?"I think I spoke too soon." Mom -----"" I thought we were moving on, from all this. Skylar, your dad didn't do right years back, but he's here now. He's back and -------"" And it's only right that I accept him back in my life, as if nothing happened, right mom?"She sighs. " Skylar, we all talked about this. He gave you a chance to express everything, he listened, remember?"" Don't I have feelings mom?" I ask in a low tone, my throat tightening a bit." You do Skylar, don
He called me Peaches.Only he and I know, what he called me that night.Why do I still remember? Why did I put it into memory?" My name is Skylar."" Peaches. You are Peaches to me."" I am no one to you."" Wrong." He says this so fast, that I have to take a minute, to find my next words." I am your past."" Wrong again."An unintentional tear slips out." She told you, didn't she?" I finally ask, out of resignation." I remember."" No, she told you." I say again, not believing him." I remember, I remember you Peaches." He breathes out.My body tenses when I feel his lips graze my skin." G-get away from me!!" I wiggle out of his arms frantically, until he let's me go and I stagger back. " What do you think you're doing? Do you thin
I throw myself on the couch after arriving at my apartment. I am anything but okay but simply emotionally tired. I feel like I worked out, after releasing so much, of what I held inside.I am however, glad and relieved, to be back at my place, in my own space, where I can sum up my thoughts. I felt somehow suffocated at Jane's place, being around Mr Cullen.After all this time, he's always known about who I am, yet still, he always manipulated a situation , so he will see me. I don't understand why he would do all of this, why he won't let me go?It's not like we mean anything to each other but he treats it as such. We are both each other's past, and we should be doing everything possible, to put the past behind us, but no, he refuses.He is such a confusing man, seriously, and I know that being around him, will confuse me even more. One thing however, that has stuck with me, is what he said.H
4 Years later.... " Mommy!" I turn around at the sound of that sweet voice. I watch in anticipation as she runs to me, her long hair falling behind her. The moment I capture her in my arms, I bury my face in her hair, loving her sweet smell. " Hello my cutie pie." I say, double pecking her cheeks. Kissing her cheeks is still one of my favorite things to do. " Hi Mommy, look what I got." I place her back down on her feet, crouching down to her level, so we can look at what she has in hand together. " Oh, a gold star!" I gasp, widening my eyes in a surprised manner. " Ms Martin said my drawing is pretty." " I agree, it is so pretty. So tell me, who did you draw?" " My family." " Ooh, I see mommy, daddy, daddy C, granny and grandp
" Mrs Cullen." He says, pulling me close." Mr Cullen." I smile at him." My breathtakingly beautiful bride." He says, touching his forehead with mine.He leans back with a smile, his eyes expressing so much love for me, that it causes my heart to do weird flips.A laugh bubbles out of me, when he twirls me around and ends with a dip, bringing me back up and not giving me a chance to breathe, when he whispers those three beautiful words, that never fail to make me blush like crazy." I love you."My breath catches in my throat, when he kisses me behind my ear." I can't wait for us to be alone." He says." You know, I didn't think you'd last for these couple of months." I say teasingly." I'm glad I did, now I can rub it in your face that I'm a man of my word."" Careful Mr Cullen, or I might think I'm not
I either must be naive or stupid, for even giving him the go ahead, for him to even talk to her.She is a really attractive woman, I'll give her that, but she, showing up here announced and not to mention the fact that she found a way, to get information of where Reece is, now that does not sit well with me.I can't say I am sitting calmly right now, because I've been biting on my nails and glancing at the door, for the last 5 minutes or so. It hasn't been long since he stepped out to talk to her.It had not been a simple agreement, for them to talk, but Reece actually asked if I was okay with it, and I said yes.Oh gosh, I was totally lying.I could only think of him as I said yes, I wanted him to finally face her and not have to continue living with what ifs. I know that the present has been good on us so far, our family and our engagement, but it's only fair for him, to finally say his
" You look so happy." My mother says." Do I?"" Yes, and I love seeing this look on you. It's been a long time, since I've seen it." She says, touching my hair." I must look good then, huh?" I wiggle my brows, making her smile.My own smile wavers and it is replaced by a frown , where I worry about what I see." I think someone isn't as happy, as you say I do." I comment, gesturing to the sight of both my dad and Reece, who look too serious in conversation, from a distance." I've been talking to your dad, and from what I have observed, I can tell that he is opening up. He understands that Reece will always be in your life, because Ava is what bonds you two, together."" I hear you mom and thank you for talking to him." I say, glancing at her.She nods, with a small smile." I think if I hesitated for too long, we wouldn
I'm not one to watch people like a creep, but this morning, I find myself doing it with Reece. He's sleeping so soundly and looking so handsomely boyish, it's cute.He looks like someone with no heavy burdens on his shoulders, and the sight of him sleeping so soundly, tempts me to plant kisses on his face.I realize while watching him, that my heart is speaking. It's even making notes and claiming him as mine.The beautiful man before me is mine and that keeps my heart, skipping beats, in acknowledgment. As I watch him sleep, images of us being together even in the future, with years gone by, play beauty in a slide show. I see a future with this man and I see happiness, with my family.After all that we have been through, the past is just a dim light, that can't overthrow us, but the future looks ever bright and something to have strong faith in.I've had a taste of many circles, hurdles,
WEEKS LATER....' Custody, will be granted to the biological mother, Skylar Grey, as of today.' These are the words that have brought a smile onto my face, for the past weeks.Hearing it being declared and being made official, that Ava is supposed to be with me, as her mother. So much worry had gripped me, standing there and waiting for the verdict.I had worried that because I was in contact with an adoption agency, and that financially, I'm not in the level of the Cullen family, it would be used against me, and would be the main factor, which would make me lose the possibility of having custody of Ava, but no.Custody has been granted to me and she has been with me, ever since.With her being so young, the solution came from the discussion that happened, between me, Reece and Colton, one time, on the days approaching the day for court. The solu
" Thank you for bringing her over." I say to Jane." Anytime you need me to bring her to you, just call me."I nod." Hopefully, I won't need to do that anymore, soon." I say, looking at Ava.I'd asked Jane to bring Ava, so I could spend the whole afternoon with her. Two days have passed, since I last saw everyone, except Ava of course.At first, I'd asked Kelly to bring her over but then, I later considered asking Jane, since I didnt want to be the cause for a disturbance, at her workplace." How have you been holding up?" She asks me, after some minutes of silence between us, passes." Better than the last time you saw me."" That's good. At least, you've had some time to yourself, and some time to think."" Not enough, unfortunately. All that keeps coming back, is Ava, and the time I lost out with her."
I've been having a hard time, taking my eyes off of her. I know that we have spent time together, but it feels like the first time, now that I know who Ava is in my life.Oh gosh, she is my daughter.My own daughter, who I carried in my womb for nine months.With it being late, we decided to return back to Colton's home and I won't lie, and say that I didn't wish to take her back to my place immediately.I had to remind myself that this was not just about me, but Ava, and the changes, that would befall her as time goes.There is so much that will need for us to adjust to, and as difficult as some things may be, but Ava is the most important.I'm a mother, and as a mother, I have to put my daughter first.Gosh, my daughter, it hasn't sunk in totally. It's like a dream, that I wish to not wake up from.Being seated on the rug, against the so
" Do you ever think about the future?" He asks me." Sometimes, why?" I say.He doesn't answer for a few seconds as we are walking, until at some point, he does." I haven't been able to think of me alone in the future. It's not possible anymore." He glances to me and days, " I see you in it."My heart skips a beat, when I hear this coming from him." I think about you a lot."" Does this mean, there's a possibility of seeing me in your future?"I smile at him.Pulling his arm around my shoulders, I wrap my own arm around his middle and we continue on.When we finally reach my apartment complex, we turn to each other." Well, this is me." I say.He reaches out his hand, to gently push back my hair behind my ear." I want to take you away, for a while."" Y