BEATRICE:Josh. As my future husband? I tried to feel something on my chest, but was confused about what I was about to feel. What was there to ask when he was an ideal man? The very reason why my friends liked him for who he was. There was nothing negative that I could think about him. Just pure admiration. If Josh was the one whom I married, my marriage would not fail. He loved me already and if he kept on showering me with his love, there was no way that I would not fall for him. Women feel harder if they are treated nicely. Are you sure the same goes with you? the other part of my mind asked. Would you really fall for him? Why not? I could try if my heart is ready for it. “What about Josh?” I acted, playing innocent. “There is nothing extraordinary about him.”Josh was surprisingly funny. He looked like nothing of a billionaire I envisioned. I thought he was serious. Moody. Who thinks highly of himself, but no. He was quite the opposite. You were talking about your ex-hus
BEATRICE:Will I ever marry again? I was not in the hurry to do so. "You have to let me grow and let me act at my age. I can do this. I will approach you if everything becomes unbearable.""Alright. Fine. You could not make my worry go away, okay? I could not do that. You don't have someone to take care of you and Grayson. You know what? Whenever I laid on my bed, while my husband was softly snoring, I could not help but let my mind wander to you and Grayson. I don't want you to feel even more difficulty. You already suffered enough, Beatrice. I just want to ease your burden.""This is my problem, Christina.""Don't stop me from helping you. Everette would do the same if he is here. If he finds that you're always tight on cash, don't you think he will give you monthly assistance?""And then what? When Mom will find out about that, he would also be disowned? I would rather be with my son than drag my siblings to my problem. This is mine to carry.""It's not that of a problem. He has m
BEATRICE:It had been a while since Christina left, but my mind would often wander on what she had been telling me. Of pushing me towards Josh. Until now, it was still a question if he was worth it or not. But I know for a fact that he was always worth it. I was just not ready. Or maybe…I was looking for someone. Especially my ex-husband? No matter how much I denied it, the feelings were still there. Still…My sister-in-law always had a point. When it comes to love, she was wiser compared to me. How come she would not become wise when she had experienced a lot of breakups and had relationships already? Each of them taught her life lessons. But sometimes, for some of them, she did not learn anything at all. How could she not when she easily falls in love? She always thinks that she’s in love with someone she barely knows. When I think about Josh, despite talking to him earlier, he seemed like a walking green flag. When I recall my friends, I would hear them talking about him nicel
BEATRICE:“A chance for what?” I asked, rolling to my side and turned my back against my sleeping son. “What kind of chance are you asking, Drake? I could not think of anything because you do not deserve any of it.”How could he ask for it after everything he did to me? Did he forget everything? Did he forget how much I suffered in his hands? "I admit I am shameless for asking too much from you, Honey.”Honey. My heart thumped wildly against my ribcage. Honey was our endearment in the past. It was your endearment only. He never called you one. It was always Beatrice. But now…what was in his mind?“A chance to be with you and Grayson. I want you back. It is only now that I realize that you’re important to me. If you only give me a chance, I will never fail you.”I knew those were fake, just to make me warm up to him, but I could not deny the fact that my heart liked hearing those words as if I was craving for his consolations and comfort. Letting out a shivery sigh, I questioned, “
BEATRICE:My ex-husband was hiding something from me.Drake’s silence about my question was living proof of that. My sleepiness suddenly jumped out of the window. What was he hiding? A certain part of me wanted to know about it while the other side just wanted to let it go. It was not worth it, right? Why would I be interested in anything about him? "Your silence means yes," I declared. He did not say anything anymore. "Fine. Keep that secret to yourself and tomorrow, I will learn it. Just make sure that your secret is worth it, Drake.""Beatrice," he called in a pained voice. My heart broke at the pain in his voice, making me want to take back the words that caused everything about this. "I only want us to be complete. Is it wrong to ask about that? Is it wrong to desire that?"Why did it feel as if it was my fault if I was the reason why it wouldn't be happening? Back then, it was me who would always beg at him, but now, the table had been turned. Who would have thought that my m
BEATRICE:I held my breath as I waited for my son to respond. Please tell me that I was only hearing things. “Grayson? Who is your Daddy?” I asked once again, careful not to scare him off. "It's Mr. Drake, Mommy. I am now calling him Daddy. I like him so much, Mommy. He takes care of me when he is here. Please don't get mad at him, Mommy.""Did Mr. Drake tell you that you should call him Daddy?"He shook his head. "He did not say anything like that, Mommy. I called him Daddy myself. Are you angry with me, Mommy? Mr. Drake was not angry when I called him Daddy. I hope you are not angry, too."Am I angry? Actually, I was not. But…saying I was scared was the right term for that. No matter how much I stopped it, Grayson would still call him Dad, proof that he liked my ex-husband so much."Do you want him to be your Daddy?""Yes! Yes! Yes! Can you marry him again, Mommy? I want him to be my dad. It must be nice to be his son." My mouth went dry. "Who told you that?""No one, Mommy."
BEATRICE:I could feel my ex-husband’s happiness as we drove to our destination. He was whistling all the way despite the location of Sebastian’s resort. He was chatty, which I did not know he was capable of doing. When we were married, he was not usually like this. His words were limited and I had a difficult time making him talk. Grayson, Drake, and I were in the backseat. His driver was driving the car. I thought he never had one. Whenever he visited us, I never caught a glimpse of him. When we were still married, he was possessive of his cars. He did not want others to drive it since he was treating it as his baby, but now, it was a surprise that he was letting someone drive it for him. People changed, Beatrice.Or maybe he only wanted to sit beside us. Or maybe between me and Grayson. The place that we would be visiting was already far, but my son was enjoying the scenery and was always pointing everything to his Dad and Drake was patient in answering any of those queries. I
BEATRICE:I was not expecting a chat from Josh last night or this day. Or any day at all. If not for Christina and Drake, I would not be able to remember him. The two never failed to make me remember that man. I texted a few replies and hit the word send. Out of courtesy only. The man was nothing but good to me and I wanted to return the favor. [No worries. You can take all the time that you want.]A few seconds passed and I received a reply from him. He was not yet busy right now. Or maybe he was the type of man who would give time to anyone he loved? He is courting you. It's natural that he will give you his time. It would be better if he would focus first on his business than wasting his time on me. [Did you eat? I hope you didn’t forget to take your breakfast. Please don't be sick, Little One. That will surely make me sad.]How could I forget to eat when I went to the kitchen that morning, breakfast was already served. Courtesy of my ex-husband. He never gave me an effort li