BEATRICE:"You've been sighing a lot, Beatrice. Did Christina's statement bother you?" Drake asked as he drove me off towards the grocery store. It was only a couple of fifteen minutes away from my apartment. Sometimes, I would usually take a taxi, and sometimes, Christina would drop me off so that I could save time. Of course, everything happened behind my brother's back.I threw my gaze at the mirror and sighed again. "Did you know what she said?"He shook his head. "I did not. She whispered it to you. May I know what she whispered? It sure drags your energy away.""It does not concern you, Drake," I lied.How could I fall for this jerk again? I was not that foolish. Loving someone for the second time even knowing that he would leave me in the end? No, thank you. I would rather be alone with my son than be with a man who would only stress me out. "Sorry if I pry, Beatrice. It only bothered me that you've been affected that much."Clenching my fist, I stated, "This will be the last
BEATRICE:I chuckled. He was always like that. Always telling me that he missed me. Every time we saw each other. It had been what? A couple of years since we met. When Grayson was only a year old, I was able to have a part-time job in this grocery store for a week and then resigned after Grayson became sick."Oh, come on," I declared and engulfed him with a hug. He smelt of the burning sun, but I did not care about anything at all. Zack was the most responsible man I ever knew. We broke away and his gaze darted to the car where I came from. "You have a boyfriend?""Oh, no, no, no," I retorted automatically. "That's not my boyfriend at all. I don't have the time for that. My focus is on my child." He pulled out his hat from his head and used it as a fan. "You mean to say I still have the chance?" he said, grinning from ear to ear. This man was so open to saying he liked me, despite me having a child. He added that he accepted my child and would love him like how he loved me. I did
BEATRICE:My ex-husband heaved a long sigh, and said, "It was nothing, Beatrice. Forget it."Forget it? How could I do that? How could I forget something like that? Whatever he was acting was not something that I could just forget right now, since it made me hopeful that maybe…just maybe my ex-husband had an inkling of feelings for me. I was pathetic, right? Couldn’t I learn from my past? "You're getting annoying, you know that?" I asked. “No. Just popping into our lives after five years made you already irritated.”“I’m sorry, Beatrice.”“You should be. You’re making my life very stressful now.” Something flashed in his eyes in the mirror, which easily disappeared before I could decipher what it was. "But since we're already talking about that, let me remind you that you don't have anything to be jealous or angry about.""I'm not jealous," he muttered under his breath. "I mean why would I be jealous? I don't feel anything about that, Beatrice. You are free to do whatever you want
BEATRICE:Christina had been nudging me now and then while watching Grayson and Drake playing in the living room. The kitchen and living room were adjacent to each other and I could see what the two were up to. Baby Cassandra was still sleeping on the bed and Jamie had already told me that she would be arriving any minute from now. "What?" I asked, tasting the dish that I had cooked. It was garlic sesame chicken. Due to limited time, that was the only thing that I was able to cook, and some roasted potatoes and carrots. “You’ve been acting weird since we started cooking, Christina.”“You call me weird? If someone is acting weird like now, it would be you, Woman. How could this be okay with you?” she asked in disbelief. “How could you invite your ex-husband into your own apartment as if there is nothing wrong? As if you’re not mad at him?My brows furrowed while I wiped my hands in my apron.“Don’t think this is fine with me, because this is not.” But there was Grayson. My son was ha
BEATRICE:I cleared my throat when Drake gave me a hopeful look as if silently telling me to tell Grayson the truth.I was still thinking about that. Pulling my son into the chair, I said, “Why do you like him to be your dad?"Grayson kicked his legs under the table, the smile slowly spreading across his face. "Mister Drake is funny, Mommy. He always makes me smile. He plays with me, too. My classmates would ask if he was my dad because we have the same hair color."“Those were not enough to make him your Dad, okay?”"I play with you, too, Grayson. Am I not enough?""You're always busy, Mommy. Sometimes, you are tired and I did not want you to get tired."The smile vanished from my face. He could see that? I was trying my best to play with him and gave him a lot of time. I did not want him to feel alone. My chest tightened as my tears simmered with tears. I felt like a bad Mom."No, baby. Mommy will always have some time for you. If you want to play with me, you get to tell me, okay
BEATRICE:"We will continue this later, okay?" I didn't, trying to turn down my annoyance. I appreciated that she cared about me, but if she kept on dragging my ex-husband's name into every single conversation, which was already unacceptable. "I understand your worries and frustrations, but one thing will I assure you. I won't commit the same mistake I did five years ago," I assured her. I must guard my heart. If I didn't, I would be falling for the same wrong person all over again. Maybe it's time to divert your attention to another man. Why don't you try Zack?Zack. He was not that bad. And it seemed he was respectful. The only downside was that he was a widower. I had nothing against them, but what if he loved his wife still and was only using me to forget him? Then, is it only fair that you two would be using each other? You won't be feeling guilty, Beatrice. I had to think about that. I need someone to help me divert my mind since I like Drake's effect on my heart and my mi
BEATRICE:“You better listen to Jamie. You two have the same situation, but the way I see it, she seems wiser than you when it comes to men, Beatrice,” Christina declared. And now she was comparing me to Jamie even if we had different experiences and pasts? Jamie was much stronger than me since she was able to take care of her daughter without anyone's help. The same Jamie worked from home so that she could take care of Cassandra. While me? For five years, I was always relying on Christina. Financially. Emotionally. Without Christina, I did not know if I would be able to survive those five years alone. “Stop it, Christina. It’s no longer funny.”She faked a surprise look. “Why? Do you think that I am joking? I am not, Beatrice. I am only trying to protect you from future pain. I’m the one who cares about you. Not your asshole ex-husband.”Jamie hastily covered Cassandra’s ears so that the baby wouldn’t be able to hear that word.“Mind your language when you’re surrounded by children
BEATRICE:When I returned, Drake and Grayson seemed like they were waiting for me. The television was still on. It was only then that I realized that Christina was also sitting beside them. But a little farther away from Drake. Whenever my son was not watching, Christina would occasionally glare at the man. “Mommy! Did they leave, Mommy?”“Yes, Grayson.”“When will Cassy be back? I miss her already, Mommy. I did not have the chance to play with her.”“You will have the chance to play with her soon. When they returned.”“They will return right?”I would be happy if they returned since I badly needed cash right now. And speaking of money, I still haven't checked my account how much Jamie had wired. “Maybe…. I don't have any idea. It's Aunt Jamie's decision. Are you going now, Christina?”She folded her arms in front of her chest. “I should be going now. My husband is waiting for me. But…” she trailed off. There was hesitation in her eyes. It was because of Drake. She did not want to
BEATRICE:The next wedding, huh? Am I ready for that one? I did not think it would happen any moment from now. “You're overreacting, Everette.”He gave me a half shrug. “Am I? Could you blame me when I always put you two together. Your closeness is different from the past, something has changed between you two.” I heaved a sigh and stared at him for a long time. How could he insert anything about Drake when he already had a lot of things on his mind? “You're imagining it,” I denied. If I told him the truth, he would ask more questions. Despite having a lot on his plate, he was still asking about me.Besides, whatever we had right now, I wanted to keep it to ourselves first. Just to make sure. “Am I? Or you're only hiding it?”I averted my gaze and stared at Christina's sleeping form. After crying for so long, this was the first time seeing her face become lighter, as if she had released some of the weight she was carrying.“Why would I hide anything?”“Precisely, Beatrice. Why
BEATRICE:Doll…The words kept on ringing in my head.Doll.It brought happiness to my heart. You like hearing him say those words, right? Who would not?This was the first time Drake had called me into something else aside from my name. Doll. Why choose that endearment from the rest? Did he believe I was a doll? I was far from being a doll. There were already some additional fats all over my body. Has everything changed between us? Well, for starters, you two were already making out in the elevator and you almost gave yourself, alright? Second, you’re already envisioning a future with him. That is a good sign, Beatrice. “Old people are usually like that,” he said all of a sudden.”My heart jumped at the sound of his deep voice.“Like what, actually?” What was our topic once again? I already forgot since I was focused on him. I already forgot about the old woman. “Cranky. My grandmother is usually like that. Don’t let her words affect you. We did nothing wrong.”Making out in the
BEATRICE:Why should I react to Sarah's statement when it was the truth? My ex-husband had married me because I was rich. He could use our family’s influence. Wasn’t we the reason why the investors kept on trusting him? That was the reason why. “Drake. All the women whom you had relationships with were wealthy and influential. You use us to your advantage so it will never be a surprise if…” she trailed off. Sarah. She was an example of an annoying bitch. She minds the other’s business.But what she said was true, right? You were married to each other. He agreed because the Watson family was wealthy. Most of you were already billionaires. And some zillionaires even. That was one of the reasons why your mom was confident to marry you off to someone else because no one would be able to say no.Men and women practically wanted to be with us because of what we could offer. Prestige. Power. Money. Anything that you could name."Watch your mouth, Sarah," Drake growled. "I respected you a
BEATRICE:Drake and Sarah had a past. I should have known. The woman would not be acting like this if the two did not have any relationship at all. That was why she was acting as if he owned Drake. I wondered what kind of relationship they had?Images of the two of them in bed flashed inside my mind. Damn it. It was all in the past, yet why could I not move on? Why did I feel irritated towards the woman? Drake smiled nervously, while I pretended to not care at all. “I know if, Drake. There's no need to hide.”I was not envious or anything like that, okay? I don't have to react because that was the truth. "It's all in the past, Sarah.""That's why I am reminding you about it. I want the world to know that my ex-boyfriend in the past is now a billionaire. Nah. If only I was not stupid before, I should have not let you go. I was stupid and foolish."I folded my arms in front of my chest, while debating if I would walk away or not.Listening to ex-lovers was not really my forte.
BEATRICE:Yeah. I should not answer it, not because Drake said I should not. But because I wanted it. I needed to set things up with him.Josh…I needed him to be removed from my life. But could I face him right now? The thought of seeing him right now brought shivers down my spine. He murdered his own wife? And he lied with a straight face. There should never be hesitations again. “You think he is that bad?”I said no hesitations, alright? You need to make up your mind this instant!“He is the worst, Beatrice. He is the most dangerous person that you would encounter.” How sure was he, actually? Very sure that he asked someone to tail your suitor.“There is nothing to argue about that. I am totally happy that I removed him from your life. Not because he is my competitor, but because he is dangerous. You understand me, right?”Did I? Back in the past, I was stubborn. I was not listening to him. I did not listen to any of his words, thinking it was because he was jealous. But it was
BEATRICE:"YOU...You believe me now?" Drake asked, in disbelief while staring at me with wide eyes. “Do you believe that all I wanted from you is to keep you safe, Beatrice?”This man was willing to do the extra mile just to keep me safe. He was willing to splurge all his money in order to protect me. And how many times did I ever see how much he was willing to do for me? I saw everything. What if everything was because of Grayson? What if you're just the excess baggage and he was only forced to protect you because he did not want Grayson to be motherless?He said he loved me. I would like to start with that. I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. As of the moment. "Yes. I believe you now. But I hope you will only tell me the truth from now on."His eyes smiled. He looked so dashing. If what he claimed that he loved me was true, why did it have to be me? There were so many beautiful women surrounding him.Why not? You were the mother of his son.I did not want to be conside
BEATRICE:“Are you okay, Beatrice?” Drake asked as I sat in the passenger seat. I was about to sit in the back seat, but he told me that I should sit beside him so that he would not sleep while he was driving. Which I did. To stop him from saying anything anymore. I opened the door and stepped into the car. The first thing that I smelt was his expensive phone. Until now, everything that was said, did not fully sink into my mind. I meant….Josh? That man whom I thought would be the best future husband? That man who never said anything bad against me? How could I forget about him? This kind of pain was difficult to remove. It felt as if my boyfriend had broken up with me.I just wanted to be at peace. With his eyes on the road while he kept on glancing at me, he asked for the second, “Are you okay, Beatrice? You can tell me everything that is running in your mind right now. You're not alone, okay? I'm just here.” I scoffed and threw my head on the window. “Do I look like I am okay?
BEATRICE:My breathing labored while my mind internalized what Drake had said. Josh? The one whom I started to get my trust, just fooled me? Why? What could he get from it?Trust?But after what he did, I did not think he would be able to make me trust him again. You are not yet sure, Beatrice. You still wanted to learn the truth, right? “Answer me!” I demanded.My head felt like it was going to spin as I waited for Josh to explain his side. Each passing moment felt like hell. “Little One…”When my strength left me, I leaned heavily on the car.What else will be the cause of my death again?I laughed at the irony of the situation. The man whom I kept on defending from my ex-husband was the same person who wanted to make a fool out of me? Did he think I was that foolish?“What did you say, Drake? Maybe you need to say it again since Josh seemed not to hear your previous statement.”Drake heaved a long sigh. “I only found it yesterday. This man. He was the one who paid the burgl
BEATRICE:Drake fell silent at my statement. "Beatrice…"Staring at the sky, the stars had slowly twinkled right at us. It was so beautiful, and I wished I could stare at them and enjoy them. Not something like this. Not when I was facing some kind of problems. It's because of the men you allowed to enter your life. What if you keep on closing your doors, Beatrice? Do you believe you will still have some problems like now? Heaving a long sigh, I said, "Why are you here again? I did not tell you to fetch me or something like that," I muttered under my breath. It was better to change the topic than dwell on the topic about Josh. It will only create conflict between us.He cleared his throat, and I could see that he was thankful too that I changed the topic. Damn it. Using the back part of my palm, I wiped the imaginary sweat on my forehead. What am I doing, actually? I was what? Arguing in the parking lot while others could witness us? Besides, Drake was not some ordinary person