My wolf whined in my head, desperate to relay something to me, but unable to articulate what it actually was.
My brain hurt, trying to keep my haughty glare on Duke and focus on why my poor wolf was crying so hard. I could picture her in my mind clearly, scratching and pawing at her face in a desperate attempt to remove whatever it was that was causing her such anguish. It was all I could do not to wince as her pain became my pain.
I hated that we were not as connected as we should have been, that I had suppressed her for so many years. I wanted desperately to comfort her but I knew that she would understand that I had to deal with Duke first. It had been too long. I was unprepared for the force of him, the way his scent slammed into me, caressing all my senses. Damn him!
"Close your mouth, Alpha" I muttered sarcastically, my voice dripping with disdain. "You're acting as though you weren't expecting me, despite having spent the past week begging and pleading with me to return back to this hell hole"
He recovered quickly, I'll give him that. As soon as my words were uttered, his mouth snapped shut, his back straightened and a loud, threatening growl vibrated around the room - a clear warning that I was already pushing my luck.
Good.
He deserved nothing from me. Not after what he did. He was lucky that all he was dealing with was my bad temper and mean spirited attitude. Goddess knew that innocent wolves had suffered far worse from me as I spent years healing.
"Oh, I expected you, Grace. I could smell you the minute you hit the five-mile border. I forget sometimes that you don't know what it's like to have the superior senses. Speaking of which, how is your wolf?" He grinned nastily.
I simply smiled, my voice as sweet as honey. "Oh you know, same old same old, we can't all be blessed with the powers of the great and powerful Alpha Duke, can we? Such is life" I shrugged, walking further into the room, making a big display of sashaying my hips as I walked over to the small sofa. I watched him watch me, his eyes unable to look anywhere else but at my legs that I deliberately put on display for him.
Oh, he really had no idea of what I knew. If he would just look at me, really look at me, for once in his life, he would see all the telltale signs that I was different. No human could get this kind of skin, flawless and golden, there wasn't a blemish on me. I had been told many times by members of my new pack that ever since I accepted my wolf and she, in turn, accepted me, I had seemed to glow from the inside out, the air around me humming with the powers I possessed.
He may have been able to smell me at the border, but I was in front of him now and he couldn't even scent the aroma of a wolf ready to burst free and that's the way I planned on keeping it.
Myself, on the other hand, oh I was aware and I was revelling in the knowledge that I was still inside him somewhere, still capable of turning his life upside down. I had heard his breath hitch when I walked in the room. I witnessed his eyes dilate as they roamed up and down my body, his blood pounding through his veins as his heart thundered in his chest.
"I see you've still got the same knack for making cheap remarks and hitting your enemy where it hurts," I said, looking up at him through my long lashes, batting them innocently.
"Was it a cheap remark?" he replied, his composure returning as he sat opposite me, leaning forward until his elbows were rested on his knees. "or just the truth that you're still unable to handle?"
Kill him My wolf roared through her pain. All in good time, I promise. "I have no disillusion about myself." I shrugged again, "you always did believe the worst of me though, so it's hardly surprising you still think I'm that 15-year-old girl who's wolf had abandoned her."
"Why wouldn't she? Everyone else in your life abandoned you - with good reason, might I add. Its no wonder she didn't want to stick around a moment longer than she needed to."
Let me out! Don't react Grace, don't let him know that his words still have the power to cut you like a knife. Don't let him know that he still has a hold on you! You're over this, you are!
"Maybe everyone else in my life was unable to see my worth - you certainly seemed taken at one point"
"I was Alpha in training, it was my duty to take care of those who were a danger to the pack. You knew how much you were lowering the standards of every other member here"
Grace... Don't let him do this! Let me out, I will show him just how much of a danger we can be! I ignored her, feeling my anger begin to build. That is not what happened and he knew it. "Duke, please, we both know that's not what happened. Or... Maybe it is. Maybe you're in the habit of seducing 15-year-olds? Is that how you get them to improve? Dangle the ultimate golden carrot in front of their face to give them the push they needed?" I spat at him, my body tensing.
He glared at me, his nostrils flaring and I knew at that moment I had hit a nerve. The air around us began to crackle, seeming as though it was ready to spark into flames with the tiniest movement either of us made.
"I hardly seduced you, Grace. You threw yourself at me, the same way you threw yourself at..."
I was on my feet in seconds, glaring down at him with such venom and hatred his eyes blazed with surprise. "Don't" I hissed, "don't you fucking dare"
I could feel the skin on my face begin to tingle, the begins of the change causing bumps to spring to life as my bones realigned. My canines elongated and my eyes burned as red as blood.
Give in to me, Grace. We can end this now. We can get justice for the innocence that was stolen from you! No one will ever doubt what we are capable of again!
No! I internally roared back at my wolf. Not like this. I would clear my name first and then rip the heart clean out of Duke's chest. To kill him now would look like an omission of guilt. We had a plan, my wolf and I, now was not the time to forget it.
I braced my hand against my forehead as I closed my eyes, pleading with my wolf to back off for the time being. She would get her chance.
I waited until the last tingle left my skin before I turned back round to the seat I had vacated seconds earlier. All in all, my outburst hadn't been more than a few seconds long, but it was enough to have revealed more than I had ever wanted to so soon. Duke looked at me with suspicion, a light beginning to spring behind his eyes.
Grace... my wolf panted when Duke stood up and slowly walked towards us. Grace, MOVE! She screeched, seeming almost frantic.
Duke bent low, grabbing my chin in his hands as he looked deep into my eyes. "Submit" he demanded, his tone low and cold. It sent shivers down my spine as the authority hit me. No...
Grace, I'm sorry she panted, rolling over, removing all traces of her dominance from my body.
I knew now why she had been afraid to let him get closer, why she had panicked at his approach. Mate, she purred, offering herself to the wolf that had been chosen for her by the Moon Goddess herself.
This was not part of the plan!
Duke's POV
"That's better" I smirked, feeling her wolf submit to me almost immediately. "I had no idea she was so powerful or that she existed at all... interesting development" I murmured as Grace ripped her jaw out of my grasp, twisting her head to the side so fiercely it was a wonder she didn't hurt herself. "Clearly not powerful enough though. No more or less than I was expecting. A man comes along and she's on her back - I guess you two are more alike than I thought! Tell me, did she appear before or after you seduced every male in this pack or did she..."
My head snapped back as Grace's fist connected with my nose. I had been expecting a dramatic slap, I hadn't expected a punch to the nose. I could barely hear the words she spat at me over the loud crack that was still ringing in my ears. "You have no idea what you're talking about! You have no idea about me or my wold or the life we live! Ugh! Why am I not surprised that you are still the nasty, spiteful, suspicious bastard you were back then?! I will never submit to you, Duke. You may have my wolf under control, but she does not, will not and has never owned me. Not for a second. We live harmoniously together but ultimately, decisions on our life are mine to make and mine alone."
"Grace..." I began, only to be interrupted as the heal of her palm connected with my nose, slamming upwards. Bloody spurted in all directions as I tried to cover the stem with my hands.
"No!" She screamed, "I won't let you do this to me! Fuck you!" her knee came up and sure enough, she hit her target, causing me to double over as my dick began to throb and my balls felt as though they had been shot up my body. Had I not been so surprised I would have retaliated. As it was, I was unprepared for her arm as it karate chopped across my back, sending me to the floor in a heap that was unacceptable for an Alpha of my standing before she flew out of the door and back out of my life.
I was going to get myself killed. I could barely see what was in front of me as the tears streamed down my face but I couldn’t afford to stop the car and take a break. I had to get out of here!Fuck Duke and fuck the mating bond. I had offered myself to him so many years ago and it hadn’t been good enough for him then. I refused to be accepted by him because of some feeling that a Goddess I had never met had forced upon me.I tried not to think of that night. I tried not to let the memories wash over me but it was no good. The floodgates were open and they rushed to the front of my mind like a tsunami, allowing me to relive every painful, heartwrenching moment in stunning clarity. Of course I had never forgotten a moment of it...****************************5 years earlierGrace's POVI was hiding in the kitchens again, the only place I seemed to be able to find refuge lately. I wanted desperately to go to Duke, as I had so many
I stayed sat on the edge of my bed, chewing on my bottom lip as all my doubts and anxieties came to the forefront of my mind - do I have the courage to see this through? What if Duke wakes up? Is there a possibility that my parents are going to catch me?It was only when I tasted blood in my mouth that I jumped up, heading straight for the door and pressing my ear against it, straining to hear any signs of life that would indicate my parents were still awake. When I was met with the sweet sound of silence, I took a deep breath and ripped the door open, marching straight to the guest room before I had the chance to lose my nerve.Without knocking, I pushed open the door, slipping inside silently like a thief in the night and closing it softly behind me. I took a moment, resting my back against the wood as I took in the sight in front of meDuke was laid on his stomach, his arm wrapped around the pillow above him. The sheets had slipped down and were tangled aroun
You need to start talking, Grace, and do it fucking quickly before I lose what little patience I have left” I growled, shoving her hand away from me.I thought I had been dreaming when I first felt the soft body press against mine, it was only when my wolf roared at me over and over that I needed to wake up that I tuned into my senses and inhaled the scent of the last person who should be climbing into my bed in the middle of the nightAs soon as my eyes had opened and bored into hers, I saw the sheer terror, the rapid pulse throbbing at the base of her neck. She knew she shouldn’t be here, so why the fuck had she cuddled close to me, wearing nothing but underwear that was far too old for her? Where had she even got that lacy piece of nothing? I hadn’t looked for more than a second but it was enough.“Grace...” all she could do was open and close her mouth as she struggled to find the words. “I need you to tell me what the fuc
I stood in front of the mirror, staring at my body that was still tingling from being so close to Duke and trying to see myself through his eyes, to see what it was he saw me. Goddess knew I couldn't see a thing about myself that would appeal to any male, let alone one who was as chiselled and hard as Duke.I suppose my skin was quite creamy. I ran the back of my fingers along my ribcage and over to the top of my lace panties. It felt quite soft. Is this what Duke felt when I pressed myself against him?I brought my hands up and cupped my tits, feeling an unfamiliar but altogether appealing sensation shoot through me. My hands could barely hold them, they were definitely more than enough for Duke's huge palms.I had heard the girls giggling at school in so many conversations that I had never been invited to join. Some of them had said that their boyfriends had placed their face against their chest, almost smothering themselves in their girlfriend's tits. Would D
I had to pull over as the memories overwhelmed me. It was all I could do to catch my breath, remembering all the techniques I had learned over the years to slow down my breathing and concentrate on letting go of the anger and resentment.It wasn’t easy though. All I could think about was the way that I had been betrayed, the way that I had felt when Duke had looked at me with such disgust, anger and worst of all, disappointment.I had pinned so many of my hopes on him, had seen him as a lifeline, a way out of a shitty household that had wished nothing but pain and misery on me and in my darkest hour, Duke had abandoned me, leaving me as a shell of my former myself.I had left that night, not thinking about what I was throwing into a suitcase, I just grabbed the things that were closest and I walked out. No one tried to stop me. Noone came looking for me. I think that’s what hurt the most.I had genuinely thought that when the anger died down a
Duke grabbed hold of my ass, pulling me tight against him, letting me know exactly what effect I had on him and that this time, unlike all those years ago, he wasn’t going to hold back. As he began to walk backwards, I wrapped my arms around his neck, caught up in the moment, unable to make sense of what was happening. All I knew was that I didn't want this to stop. After all this time, I needed more. So much more"What are you waiting for?" I whispered against his lips, running my tongue along them and placing kisses along his jaw, loving the way his stubble felt so rough under my mouth.He backed me up some more until I felt the cool wall against my back. "You should know better than to play with the big, bad wolf, Grace" he teased, his hands slipping under my top, softly stroking against my stomach as they made their way further up my body.My head dropped back, thrusting my chest forward in delight, desperate to feel his hands on me"You don't s
I sensed the change in Grace the minute I saw her enter the kitchen. Gone was the playful look in her eye that had been so full of lust and wonder at what we had just done and what remained was so cold and full of ice that it was almost like a slap in the face. She had shut down on me, closed the shutters so that I couldn't enter any further.I don't know why, but it pissed me off. I had thought we had been making progress, I had felt the way her wolf had been reaching out to mine the entire time and yet she had slammed the door shut for any further progress.A feeling of shame and guilt washed over me as soon as I thought that. I was being unfair. I had also felt the way she had reacted to me. The sheer amazement and innocence that revealed far more than any of her words could have done. It didn't take a genius to work out that she hadn't been touched like that before. I didn't know whether or not she was a virgin or just had a string of bad lovers but something told
Alone in this house, I had the chance to reflect. I had been a prized bitch to Duke. He hadn’t deserved what I had screamed at him and I hadn’t done myself any favours.I looked at the sofa and saw the telltale signs that it had been used as a bed - the way the cushions had been propped up against the arm, the dint in the middle from the body that was too large to comfortably fit on there. It seemed Duke wasn’t able to face the upstairs bedrooms where so much had happened either.It left me with no choice. I couldn’t stay in my room, not after what came to mind earlier so it left me with one other choice. I would stay in the guest room where it had all began, where the memories were happier, if not just as painful.As soon as I climbed into the soft bed, the memories washed over me, as I knew they would. This time I welcomed them, my own personal punishment. A reminder to myself of why this would never have worked.****************
was blessed.The Goddess had looked down on me and finally righted all that was wrong in my life.Duke and I had spent so many years together, raising our pack of "misfits" and doing all that we could to ensure that they had the most stable, loving pack to grow up in. Together, we were reshaping their future, rerouting their path so they were no longer outcasts, delinquents, destined to repeat the mistakes of so many before them.With our help, they now had prospects, ambitions, a dream to reach for in this scary, confusing world.Thousands of wolves had passed through our packs. A lot of them were angry and borderline feral, some were timid, thrown out of their previous packs for being weak. By the time they left us - if they left us - they were strong, confident, trained to the best of their abilities.It hadn't taken Duke a long time to come to terms with the fact that he would never be a father - after all, neither of us had god examples to lea
Well?” I demanded, growing impatient with her lack of response. I loved her, I would always love her, but she was as stubborn as they came. Worse than that, she was projecting her anger on to me, even though I didn’t deserve it. I understood why... there was no one left for her to be angry at. She had all this pent up rage and hatred, things she had suppressed for years, and now when she was finally ready to begin the healing process, there was no one left for her to confront. Her demons needed to be sated, and I was the only connection to the past she had left. Which is why I was showing her more patience than I perhaps should do. But I wouldn’t accept her pushing me away. “Grace... I know you have demons, and I know that the past still eats away at you. But your baggage is my baggage. Why can’t we deal with these things together? I feel like you’ve tried to compartmentalize everything in your head, and you’ve come to the decision tha
I decided to stay.I loved Duke, but I couldn't imagine a life with him. There was too much under the bridge, too much heartache for him to ever be able to fix me completely.And it wasn't his job to fix me.I had to work on myself before I could be part of a couple - I'm not quite sure that's exactly what Alpha Theo meant when we spoke, but it was the lesson that spoke to me.The time Duke and I had spent apart so far hadn't been enough. I needed more.I retreated to my room and went back to my old friend - exercise. It wasn't what I had planned, but it brought me comfort. It helped me to hide from myself.So that's where I was when there was a knock at the door, and Alpha Theo poked his head round."You have a visitor, Grace. Remember what I said to you earlier, about hiding you from things you weren't ready for? Maybe that wasn't my decision to make. Your mate is here, and though I'm not trying to sway your decision in any way, he
Dad? What the fuck are you doing?” I muttered the minute I shifted back into my human form.He followed suit, glaring at me as pushed himself to his feet. “Stopping you from making the biggest mistake of your life. That girl is trouble. Don’t let her drag you down too.”“You’re really going to say that to me, after all that you’ve done to her?”“Me? I haven’t done a fucking thing to her.”“Give it a rest. I’ve read the letter that Thomas left.”“What letter?”“You can play innocent with me, that’s absolutely fine. But I know what letter, and you damn sure know what letter.”“It can’t be the letter I think it is, because I possess the only copy, and I saw to it that no other person would read it.”“You would do well to remember that you’re not the only cunning and manipulative person in
I ran, running faster than I could ever remember running before.I had one opportunity to make this right, there was no more room for error. Even I knew that Grace was fast reaching the end of her tether, she would not accept any more fuck-ups from me.I was fast approaching the edge of the pack borders, almost feeling the weight lifting off my shoulders as I escaped this place. I had thought the heavy feeling I got every time I came home was because of my responsibilities, the never-ending jobs and commitments. But it wasn’t.It was the burden of my family, the shame of the past. I had known there were secrets in this pack, but I hadn’t realised just how evil the motivations were from those I had looked up to, those I had tried to mould myself after.Just as my front paws went to cross over the threshold, just as the precious freedom was almost mine, I was attacked from behind, my body hurtling across the ground as the wolf threw themselves o
So Helen came back, with her tail firmly tucked between her legs, and she took me as her mate to ensure that she was still in a position of power. From what she told me, Fang had promised that if her baby was a boy, they would overthrow Grey, challenging him to position of Alpha and raise their baby as the future heir. It would be easy, they would have the support of the pack, Fang told her. They were already questioning just how long Grey could continue to rule without someone to ensure his place, and the security of the pack’s future and they would welcome his brother with open arms, it kept it within the same family.How true that it, I couldn’t say. All I know from that moment on, is that Helen refused to speak of Fang. If her story is to be believed, both Fang and Grey threatened her. They warned her that if she didn’t leave immediately, they would rip the baby from her stomach and feed it to the dogs, and then she would be pinned down in the forest, he
Yes. Helen and I were not choice mates. She found her mate in Fang, and as I’m sure you can imagine, neither were interested in denying the bond that they had found. All Fang asked was that Helen hold off finalising the mating until she had met his brother – Alpha Grey.Helen didn’t tell me much about their time before she went to meet Grey, but I do know that they spent all their time together and as a consequence, by the time she went to Fang’s pack, she was already pregnant with Grace.I can imagine your reaction to this, Duke, finding out in such a non-chalant way that Grace is not my child. Don’t show my any sympathy, I was aware from the very beginning that Grace did not belong to me – Helen never tried to hide it. She accepted me as her choice mate for many reasons, but I do like to think that some motherly instinct kicked in and told her that her child would be better raised with a father – especially in our world. We a
Alpha DukeFirst of all, let me start off by saying that I am forever grateful for the way you have handled my last few weeks in this pack. I’m not stupid, I know the end is near, but it doesn’t make it any easier to accept – especially as I know the clock is against me and I don’t want to take these secrets to my grave. Call me selfish, but I would rather face the Moon Goddess with a clear conscience before she makes her judgement. But more on that in a moment.I’ve instructed the pack doctor to write this letter for me, word for word as I speak it. You can confirm this with them, but make sure you read the entire thing. They won’t allow you to confront them, they will always be bound by doctor/patient confidentiality, even against an Alpha’s orders. I couldn’t take the risk that you would somehow find this letter early and demand answers. I may have been your father’s most powerful Beta, but I was always a coward
Fantastic news about Khaos and Violet, isn’t it?”“Huh?” I asked, my head shooting up to look at Duke. I had been sat on the edge of the bed all afternoon, waiting for him to come looking for me. We needed to talk.“Khaos and Violet? Having a baby? Isn’t it amazing? He’ll be a fantastic dad.”“Right. Duke—” I tried, my eyes following him around the room as he absentmindedly undressed, walking from one end to the other.“I can tell you don’t believe me, but trust me. Behind that hard exterior is a heart of gold. He’ll do anything for his children.”“I’m sure he will. Listen –”“It got me thinking… Kids, matings… It all seems so final, doesn’t it? It should be end game. It should be happily ever after. I know them two have a lot to work out, but I really believe they can make it.”“End g