CHAPTER 62 TIME TO SHIFTTEDDY'S P.O.VThe next week flew by. I hadn't left Elias or my room since returning. I was having some setbacks from training due to having some panic attacks when I got near people.I had a routine down with Elias that we now did daily. I had just finished my hands on. I was now allowed to try and feed him two times a day, which was a progress. He still doesn't have the sucking part down without choking so we are taking baby steps. If he chokes while breast feeding, then he finishes his meal with the tube feedings. That way we know he is getting enough food during the feedings. I had just finished up when the dayshift nurse arrived to give him his daily medicine. He was currently taking probiotics to help his immune system. She would also do his vitals and draw more blood for testing to make sure his levels are still doing well. Once she was done, we got him settled back in the incubator, which was hardly even doing the temperature control since he has manage
CHAPTER 63 FIRST SHIFTTEDDY'S P.O.VI felt as my bones began to reshape, the pain was almost as worse as being cut open with no medicine. I couldn't begin to describe what it felt like other than breaking and rebreaking every bone in your body all at once. Which if you'd never broken a bone before you'd have no clue of what that form of pain felt like.I've had my arm pulled out of socket many times. But this pain, this was the worst type of pain one could go through at once.My screams were echoing in the woods as Gemma pushed forward. What felt like hour’s was only moments. Before I knew it my legs were hitting the ground. I looked down realizing it wasn't my feet, but rather fury paws.I did it, I fucking did it! I thought to myself in excitement.'What do you look like!?' I asked Gemma impatiently. However, she didn't respond.It was strange being in wolf form. Everything was more enhanced. Even more than it was in my human form. The flowers seemed more colorful, the smell of the
CHAPTER 64 DILEMMASFENRIS'S P.O.VI felt like I was making good progress with Teddy. I felt our bond strengthen after our wolves bonded that night. I wonder if she had felt it to or if it was all in my head. However, something changed after that night. She requested minimal training sessions with me, stating she wanted to get all she can in with Tanner before taking me on. Every time I had entered a room where she was, she would excuse herself, coming up with some excuse every time. I knew winning her over wouldn't come easy, but I wasn't sure how I was supposed to gain her trust to be able to get her back if she wouldn't even be in the same area as me.I sat at my desk staring at the paperwork that had been piling up with things I had been neglecting. The meeting with Kirk's Beta hadn't gone as I was expecting so Lamar was still running the pack temporarily. Luckily, he was born with Beta linage so he could run it temporarily until I could find a replacement. However, going through
CHAPTER 65 TIME TO RETURN HOMETEDDY'S P.O.VI wasn't thrilled about spending that kind of alone time with Fenris, but I knew that one day I had to return. Not out of respect for Darion or my father, but because I needed this for myself. I needed this so that I could finally let go of the girl I used to be.I had been going to therapy since the Liam incident. After that night so much trauma resurfaced. Trauma I couldn't handle on my own, so in order to be the best mom I could be, I decided it was best if I reached out for confidential help. One of the objectives that I was given in order to blossom as a person was to let go of the past so that I could build a better future. As much as I hate to return to that awful place, it was my opportunity to confront them all for how they treated me. It was also supposed to help me let it go so I could move on. Let's just hope my therapist was right, hopefully this wasn't a huge mistake.Apunch to my gut brought me instantly out of my thoughts."
CHAPTER 66 NEW PLANFENRIS'S P.O.VI slammed the office door, the sight sending anger coursing through my body. How could I have been so stupid? I thought allowing her to train with Tanner would benefit her. Instead, it was making them closer each day they spent together.'If he lays a hand on my mate other than training, I will rip his heart out where he stands and EAT IT!' Kingston roared in my mind.His anger only added to my own.'Tomorrow, we leave for four days. In those four days we must get her to fall for us.''No mutt, no problem.' Kingston replied.Except there was a problem. No matter what I did, I couldn't get her to look at me the way she just was looking at Tanner. I couldn't hear what they were saying but the look in her eyes told me that she cared for him. More than I thought. 'What if she is falling for him? What do we do then?' I asked my wolf, knowing he wouldn't have the right answers. He was an animal after all, and they only acted on pure instinct.'Kill him.'
CHAPTER 67 ROAD-TRIPTEDDY'S P.O.VFenris had everything already packed in the car aside from some bags. He was feeding Elias, which was also already ready to go when I woke up. It left me speechless. He really was excited for this trip, which made me more nervous.'Mate is a gentleman.' Gemma said as I got into the passenger seat.'Well, you weren't here when he wasn't so gentle with me.' I said before shutting down her sappiness.Last thing I needed was my wolf altering my brain with her thoughts. I foolishly allowed her to truly bond with her mate, not thinking of the outcome. Now all she talks about is mate this, mate that. It wears me down most days’truth be told. When I finally think I've broken free of the constant thoughts of Fenris, Gemma goes and pipes up about something to do with him. Recreating the never-ending cycle of consuming thoughts about him.It's not her fault, she is an animal, and her natural instinct is to want her mate. But she doesn't know what it feels like
CHAPTER 68 RED BLOOD PACKTEDDY'S P.O.VWe stopped a few more times before finally passing the 'Welcome to Texas' sign. The car ride hadn't been as miserable as I had expected. We managed to make small talk. He was opening up about his work and the dilemmas he was facing with it. He was also asking for my unbiased opinions. Which was nothing like before when he basically told me that my role was finances and party planning. We talked about the possible outcomes of his situations and how he could get around any issues. Luckily, he didn't bring up chasing me back the rest of the ride. Which made me relieved but also a little sad. I kind of liked being showered with his verbal affection. But I also knew that desiring that kind of attention was a dangerous game."We are almost there." Fenris said as the GPS told him to merge onto a dirt road.The familiar dirt road I never longed to see again as I left this place."Great." I answered sarcastically. I wasn't sure he picked up on the sarcas
CHAPTER 69 MEMORIESFENRIS'S P.O.VOnce alone Teddy let out a relieved sigh."I guess she isn't on your favorites list." I said, stating the obvious."If one existed, she would be somewhere at the bottom." Teddy stated as she flopped down on the bed.I got Elias out of the car seat, getting him changed while she let out another exasperated sigh."I thought this would be easier. But seeing her brought up unwanted feelings. I don't even know what to expect of seeing my actual brothers and father or even my wicked stepsister." She said as she leaned up on her arms to look at me."What they did to you won't get any easier to deal with, let alone confronting those feelings head on. It takes courage to do that.""Not to them." She stated as she sat all the way up. Elias began to fuss right on que after getting changed."I guess it's your turn now." I stated as I handed a very hungry baby over to Teddy.She undid her shirt again as she pulled her breast out. This time it didn't take me off